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Day 29 – Doing something sweet
The warm sunrays of summer fell over the bed, in which both Gon and Hisoka were laid lazily, soft cloths over his bodies and ice-cream pots on their hands. The sweetness of the desert was good, but the best thing was the coldness counteracting the abrasive heat of the summer. Hisoka was resting on his left side, with his left arm over the pillow, holding his head and his other arm over his body, moving lazily from time to time in order to get more ice-cream. Gon was resting on his abdomen, elbows supporting his torso in a pose that made him look somewhat like a kitten.
They had been in silence for some long time, just eating ice-cream and enjoying the silent company of the other, so when Hisoka finally spoke, Gon jumped a bit, slightly startled by the sudden words.
- What do you like about me?~ - The red haired asked, his golden eyes showing that he wasn't joking
- What? Mmm, I don't know- The child replied promptly- Lots of things
- Lots of things? ~ - Hisoka took a big spoon of ice-cream, and started licking it really slowly- Like what?
Gon seemed troubled, looking up and then down again, eating spoon after spoon of ice-cream without getting to a conclusive response. Hisoka narrowed his eyes a bit, feeling the melting ice-cream that dripping from his spoon, fell to his fingers.
- I can't put it into words…- The boy finally surrendered- Why do you ask that all of the sudden?
- I was just wondering…~ - Hisoka said vaguely in a bored tone of voice, leaning forward his own hand to lick the ice-cream
- Wondering?- Gon looked at him curious
- Yes…- Hisoka answered with a fake smile
- So… what do you like about me?- Gon asked back, thinking of that question as some kind of game
- Well, lots of things~ - The older joked back with a playful grin, receiving an adorable pout as reply to his joke- I like that kind of face for example~
And saying that he put the tip of his spoon over Gon's nose, staining it with cold ice-cream. The child trembled a bit with the sudden change of temperature and moved back, lifting his hands in an attempt to clean his nose, but the man didn't let him. Even before he could notice, the face of the red haired was already next to him, and the warm tongue was licking clean the stain of ice-cream… Flustering to the contact, Gon was left speechless…
- And that kind of face too~ - The man laughed a bit, kissing the little cheek with a soft smile, different from the other smiles he had done that afternoon. A real smile
- I like that…- Gon said when he saw that expression- I like when you don't fake your smiles… Because that means you are happy being with me…
- You can really say some embarrassing things sometimes~ - Hisoka mocked the words of the child, making him frown again- But I like that too
- W-well, I don't hate… your jokes- He lied a bit
- And I don't hate how sincere you are~ - Hisoka said placing his warm hand over Gon's back, caressing him softly- And I really like the feeling of your skin~
- I like… the warmth of your hands…- Gon continued looking deeply into his lover's eyes… those golden orbs that were always so superficial, so filled with lies, and that only with him showed the profundity of their reality- And the tone of your eyes…
- I like the color of your eyes too, so pure- The red haired smiled back, touching the child's nose with the tip of his own- And the traits of your face, are really cute too
- You… are really attractive too- Gon answered to the compliment he had received and added- Your hair… I like it… and you are strong too…
- Do you like my strength?- Hisoka asked back, laying a soft kiss over the small lips of the child
- That was the reason why I got interested in you… at first- He replied opening his lips as if he wanted another kiss- But then I knew that you had a lot of other things that I liked…
- Then is almost the same- Hisoka narrowed his eyes a bit, answering the silent beg of the child by placing another kiss a bit longer on that soft mouth- I was also attracted by your strength at first~
- At first? But I wasn't strong at all when I met you- The child seemed surprised to hear that words
- But I felt that you could be a worthy opponent… a really strong one- He grinned at the memory of that pleasurable feeling, tracing with his index finger the traits of that little face… the eyebrows, the cheeks, the lips- even more than me…
- Really?- Gon's eyes showed the incredulity he felt
- Can't believe that?~ - He grinned, placing another kiss, this time on the cheek he was caressing with his hand- But is true… I wanted to fight you when you were strong… and kill you…
His golden eyes got colder when his mouth pronounced that last words, and Gon felt it, trembling a bit… The blood-lust, the desire of killing wasn't a joke. It was true… Feeling his back wet with cold sweat, Gon outlined a defying smile. He didn't hate, that oppressive aura.
- I wanted to fight you too… to be as strong to beat you- He replied with a light of determination lighting his brown eyes, and Hisoka couldn't mask the exciting he felt about those words
So it was really that, he thought, he really wanted to fight Gon and kill him. That was the real nature of his feelings…
- But I don't want to kill you, and I don't want you to kill me either- Gon continued with a cute tone, breaking in too the excitement on those golden eyes, changing it to surprise- Because now I'm in love with you and if either of us die that would be too sad, don't you think?
- Sad?- Hisoka asked back, unable of fully understand the worries of the child
- Of course! Because I want to be with you, all the time I can! - He smiled- If you die, I wouldn't be able to be with you anymore… And if I die, you would be lonely without me… don't you?
Hisoka couldn't answer. He had never thought he could ever feel "lonely". Because his only desire was to fight strong opponents, and if he was able to do that, he thought he wouldn't need anything else…
But certainly, if he thought about that last times he had went away, returning with a lot of worries that didn't seemed proper of someone like him, he might have feel lonely. He had longed for the warmth of the small body that was now by his side, and had wanted to see him again… He had felt lonely…
If Gon died… even if it was by his own hands… wouldn't he feel even lonelier?
If he knew that even if he came back, the child wouldn't be there… and once again he would came to the same place that only him used, without caring about anything, without loving anything… wouldn't it be really lonely living like that again?
- I would…- He answered after a too long pause, finding a smile in his lover as response for that words, and then a kiss. A childish kiss, a sweet kiss, a delicious kiss with the taste of vanilla ice-cream as the small tongue brushed against his lips and made his way into his mouth.
So that was it…
That was the feeling of uncertainty that he had been holding all along. The realization that he wouldn't be able to live alone again… that he couldn't live only for himself anymore. Because he would be lonely… because he was in love. Because he cared too much about that child that smiled at him with such a lovely gesture… He had said it before, but he hadn't understand the deepness of that reality, and that was the reason behind his anxiety.
- I love you Gon~ - He said, deepening the kiss that the child had started, his eyes half open, looking at the closed eyes of his lover…
- I love you too, Hisoka- Gon said with a smile when the kiss broke…
And that was it.