SPENCER'S P.O.V

"You look like you've seen a ghost?"

I can't believe this is happening.

"Spencer is everything okay?"

"No, Glen just sent me a message on Facebook"

I turn the screen so she can read what he wrote.

"Hey Spencer, I just got a really unusual message from Matt and I'm not really sure what's going on? But he said you're gay now and he was going on about you and some rockstars daughter. I'm a little confused, can you write me back and let me know everything's okay?...Glen"

"What a fucking dick"

When she says that I look over at her.

"It doesn't matter what you've done Spencer you don't out someone to their family"

"So I'm not overreacting?"

"Spencer I'd be fucking furious"

I am, but I'm not sure I have any right to feel like this.

"You can't just out someone when they're not ready"

I can't handle this.

"Spencer I really felt sorry for the guy and I'm trying to sympathize with him, but he's making it really hard"

I don't know what to do anymore.

"He has every right to be angry and he has every right to be upset, but attacking Ashley and telling Glen you're gay is fucked up and you don't have to just take it because you feel guilty"

"I hurt him first Chels and now he's just hurting me back..."

"You don't out someone Spencer, I don't care what you've fucking done"

I really didn't expect this.

I didn't think he'd tell Glen.

"I wanted to be the one who told them Chels, I wanted a chance to explain, I..."

I drop my head so it's resting on the table.

"I can't handle this anymore"

I don't want to keep feeling like this.

"Chelsea I know what I did was wrong, but when I met her everything I'd been confused about became so much clearer and when I slept with her it was like she clarifying everything for me"

I'm mumbling.

"It was just going to be sex and then we were going to go our separate ways, but she made me feel incredible and when I walked away I wanted more"

When I look up she's staring at me.

"Look Chelsea I know I'm probably sounding ridiculous, but I've felt more for Ashley in this one week, than I've felt for Matt this past year"

I don't regret anything I did with Ashley, I just wish I could go back in time and end it with Matt first.

"Chelsea I'm gay and that's not something I want to hide from, but it's not something I want to come out like this either..."

I force a smile.

"But there's not much I can do about that now is there?"

I don't even want to think about what he's said to Glen.

"Spence that's the first time you've actually said you were gay"

"Really?"

I swear I've said it before.

"You've made it pretty obvious that you are, but that's the first time you've actually said it out loud to me"

She's smiling.

"Look Spence I've been where you are, I've been confused and I've been scared, but you're right it's not something you should be hiding from"

"What do I say to that?"

When I point at the screen she doesn't say anything.

"You don't say anything to that"

I can't not say anything.

"When you're ready you call them"

"I can't not respond Chelsea"

"Just write back and tell him you'll call when you get a chance"

I can't believe he told Glen I was gay.

"Quickly write something back and then we'll go do something fun"

"I'm not really in the mood Chels"

"What did I tell you about letting Debbie back on this ship?"

When she says that I smile.

"Okay what did you have in mind?"

"I want to go to the nightly show..."

That actually does sound like fun.

"IT'S DIVA'S NIGHT"

"When does it start?"

"We have ten minutes"

I need all the distractions I can get right now.

"Okay I better make this quick"