SPENCER'S P.O.V
I can't remember much from last night, I remember talking to Matt and I remember the piano bar, but that's about it.
"Morning..."
When she walks out of the bathroom I move so I'm sitting on the edge of her bed.
"How are you feeling?"
How did I end up here?
"I feel like I've been hit by a truck"
My head's pounding.
"Here"
When I look up she's holding a bottle of water.
"Thanks"
This is a little awkward.
"Ashley did we?"
She's smiling.
"No..."
I was hoping she'd day that.
"I wanted to but it wouldn't have been right"
I really want to be with her again.
But I don't want it to be like this.
"So nothing happened?"
"Spence you'd remember if it did"
When she says that I smile.
"Thanks"
"Are you thanking me for not sleeping with you?"
I didn't mean it like that.
"Yer"
She's laughing.
"Spence you're making me feel all warm and fuzzy inside"
When she says that I feel kind of bad.
"I didn't mean it like that..."
"I know"
I feel gross.
"Ash how much did I embarrass myself?"
It's always a bit of a worry when you can't remember what happened the night before.
"You didn't embarrass yourself"
I don't believe her.
"How did I..."
I move over so she can sit.
"How did I end up in your bed?"
It's frustrating that I can't remember.
"You were knocking on my door and when I got up to let you in you didn't look so great..."
"Ash I'm sorry I came here"
"Spencer don't be ridiculous"
When I look over at her my eyes lock on hers.
"Do you feel any better?"
"No I feel like shit"
She's smiling.
"Are you feeling any better about everything that happened with Matt?"
"I told you what happened?"
Why do I keep burdening her with all my problems?
"Spence you were pretty upset"
This is so embarrassing.
"Aarggghh I want to be a turtle so I can crawl back into my shell"
She's laughing but this situation sucks.
"So I came to your room in the middle of the night wasted and then I said a whole bunch of embarrassing things... Oh and then I just started throwing up?"
"It sounds a lot worse than it was when you say it like that"
Why would I think it's a good idea to come to her room when I'm like that?
"Do you want to talk about what happened?"
When she says that I move so I'm standing.
"Ashley I actually really like you and it's incredibly embarrassing that I came here like that"
When her hand touches my arm I look down.
"Spence I'm glad you came here"
She's just being nice.
"Can you please just erase last night from your memory?"
"No"
I look away as she moves so she's standing.
"Are you going to be okay?"
There's a really long silence before I say anything.
"Ashley I really don't know what to do anymore..."
"It will get better"
"How I'm on the other side of the world and my whole knows that I was with you and that I'm..."
"Gay?"
It's still a little weird to say that out loud.
"Am I overreacting?"
"Spencer you're not overreacting"
I force a smile when she brushes her fingers through my hair.
"He had no right to tell your family..."
"What would you do if you were me?"
She's grinning.
"Spencer what I would do and what you should do are two completely different things"
"What would you do?"
"I'd probably ignore it and wait 'til it goes away"
She would?
"But you should call your family so they can hear your side of the story"
She suddenly looks nervous.
"Are you okay Ash?"
"Yer I'm fine"
That wasn't very believable.
"Are you sure?"
"Are you going to call your family?"
She's dodging my questions.
"I am"
I want to know what she's thinking.
"Good"
When she walks away I'm a little confused.
"These are yours"
She's holding my phone and my wallet.
"Thanks"
Why is it suddenly awkward?
"Okay well I should probably get going"
"Okay"
When I get to the door I look back at her one last time.
"Thanks for letting me stay Ash"
"Anytime"