ASHLEY'S P.O.V
"Hey"
When I hear her voice I turn around.
"Hi"
"Ash I was starting to think that you'd jumped overboard"
I have the stupidest smile on my face.
"I can't swim..."
"You can't or you don't like to?"
"A bit of both"
It's pretty loud in here so she's standing really close.
"I haven't seen you since I left your room yesterday..."
I was deliberately giving her space.
"Have I done something wrong?"
I lean forward so my lips are next to her ear.
"I'm trying to do the right thing Spence and I know I'm probably a week or so late..."
"So you are avoiding me?"
"No but I haven't been looking for you either"
When I say that I pull back so I can see her reaction.
"Spencer you look incredible"
I'm not surprised when she looks away, she always gets really embarassed when I compliment her.
"You're cute when you're embarrassed"
"Ashley I'm not embarrassed"
She's a horrible liar.
"You smell incredible"
I start laughing when she playfully shoves me back.
"Ashley don't be annoying"
I have the biggest grin on my face.
"Spence I like this version of you"
"I called my parents..."
When she says that I raise my eyebrows.
Where did that come from?
"You called your parents today?"
"No I actually called them yesterday"
"Wow..."
I don't know what else to say.
"That's awesome Spence"
"I know and I owe you a drink"
"What for?"
"The other night"
"Spencer don't be ridiculous"
"What are you drinking?"
When she holds up my half empty drink I smile.
"I'll just have whatever you're having"
"Okay"
When she walks away I immediately regret that answer.
I really hope she doesn't order me a girly drink.
"Here"
When she hands me a beer I have the stupidest smile on my face.
"You bought me a beer?"
"Do you not like beer?"
"No I love beer"
The more I get to know this girl the more I like her.
"Thanks"
When I turn back around so I'm facing the band, she moves so she's standing next to me.
"So Ash I was actually really hoping that I'd bump into you tonight"
I can feel her eyes burning a hole in the side of my head.
"You were?"
When I look over at her she's smiling.
"I was"
Her arm's touching mine.
"Ash it's kind of weird that this is our last night on this cruise"
"I know it's gone really fast considering"
This has been one of the craziest weeks that I've ever experienced.
"Where are you guys off to next?"
I know she's asking because she wants to know what's going to happens next with us.
But I honestly don't know what's going to happen.
"We were thinking we'd head to Germany for the Rock am Ring festival... Dad's playing"
"That sounds awesome"
She clearly doesn't think it's awesome.
"What were you guys thinking of doing?"
When she doesn't answer me I turn so I'm facing her.
"Spence why are we still beating around the bush?"
"I don't know I was actually just thinking the exact same thing"
She's smiling.
"Look Ash when I woke up this morning I felt like a completely different person"
Okay.
"Just speaking to my parents made everything so much clearer and easier for me"
She's acting completely different to the way she has been.
She doesn't seem as upset anymore.
"They're obviously disappointed that I've treated Matt the way I have, but they don't care that I'm gay and that's the thing that I was worried about the most"
Her relationship with her family is completely different to one I have with mine.
"And it sucks that they're disappointed in me, but I've made my bed and now I've just got to lie in it"
Where's she heading with this?
"Look Ash I just don't see what the point is anymore?"
I'm worried.
"I can't take back anything that's happened and I'm probably the biggest a hole going around at the moment for admitting this... But I'd do it all again in a second"
I would to.
"Because Ash we wouldn't be on this ship together and we wouldn't be having this conversation if I didn't let you fuck me that night on the beach"
I want to be with her so badly.
"Ashley I'm done worrying about what everyone else is going to think, I need to find out what this is, I need to find out why you drive me so fucking crazy"
When she says that I have the biggest smile on my face.
"Let's go"
I've never moved as quickly as I just did.
We were in the bathroom in seconds.
"Easy tiger"
Why is she turning her head?
"We have fifteen minutes until I'm meant to meet the others at the deck party"
"Spence I'm sure they won't mind..."
"Ash I have to go I promised I'd hang out"
That's annoying.
"Okay"
I just need to touch her again.
"We still have fifteen minutes though"
When she says that I quickly press my lips against hers.
I've really missed this.