Chapter 18

Alexis's POV

Well my New Year's resolution had already come true. I had kissed Charlie and now everyone was staring and there were a few cheers, mainly from Fred, George, Bill, Ginny, Hermione, Katie, Ang, Alicia and Lee.

"Alexis I…" he started

"I know Charlie. You didn't mean it just forget about it. All the same as last time right?"

"It's just that I've had a lot to drink and you've had more than enough to drink and I don't know. Maybe that shouldn't have happened."

"Maybe it should have. Maybe it was meant to." I countered.

"But…"

"It's alright, it's forgotten. Just like last time. Don't ignore me this time please." I left him standing there and joined the group that had cheered.

"Don't start celebrating yet. It's all been forgotten again." I muttered.

"Oi dickhead." Katie yelled loudly, causing me to laugh and Charlie to look over. "Yeah you Charlie. What the fuck man? Just kiss her and pretend it never happened? It doesn't work like that." She yelled.

"Katie please stop."

"I saw it happen so it happened. You should stop pretending it didn't. Incase you haven't noticed she kind of loves you!" she added.

Charlie's eyes met mine and I shrugged.

"Alexis Laura Fuller! Admit it."

"Katie, please stop yelling."

"You stop avoiding him and just go and root him already." She yelled.

"That would bring her score card up to at least two for the past 24 hours." A very drunk voice said from the other side of the tent.

"We told you to leave Dean." Bill said.

"Well I wanted to come back, so I did." He slurred.

I walked over to him, Charlie and Bill soon followed.

"Look she's already come back to me."

"I think you should have stayed away Dean. You're not wanted here."

"Charlie, this is my argument." I pointed out.

"See lover boy, she doesn't even want your help anymore."

"Alexis, we'll sort this out." Charlie said gently.

"No you won't." I brought my knee up swiftly to connect with Dean's genitals. "Dean you shouldn't have come back. Maybe next time you will stay away."

He fell on the ground, clutching his crotch and I took that opportunity to kick him in the face.

"Nice work Lex." Bill commented as my fan club cheered again. "Remind me not to piss you off."

I smiled, "I would never do that to you."

"Alexis can we talk?"

"About what Charlie?"

He led me over to the corner of the tent, "Lex,"

"What do you want Charlie? Why do you do these things if you're just going to regret them? What do you want from me? Do you just want me around so you can kiss me when you feel like it? Just let me know so we are on the same page."

He reached out to touch me and I swatted his hand away.

"Don't touch me at the moment or you will end up like Dean."

"Lexy please."

"Just tell me what you want because I don't know. You keep doing this and it's confusing me. What do you want Charlie?"

"I don't know what I want. What do you want?"

"What I want has nothing to do with this conversation."

"I don't know what I want."

"This is because you feel guilty about my scars isn't it? You keep trying to make me feel good but you regret it terribly every time you do it."

"Of course I still feel guilty."

"So that's it then. Let's kiss Alexis to confuse the shit out of her because we feel guilty. It's not helping Charlie. Actually, your pity makes it worse." I felt the tears that had been building up spill down my cheeks.

I felt an arm around my shoulder and looked up to see Katie.

"Charlie Weasley, you are a dickhead." She said loudly before guiding me inside to my bed.

Katie jumped into bed beside me, "I'm staying right here just so you don't go looking for him."

I rolled my eyes, "I wouldn't."

"So was what Dean said true?" she asked quietly.

I nodded, crying again. "I don't know what happened. We were dancing and then it was like yeah let's do this. I don't know."

"I always thought it would be Charlie." she said quietly as she hugged me.

"I always hoped so. Too late now."

"I really hate Charlie." Katie told me, "He is such an asshole. That's the second time he's kissed you and expected you to forget about it. He cant do that!" there was a knock on the door. "Who is it?"

"It's Charlie. I want to talk to Alexis."

"She's not here right now." Katie giggled.

I heard Charlie sigh, "Lexy please. I know you're in there. Please will you just talk to me so I can explain?"

"I told you she's not here."

"Katie, I know she is. Alexis please, please just open the door."

"Alexis Laura Fuller do not even think about it." Katie hissed as I got up.

I opened the door and sat back on the bed. Charlie looked pointedly at Katie.

"She's staying. What did you want to say?"

"I wanted to apologise. I don't really know what I want. I have needs that need satisfying and I shouldn't use that as an excuse but it's true. That's why I tell you to forget about these stupid things that happen between us, I don't want to ruin what we have."

I gripped Katie's hand for support, "What do we have Charlie?"

"We have a great friendship."

I forced a smile, "Alright."

He turned around to leave and Katie hugged me tightly as I cried. When he got to the door he turned and looked back at me. I couldn't read the expression on his face.

"What do you want Lex?"

"She wants what ever makes you happy. If you knew her at all you would know that she always wants what makes her friends happy." Katie answered for me.

He swung the door closed behind him and Katie cried with me.

"Katie it hurts."

"I know Lex I know."

"Why do I like him?"

"Because he is who he is and you are who you are and if the pair of you could just get past all this stuff you would be perfect together."

"Katie he doesn't want me. He just wants someone. He doesn't care who."

"He's confused, he has to like you. There has to be something there."

"No there doesn't, just because I want it to be there doesn't mean it is."

"Alexis, he took you to Romania. Has he ever taken anyone else?"

"No, but no one else likes dragons like I do."

"He got you a very very nice Christmas present."

"He did, but that doesn't mean anything."

"Lex do you know how much stuff like that costs? It's incredibly expensive. From what George was saying it looks like he spent a lot more on your present than anyone else's."

"No he didn't, George is probably just saying that."

"He's always looking at you. He touches you more than necessary and who was the one that held you when you cried on the roof the other night?"

"Charlie." I answered quietly.

"He's just slow. Very slow. You've just got to persevere. Stop waiting for him to do something because he doesn't know what he wants, you need to take control. Make him see that what he wants is you."

There was another knock on the door, "Lex, Katie it's Bill."

"Let him in." I told Katie.

Katie opened the door and Bill came and sat beside me. "George was looking for you. I can stay with her." He told Katie.

"But…" Katie began, looking at me.

"It's okay Katie, you go to George. I'll be fine."

She nodded slowly, "Don't you dare leave her Bill. If you do I'll hex your ass off."

"I won't, I promise."

Katie hugged me one more time before she left.