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Unstable - Wanting to electrocute himself with an electric cable,
Insane - Done with all this crap in his brain.
Mental- Slitting his wrists as drops of blood fall,
Misunderstood - He just wanted to have a life, he only wanted to do good!
Chapter 5
Surprise
"Timcampy, please come here." I ask the golden golem as it flutters to me lightly. He lies in my hair, snuggling in warmth. Its winter right now - all that snow, I pear at the window seeing snowflakes falling down from sky to ground… Currently seeping my hot chocolate with marshmallows and mint with some chocolate powder on top – and it's so yummy! Maybe because I am the one who made it, hehe, wait – why am I sitting here at the kitchen table when I could be outside making a snowman?!
I drink the last of my hot chocolate – home-made by the way, and I wash up the other dishes quickly when I notice I am washing one of my Master's prized knives. It gives me shivers as every time, it seems whenever I look or even glance at it quickly at something sharp, it reminds me of that night and regretful day after, since a year – it still frightens me to this day. I mean, being pushed around at school, being called "Freak" and a daily basis…even a "Faggot". I just want to disappear, but then I think so some reason – of what would Lavi say…what would he do? I can't help but wonder. After thinking for a while, I finish up, dry them off and then place them in the cupboards. I supress the memories as I make my way to the front door and then hearing the doorbell going off just a second before I was about to grab the door knob. Do I answer it? Master Cross isn't here – so it can't be the cops.
Then…Who…?
I then hear the doorbell go off another time, seems like this person is not the one for patience. It went off again and again as I got so annoyed! I grab hold of the door knob and I twist it gently as to see a guy with flaming red-orange hair and that same emerald eye. Wait…WHAT?! I am caught by surprise as I shook slightly at the fought this guy…is him. It can't be. I come back to my senses and I try to close the door fast, but then his foot blocked it. Dammit! I do not want this guy to be here! Lavi or not, I don't want anyone to see me right now! I'm…I'm a mess. I notice his boot that's blocking the way to closing the door is full of rags and tatters – scraped and worn-out. What tha-
"Please! Let me stay! I have nowhere else to go! Please! I'm begging you!"
I stay at shock with the plead coming from this guy. I then gulp and I quickly turn around and put my winter hoodie on and hide my scar with my hair. I don't want this guy to think I am a serial killer. Pfft! What a turn-out that would be, ne?! Heh…
I let him in and close the door and then I take an observation of him. His clothes are ruined to be exacted. Holy Dango. What has this guy been into?
"T-Thank you…" I hear as I take a breath.
"No problem…umm, you can sit on the couch if you want. I'll be right back."
"Ok…" Was the reply as I storm out of the lounge as I cower in the kitchen, I just let a stranger into the house! He could kill me, rob the house, there are many possibilities of what one can do. I then take some more breathes as I peek at the guy. He seems pretty beat. But looks can't fool me! I am prepared!
"Hey, you want some hot chocolate?" I ask as I see a nod.
I might as well make myself another one.
-5 or so minutes later-
"Here you go." I say as I put his on the coffee table and I sip mine carefully not to burn my tongue. He does the same; he tries it as it looked like he never had hot chocolate before. I can't help but ask,
"You ever had hot chocolate before?"
Silence is written in the air as he tilts his head to the side, his 'cape' covers his hair, but the front part is visible, but covers his right eye. The only thing I can see on his face is scratches and bruises. But I can see that emerald eye, that same eye that betrayed me.
I still can't believe he did that – I mean, my friends, and my crush, they build me up and then they broke me. I was so stupid then – I mean, no one would think that a gay-freak would have the guts to have a crush on a perfect straight guy! I shake my head "No" to myself as I hear a mumble.
"What was that?" I politely ask.
"This hot chocolate…It tastes like the one my friend always made…on winter days and nights…this tastes exactly like it!" I freeze in shock as he continues.
"He was so good at making them, he was happy all the time, despite his father died, and him and I would always listen to music and draw. Make jokes and prank Kanda. We would always go girl-shopping with Lenalee too. It's just that – I haven't seen him for so long. I want to see him. But it seems I just can't."
I grip the cup a bit harder and gulp. I had to ask him this…
"Who is this person you are talking about if you don't mind me asking?"
I smile politely as he answers the answer I never expected.
"Allen Walker."
Then, the only sound was heard throughout the house was the cup filled with hot chocolate hitting the ground and smashing as silence followed after as this guy right in front of me is the one and only:
"Lavi…is that…you?" The question flowed out of my mouth as he looks at me with wide eyes as he sets down the cup while he walks to me.
"Yeah…my name is Lavi. Why?" He looks at me as he squints his eye as he looks at mine, then he moves my hair out of my left eye. He gasps and then a single tear leaves his eye.
"Allen…Is that you…?" He asks me, he lifts up his arm to take my hoodie off then he wraps me into a warm hug.
I must be dreaming again…
"I would and never will forget those silver eyes of yours Allen…" He says as he continues, "After that day shattered me as much as you…"
I can't believe this is happening! This has to be a dream! This- just can't be happening, is this just a coincidence that he is here in my house…talking to a gay-freak like me? Why is he even here? Even after breaking me…breaking my heart while I still live? Even standing near me like we always used to do when Lavi and I were friends, but now, I don't know whenever if we are still friends…
Or did he found out I loved him? No! That would be the most terrifying thing in my life if he found out. Because now that he is near me, standing in front of me…My heart can't help but beat so fast as I feel butterflies flutter around my stomach.
"I had to say that to keep you safe. It was the only option." Lavi says as I can't help but belive my crush.
"Lavi…Can I ask you 3 questions…for now?" I look at him, into his eye as it shines bright.
"Fire away!" He grins, but I know this question will wipe that grin off his face when I ask this.
"Why are you in this state…Lavi? What exactly happened on that day? And how did you possibly think that would keep me safe when I could've died that night?"
Then my silver eyes saw that grin get wiped off his face, I knew this would happen - as his emerald eye widens as I see more tears leave his eye…
Then I notice a warm feeling around my whole body to notice that Lavi is hugging me.
"I…didn't know you would go that far to killing yourself…Allen. But I will tell you this…you were meant to let your blood flow in crimson. That's what they don't want. They will not hurt you now since your appearance changed and they do not notice you as you anymore. Komui let the whole school know and played the part. Lenalee and Kanda were so heart-broken to do what they had to do…"
Lavi's voice hiccupped as I couldn't believe what he was saying. Why do I suddenly think of that night and now I think of cutting…? But I told myself Mana wouldn't like it if I did…but now that I think about what happened that day…my mind focused on that sharp blade.
As if Lavi noticed me thinking, he grabbed my wrist seeing my ugly arm and scars, now I notice that tomorrow I have to go to the therapist. He helps me a lot, because now I have depression – and Cross said to attend every Monday, Wednesday, Friday, and Sunday.
"A-Allen…" I close my eyes shut to think that this isn't happening. But then my emotions got the best in me…
"JUST GET OUT!"
"A-Allen! You don't know what's happening, you could get hurt!" Lavi warns, I did not listen as I push him towards the door and open it, as he heeds me one more warning.
"I…I beg of you, Allen, they are coming, we had to do what we had done last year. Trust me."
I was taken back then, but I remark this to him,
"Let them come and what you had to do didn't had to let me almost end my fuckin' life! Now I am messed up and a freak! LOOK WHAT YOU HAVE DONE TO ME!" I shout to him with tears streaming down my face as I took a close step towards him as he takes a look and regret and guilt covered his face and eye as he takes a step backward to go out into the cold snow.
I start to tear up, but I will not cry in front of him. I just cursed which is not what I normally do – it's his entire fault!
"Sorry…Allen Walker…Please forgive me…and no matter what…I am here for you still. Don't give up."
I hear as I shut the door with my head leaning on it, grinding my teeth together as tears finally make their way from my eyes to the ground. I whisper to him even though I know he can't hear me,
"Don't go…"
I can't help but look at the cupboards, and walk over to them to give upon one of Master Cross's prized knifes. Then my head illuminated my eyes as I see it covered with blood…my blood. Timcampy wakes up and sees me with the knife going towards my left wrist.
I then glide my right hand on my burned messed up arm, as it the skin cracked as I slice my wrist, until half way of my masterpiece, I stop – but then I narrow my eyes in hate as I press down harder and I slice my wrist faster than before. Why is this all happening…?
I was supposed to forget about you…but you came into my life once more…
What possibly could happen next?
But now that I think of it…you came into a life of one that is already dead…as Crimson Flows…
Running everywhere - having nowhere to go to,
Going mad - having no one there to hold you.
Beating heart - going too fast, just want to put him disappointed memories in the past,
In this place - going to go insane with no sanity in trace.
I hope you all enjoyed that chapter! ^^
Lavi is here, and why is he in that state? Who are They? Was it their intention for Allen to move? Was it their intention for Allen to change appearance? But now that Lavi knows Allen has changed so much. What will he do now? Is Allen focusing too much on the past to move on and see what Lavi can see, which is right in front of him that is something so beautiful. Allen is in too much pain – but can Lavi save Allen from it while Allen's Crimson Flow keeps flowing…?
Oh! And the small poem is by me! I was so upset then – but then I just had to move on and use this in this chapter! ^_^
Thank you a lot! This really makes me so happy to see many reading, but also showing support. I love you all! 3 If there is a 3, it means it's a heart. ^_^