I never slept for the rest of that night. I couldn't imagine ever going through that again, I don't think I could ever be able to stand next to Maka again. It's already hard for me to even imagine talking to Maka. I know it was just a dream, but it's really hard to say that it wasn't real. It's hard to say that I didn't secretly enjoy it, I did enjoy it. I'm honestly scared of myself. I can't believe that all this happened because I made eye contact with Cumo. I.. I don't know how to deal with all of this! I realized that I was just staring at a wall and hyperventilating. I started to calm myself, it worked a little, but I was still breathing a little heavily. I looked over at my alarm clock, its only 5 a.m.. I got up from my spot in and decided to sit at the kitchen table. Maka told me to try and stop finding comfort in . I can't help it though, I try and not do it, but its hard because i've found comfort there all of my life. I wonder when Maka's coming back, shes only been gone for a day and i'm already missing her. I miss her a lot, her wavelength is the only thing that keeps me sane. I miss her hugs, her kisses, her love. Love? What is love? Is it a feeling? Do I even know what love is? I don't know, if I did i'd definitely love Maka. Maybe I do love Maka. I wonder if thats why I feel safe around her all the time, because I love her. Yeah, I love Maka. I could feel my face start to heat up and i'm sure that it turned my face pink. I love Maka! I showed a bright smile at the thought. My thoughts were interrupted by my stomach making a growling noise.
"Oh, I guess it's a good idea to eat." I stood up and walked to the fridge. I searched around to find something that would be good to eat. I almost gave up on the search until I saw that I had a couple of eggs left. I guess could make some scrambled eggs with some toast. I grabbed the eggs, bread and a pan. I whipped up the eggs and started to cook them in the pan while I put the bread in the toaster. I buttered the toast when it was finished and put the eggs on a plate, I also set up another plate for Ragnarok. I set the plates down on the table. I sat down, when I felt Ragnarok come out of my back.
"Wheres my food!"
"Right there," I pointed to the other plate of food.
"Good job, Crona! You managed to make a decent meal for once!"
"T-thanks?" Was that a compliment or an insult? I don't care.
"Whatever." Ragnarok said as he stuffed the entire plate in his mouth. Then he spat the completely empty plate back onto the table. It was all slimy and gross, it splattered across the table.
"Ugh, Ragnarok do you have to do that?" I said starting to eat my breakfast.
"Why do you care!?"
"Because I have to clean it."
"Well that sucks! I will eat my food any way I want to."
"Gross, whatever."
"Don't whatever me! I'll start stealing your food!"
"F-fine, i'll stop."
"Thats what I thought!" He said as he dissolved back into my blood. I sighed and finished off my food. I wonder what i'm gonna do today, I don't have the energy to do anything active. Hmm, I don't think I could stand going to the park. Then I realized how horrible tomorrow is going to be. I have to take Cumo around the school, I have to introduce her to everyone and bring her everywhere I go. I don't know what i'm gonna do, especially after what happened when I saw her at the park yesterday. I sighed and started to take deep calming breaths. I'll stop thinking about it for now and try to have a relaxing day. I looked over at the clock, it was only 6 a.m.. I wonder what I could do today, going outside doesn't seem like a good idea. I guess I could just relax and slouch around the apartment. That sounds good. I walked over to the bookshelf and grabbed the latest book I was reading. It was a series called A House Of Night Novel. Its about vampires, but not something like the twilight saga. A girl thats only around the age of 16 or 17 is Marked and turns into a fledgling. Her name is Zoey, her entire world gets flipped after this happens because as it turns out, her goddess Nyx (Vampires Goddess) decided that Zoey will be the girl who saves the world from darkness. She has to go through tons of stress and whats worse is that there's a possibility she won't make the Change and she'll die. If a fledglings body rejects the change to become a full fledged vampire, their insides practically explode and on the outside they slowly bleed to death. Other than the bloody and sad deaths, the stress, and drama that goes on in this series, its a good book to read. I was only on the third book and there are plenty of them to read. So, I sat down on the couch and decided to dive into the book. After a while my eyes started to get really tired, I was starting to fall asleep when my house phone started to ring. I slowly got up and picked up the phone in time to answer.
"Hello?"
"Hello, Crona! I'm so sorry I didn't call last night!" It was Maka and she sounded a little worried.
"Huh? Oh, its fine. I was asleep before even nine o' clock, I slept like a rock and wouldn't of heard your call." I lied. I didn't get hardly any sleep last night.
"Oh, okay. Are you sure? You sound really tired."
"I'm fine. How are you guys?" I said trying to dodge the questions.
"Okay, we're fine. We just got a lead on where our guy is."
"That's good. Hopefully you get him soon."
"Yeah, hopefully. We decided to take a break and eat. I wasn't hungry and I wanted to call you. I miss you, a lot. I wish I could be there." My face instantly warmed and my cheeks turned a shade of pink.
"I m-miss you too. T-thank you for c-calling me."
"Of course! I felt really bad for not calling you last night. I miss you a lot and I wanted to hear your voice."
"I miss y-you too. I like t-to hear your voice t-too." Then I remembered what I thought about earlier.
"Thats good, I can't wait to get to see you again."
"Neither can I, Maka, I found out something today."
"Oh? What is it?"
"Maka, I lo-" I was interrupted by Soul screaming in the background.
"What do you want! Can't you see i'm on the phone?!" I could hear Maka screaming at Soul. I could hear some unaudible grumbling of Souls voice and then I could hear Maka screaming at him. I don't know what they were doing, but it sure was pissing Maka off.
"I'm sorry Crona, I have to go. You can tell me tonight when I call."
"O-okay."
"Okay, i'll talk to you later, bye."
"Bye." I almost didn't hang up the phone, I still wanted to hear her beautiful voice. But I did hang up the phone. Very slowly, but I did it. The clock said it was noon, guess that book really passed the time. I wasn't hungry, so I decided to watch a movie on T.V.. I accidentally fell asleep.
I was walking through an endless space, it was black and misty. I heard someone crying. I followed the sound and wandered for a while as it got louder and louder. I could finally see a shape of a person. I ran towards it.
"Hey, are you o-" I took a better look at who this person was. It was Maka.
"C-crona?" She said my name, thats a good sign, right?
"Yeah! Its me Crona!"
"N-no, not possible. You died." I what?
"What do you mean? I'm right here."
"No! You died! I'm hallucinating. Yeah, I have to be. He isn't real."
"Maka! I'm right here, your not hallucinating. I promise."
"Yes I am! I watched you die! Its the reason why I hate myself."
"M-maka? I'm. right. here. And don't hate yourself, you haven't done anything wrong."
"What do you mean? I watched you die, do you not understand?"
"I do understand, your very confused." She looked me right in my eyes and a mad smile grew on her face.
"I'm not confused, I killed you. I watched you bleed until your eyes rolled to the back of your puny head. I enjoyed it as well. It was very pleasing to watch and hear you scream in pain. Very, very, slowly. I don't think i've had any better day in my life. I never loved you, or even liked you. You were my puppet." I felt like I was stabbed about a million times through my heart and stomach. I started to tremble and step away from her. Her eyes changed shape and they looked like a snakes. Snakes? Medusa! Instantly her form started to change more and more into the shape of Medusa. I kept walking back until I ran into something and fell on my bottom.
"Where do you think your going?" I looked up to see Maka. Maka looked down at me. She still had a crazed smile but this time she was covered in blood. And lots of it. It was black blood.
"You can't run away, theres no use. I'll catch you every time, my little mouse," Medusa said as she walked towards me and Maka. I tried to stand up as fast as I could, but unfortunately Maka grabbed my collar as she laughed. She picked me up off the ground and kept me there so that I couldn't move.
"See? You can't even escape from her." Medusa laughed.
"Crona, your blood is really pretty. Can I have it?" Maka turned me to face her. I couldn't say anything. She was laughing and swinging me very softly. She started humming something.
"M-maka, s-stop. T-this isn't like y-you." I said, trying to get through to her.
"What do you mean?"
"Y-your a sweet and l-loving p-person. Y-you would n-never hurt a-any of your f-friends."
"I think your mistaken." Medusa said as she finally reached us. I'm confused, what? "Don't look at me like that, you should know that she isn't as sweet and loving you think she is. She's my little puppet, and so are you."
"Can we play with him, please?" Maka said to Medusa.
"Okay, but i'm not going to. I'll leave you to it."
"Thank you!" Medusa started to giggle a little and walked into the misty, blackness around us.
"M-maka?"
"Don't speak! Toys don't have voices."
"I'm n-not a t-toy."
"Yes you are, now shut up!" She raised her voice. She dropped me really hard on the ground and put her foot on my chest. She was pressing down really hard, I couldn't hardly breathe.
"Tick Tock, Tick Tock," she was singing in the same tone she was humming earlier, "What is love? Oh boy! Well, love is a wonderful thing! It's kinda like a sweet pie. But, eventually we all must die!" She shoved a magically appearing sword into my stomach. I instantly started to bleed very heavily. She started to giggle.
"Isn't this so much fun! I love to play," she giggled some more and started to sing again, "Although that is very true, love is wonderful to live through! There are many twists. and. turns." She twisted the sword around while it was still lodged into my stomach. I started to scream out in pain, which made her laugh until she fell onto the floor.
"Wow! Look at all that pretty blood of yours! It doesn't seem like you want it, so i'll take it. But, I have to have all of it! It's so much fun to play with you Crona! I don't want to sing anymore, it ruins the fun." She laughed again. She stood up after getting herself under control. She grabbed the sword and pulled it out. A lot of my blood had started to gush out of the wound.
"Oh my, well, I better get going! But, i'll take whatever is left of you first!" She gripped the sword tightly and shoved it in my chest. I could no longer scream, or breathe. I just layed there staring at her. Her face started to soften for some reason. Her crazy smile was gone and her eyes no longer had a mad glint in them. She closed her eyes for a second and sat down. When she opened them again, she looked like her normal self. She looked at me for a second and her eyes widened. She crawled over to me and started to tremble.
"C-crona? W-what happened to you?" She looked down at her hands and saw my black blood. She looked over to her side where the sword was laying.
"D-did I?" She looked back at me, "N-no! I c-couldn't have!" She shoved her hands to her face and started to slowly crawl away from me. "Crona! I killed you, I killed you, I killed you." She started to heavily sob. I wanted to tell her to stop crying, to run away before Medusa found her. But I couldn't speak, or even breathe. My vision started to fade when I looked over to her. She uncovered her face with a big smile and said, "Did you know your blood is black?"
I woke up yelling, then I fell onto the floor. I looked around me just to make sure everything was real. I examined my chest and my stomach, everything looks fine. It was just a nightmare. Good, just a nightmare. I stood up and realized that I was soaked with sweat and I was kinda cold. I looked over at the time, it's 7 p.m.. I went into the bathroom to take a shower. I looked into the mirror. My eyes were red and puffy, I had been crying. I wiped my face and started the water. A nice, warm shower should calm my nerves. I hope. I took a long shower, hopeing that it would calm me down.
When I got out I was already starting to feel better. Although I was still kinda nervous. I dried off and dressed myself into my normal pajamas. (Which if you didn't know already was just my underwear.) I walked out into the kitchen and looked around. What should I do? Hmmm, i'm a little hungry. I guess I could make something small. I looked around, nothing really sounded good to eat, so I made Mac n' Cheese. I finished eating and let Ragnarok eat the rest of whatever was still in the pot. There was a bunch leftover so Ragnarok must of been happy. I cleaned dishes and wiped off the counters and the table. I glanced at the clock and saw that it was 9 p.m.. Maka should be calling soon, but it's okay if she doesn't call tonight, I talked to her this morning. I do want to hear her voice though. I was about to sit on the couch when the phone rang. That has to be Maka.
"Hello?"
"Hi, Crona. It's Tsubaki. I wanted to know how you were doing."
"Oh, i'm fine. H-how are you?"
"I'm good, thank you. I'm sorry about what happened yesterday."
"It's o-okay. I was j-just a little s-spooked, thats all."
"That's good to hear. I'm still sorry though. We could've gone to Kid's place first and none of that would've happened. Or maybe we could've just gone home, I don't know. I just feel bad."
"D-don't feel bad. You did n-nothing wrong."
"I know, but still."
"Tsubaki, i'm f-fine. Don't worry a-about it. It wasn't y-your fault I had a panic attack."
"Yeah, okay. Thanks. I feel a little better."
"Good."
"Kay, that's all I wanted to say. I'll talk to you later. Bye."
"Bye." I hung up the phone and slouched on the couch. I'm glad Tsubaki called, but she wasn't the person I wanted to talk to. I'm glad that I got her to stop feeling guilty though. I hate it when my friends feel guilty about me, if anything I should be guilty. For hurting and almost killing Soul. For releasing the Kishin. For betraying the DWMA and all my friends. Yada Yada Yada, I have a lot to be guilty for. I sighed. I guess I could wait for Maka to call, it's not like i'm going to sleep anytime soon. I dozed off a couple of times, but as soon as my eyes closed I bursted wide awake. I couldn't handle another nightmare. It was about 1 in the morning when the phone rang. I got up and answered it.
"Hello?"
"Hello, Crona? Why are you up so late?" It was Maka.
"No reason, just getting up to get a drink of water and you called." I lied.
"Oh, okay. You can go back to sleep. I was just calling to make sure you weren't waiting."
"Oh no, that's okay. I'm not very sleepy. I took a nap earlier."
"Okay. But, you better sleep after i'm done talking to you."
"Okay, I will."
"Good, so um, how are you?"
"I'm fine. How are you guys?" I asked.
"We're good. I would've called earlier but we didn't have any service."
"That's okay. I'm just glad that you guys are working hard."
"Yeah. It's pretty tiring but worth the soul that we get." She giggled a little.
"That's good, when do you think you'll be home?"
"In about two weeks. We have to follow the guy for a while to make sure he's the right person."
"That's understandable. Too bad you guys have to be gone so long though."
"Yeah, it's hard not to ditch this mission to come see you. I miss you." My face got hot and turned pink.
"I m-miss you t-too." I could hear Soul in the background.
"Shh! I'm on the phone." I could hear him grumble. "Don't you dare! Soul! What did I just say!" I could hear her stomp over and hit Soul. There was a loud crack sound and a thump. It was quiet for a second and then I could hear Soul yelling in pain.
"That's what you get! Don't touch my stuff!" She walked away from the noisy Soul and started to speak to me again, "I'm sorry about that. He's really grumpy because he's tired."
"I-it's okay. You need to s-sleep too."
"I wanted to call you first. But I am a little sleepy. You sound really tired."
"I'm not really t-tired. You n-need to sleep though. S-so I'll let y-you do that."
"Okay. Well, goodnight Crona. I can't wait to talk to you tomorrow."
"G-goodnight. I can't wait e-either." I could hear her hang up the phone so I hung up mine. I hated to say goodbye to her, or even lie. Lieing is the worst, I don't dare tell her about my nightmares because she'll worry. I don't want her to worry because she'll literaly ditch the mission to come 'save me'. I don't want any of that, so I lie. Even if I don't like it. The time said it was only 1:30, I still have a long night to bear through. I wonder if Stein has anything that will keep me awake so I don't fall asleep. I'm afraid to fall asleep, that's weird. It's a little strange that the most comforting thing foreveryone could be horrifying for me. Everyone loves to sleep, I hate it. I guess i've always been the weird kid though. I've never fit in anywhere. I don't really mind it though, I like being by myself. Unless I can be around Maka, then i'm always there. I walked around the living room for a little while, then I cleaned the apartment a little. It was only 3 a.m. but i'm really bored and definitley not tired. I wonder how many nights are going to be like this, walking around, spacing out, cleaning, being totally bored. I have nothing to do, I can't sleep, I've already cleaned the place, if I pace around more i'll leave burn marks in the carpet, and spacing out for to long makes me confused and I get a headache. I could finish my book... nah, that'll make me tired. The t.v. isn't an option either. Hmm, I don't know what to do. Oh, I know! I could go write in that notebook that Maka bought me. I'll use it as a journal, that way I can talk about myself and my feeling without getting nervous and stuttery. I had to dig through one of the boxes that Maka gave me to find it. But once I found it, I searched for a pencil and instantly got into writing in it.
Entry 1
Today, I did nothing. I read my book, walked around, cooked, and cleaned. Not much to do when Maka is gone. I miss her a lot. I found out something about myself that I didn't think I was capable of doing. I found Love. I can't explain it, but I always have this feeling around Maka that makes me really happy and feel safe. I call it Love. Other than my wonderful discoveries, I had a horrifying nap. The previous night I couldn't sleep because I had a nightmare. It all started after I accidentally made eye contact with Cumo. My cousin, she's Arachne's daughter. I was dreaming that I was walking around in empty space, until I hit a wall. Then I walked around to find light and found Maka instead. She was terrified of me and screaming at me to go away and that I was a monster. Medusa, Arachne, and Cumo were there. Cumo is a witch but I don't know what her magic is. In my dream, it was like a black, sticky mist that flowed from her fingers. I don't know what to call it. Anyway, Cumo and I teamed up and slowly killed Maka. I finished her off with a blow to her head with Ragnarok. It felt like I really enjoyed it, I was feeding off of it. Could I be falling back into madness? I woke up yelling until my throat was dry. I crawled into for comfort. I was terrified of falling back to sleep. I could see the shadows floating around me, mocking me, whispering to me, making me crazy. I cried for the rest of the night. This morning was super boring as usual. But around noon, I was watching t.v. and accidentally fell asleep. I dreamed of walking through endless darkness. It was really misty. I found Maka crying, but instead of her calling me a monster, she said my name. I tried to talk to her but then she said that she had killed me. Then she went mad and Medusa showed up. They were both talking to me very creepily. Maka said I was a 'toy' and that she was playing a 'game'. Eventually, I was pushed into the ground and she stabbed me through my stomach and my chest. Then she sat down and closed her eyes. When she opened them, she was her normal self again. She started to cry and was horrified of what she had done. She pushed herself away and said I killed you Crona over and over again. Which was weird, it seemed like the dream had looped. But, before the nightmare had ended, she asked me, "did you know your blood is black?" and I woke up, yelling. The rest of the day was boring and I got to talk to Maka one last time. Then I went here and started writing in my journal. This is a long entry, and probably the longest one I'll have. Goodnight, myself.
I ended the entry there. It was pretty long, but its not like anyone else but me is going to read it. Maka probably will, but that will be a long time from now. I'll start writing in this more often. I looked around the room and saw that the shadows were starting to gather around me. I walked over to with my pillow and decided to relax there until it was time to start the new day. The day I have to walk Cumo around the school. The day that things really start to get crappy.
This is a long chapter. I hope they get longer =) I love the reviews you guys are leaving! It helps me a lot, I get more and more confidence in my writing every time you guys review. =D This has gotten really dark. MUAHAHAHA! Did you guys like the nightmares? I did! *evil smile* Although it makes me sad that i'm torturing Crona my fav character. The chapters are going to get sweeter though... I think. I hope you guys enjoyed! I love to write these chapters for you guys, it makes me happy that I finally get to let my creativity out. If you guys have questions or requests for this story, i'd be happy to read them and I would reply. Yes, Cumo is a character I created. I have many plans for her. Don't forget to review! Bye Bye!