Chapter fifteen- September 18th 2028

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Chapter fifteen plot- Jo attends another therapy session.

"Jo, I need some assistance with a lung transplant this morning. Are you able to help me out?" Alex asks as he walks I got her office. "Oh my gosh, I am so sorry," Alex says as she quickly turns around upon realising that Jo was breastfeeding Lily.

"Why are you sorry?" Jo asks confused.

"I just barged in here while you were feeding Lily," Alex says.

"Alex, it's fine. You can turn around. My breasts aren't some kind of secret. Besides, you've seen me naked before," Jo replies. "And I'm not talking to the back of your head so you'd better turn around," Jo states. Alex slowly turns around.

"Sorry," he says. "I just thought you might be uncomfortable about me seeing your breasts," he adds.

"Like I said. You've seen me naked. Although, granted, they don't look how they used to look. They look kinda saggy and not as perky and my nipples are all dried and cracked from having 4 milk sucking creatures hang of them," Jo replies grinning.

"Urgh, Jo! To much information," Alex replies slightly grossed out and embarrassed by the nature of the conversation..

"What, I'm sorry, it was just so easy," Jo laughs. "Anyway, back to your question, no I can't help you out. I'm sorry. I've got to go to therapy once I'm finished here and drop Lily back into the the daycare. Is somebody else able to help you out?" Jo asks.

"Um, yeah. I can probably get Arizona to help out," Alex says.

"Great. And I'm sorry for grossing you out and embarrassing you," she smiles.

"You're lucky I'm so forgiving," Alex laughs before leaving her office.

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"And I decided to give Amanda another chance," Jo says.

"That's great Jo. Good for you," Dr Milton smiles.

"And then she screwed me over," Jo states.

"Well, I'm sorry to hear that. But Jo, you should be proud of yourself. You gave her a chance, you don't have to live in wonder thinking what could of been in your relationship," Dr Milton replies.

"Well, that's one way to look at it. But I opened up to her, I revealed things to her that are hard for me to even talk about. It feels like she emotionally robbed me... In addition to stealing several things from my house. I just don't believe her! What nerve!" Jo vents.

"Do you want to talk about how she made you feel?" Dr million asks.

Why am I not surprised that she asked me that. But I couldn't be happier that she asked. Because answering that question always gives me so much relief.

"Honestly, She made me hate her more. And I'm so angry at myself for letting her in," Jo replies.

"Jo, you had no way of knowing what would happen. It's a part of life, you have to let your guard down and see what happens. Yes, sometimes you get screwed over, but sometimes they go well. The point is that you never know until you let your guard down and you try. You've come a long way Jo," Dr Milton smiles.

"Wh... What are you talking about. We're talking about my mother, not David," Jo says.

"Do you remember our very first session?" Dr Milton asks.

"Yes. I.. I refused to talk to you. I sat there for the whole hour session with my arms crossed and I didn't say a word," Jo replies.

I must have been the worst patient.

"That's right. And you sat on the couch for two more sessions and didn't say a word. You were very, very guarded. You didn't want to let anybody in," Dr Milton says.

"And no offence, I hated you," Jo laughs.

"None taken, I get that a lot," She replies.

"But make no mistake, I like you now. You're great," Jo says smiling.

"And after the death of your husband you were very, very, distressed. You were hurt and you were grieving. You didn't know what to do, how to handle it all. So you guarded yourself," Dr Milton says.

"Is there a point to this story?" Jo asks confused.

"My point is that you've come so far now Jo. You've let your down guard down. You have jumped mountains. You are in the midst of your grief but you are managing it and you are dealing with it," Dr Milton says. "Do you think you're doing okay?"

"David isn't here any more, and that's not okay, but I'm okay. I do miss him every single day and that's never going to change, but I'm living with that pain and I've learnt that that's okay. It's okay to feel that way. I built a life with him. It is tough but we're managing. And I think I'm doing pretty well. I love my children and they love me. And while we may not have David with us physically we still have each other, and David is with us in spirit, looking down on us and keeping us safe. And that's never going to change. So yes, I'm doing okay," Jo smiles.

Wow Jo, that was very mature, you go girl!

"I don't think I need to see you anymore," Dr Milton says.

Okay, wow. I didn't see that one coming. I've been seeing Dr Milton every week for so long now, I don't know what I'll do while not seeing her. I don't think I'm ready.

"Ar... Are you sure you don't need to see me, just one or two more times?" Jo asks.

"Jo, it's okay to feel anxious about stopping therapy. But you're ready, I wouldn't be letting you go if you weren't. If there's something on your mind, if you need a reality check or just need to talk, you can always come back to me. My door is always open," she smiles.

"Are you really sure? Like 100% sure?" Jo asks.

"Jo, you have come so far and I can only take you so far. The rest is up to you. Some of The best chapters in your life are still to come. Now you need to take the steering wheel and control them," Dr Milton says.

Jo takes a deep breath. "I guess I said it before, we're doing okay," Jo says.

"You are doing just fine," Dr Milton reassures Jo.

She's right. I am doing just fine. I said it all myself before. I'm living with with my heartbreak and I'm doing just fine. I've come so far and she's right, she can only take me so far. It's up to me to do the rest and I am doing just fine...

Jo looks down at her left hand and pulls her wedding ring of her finger and places the ring on the table in front of her, "I'm finally ready to let go of what was and to move on to what could be," Jo says. "I'm ready to let the sun shine again," Jo says proudly.