Chapter thirteen

Flashback to 1 and ½ years ago

Brian's point of view

Why did I fuck him? Oh yeah I know why; he's beautiful with his blonde hair and blue eyes, god I'm getting hard just thinking about him how sad is that. Why am I getting so upset about one fuck, this is torture, I need to get out of here.

Brian stood from where he was in Woody's; he had been there for over an hour and had only one drink. Emmett who had been in there as well, was concerned about what he saw, it was unusual for Brian to be in any bar or club on Liberty Avenue and not go off to the backroom within the first ten minutes.

So he kissed Drew on the cheek and followed Brian outside, making sure he was ok.

I felt some one following me and when I turned round I saw Emmett, I had seen him and Drew in Woody's but didn't say anything to them. I just sat down with my drink and drank, thinking of the blonde angel named Justin. God, even the name is beautiful, god now I am sad.

I walked off Liberty Avenue and straight to the park; it was where I went to think and that had been a lot lately.

When I got to the lake in the middle of the park I sat on the big rock there and waited for Emmett to say something. I knew he had followed me so it was only a matter of time till I was telling him my problems. I needed to tell someone, better it be Emmett than Michael.

"What's wrong Brian" I heard coming from the softly spoken southern belle

"I'm in love Em" I admitted to him and myself for the first time. I held my breath hoping he wouldn't laugh at me but what I got was something different.

"Tell me about him honey" Emmett said as he sat down next to me on the rock. As he sat down, I started my tale of woe.

"I met him a month ago at the college; you remember the talk I did there about being in advertising (Emmett nodded). Well he was in the lecture hall down in the front. I learnt later that he had 

forgotten his glasses and he couldn't see that well without them. Any way I gave the talk, I was nothing but professional like my mentor taught me to be. But I kept catching myself looking at him. He was writing notes like mad even thou he couldn't see that well. He looked so beautiful with his blonde hair falling in to his eyes and his blue eyes that I swear were as deep and as blue as the sea, they were gorgeous. Anyway, after the talk as I was packing up, he came over and introduced himself and asked if there was any way he would be considered a candidate for the internship at Kinnetik, he had brought his portfolio along with him and the talent he has is just unbelievable.

My god Emmett, he can draw. I knew he would be the perfect man for the internship but I had other candidates to consider, but I wanted to get to know him better more than I actually wanted to him to be the intern. So we talked about his hopes and dreams. We went for coffee and talked until the coffee shop had to close so we came here and just sat on this rock and talked until he had to go home. He was only 18 so still had curfew, which I thought, was sweet. He gave me his number so I could call him and I did call the next day, as soon as I knew he was awake. He giggled as he realised that I couldn't wait to talk to him again. We talked off and on for a month but last night I fucked him, no I made love to him, and now he won't answer any of my calls and his dad's won't put him on the phone. I've fucked up Emmett and I love him so badly it hurts." Brian said as he broke down in sobs and cried on Emmett's shoulder, all while letting the queen hold him.

Emmett watched in disbelief as the man who seemed so together and could have any man he wanted, cry over one guy. He was shocked that Brian Kinney was a man that had everything he ever wanted but this guy that he was love with seemed to have taken Brian's heart.

"Have you told him sweetie" Emmett asked as he helped Brian sit up.

"No not yet, I was hoping to take him to dinner tonight but I can't get hold of him." Brian said as he sat up, wiping his eyes with his wrist , he was sure that if he told Justin that he loved him, he 

wouldn't run away but he had to find him first.

"Will you help me" Brian asked shyly. He didn't like to ask for help but he knew he had to ask for help if he wanted to keep the man he loved.