*I do not own Divergent or any of its characters
I hear Tobias's voice as I wake from the fainting.
"Tris. Tris. Tris please wake up." He whispers in my ear holding me. His muscular arms wrapped around me. My eyes flutter open. He looks relieved and kisses my forehead.
"What's the matter Trispop? Who's car is that?" Leave it to Uriah to still use my nickname.
I get up from the ground and feel sick to my stomach. Only because I haven't seen them for years. Not since they left. I make my way to the door. I need to face them alone, because I don't know what to expect.
"Tris.." I cut Tobias off.
"I need all of you to go outback. To the downstairs door, got it?" They all nod at me.
"Wait till I come and get you. Stay there until I come down. If you see someone don't go in just wait outside." They all look confused and Tobias is about to object.
"Shhh. No you need to just do what I say." I see them walk back. Zeke and Will mostly pulling Tobias.
I open the door to see my father and Caleb waiting for me.
"Beatrice what the hell are you wearing?" Caleb does not approve much of me.
"A dress Caleb tonight was homecoming. I won homecoming queen." I look at my feet. My father believes flashy clothing is selfish. I can tell he's upset.
"Go change now!" My father roars. I quickly follow and rush up the stairs. I slips on the clothing he approves. Grey loose clothes; without makeup. I put my bow in after I french braid my hair.
I walk down the stairs to face them.
"Beatrice you need to get rid of those clothes but first we have to talk."
"Thank you Caleb. Caleb and I have both gotten jobs and been located near here for a couple years. We will be staying at the house and driving an hour to work." They are going to live with me. How can they? They can't even stand to look me in the eyes right now?
"So father and I found a boarding school in England you will be sent to. We thought it would be great for your academics." NO! They will not send me away! I was here first!
"Academics my ass Caleb! I know why you want me to leave! It's not going to happen! I just started school! I have friends and a life! I can't!"
"Beatrice that is very selfish of you! How dare you be this selfish! You already have been selfish enough in your life!" This is it. Tonight is going to be when we finally discuss her.
"Yes dad! I know mom died in my hands! Its not my fault! I was six I tried to help her!"
"NO YOU DIDNT! IF YOU REALLY TRIED THEN SHE WOULD BE ALIVE! YOU SHOULD HAVE DIED INSTEAD OF HER!" The last words that came out of my fathers mouth stung like no other. I see and feel the tears streaming down my face.
I run and grab my bag. I don't need to hear anymore on how I should have died. I already know it's true.
I see my friends in the downstairs sitting. They all get up when they see me.
Tobias comes to hug me or comfort me. I just put my hand put to stop him. Right now I need to be alone.
His face looks hurt. The others try to comfort me as well. This just makes me run. I run through the trees and I run through a stream. I just run.
I don't know how long I have been running. I just finally decide to stop. Surrounding me is a forest. The cool breeze brushes my skin. I don't see anyone behind me. I continue to cry; until I fall to my knees and scream.
I scream for my mother.
I scream for the relationship between my family.
I scream for the guilt I carry.
I scream for my fears.
And finally I scream for my future. As screwed up as it may be.
Once I am done screaming I realize how long I have held that in. It feels like some weight has been lifted. Stress is gone, but I still know the problem is lies beneath.
I slip on my sweatshirt and leggings. Pulling my hoodie over after I start off. The walk is quiet and peaceful as I walk to The Chasm. Or that's the official name of the fight arena.
When I open the door I see a pacing nervous Tobias with the others sitting. Once he sees me I am engulfed in his arms. He strokes my hair as I embed my face into his shirt.
"We can talk about it later." He whispers to me. I nod at him. He pulls just enough apart to kiss my forehead. I am so glad he is here for me. Even when I first rejected him.
I don't hesitate now. I just go to the bag. I start punching and kicking; getting in a zone. I doubt I could hear someone behind me. I am just shutting everything out.
The bag drops and I kick it to the side. Tobias replaces it and I go back in. The bag swings wildly. I give it a last kick and it gives too. This time I groan in frustration when I kick it to the side. Again my bag is replaced and I continue.
This time I picture the mans face from that day. The bag drops sooner then the other.
I notice this is my last bag available. This time all that plays in my head is what my father told me. I should have died. Instead of punching I get so frustrated that I charge at the bag. I didn't think that I could pull the hook out of the wall. But I now know since I am on top of the bag lying on the ground.
Mack comes over and helps me up.
"Damn Tris your expensive you know that?! Four could you wrap her knuckles she never tapped them. I need to go order new bag thanks to hot shot." Mack walks to his office as Tobias cleans my hands. He dabs up the blood and Tori walks in.
"We need to talk? What happened? And don't say nothing because you broke four bags and the wall." Tobias finishes wrapping my hands and kisses them. He then wraps his arm around me.
"My father an Caleb are moving in the house. They are trying to send me off to a boarding school. ...in England." Tobias grip I stronger once I say England. I know he doesn't want me to leave.
"Tris I don't know what to say." Tori would help but she can't.
"I told him I can't; that I won't. He called me selfish and said I have been selfish." I can feel tears prickling my face again.
"I know he was saying I was selfish for not helping mom more. I told him that I tried. And I did but there was nothing I could do." Tobias wipes the tears away with his thumb.
"He told me I should have died instead of her." To be honest I agree with him. It was my fault she died.
I can't hold back the water works anymore. Tobias pulls me into him. He stokes my hair as I cry into his chest. We stay like this for a moment. Then I pull apart and he again wipes my tears.
"You guys go out there. I will be fine; I just have to think before I fight." Everyone clears out besides Tobias. He hugs me and holds me for a moment.
"Your not leaving. Don't worry I will figure something out. I'm not loosing you." His deep voice whispers in my hair.
We pull apart and I look into his eyes. Determination fills them, and love. Never has someone stood up for me like he does.
His arms slowly pull off me and leave the room. He knows I need a moment to think.
I sit down in a corner and pull out my bow. I rub the ribbon between my fingers. I close my eyes and whisper.
"I am so sorry mom. I never wished that to be your fate. I love you and always will."
"Sometimes I wonder why I was left here. Why I never joined you, but now I think I know why."
"You said that I never leave those who can't fly behind. That I stole your heart. You told me to touch others hearts." I sigh.
"You left without me so I could find and give love. I am going to admit it isn't easy. Especially when those closet to you can't love you like they used to. But I will keep trying. Just like I promised you." I still rub the ribbon in my fingers.
"From now on I won't feel pity for myself. I have been living in my past and I shouldn't. I am going to give life my best. No longer will I deny myself what life holds." My heart leaps as I speak again.
"I will open up my heart." I place the bow back in my hair. For an instant I feel hand just my bow. My mother used to do that always. By that feeling that small act I know she is with me. She is happy for my decision.
Now I have a fight to win and a life to live.
I don't even bother to put my hoodie up for the fight. Instead I change into a hot pink racer back. I don't need to hide anymore the whole world can see me.
Once I emerge from the training room I am met by a crowd. I smile at my fans and their fascination of me.
I see a father holding his son on his shoulders. I boy has a huge grin plastered to his face.
"Hey what's your name little guy?" He has short red hair and looks to be about five years old. His light blue eyes go wide as I ask him.
"Oliver." He pipes up.
"Nice to meet you Oliver I am 6."
"I know I love to come and watch you. It's so cool when you fight! It's all pow, pow, and bang." At bang he acts unconscious. I can't help but laugh at this.
"Well thanks buddy. You know I think I have something for you." I walk into the training room again. I pick up my old boxing gloves from when I was younger. I grab a marker and sign them.
Keep Fighting! Love Tris aka 6.
When I walk out and give Oliver them his face lights up. I put the gloves on him and he is awestruck.
"These were one of my first boxing gloves. I boxed for a while when I learned to fight. I hope you like them little guy. See ya out there!" He waves at me while I sign pictures. Then he starts to punch the air. I can tell he's just so happy.
While I sign my famous, Keep Fighting~6, I hear a familiar annoying voice.
"Look at her she's just so scrawny. That guy is going to crush her. She doesn't stand a chance." Molly is going to eat her words again. Does she ever shut up?
I sign more pictures, phones, and shirts before I speak.
"I would love to stay but I got to go and kick some butt!" I crowd roars when I hop on the stage. I can see my friends and they look shocked.
First that I am not crying from tonight. Second that I am not hiding myself. And third that I am being open. I instantly look at Tobias and he knows something with me has changed. Something was finally opened up.
I wink at him and egg my fans on. They continue to cheat and scream "6..6..6..6..6..6!"
Then I see what I am up against. Large and muscular. About 250 would be my guess, but it's all muscle. I will have to be quick and make my hits count.
Mack tells us to go and I listen. Then I hear music playing. I turn to see Zeke with a radio on his shoulders. He has an iPod plugged in and is playing Starships. I can feel a grin tug at my lips. They know I love music! Then I turn to my opponent as the song starts.
He throws a punch at my jaw, but I duck. Then I punch his nose, but he ducks. Then the unexpected happens. He lunges at me with full force.
I slide to the side and he stumbles trying to stop. Instead of running into the edge he slips stopping. Falling on his back.
"Bad b*tches like me are hard to come by." I sing with the song. I can tell my fans are loving this.
He gets up and try's to kick me; I dodge his kick. He throws another punch at my face, but I still block it. Then I twist his hand that I got from blocking.
"So give me more, more, till I can't stand!" I sing and slightly tease him.
I twist his arm further and push him back on the ground.
"If you want more, more. Then here I am!" I sing. Then I hears my friends start the crowd singing. Everyone joins in.
"Starships were meant to fly! Hand up and touch the sky! Can't stop cause we're so high!" They scream and yell. Then he gets up and looks pissed.
"Let's do this one more time!" I scream and the crowd continues to sing.
Lunging at me I kick him in the gut. He still make an effort to tackle me so I punch his nose. I hear a crack and see blood coming out. He is still in shock and pain so I take the moment to kick his chest. His body falls to ground and I turn him over. Then twisting his arms so he can't get up.
Mack throws my hand and I sing with the crowd. While the guy gets his nose fixed up.
I see Molly with my other classmates in the crowd. I make my way over to them.
"So much for getting 'crushed' now. Wouldn't you say Molly?" Molly's face drops when she sees who I am.
"You may want to close your mouth Molly. It isn't attractive." I scoff and turn to everyone else.
"So what did you guys think?" No one from my class speaks. The ones who just found out I am 6 are still gaping.
"Didn't I just get through saying that's not attractive? Geeez!" I chuckle.
"Zeke where the hell are you? I thought you were tall?" I see some kids move out of my way and I walk towards him.
"I am tall. That means I can see you. Being short means you can't see me."
"Ha ha very funny." I scrunch my nose at him. I feel an arm wrap around me. I look up to see Tobias smiling at me.
"Tris you were hilarious up there. You basically teased him and beat him up."
"Why thank you Lynn. I couldn't have done it without the help of music boy."
Zeke grins madly at my comment. Then he plays another song that will pump me up.
"Hot and dangerous. If you're one of us then roll with us. 'Cause we make the hipsters fall in love. When we got our hot pants on and up." I sing
"And yes of course we does. We runnin' this town just like a club. And no, you don't wanna mess with us. Got Jesus on my necklace-ace-ace." Christina sings back.
"Got that glitter on my eyes. Stockings ripped all up the side. Looking sick and sexyfied. So let's go, oh, oh, let's go" I sing to her. Then the whole crowd erupts into singing.
I make my way to ring grabbing pictures and a sharpie. I start signing and taking picture with people.
For once I could care less about people knowing me. Or what waits ahead, because what matters is now. My life now, not before, not then, but now.
After a bit of signing I walk out with my friends to room 6. I shut the door and start laughing.
"God that feels good! I never realized how much fun that could be!"
"Tris are we going back to my house instead of yours. We don't want to upset your dad and brother."
"Fine with me Uriah. I will deal with them in the morning. How are you guys in regular clothes I forgot to ask?"
"You tossed most of the guys clothes in the basement guest rooms. Then the girls found some extra clothes in the guest room." Tobias tells me.
"Oh that's good. Alright we will go to Uriah's and Zeke's but we aren't walking."
"Tris we didn't bring a car."
"Oh we didn't bring one Marlene. But I have something we can take." I grin at my idea.
"Zeke give me the radio. Then you all meet me outside in five."
I grab the radio from Zeke and run up to Mack's office. I grab one of the keys hanging on the wall. Then make my way to the garage. Mack parks his car here, but we aren't taking his car. I still want to fight with him so we are taking something else.
I hop in and start the song Come with me now. As I pull out the song starts and my friends see me.
"Get in the golf cart b*tches!" They run over and sit or hang off the cart.
We pass fans and I wave at them. They freak out at us and the cart. Screaming, laughing, and giggling.
I continue to drive to the Pedrad house as we sing to the radio.
"Alright Pansycakes get off the golf cart. We're here." I pull into their drive way.
"TRISSYPOP USED PANSYCAKE! ITS AN OFFICIAL PHRASE!" Uriah screams.
"I only said it to please you Uriah. Do your parents know we are here?" Uriah looks partially sad.
"Yeah I called them. Said we are crashing here instead. Mom actually said shes going to her sisters. So she can get sleep." He laughs at the last part.
Zeke opens the door to a large living room. We all sit down in a circle or on the couch.
Then I run to the fridge and grabs some beers. I hand each person a beer and myself excluded. Then I sit in the circle by Uriah and Zeke. Tobias sits across staring at me.
I wink at him and he winks back at me.
"I will start! Never have I ever played never have I ever with beer." Uriah turns rapidly to me.
"Tris you played with us that one time. After the party."
"Yeah I know. But I switched my beer with water Uricakes. So start sipping." He groans and the rest take a sip. Uriah's next and he's smirking at me.
"Never have I ever been in a professional fight."
"So now it's get Tris drunk. Fine by me. Go ahead and try." I then take a sip. Marlene's turn.
"Never have I ever broke a punching bag." Tobias and I cheer to each other and sip. I know that he works out and took self defense. He said he had to be ready if his father tried to harm his mom or him again.
"Never have I ever had blonde hair." Shauna, Will, and I both sip to Christina's comment.
"Never have I ever jumped off a Ferris wheel." I hold a huge grin when I take a sip. Tobias give me a slight disapproving look. He still is upset that I would let him believe I was dying.
"We could fix that problem." Tobias is pale, he is afraid of heights.
"We're good Tris. Never have I ever been close to my death. Like on the verge." I sip. I have done many drastic things. Skydiving, fighting, free falling, and zip lining.
"Never have I ever not been attracted to Four." Lynn says. Causing all the other girls to drink.
"Hey ladies." Tobias winks as he says this.
"Lynnnnn! Now he will be even more full of himself." I whine. I hear Tobias chuckle. His deep voice fills my ears.
"Never have I ever...been Homecoming Queen!" I again sip. My bottle sits empty in my hands. Thanks Shauna. Zeke then grabs vodka and a shot glass. I have to take shots.
This will be interesting.
*Hey my Darlings! It has been hard so far I have been on writers block for this story. I used to be at least two to three chapters ahead. Now ,since vacation conflicted, I'm just writing upcoming chapters. So writers block is becoming a struggle.
I decided that Tris needed to stop holding back this chapter. Before she used to show her good side. To show off Four, but now she won't be showing off. Tris was being eaten away with guilt and sorrow. I felt it was best for her to just let go. That's why I made the scene of fixing the bow. Thinking of her mother made her think of what she's been doing. It finally made her realize she wasn't in fault for her mothers death. So she could no longer hide or drown in doubt.
So I did hear a request for an exert of my coming up story. I am so excited for this!
Beauty of Dauntless (Exert so the writing is not finished. In the story the writing will be edited and fixed more.)
Four Eaton 10:00 October 31st Masquerade Ball
I sit down at this stupid dance. Girls keep asking me to dance and I decline.
Everyone is the same. Tight, short dress and shove their boobs in my face. To be honest it gets frustrating. They all wear similar masquerade mask too. So it's like a broken record.
Apparently I am quite the catch. Since I am not interested in any of the girls either it's become a game. Whoever can get Four; it just pisses me off.
"Four you haven't danced at all tonight."
"I wonder why Shauna?" She glares at my response.
"Oh my god!" Christina gasps and places her hand over her mouth.
"What is it?" All she does is point.
I turn around to see it. What I see is definitely not an it. It's a who.
I have never seen someone so beautiful in my life. She wears a black dress that flows out like no other. I can see her golden mask shine just like her hair. Her glowing long blonde locks. This girl is different from any other and I like that about her.
I have to dance with this girl. Something about her loops me in.
By the time her petite body has flown down the stairs I stand there. She looks at the others around me it isn't till she sees me she stops. Her thin hand stretches out to me. I grasp her soft fingers and lead her to dance.
My hand places at her waist and the other in her hand. We both start to waltz.
All I can do is stare into her eyes. They have gray all over but hidden in the surface is blue. The blue shines bright and through. It's like a star, hidden in the dark sky. When noticed it shines brighter then anything else.
As our eyes are locked I can't help but feel her dancing. In my whole life I have never met someone who dances this good. She feels the rhythm and moves with it. Creating not two dancers but one.
She is fabulous. Her black dress sways at every move and her curls dance with her as well. Every move we take feels like it meant to be. Even at her touch I feel different, like I am lifted.
As we continue to dance I can tell she's confident. Each step is precise and exact. This girl is beautiful and she doesn't throw herself at me. I can't help but have feelings towards her.
The song ends too soon in my mind. She curtsies and I take her hand. I place a kiss on her hand. In that instant I feel something. A feeling I am not sure if I can describe. The feeling of everything is perfect and nothing is wrong. I instantly miss the feeling as I pull my lips up and lead her off the dance floor.
A can feel a grin tugging at my face and I give in. All my friends sit at the table grinning as well. I look over to the extravagant girl. She herself is smiling now and I can't help but notice how stunning she is. She doesn't hide her beauty in makeup. She has very little on, because she doesn't need any. Shes already perfect.
"Thank you for the lovely dance. I will be back soon. Please do save the next dance for me." Her voice is lovely and angelic. I could just melt by how polite she is; unlike many others. She leans in and places a kiss on my cheek. Something inside me lights up and I desperately want to kiss her.
My stomach has been in knots ever since I saw her. Except when we touch she is the cure for the knots. There is something about her.
Her small body glides off to the refreshment table and I still hold a grin.
"Four you two are perfect for each other. Even seeing you dance together I could tell there is a connection." Marlene says.
"She is amazing. I can't even begin to describe her. I have never met someone so beautiful and confident. She dances like no other girl."
"I'm not sure about that. Why don't we take a break from that little thing and you dance with me." Nita stands in front of me. She is sticking her chest straight into my face. I could care less about Nita. All I want to do is see her again.
Then I do see her. She is short but it only adds to her fierceness. Her hair sparkles in the light and so do her eyes. The dress she is wearing outlines her body perfectly. It fits nicely around her waist and then flows outward. Giving her an irresistible look.
I move Nita out of the way and give the girl my full attention. Nita stomps off in frustration and I could care less.
"I am sorry to interrupt your conversation with her. I just thought you would like some champagne." Her soft voice flows straight to me. She hands me the drink and for a moment our hands touch. Warmth spreads through me when it does.
"You could interrupt any conversation I have. Thank you for the champagne." Her smile I could just bottle and it would bring me happiness each day. We both take a sip.
"You are a wonderful dancer."
"Thank you it helps to have a partner like yourself." She doesn't even boast about herself. This girl is not flaunting herself at me or even trying hard to impress me. Yet she already has impressed me more then any other person. We both take a sip from our glasses again.
"You look beautiful in that dress. Your the talk of the ball with your beauty and dancing." We both turn to hear Christina say this.
"My name is Christina."
"Thank you for the compliment, Christina." I just stare at her. She attracts all my attention. Voice, beauty, dancing, and charm. When she notices he staring she stares at me. We both just stand there; smiling at each other.
"Would you like to dance?" I ask her and she nods. I take her hand and walk out to dance. She places both her hands and I feel the rush again. Then we start to dance to the music. I feel a grin tug at my lips. This girl could bring me to my feet just by asking.
We both move flawlessly and hold a pattern. I spin her and she spins back in my arms. I hold her for a moment not wanting to let go. Then we continues to dance. Spinning her, twirling, changing steps, quickening, and slowing our pace. We work as one.
Her body has a sense for the music. Knowing what to do before the moment comes. Then executing it perfectly.
I hear the song end and a fast pace Tango start. Then I see her start to dance.
Never in my life have I seen someone pull of a tango in a ball gown. Here I am now dancing with a girl who does a better tango then any regular dressed girl. I join her in the quick pace and we dance as one machine.
She kicks her legs back and forth on the ground as we move. Swaying and twirling at every moment. I dip and spin her and she amazes me. I can feel the music get intense and so do we. Our hearts and breaths in sink.
I dip her and she sways in a half circle. My heart jumps at this sight. I even now notice that we are the only ones dancing. Others just watch us move with each other back and forth.
I hear the music start to end and I dip her. Never have I felt this way for a girl.
I lean in and press my lips to hers. The feeling is indescribable and I can't believe it.
She leans up from the dip. Still standing in my arms and filling my body full of warmth.
Then she leans forward and kisses me.
I never want this moment to end. For once I have feelings for a girl. But I wouldn't necessarily describe this as a feeling. It's more of a need for her to be close to me. I think I am in love.
No it's not a question. I am in love with her, I can feel it.
"DING DING DING!" I can feel the shock spread on her as she us pulls apart.
"It's 12 I am sorry I have to go!" She quickly picks up her dress as she says this. Next thing I know she's running up and out the door. I quickly chase after her.
I don't even know this girl and I think I am in love with her.
Wait I don't know her name!
No this night can't be over. She is perfect I can't loose her.
"Wait! Come back please!" I call to her.
I still hear the click of her heels outside the door.
"Wait I don't even know your name!" I yell to her.
By the time I am out the door she is gone. She has already ran off.
All that's left of her is a gold mask. I pick up her gold detailed mask and hold it in my hands. Why did this girl have to leave? I feel empty without her now. All I can do is hope that we meet again. I hear footsteps behind me.
"Hey Four you guys were amazing. I sense you really like this girl. I guess you did find your princess." Zeke pats my back. He doesn't realize I lost her too.
"Only if it hadn't turned out like Cinderella."
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