As Dixie lay there on Jon's chest while he was sleeping like a baby, she thought back to the first time they had been together. She had gone on a road trip with them and they all went to a bar after the show one night. Colby had a few too many drinks and so had she. She got angry because the bartender was flirting with him and he seemed to enjoy it.

"Come on Dixie! Why are you mad, baby?"

"Because if I wasn't here right now, you would probably be sneaking off to fuck that bitch right now!"

"No I wouldn't!"

"Yeah right. You sure are enjoying all this new found fame and all the attention and perks it is bringing you, right?"

"That is bullshit! So what if she was flirting with me?"

"You were flirting back! You think I didn't see you wink at her and check her out? You were licking your lips for fuck's sakes! I need some air." She stormed away from him and Colby tried to grab her arm.

"Dixie, wait!"

She jerked her arm away and stared angrily at him. "Don't." She marched out of the bar and stood against the wall, fumbling to get her cigarettes and lighter from her purse.

"Jon, please go have a cigarette with her. Just keep an eye on her man. This isn't the safest neighborhood. If I go out there, she will probably just take off or hit me. Or both."

"Sure, man. I need a smoke anyway. I won't let her bolt." Jon went out the door and saw Dixie throw her purse down with an unlit cigarette in her mouth and tears in her eyes.

"What's the matter with you?"

"Colby is an asshole and I can't find my fucking lighter!"

"Okay, okay. Look, I can't do anything about Colby, but I got a lighter. Here." He lit her cigarette and she inhaled deeply.

"Thanks. Did he send you out here?"

"Nope. I just needed a smoke. Good thing I saw you though. Can't have you bawling over a lighter" he said with a smile.

She laughed back "no, I guess not. You know, it was bad enough when he was in Ring of Honor and women would come on to him, I was with him all the time to beat them off. But now, he could be fucking a different bitch every night, and I would never know."

Jon was aware that Colby got a lot of propositions from women but didn't say that he had never been unfaithful to Dixie. Jon leaned against the wall beside her "I don't know, Dix. That is between you two."

Dixie stared into Jon's big blue eyes and flicked her cigarette out of her hand. She reached up to touch Jon's face "you have pretty dimples."

He smiled and took her hand. "You're drunk. But thank you."

"You know what else? Your lips look soft."

Jon laughed loudly "yeah, you are wasted."

"I'm not that drunk, Jonathan. I guess I just never noticed how sexy you really are." She ran her hands up his shirt and lightly brushed her fingers across his tight abs. Jon shivered at her feather- light touch. He knew he should tell her to stop, but he liked the attention. She stretched up to grip the back of his neck and pulled his face to hers. Instantly, she crashed her mouth against his and licked his lips, wanting to pry them apart. Jon gave in and let her in, her tongue now ravishing his mouth. He moaned against her lips and felt his knees go weak. He wasn't sure any woman had ever kissed him the way that she was in that moment.

He felt his cock getting hard and knew she felt it too. She grabbed him by his belt loops and pulled him around the corner. As soon as they were out of sight, she unbuttoned his jeans and stroked the head of his cock. He tried to regain his self-control "Dixie…..I think we should….uh…stop….."

She smiled wickedly at him "I don't think we should. I want to feel this big dick inside me, Jon. I want you to fuck me hard right here against this wall and show me what my body was made for."

"What about…."

Dixie kissed him roughly and bit his lip "no. Right now I want you." She turned and leaned against the wall. She pulled her leather skirt up and Jon saw she wasn't wearing panties.

"Oh fuck, that is hot."

She lightly slapped him "stop gawking and show me what you can do with that dick."

He shoved her against the wall and pushed his forearm against her chest. "You wanna play rough, bitch? I can show you rough." She chewed her lip and gazed up at him with lowered lids. He saw in her eyes that she craved this and he was shocked by her brazenness. He wanted her too so he gave in. He lifted her up and forcefully drove his cock inside her wet pussy. She moaned loudly and he covered her mouth with his hand. "Shut the fuck up. You want to get caught?"

She shook her head and licked his hand. He looked surprised at her but stuck two fingers in her mouth to keep her quiet. "Why don't you suck those like you will my dick later, bitch?"

She swirled her tongue around his fingers before taking them to the back of her throat without gagging. Jon was incredibly turned on and kept pounding her, hoping he got the chance to have her blow him sometime. She wrapped her legs around his waist and bounced on his cock. She loved the feel of his powerful body and how he snapped his hips. She had missed the rough sex with Colby and hungered for exactly what Jon was giving her. He felt that he was about to come but wanted to make her come as well. He slammed into her brutally, with hard and fast strokes deep inside her. He heard a growl from her throat and knew she was about to climax. He thrust violently up into her and felt her release. She clamped down tightly around his cock and he felt his release burst out of him. His knees didn't feel like they would hold his weight anymore, so he fell against her, bracing himself on the wall.

She kissed his neck and whispered in his ear "that was fucking incredible."

Before he could say anything, his phone started ringing. He knew it was Colby calling him. "Shit." He reached in his pocket and pulled his phone out and tried to catch his breath before answering. "Yeah?"

"Hey, is Dixie okay? Is she with you?"

"Of course man, she is fine."

"She calmed down any?"

"Yeah, I managed to calm her ass down."

"Oh, thanks man. I owe you."

"Don't worry about it. We'll be inside in a little while." He hung up the phone and stared down at Dixie. "You are calmer right?"

"Oh, yes sir."

"Good. Now, let's go back in and pretend that shit never happened. I don't want your old man to kill me."

She kissed Jon softly. "Okay, not a word. Never happened. Never will again. Got it."

After that moment, as hard as she tried, she couldn't stay away from him. She would sneak off with him for a quickie every time they got the chance. As she gazed up at his peaceful expression, she wondered when it was that she fell in love with him too. Colby used to be so sweet and romantic, always respectful, and adored her. She felt guilty every time she was with Jon, and she felt even worse now that she had feelings for him, and he appeared to feel the same way about her. She couldn't understand how she could fall for two men that were so decidedly different.

She slipped out of bed and went to take a shower. She knew she would have to make it downstairs with her bags without being seen, then make her way to Colby's room. She started to think she hadn't worked all the kinks out of her plan. While she was in the shower, she remembered the first time she made love to Colby in the shower. He was loving and gentle, taking the time to please her and worship her body. She closed her eyes and could feel his hands on her. After so many years together, they knew each other's physique so well. Every time that she thought Jon would be the man she chose, she remembered how much she loved Colby too. She had one love in her heart, and one love that was always on her mind; too bad they weren't the same man.

When she emerged from the bathroom, Jon was sitting on the edge of the bed with his head in his hands. He saw her and looked up, glaring at her. "So, were you even going to fucking tell me you were leaving or were you just going to bail on me?"

"Of course I was going to tell you I was leaving. I just had to take a shower before I left."

"Somehow I don't believe you."

"Jon, after all the trouble I went through to come see you, and the risk I am taking to be here right now, and you are coming at me like this?" She pushed his chest and shoved past him "Move."

He spun around and grabbed her by the waist. He softly kissed the back of her neck and spoke against her skin "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that. I am glad you are here and last night was great for me…for us."

Dixie leaned back against him "you know the situation I am in and you just keep on doing this to me. I feel guilty enough, and I don't want to hurt both of you."

"Then don't. Stay here. Don't go back to him."

She turned in his arms "you know I can't do that right now."

He let her go and she saw the hurt in his eyes. "Of course you can't. I will never mean as much to you as him, right?"

"I love him, Jon. He has been nothing but good to me since we have been together, and he deserves more than just a 'see you later, it's been fun' phone call. Especially when the other man is one of his best friends, and someone he will still have to work with all the time."

Hearing her say she loved Colby stung."Yeah I know, I get it."

"Then please stop making this harder than it already is."

"I am not fucking trying to make this harder on you!"

"Then what are you trying to do!?"

"I want you to choose me damn it!"

"Yeah, you acting like an ass sure does make me want to do that." She walked away from him and started drying her hair.

"Fine. I won't say another mother fucking thing." He grabbed his clothes and starting jerking them on. It killed Dixie to know she upset him and he was hurting because of her. She drew a deep breath and tried to calm down. She wasn't really mad at him; she was angrier with herself. She understood and knew he had every right to want answers from her. She dreaded the choice she was going to have to make, and soon.

She stood up in front of him and he turned his face away from her. She tucked his hair behind his ear and ran her fingers down his jaw. "Jon, I am sorry. I know this isn't fair to you either." He was quiet as she stroked her thumb across his cheek. "Baby, please stop frowning. Last night was so wonderful; I don't want us to leave it like this."

He wouldn't look at her and was silent as the grave. "Okay then." She got her clothes on and put everything back in the suitcase, with Jon still sitting on the bed not saying a word.

She rolled her luggage to the door and turned around to look at him. His expression was cold and his face looked hard as stone. She walked back over to him and leaned down to kiss his cheek. "I know you are upset that I have to go, but I will miss you and I will be thinking of you." She really did hate leaving him, but for now she knew she had to. He paused, hoping for her to tell him she loved him too, but the words he longed to hear never came. He was beginning to wonder if she would ever love him the way that he had fallen for her.

He got up and stopped her before she opened the door. "Dixie, wait." He twirled her around and lowered his lips to meet hers, tenderly kissing her. "I will be thinking of you too."

She smiled and hugged him tightly. He buried his nose in her hair and caressed her back. She wanted so much to confess to him how she felt in that moment, but she couldn't. She was afraid if she told him she loved him, it would make things worse, so she kept her mouth shut.

She stared into his eyes and composed herself. "I'll see you later, Jon." She took the handle to her suitcase and walked out. He knew he had to wait a while before leaving so no one would see anything so he lay back down on the bed. She left him the keys to turn in whenever he left, hoping it wouldn't look suspicious.

She made it to the front desk without seeing anyone she knew so she was relieved. "Hello, my name is Dixie Matthews. My boyfriend Colby Lopez was supposed to leave a key for me at the desk."

"Yes ma'am, if you can just show us your ID."

She showed them her drivers' license and they handed her a key. "Sorry, we can't be too careful. He is in room 607."

"It's okay. I am glad you are diligent in keeping him safe. There are nuts in this world. Thanks." She trekked back to the elevator and this time to the 6th floor. She found Colby's room and snuck in. He was still asleep, like she figured he would be, so she stripped down and climbed into bed with him. She kissed his shoulders and traced her lips down the tattoo on his back. She curled her arms around him and rested her head against his neck. He barely woke up and pulled her arms closer around him before falling back asleep. She saw the smile that appeared on his lips and the contented expression on his face. She gazed at him, and her heart ached. The first time with Jon, when she sobered up, she was disgusted with herself. She didn't want to hurt Colby, so she didn't tell him. She also couldn't bring herself to tell him she was bored in their relationship. She didn't want to damage his ego by telling him she wasn't happy with their sex life. After the dirty sex she had with Jon, Colby just wasn't enough. He was gentle and treated her like a delicate flower, but that wasn't what she wanted. She wanted to be manhandled and dominated. She avoided Jon for a few weeks after their indiscretion, but one night while Colby ran to pick up pizza and beer, they ended up having sex again. Her mind was racing and her conscience wouldn't let her fall asleep.

An hour later, Colby woke up and glanced over his shoulder at his girlfriend's green eyes looking back at him. "Good morning, mama."

"Good morning." He rolled over and kissed her, then laid his head on her chest. "I am glad you were here when I woke up, Dixie."

"Me too, baby. Are you hungry? Do you want me to order you some breakfast?"

"Not right now. I am supposed to meet the boys in the gym this morning."

"Colby…"

"I'm sorry, baby. I didn't think you would be here this early. I can call Joe and tell them I'm not coming."

"No, you go ahead. I know how seriously you take staying in shape."

"You can come with me. The guys will be on their best behavior with you around."

"Don't you think my presence might make them nervous?"

"Why would it? Not like half the world has seen them shirtless. Come on, it will be fun. I will take you for breakfast afterwards, I promise."

"Okay. I will go so you can show off for me. I know that is what you really want!"

Colby laughed "you caught me! You know it is. You know you are impressed with all of this!" he told her, flexing his muscles.

"Of course I am. You are a sexy man, Colby."

"And you are beautiful." He kissed her again and moaned as he felt her hands stroking his back. He finally pulled away "okay, you better stop or we won't make it to breakfast, mi amor."

She sighed "yeah, you're right. We had better change and go." She loved his kisses and his touch, but she wished he would be more spontaneous instead of planning when they should make love.

Jon made it back to the room he was sharing with Joe, and he was already awake. "Bro, where have you been all night?"

"Oh, dude I met this chick down at the bar who thought it was an injustice I was sleeping alone. I went back to her room with her and remedied that."

Joe smirked "you are a fucking chick magnet. They fall at your feet. I don't get it."

Jon laughed it off "yeah, I don't get it either." He liked that women found him attractive, but none of them were what he wanted.

"Don't forget we are meeting Colby in the gym in 10."

"Oh shit. Yeah I had forgotten. He is killing me with this CrossFit shit, but the ladies like what it has done for my arms and my ass."

"So quit complaining."

They changed clothes and went to the hotel gym and Jon was shocked when he saw Dixie in there. She didn't usually work out with them even when she was on the road with them. She had on her tight yoga pants and a racerback sports bra. Jon felt his throat tighten and his mouth get dry at the sight of her. The more he saw her, the harder it got for him to hide his attraction to her. Joe looked at him and saw the expression on his face. "Dude, stop staring at Dixie like that. Colby will kick your ass if he sees it and she will freak out. Control yourself, fool."

"You're right. Sorry. Colby would be pissed. I just wasn't expecting her, and she is pretty, what can I say?"

"You won't be saying nothing if her man catches you and you will be eating food through a straw."

Jon nervously laughed "don't worry, man. I will watch it. He won't catch me."