A/N Disclaimer: This chapter is sexually graphic. Read at your own risk. LOL. Oh, and it turned out really long. Had to make up for not updating before now. Merry Christmas!
They drove to New York that night after their show and Jon sent her a text message saying that he wanted to see her. He said he wouldn't go with Joe and Colby to the gym so she could come spend a couple of hours with him while the other guys were gone. She agreed and told him she would be there. At the hotel, Colby was busy playing a video game, and Dixie was wondering why he even wanted her to be there with him if they weren't really spending time together. She thought back to the night before with Jon, and remembered when Colby was still passionate and affectionate with her. They had become like an old married couple after four years together and she was beginning to wonder if that would ever change. She didn't want them to be an old married couple at 27.
She couldn't help thinking about Jon and wondering if things would be different with him. She couldn't foresee life with him ever being boring. At least the time they had to spend together, he was focused on her. She climbed across the bed and sat behind Colby's back. She kissed his neck and rubbed her hands across his shoulders. She curled her arms under his and caressed his chest. She licked his earlobe and purred seductively into his ear "baby, wouldn't you rather play with me than your game?"
He was so focused on what he was doing, he barely heard her. "Hmmm? What did you say, mama?"
She groaned, "never mind, Colby." She jumped off the bed and grabbed her credit card, phone and room key. She slipped on her shoes and left, slamming the door in a huff. The bang caught his attention and he looked up. "Dixie?"
She went downstairs and sat down at the bar, ordering a drink. She saw a text from Jon and told him where she was. He couldn't hide that he was worried about her and didn't care who saw. She was upset and he felt he needed to be there for her. He knew the fracture in her relationship with Colby that led to her cheating in the first place was getting bigger, and he prayed that she would finally have enough and come to him. He knew that she loves Colby, but he also knew he could give her what his friend never could. He told Joe that he was going down to the bar and quickly left.
Dixie saw Jon walking towards her and had to resist the urge to throw her arms around him. It was getting harder for her to conceal how she felt about him, from him. It was also tearing her apart trying to make up her mind who she wanted. She warmly smiled at him and he leaned down to kiss her on the cheek, taking in her scent. He really didn't care who walked in at that moment because he was tired of keeping everything secret. He sat on the stool next to her and ordered a beer then asked her what was wrong.
"Well, it's Colby of course."
He sighed and gritted his teeth. "Of course. So what did he do this time?"
"I know you don't want to hear about it so I won't bother you with it."
"Dixie, you are never a bother, and even though I may not want to hear about it, I still care. I will listen if you need to talk."
"What I need is a man who gives a shit if I am around or not."
"Well, not to beat a fucking dead horse, but that means me."
She gazed up into his eyes and thought about that, "I know." She caught a glimpse of Colby stepping off the elevator out of the corner of her eye. "Fuck."
"What?" Jon asked her.
"Colby." Jon rolled his eyes and took a swig of his beer. Colby spotted her and headed straight for her.
"Babe, there you are. Why did you just take off like that? Hey, Jon."
"Hey" he replied annoyed.
"Wow, I am surprised you even fucking knew I was gone."
"What do you mean by that?" he said, his voice getting louder.
"I mean, I fly out to spend time with you and you have your eyes glued to a damn game. Why did you want me to come anyway?"
"Because I love you and I miss you."
"What do you miss, Colby? Certainly not being close to me or kissing me or having sex with me."
He turned red and looked at Jon, "uh, can we have this discussion back in our room please?"
"No. I am not done with my drink and I really don't want to talk to you right now, so if you don't mind." She turned back around and took another sip of her vodka Collins.
He took her arm and spoke softly, "Dixie, please baby, I am sorry. Can we go talk about this?" She yanked her arm away and glared at him. "No. Go finish your fucking game."
Jon looked at them and caught Colby's eye. "Hey man, I will keep an eye on her. I will make sure she gets back to your room okay. Just let her cool off."
Colby nodded "alright, bro." He kissed his girlfriend on the temple, "I love you." He walked away and went back upstairs, not knowing he was leaving the woman he loves with his only competition for her affection. Jon ordered them both another drink and changed the subject, hoping to cheer her up. He saw that the rift was growing even more than he imagined and he could only hope that Colby didn't sweet talk her into forgiving him.
After a few more drinks, he told her she should go to bed and he walked her to the elevator. As soon as the doors shut and they started to move, Dixie pinned him against the wall. "I have wanted to do this all day." She twirled her fingers in his hair and pulled him down to her. She tenderly kissed him and pressed her body to his. She felt his hands brush across her ass and she arched her hips against his groin. They heard the ding as they arrived on her floor so she stepped away. When she saw there was no one standing there, she quickly pecked his lips, "see you in the morning, baby."
He grinned, "looking forward to it. Sweet dreams, Dix."
She quietly opened the door, hoping Colby was asleep and she wouldn't have to deal with him. She was afraid if she got too angry, she would blurt out how she felt about Jon. She heard him lightly snoring so she silently got undressed and eased into bed. He woke up later and realized she was next to him. He scooted closer and curled his arm around her waist. He placed a soft kiss to her shoulder before falling back asleep.
In the morning when she woke up, she saw his arm around her and shimmied out of his grasp. She went into the bathroom and he opened his eyes. He had to get up to go to the gym but he wanted to have a talk with his girlfriend first. He didn't like it when she wasn't happy with him. He was waiting on the side of the bed when she came out. "Morning, baby."
"Hey" she responded curtly. "Shouldn't you be getting dressed to go work out?"
"Yeah, but it can wait for a minute. Sit down, mama and talk to me."
She let out a heavy sigh and sat next to him. He moved to face her and took her hands. She pulled them away and he looked hurt and confused. "Baby, I know you are upset with me and I do see why, but I love you. I don't want you to be mad at me."
"If I was just mad, Colby I would have gotten over it already."
"You're not mad?"
"Yes, and no. You hurt me. I fly out here to spend time with you, like you wanted and asked me to and you act like you could care less if I am here or not."
"That isn't true. I am thrilled you are here. I guess I just like you being near me. We have been together so long are comfortable together and I didn't realize I was upsetting you. We used to play together and hang out, just enjoying being close. I did not mean to neglect you, baby. I never want you to think I don't appreciate you. Dixie, you are the most important person in this world to me. I promise that I do love you being here and I do appreciate you coming all this way for me." He knelt down in front of her and took her hands. "Please forgive me. I never meant to hurt you."
"I know you didn't mean to."
"Then you forgive me? Are we okay?" he asked, hopefully.
"For now. But we have some things we need to work on, Colby."
"I understand, and we will. I swear. I don't want to lose you." He stood and took her face in his hands. He affectionately kissed her lips and smoothed back her hair. "If you want me to stay and go do something together, I will. I can skip the gym this morning. Or we can stay here and make love all day if you want."
"No, you go. I don't want you to only want to have sex to appease me because of what I said last night."
He looked shocked at her, "I'm not. Do you really think that?"
"Yeah, I do."
"Dixie, I can't believe you think that."
"What the fuck am I supposed to think? I try to be loving and get you in the mood yesterday morning and you didn't have the time. I try to be a little more obvious last night and you didn't even pay attention. Fuck, you didn't even hear me. Playing Call of Duty was more important than being intimate with your girlfriend you say you love so much." He backed up and stared at her, stunned that she was so angry and would say that to him. The venom in her words even astounded her. She was tired of Colby being lukewarm and she wanted blistering hot, like Jon.
"Wow. You are really pissed at me aren't you?"
"Uh, yeah, I am. I love you, but right now, I am tired of talking to you. Just go to the gym. Keep your little routine. I will be going back home soon enough and you won't have to worry about fitting me in your schedule. We will have sex twice a week like we have been doing and we will continue to live like an old married couple. That should make you happy enough." She stormed back into the bathroom and locked the door. She turned the shower on as hot as she could stand it and got in.
Colby was taken aback and really didn't know what to say or think. He never realized how disgruntled she had become. He decided to let her calm down and they would have a long talk later. He grabbed his bag and called Joe to see if he was ready to go. He stopped by their room and Joe was getting dressed. He saw Jon looking at him and felt uncomfortable. He hated that Dixie had aired their dirty laundry in front of him, especially about their sex life. "Hey, bro" Jon said.
"Hey. So you are not coming with this morning?"
"No. I drank more than I should've and now I have a fucking hangover. I will be here snoozing while you boys are sweating your asses off." Joe went into the bathroom and Colby told Jon "look, about what you heard last night…"
"Don't worry about it. I know how chicks are when they get pissed off."
"Thanks, man. And thanks for keeping her company."
"She cool off any?"
"No, dude. I think she is even madder than she was."
Jon tried to hide his smile. He was glad Colby couldn't charm his way out of this argument and that meant he still got to see her as soon as his friends left. He mustered all the concern he could "sorry about that, man."
"Yeah, me too."
When Joe came out, he told Colby "you ready to go?"
"Yeah. I need to blow off some steam. Later, bro."
"We'll be back in a couple of hours, man."
"Okay, have a ball."
Dixie was in the shower crying. She was so frustrated with the situation she had gotten herself into. She loved Colby but was tired of him. She also loved Jon but was afraid what would happen if she left her man for him. But she knew she couldn't let him go. He made her feel sexy and desirable and wanted, where her boyfriend didn't anymore. She hated lying to Colby, but she had to see Jon. No matter how hard she tried, she couldn't give him up. While she was drying off, her phone rang.
"Good morning, babe."
She sniffled "hey."
Jon's tone changed, "what's the matter, Dix?"
"I will tell you when I see you. Can I come up?"
"Of course. I'll be waiting." He hung up and squeezed his phone. He wouldn't deny he was happy that they were having problems, but he couldn't stand to see the woman he is in love with getting hurt. She grabbed her bag of goodies and head up to see Jon. She just wanted to forget everything and be in his arms. He opened the door and she grabbed him around the waist. "Come on in babe."
She pushed him into the room and started taking her clothes off. She reached for his boxers and pulled them down. "Dixie, wait. I thought you wanted to talk."
"No. I am sick of talking. I want you. Right now. I just want you, Jon."
"I am right here. You can have me. I am not going anywhere."
"Then fuck me. I want you to fuck me hard and make me forget everything but your name. I am bad and you need to punish me. I deserve it. You are the only one who can."
He looked at her and saw this was something she needed. He decided to give her what she wanted, what she needed from him. He growled, "get on the bed, on your hands and knees." He grabbed their bag of toys and pulled out the rope. He tied her hands to the headboard and placed the gag in her mouth to muffle the screams. He took out the lube, anal plug and nipple clamps next. He went to her head and stroked her cheek "are you sure about this, Dix?"
She nodded and he kissed her forehead. "Okay, baby. Anything for you."
His expression hardened and a sinister look appeared on his face. He fastened the clamps onto her nipples and tugged at the chain. "My naughty girl needs to be punished for being a whore does she?" She groaned and nodded. He slapped her ass "oh, you are going to be reprimanded for your behavior, don't fucking worry about that." He picked up the lube and drizzled it on her ass. He worked two fingers inside her tight ring, scissoring her open. When he had her oiled up, he took the anal plug and started to push it into her ass. She moaned and moved away, but was spanked for not obeying. "You keep that ass in the air and do whatever the fuck I tell you too, bitch." She bowed her head and tried to relax as he started forcing the plug back in. He twisted it and finally completely breached her opening. She cried out through the gag as he worked it in and out of her.
Jon went over to his drawer and pulled out his belt. Her eyes went wide and he took notice. "You want me to stop?"
She shook her head 'no' and prepared for the pain she knew was coming. He had only flogged her a couple of times before; once with a whip and once with a paddle, not wanting to leave whelps. This time, he really didn't care. He wanted to mark her as his. He was tired of her running back to Colby and having to live a lie. He looped the belt over and she screamed as it cracked against her flesh. He hit her again, spurred on by her moaning. He could see she was wet so he slipped two fingers inside her and flicked her clit. "You enjoy being spanked don't you? You like having your ass gaped don't you, you fucking slut? Look at what a whore you are. Your pussy is drenched from your ass being whipped." He struck her again, her back arching at the pain and pleasure, her loud mewling making his cock even harder. He hit her once more and he could see her tremble in ecstasy. He was actually astonished she had came from being spanked.
He put the belt down and rubbed her reddened ass. He pushed her face to the bed and yelled at her "keep that ass in the air!" He gripped her hips and quickly thrust his hard length inside her. He heard her muffled cries and slapped her ass. "You will take all of this dick as deep as I want to push it. You are my whore and your body is mine to do with as I please. You exist only for my pleasure. Your holes are meant to be used however I want." He held the plug in place as he fucked her, relishing how good she felt. He drove his cock into her pussy, wrapping his hand in her hair and forcing his shaft deeper. As he hammered her, she could feel his engorged balls slapping against her clit. She felt herself come again, completely helpless and at his mercy.
He took the plug out, and roughly buried his dick in her ass. He bucked his hips fast and hard, determined if she wanted punished, she would be sore all over. He struck her behind with his hand and commanded "squeeze that cock, slut." He felt incredible, his manhood encased by her tight hole. He curled his long fingers around her neck, knowing he was close to his orgasm as well. He lightly gripped, knowing it was more about the idea of his hand on her throat than the actual pressure. He closed his eyes and lost himself in pleasure. They were so into their sexual gratification that they never heard the door open.
"JON! Oh my God! What the fuck are you doing to her? Get off of her!" Joe screamed at him and pulled him away, punching him in the jaw. Jon flew backwards and hit his head on the dresser. Joe quickly untied Dixie and went back to beating Jon. He stood over him and grabbed his hair, striking him in the face repeatedly.
She pulled the gag off her mouth and the clamps off. He rushed over and clutched Joe's arm. "Stop, Joe! I'm okay! He wasn't hurting me! Don't hit him!"
He turned back towards Dixie and let Jon go. "What the fuck are you talking about? He had you tied up and his hand was around your throat! He was raping you!"
"No, he wasn't!" She pulled Jon's shirt over her body and helped him out of the floor. "Oh God, baby you are bleeding!"
"I'm fine, sweetheart."
"Baby?! Sweetheart?! What in the hell is going on!?" Joe demanded to know. "Jon, tell me you aren't fucking our best friend's girlfriend!"
Jon picked up his boxers and pulled them on. "I'm sorry, man. I can't tell you that."
"I can't goddamn believe this shit! How could you do this, man?"
"Don't blame him, Joe. It is entirely my fault. You can blame me," Dixie said.
"I suspected this before, but I thought you loved Colby. But it takes two to do the horizontal tango. You both should be ashamed. How long has this been going on?"
Dixie heaved a deep breath, "five months."
"Five fucking months!? What the hell are you two thinking?"
"Look, Joe it is a long story, but it isn't just about the sex" she told him. Jon looked at her, a little shocked at her words.
"We didn't expect you to come back so soon."
"I forgot my headphones. Yeah, I am sure you didn't. If you don't love Colby anymore, why didn't you just leave him?"
"I do love him."
"Sure, that is fucking obvious" Joe replied sarcastically.
"Bro, don't talk to her like that."
"Okay, I will rephrase that. If you love him so much, why are you here screwing Jon?"
"Because…"
"Yeah…?" Joe asked.
"Because I love him too. I can't stay away from him and I couldn't break it off because I love him too."
Jon was bowled over by her confession. She had never told him that, and now she was confessing it to Joe. "Why didn't you tell me before? I love you too, Dixie."
"Oh, well isn't this sweet? You are in love! Isn't that great?! I am telling you both this right now. I am giving you a three options. You tell Colby and be with Jon, you break it off with Jon, or I tell Colby everything and let the chips fall where they may."
"That's not fair, Joe" Dixie protested.
"That's not fair? And you fucking your man's best friend behind his back is fair?"
"It will kill him and probably break up The Shield if you tell him. I don't want to ruin his career or break his heart."
"Then break it off with Jon and I swear I won't say a word. But I will damn sure be watching."
"Wait just a fucking minute! I am still standing here in case you didn't notice, dude. She loves me too and you need to let her make her mind up without coercing her into choosing Colby. I can make her happier than he does. Obviously, he isn't giving her what she needs or she would have never came on to me to begin with. Why are you automatically taking his side?"
"Because he is the one that trusts both of you and you betrayed him. That is rich, Jonathan, acting like the aggrieved one. The choice is yours, Dixie but I won't give you long to make it. I am heading back to the gym before he wonders where the hell I am. Let me know what your decision is."
"This is cruel of you, Joe."
"You think I want to see my best friend hurt? No. I don't. But this is just fucking wrong. Like I said, you chose."