Hi everyone! Thanks a lot for all your reviews on Chapter 14. It was a lot of fun to write. I'm so glad that you guys are still reading this. In the past year, I've seen a lot fewer Finchel fics :( So I'm glad people are still reading them! Anyway, enjoy the chapter and review if you want me to continue.

WARNING: There is some sensitive content in this chapter. I may bump the rating up to M. Not sure yet.

Chapter 15: Not Okay

"Can you stay at the house with me?" Kylie asked Rachel as they walked down the street to Shelby's house. "I just... I'd like to have you with me."

"Of course," Rachel said. Even though the girls had just found out that they were sisters, they had bonded at Nationals, so a bond was already there. There wasn't anything yet for Shelby and Kylie.

"So this is where our mother lives?" Kylie asked Rachel as they stood in front of Shelby's townhouse.

"Yeah," Rachel said. "I've only been here once before, but she has a pretty nice house." She looked at her sister. "Are you okay?"

"What if she doesn't like me, Rachel?" Kylie asked. "I mean, I'm not saying I don't love my other mom, and my dad. I always have wondered about my birth parents though."

"That's natural," Rachel said. She still hadn't told Kylie about her first meeting with Shelby. She didn't want to. "No matter what happens today, I'm going to be here for you," Rachel told Kylie before she rang the bell.

Shelby came to the door. When she opened the door, she looked a little shocked and stared at Kylie. "Shelby, this is Kylie..."

"Hi," Kylie said quietly. "Nice to finally meet you."

"It's nice to meet you too," Shelby said. "How about you girls come in?"

"Of course," Rachel said, following Shelby inside.

Beth was playing in the living room. "Beth, you might remember Rachel," Shelby said. "And this is Kylie."

Beth smiled up at the two girls. "Hi!"

"Hi Beth," Rachel said.

"We're your big sisters," Kylie said. Rachel was surprised that Kylie had said that, and Shelby looked surprised, too.

"I have sisters?" Beth asked, giving Shelby a surprised looking.

Shelby nodded. "You do."

"They're pretty, Mommy," Beth said to Shelby. "They look like you."

"They do, don't they?" Shelby asked.

Rachel sat down on the couch, and Kylie sat down next to Rachel. "I never thought this would happen," Shelby said. "All three of you together."

This sounded promising, didn't it? Rachel looked at Kylie, who looked a little uncertain. Finally, Kylie spoke. "So, Rachel said you adopted Beth?"

"Yes," Shelby said. "She was Quinn and Puck's birth daughter."

Rachel, Kylie and Shelby sat quietly in Shelby's living room for a few moments before Shelby spoke. "So, Rachel tells me you're in New Directions?"

"Yeah," Kylie said. "That's how we met. Rachel and I met in the bathroom and she asked me if I wanted to join."

"That sounds like something Rachel would do," Shelby said.

"So you were a show choir director too?" Kylie asked Shelby.

"I was," Shelby said. "For a while I was the director of Vocal Adrenaline."

"They've gone completely downhill since you stopped coaching them, Shelby," Rachel said. "They didn't even make it to Nationals this year."

"They didn't?" Shelby asked. "Wow, they really have gone downhill." She turned back to Kylie. "I was the coach of another glee club at McKinley too, during Rachel's senior year."

"There were enough kids interested for two glee clubs?" Kylie asked. "We're like, the bottom of the social ladder."

"Well, no," Shelby admitted. "New Directions rejected this girl named Sugar, and her dad gave a bunch of money to the school to have me start a second glee club."

"Wow," Kylie said.

"Yeah," Shelby said.

"Why did you give Rachel and me up?" Kylie asked. "Why didn't you want us?"

Rachel hadn't seen Kylie so confrontational before. She already thought this wouldn't go well.

"I did want you two," Shelby said. "Rachel's dads paid me to have Rachel for them. They had me sign a contract saying I wouldn't contact her until she was eighteen. I wanted to be a part of her life, but her dads seemed to want it to just be the three of them. And I got pregnant with you when I was young and my life was kind of a mess. I wanted to keep you, but I couldn't. I didn't even know who your father was."

"You don't know who my dad is?" Kylie asked.

"I know who your dad is," Shelby said. "Your dad is the man who's been taking care of you the past fifteen years. I don't know who your birth father is though."

"I was drunk the night I got pregnant with you," Shelby said. "I was already missing Rachel so much that I thought it would be better if I didn't know where you were or who you were with. That doesn't mean I stopped wondering about you."

"Well, we're here now, Shelby, we both are," Rachel said. "Kylie's going to be in New York for a little more."

"You're here for a photography camp, Rachel told me?" Shelby asked.

"Yeah," Kylie said. "I really like photography."

"That's nice," Shelby said.

"Mom - " Kylie began. Now Rachel knew this wasn't going to do well. She'd called Shelby Mom once and she had a feeling Shelby hadn't liked it. After three years, she still wasn't calling Shelby Mom.

"Can you call me Shelby?" Shelby asked.

"But you ARE my mom," Kylie protested.

"No, I'm not," Shelby said. "I gave birth to you, but it's like when you asked about your dad, the woman who's been taking care of you for the past fifteen years is your mom."

Rachel looked at Kylie, who just looked confused. Now she felt like she should say something. "It's not like what everyone else has, but it's still something."

"Girls, maybe I shouldn't have revealed myself to you two," Shelby said. "It's not easy to see these two women sitting across from me, knowing that they could have been mine, and knowing that they're not. You aren't the babies who were inside me for nine months."

So now she was saying she was sorry that she knew who the two girls who'd come out of her body were? "I really thought that by now you wouldn't feel that way," Rachel said. Had the time they'd spent together in New York meant nothing to Shelby?

Kylie looked at Rachel. "What do you mean?"

"The first time I met her, she told me that she wasn't my mom and that we should just, and I quote, 'be grateful for one another from afar,'" Rachel told Kylie.

"Aren't you girls happy with your families back home?" Shelby asked. "Looking across from me, I see two young women who are who they are today because of the people who raised them."

"Yeah, I'm happy, but I want the woman who gave birth to me in my life, too!" Kylie said.

"I'm the same way," Rachel said. "It doesn't have to be all or nothing."

"Girls..." Shelby began.

Rachel wasn't about to let Kylie go through what she'd been through three years ago. At least, she was going to do her best to keep it from happening. "I think Kylie and I should go now."

"Don't!" Shelby said.

"She's my sister," Rachel said. "And even though we were raised by different people, we're still family. And that means something, to me anyway. And I really don't want her to go through what I went through three years ago."

"Yeah, I think we should go," Kylie said.

Rachel got up and left the house with Kylie. When they were outside, Kylie turned to Rachel. "Well, that didn't go very well."

"It didn't," Kylie said.

"Hey, I'm really sorry about that," Rachel said. "I really thought, especially since she and I have been seeing each other, that she wouldn't act the way with you that she acted with me three years ago."

"Maybe I shouldn't have asked to meet her," Kylie said quietly.

"Hey," Rachel said. "For what it's worth, I'm really glad I found out we're sisters."

"So am I," Kylie said.

"Want to maybe come to my apartment for a little?" Rachel asked.

"Yeah," Kylie said. "Rachel, when you first met Shelby, did you tell your dads about what she did?"

"Yeah," Rachel said. "I had to go to therapy."

"I don't know why she doesn't seem to want us," Kylie said. "I mean, I love my mom and dad, but I want my birth mother in my life, too."

Rachel knew what Kylie meant. As much as she loved her dads, she always had longed for a mom as well. She had to admit, even though she and Shelby had been growing closer lately, it was more of a friendship or a mentor type of relationship than a mother-daughter relationship. "I'm so sorry. I didn't want this to happen."

"I guess in a way she's right," Kylie said. "Rachel, I know this is going to sound dumb, but I want my mom. And I don't mean Shelby."

"Hey," Rachel said, giving Kylie a hug. "It's okay. How about we call your hall at NYU and tell them you're not feeling well, so you're going to spend the rest of the day at my place?"

"Yeah, I'd like that," Kylie said.

"Maybe we should wait until your parents come to pick you up to tell them about Shelby," Rachel said. "It's going to be a lot for them to take in. I can talk to them with you if you want."

"Thank you," Kylie said.

The girls walked back to the apartment, where Kurt, Santana and Blaine were sitting in the living room watching TV.

"Hey guys," Kurt said. "We're watching Gilmore Girls."

"That's a really good show," Kylie said.

"I know, isn't it?" Kurt said. "I still can't get Blaine into it."

"Remember when you returned those DVDs I sent you?" Blaine asked Kurt.

"Yes, but I didn't know that's what was in the box," Kurt said.

"So, how did things go with your mom?" Santana asked Rachel and Kylie.

Rachel looked at Kylie. "Not so well. It was pretty similar to what happened after my first meeting with Shelby."

"It sucks when stuff like that happens, doesn't it?" Santana asked Kylie.

"Yeah," Kylie said. "It does."

"When I told my grandmother I was a lesbian, she told me to leave the house and that she didn't ever want to see me again," Santana said. "I haven't seen or talked to her since."

"Shouldn't our families love and accept us for who we are?" Kylie asked.

"Yeah, they should," Blaine said. "Rach, Finn seemed upset after work. How about you go check on him? He said he wanted to be alone in your guys' room. The three of us will entertain your sister."

Finn seemed upset? She hoped everything was okay. "Okay," Rachel agreed. She walked down the hall and knocked on the doorway of her and Finn's room. "Finn, baby? It's Rach."

"Hey, Rach," Finn said, giving Rachel a small smile.

Rachel knew that wasn't a real smile. She knew Finn. The fact that he was lying on the bed definitely wasn't very Finn-ish either. Rachel sat next to him. "Finn, what's wrong?"

"I'm tired," Finn said.

Tired? Was he getting sick? Rachel put her hand on Finn's forehead. "You don't feel hot."

"I didn't say I was sick, Rach, I'm just tired," Finn said.

Rachel knew Finn. She could tell that he was upset about something, but what? She lay next to him and put her arms around him. "How was work today?"

"Not much to say," Finn said.

"Okay," Rachel said.

"How'd things go with Shelby and Kylie?" Finn asked.

"Not so well," Rachel admitted. "Pretty similar to how things went three years ago."

"That sucks," Finn said. "How's Kylie taking it?"

"She was pretty upset," Rachel said. "She did cheer up when she saw Kurt, Santana and Blaine watching Gilmore Girls. I do feel bad that things didn't go better with Shelby though."

"Yeah, me too," Finn said. "You two are still her daughters, it's just different."

"Yeah," Rachel said. "Are you sure you're okay, Finn?"

"I wouldn't lie to you, right?" Finn asked.

"Right," Rachel said, giving Finn a kiss.

x

Finn didn't want to lie to Rachel. He didn't like lying to Rachel. Maybe he was taking things too seriously.

Still, he was pretty sure he didn't like the way his co-worker was acting. He was wondering if this qualified as sexual harassment. He hadn't felt comfortable from the first time he met her and she touched his leg, and today she'd made him even more uncomfortable. His mind couldn't help but going back to that moment...

x

"Lucy, I have your mail," Finn said, going into her office.

Lucy got up from her desk and walked over to Finn. "Thank you, Finn."

"No problem," Finn said, starting to leave. Yesterday she'd made him uncomfortable when she touched his leg while tripping, so he wanted to spend as little time here as possible.

"So, are you in law school?" Lucy asked.

"No," Finn said. "I'll be starting at Columbia in the fall for education."

"Columbia, you must be pretty smart," Lucy said, closing the

Finn didn't know what to say to that, but Lucy kept talking. "I'm pretty smart, too. I did my last two years of high school at University of Alabama through the post secondary program. So when the people my age were only sophomores in college, I graduated. Then I got a scholarship to law school, and I interned here. Like I told you, now I'm the youngest lawyer here."

"Good for you," Finn said. "I need to go deliver the rest of the mail."

"You're a very attractive young man," Lucy said.

"I'm with someone," Finn said firmly.

"So?" Lucy asked.

"So I'm not interested in being with anyone else," Finn said.

"She doesn't have to know," Lucy said.

"I don't want to ruin what she and I have," Finn said. And even if he wasn't with Rachel, Lucy was giving him a weird feeling.

"Oh, come on," Lucy said, starting to carress Finn's chest.

Finn jumped back in horror. "Don't touch me!" he snapped.

"No need to get defensive," Lucy said.

"Don't ever touch me like that again," Finn snapped, wanting so badly to just go home.

"Don't tell your girlfriend," Lucy said. "Or anyone. Do you really think people are going to believe the lowly front desk clerk over the brilliant young lawyer?"

Finn froze. He realized Lucy had a point. People probably would believe him over her. Plus, if Rachel found out, she would go ballistic. There was no question.

Finn turned around before leaving Lucy's office. "From now on, I'd feel a lot more comfortable delivering your mail if the door stayed open." He left Lucy's office, not wanting to go back any time soon.

x

"Finn?"

Finn did feel some relief that the hands on his chest right now were Rachel's. "Are you sure you're okay?" Rachel asked. "You're being pretty quiet."

"I've never been as talkative as you," Finn told Rachel.

"Your heart's beating a little faster than usual," Rachel pointed out.

"Rach, I'm fine," Finn snapped. He then noticed the hurt look on Rachel's face and felt horrible. He didn't get mad at her very often.

"Okay," Rachel said. "But if you're ever not okay, you can talk to me."

He wanted to talk to her. He wanted so badly to tell her. And to tell his boss. But he knew that people probably wouldn't believe him over Lucy. He could get fired. He could get in big trouble.

But what was he supposed to do? Just pretend everything was okay when it wasn't?

Chapter 16 preview: Rachel, Kurt, Blaine and Santana continue to suspect that things aren't right with Finn. Rachel's dads come to New York.

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