A/N: Alrighty pitches, this isn't as long as I'd hoped because I kinda just word vomited until it all came out how I wanted it to? Whatever, anyway - hope you like! Probably one more chapter this, then i might start taking prompts? we'll see. Hope you like! Here be Chapters 1, 2, 3, and 4. xx

So yeah, that was all she could remember. Part of her wishes she didn't remember any of it, but the other (very small) part of her is glad she did. Head pounding, she willed herself out of bed stumbling a little as her feet hit the floor. Probably still a little drunk, she figured it was a good idea to take a quick shower. Disregarding Anna's latest text she decided to leave it be and deal with it later. Leaving it be meaning over analyzing every single aspect of the previous night down to every single detail and overthinking all of it. She had two more days left in Tahoe, Anna had three. They were planning to spend the next two together but guess that's out the window.

Anna was one of those people who was either hit or miss when it came to whether or not she needed her space. Depending on the conflict, she could be really needy or she could shutout the entire world and everyone in it for days at a time. Brittany was hoping this wasn't one of those times. She didn't want to talk to Kendrick but knew she'd have to eventually. They've never had a fight this bad, ever. Getting out of the shower and ringing her hair out in a towel before throwing it up atop her head she reached her phone. Nothing from Kendrick, but a few texts from Alexis.

Knapp 12:46pm: She's here. Don't worry.

Brittany 12:46pm: What?

Knapp 12:47pm: she didn't want me to tell you, but I figured you'd wanna know, so.

Brittany 12:47pm: oh… thanks. Is she okay?

Knapp 12:48pm: would you be?

Brittany 12:49pm: Ugh. i'll be there in 20.

At this point tears had weld up in the corners of her eyes but she ignored them. She set her phone down, took a deep breath and started to get ready for the day.

No more than ten minutes later she was in the car and on her way to where Alexis was staying. She had rehearsed everything she was going to say to Anna on the drive over. The i'm sorry's, the this is why's, even the end all tell all 'i love you.' After talking herself into and out of it multiple times she got out of the car and walked to the front door. Just as she raised her hand to knock the door opened to a somewhat pissed looking Alexis Knapp.

"H-hi." she hesitated before looking down at her hands that were wringing themselves together.

"She doesn't want to talk to you, dude. What even happened?"

"Can I please, can I please just talk to her?"

"I mean, I'm not going to not let you, but I can't promise that she'll sit there and listen. She cried like all night."

Well that makes two of us.

Alexis backed up and opened the door wider so Brittany could follow her in.

"She's in there." Alexis half heartedly pointed to the closed door down the hall. Snow mumbled a thank you and kept walking down the hall towards the very last door on the left. She raised her hand to knock on the door and stopped when she could hear a suitcase being zipped and things being thrown into bags. When the hell did she have time to go back and get her stuff?

"Go Away." sternly through the other side of the door, snapped Brittany out of her thoughts.

"Kendrick. Can we pl- can we please just talk, for a sec?"

"There's nothing to talk about. You can't talk to me, remember?"

"that's not what I meant." her voice got softer.

"Then you shouldn't have said it if you didn't mean it." she continued to pack her things and Brittany slid down to the floor with her back against the door.

"Anna. Please." the back of her head hit the door with a soft thud.

"What's the point? You could've said everything you wanted last night, but you didn't. You could've told me about you and Tyler, but you didn't. You could've talked to me so many times, but you didn't."

"Kendrick, you don't even kno-"

"No, Snow. I do know." she walked closer to the door and could sat down with her back against it. "I do know. You know why? Because at one point I thought we told each other everything. You and me, we would talk, get drunk, discuss our problems, and get on with it."

"That's not even fair! You didn't tell me about you and Ben!"

"That's because I didn't know what was happening."

"You still could've said something!"

"What did you want me to say? 'Oh hey by the way, Ben cheated on me with someone at work but yeah I'm fine I just still kinda want to be with him but that's stupid and you're gonna bitch at me anyway if I stay with him but I just might.' no, Britt. I couldn't have said something." tears were starting to well up in both of their eyes and Snow could hear Anna start to cry on the other side of the door.

"Anna. I-"

"No, ya know what. It's fine. Whatever. What did you want to talk about?"

"Can we please not do this here."

"Where the fuck else do you want to go?"

"Well could you at least just open the door?" The blonde heard Anna stand up and her heart started racing. This is a moment she'd been waiting for for months and probably even close to a year but never knew it would ever come. Her stomach was in knots, her throat felt dry and her palms were sweating. She turned around to a heavily tousled Kendrick. Short and sweet in all her glory with an oversized t-shirt on, some shorts and last night's makeup still on, well, what was left that hadn't run down her cheeks.

"Talk." Kendrick spat and then turned around to continue packing. Brittany just stood in the doorway baffled at how much she had to say but somehow she couldn't get the words out. She stood in the doorway for a second longer, took a deep breath and played with her hands before finally spitting it out.

"I'm sorry."

"Snow, I don't have time for this. You wanted to talk, so talk."

"No, see, you don't understand. I'm sorry, for more than just last night. I'm sorry for everything."

"Well, kay, apology accepted. Are you done? I have things to do."

"No. Jesus, Anna please just sit down and listen to me."

Anna stopped what she was doing and dropped the pair of socks she had just folded into her bag without looking up.

"Fine. You have five minutes, then I'm outta here." and with that, Brittany continued.

"There is no 'other guy'. There's no one, well - there's someone, but its not someone you don't know. I couldn't talk to you, I couldn't tell you, because I was scared. Which, I know sounds pathetic and cliché," Brittany slowly started walking further in the spare bedroom while Anna still stood still staring at a pair of socks, "but I was- I am. Scared. So scared."

"But that doe-"

"Kendrick could you just like, shut up for a sec? I'm trying to have a moment." Anna rolled her eyes and stopped and sat down on the bed while Brittany stayed planted across the room.

"I was so scared, Anna. So scared that I couldn't even talk to my best friend. So scared that I couldn't even just fucking say the one thing that was always on my mind. So scared that this other person wouldn't ever and didn't feel the same. So scared that this other person would hate me forever or suddenly become distant or, I don't know. I just couldn't talk to you, of all people. I couldn't." Brittany slowly started walking towards Anna who was still firmly planted on the bed, hands in her lap.

"So, what are you saying?" Anna still didn't look up.

"I'm saying," deep breath, Britt. Let's go. "I'm saying, I love you." tears were well past her eyelids at this point, a few rolling down her cheek. She scooted closer to the small girl next to her. "I think I always have? I don't know. But that's why I couldn't talk to you. I couldn't tell you that I've been in love with you since day one, that I love you more than most things on this planet, that I love the way you smirk when you swear and I love the way you laugh at those stupid fucking videos of dogs on the internet." They both chuckled lightly at the last note. "I couldn't talk to you, because I had talked myself out of it so many times because I'd rather keep you here, with me, than lose you forever." And with that, Kendrick in all her teary glory looked up at her friend.

"You're such a fucking pussy." she laughed through tears before leaning her forehead against Brittany's. "That's why you couldn't talk to me? Jesus, I thought you were mad at me or something for doing something I didn't know I even did."

"Yeah, well. Oops." Brittany bit her bottom lip, forehead still meshed against Anna's. Brittany took a deep breath before Anna replied.

"So.. now what?"

"Well, that parts up to you."