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Chapter 23: I Am Here To Confess

It's been almost three weeks since Shanyra was kidnapped by that cannibal monster. Neither Kol nor Caroline knew yet what really happened that night; the two people who wanted to find out the truth the most. How did she get into danger with that monster in the first place? Though they didn't push Shae into telling them anything. They were sort of waiting for her to come around and talk about it herself. Speaking of Shanyra, she was being very quiet lately. Very quiet. She barely spoke with anyone. Always keeping to herself. Everyone thought it was the after affect of her horrifying experience. But with passing time, instead of her getting better, she was growing quieter. Kol was getting really worried now. He wanted her normal again. He just couldn't allow Shae to spend her days like a zombie. It really pained him to see her like that.

Kol was doing everything he could to help her. Taking her out to shopping malls, movies, to Whitmore so that she could visit Caroline. Usually those things worked to make Shanyra feel better but not this time. Hell he even let her spend time with Stefan in hope that she'd smile again. Nothing was working. Today, Kol planned to take her out on a long drive. And he also planned on speaking with Shae about that night. Kol realized as long as he didn't know what was really troubling Shae, he couldn't help her. And for him to know, he needed to ask her questions. Kol was done waiting for her to say anything on her own. He doubted that she'd ever say anything. Kol grabbed his jacket and put it on. Then checked his appearance in the mirror. He was about to leave his room when someone knocked on the door.

"It's open." He said. Then the door opened and revealed Shanyra. The original got surprised to see her.

"Did you just knock?" Kol asked amused because usually Shae just barge in his bedroom. But given that she was acting different now, nothing should really surprise him anymore.

"You're not ready yet." Kol stated as he noticed her appearance. Shae was wearing normal clothes. Black trousers, black top and a shawl with irises design wrapped around her. Her hair was open and uncombed. Still she looked beautiful, but a little numb and fragile as well.

"Can we please not go out? I need to talk to you about something." She said sounding very serious. She was nervous too but hid that well. Kol didn't argue. He simply took off his jacket and sat on the bed. Then he gestured for Shanyra to sit beside him. She did but left a little distance between them. Which was also another change in her.

"Okay, what do you want to talk about?" Kol asked showing curiosity yet not so much as to freak her out. But truth to be told, he was very interested to hear out what she has to say. Shae remained quiet for a moment, then inhaled a deep breath before speaking up again.

"What I am about to tell you is going to hurt you. Make you angry. And I can't even imagine how you'd react. Truth to told, I really didn't want to say anything to you but- now I feel as if I don't have a choice." Kol could see Shanyra was struggling. As if she was trying to stop herself from talking. It confused him. What was going on?

"Shae, what is it?" He asked curiously and cordially enough as to not make her more nervous than she already was. Shanyra inhaled a deep breath once again.

"It's about that night. I have to tell you what really happened." She said and once again it seemed she really didn't want to talk about it but couldn't stop herself either.

"I'm listening." Kol said sounding rather relieved that Shae came to speak to him about it on her own and he didn't need to interrogate her or compel the truth out of her.

"In the party, I met with Josh and Davina. While talking to them, Davina asked me if you had compelled me to stay with you. I said to her that you never compelled me. One thing led to another and after some rather painful spells I found out that you had indeed compelled me. And as my compulsion wore off, I remembered everything that you had compelled me to forget about as well." Kol was shocked to say the least. He certainly never expected to hear something like this.

"Is that why you left the party alone? You were mad at me for compelling you." Now it made sense to him. But then Shanyra said something that confused him again.

"I suppose I was a little angry but that's not why I left." She said.

"Then why?" Kol asked in a demanding tone of voice. No longer he could be patient with her. Shae pursed her lips, hesitating to answer. But at this point, there was no way for her not to keep talking.

"I left because I wanted to find Gabriella and talk to her alone." She said with guilt ridden voice. Her gaze was lowered as well, focused on her lap. Kol couldn't sit still anymore. He got up on his feet.

"And what exactly did you want to talk to her about; alone?" The original asked. His voice was still calm but stern as well. Surely he had a guess as to where this was going. Kol obviously thought Shae wanted to meet Gabriella to ask her to break the bond between them. However that wasn't the matter at all.

"I wanted to ask her if there was any way for me to live if I give you the entire soul. I wanted to know if turning into a vampire would work. Because if I'm no longer a human, I wouldn't need my human soul." Shae thought Kol would lash out at her right away but he just stood there, speechless. Kol was too shocked to say anything or react for that matter. She took this opportunity to defend herself.

"But I know now how irrational and thoughtless I was being. Even if it really works, I'm too young now to become a vampire. If my mind had worked right back the time I left the party all alone, I'd have realized that being stuck at thirteen for eternity is a really bad idea so-" Shanyra trailed off. Her heart was pounding in her chest. The situation was getting more tensed up for her because Kol wasn't reacting the way she had expected him to react. It felt like forever to Shae before the original spoke up again.

"You hate me so much now that you'd rather turn into a vampire than be with me. Just because I compelled you once." Kol's voice was surprisingly calm. Though that calm was nothing but pain and rage in disguise. Shae on the other hand breathed out a laugh marred with sadness.

"You have no idea what a relief it would've been for me if I was capable of hating you. Being a thousand years old vampire you should know love can cause just as much trouble as hatred, if not more."

"Oh so you want to get rid of me because you love me, that's marvelous." Kol said scoffing darkly. Clearly he didn't believe her. Shae stood up from the bed too now. This confession was just beginning to become heated.

"Not just for loving you. For being in love with you and knowing you can never love me back that way. Hell you wouldn't even have taken me seriously if I had told you about how I feel. I know it's all my fault. I'm the one who's thirteen. My feelings for you changed in a way that it shouldn't have. And believe me I've tried everything. I tried hard to suppress those feelings, just bury them deep inside me. I even tried staying away from you though that didn't really work out well and it ended up me getting compelled." Shanyra closed her eyes and inhaled a deep breath before continuing.

"Yes, I wanted to break this bond between us but not to get rid of you; only to have an opportunity to get rid of my feelings for you. Because I knew as long as you're around me they won't go anywhere and only grow. It would've condemned me to a miserable life for as long as I lived." She took a brief pause then said-

"But it doesn't matter anymore." Kol furrowed his brows at her, rather angrily after hearing that.

"What does that mean?"

"I did what I had to do. I found another solution to this problem which didn't require breaking the bond or staying away from you."

Flashback

Shanyra was at the Boarding house. She came to visit Stefan actually but he wasn't home. He had some work to do. Shae decided to wait for him when he informed her that he was on his way. She was quietly sitting on the couch, reading a random book she picked up from their library. Suddenly Damon appeared there in the living room.

"Helloo, mini Forbes. Heard you are still traumatized about almost getting eaten." Damon said with his usual sarcastic, careless tone of voice. He walked up to the parlor to help himself with a drink. It was obvious he couldn't careless about Shae's mental state or her having a breakdown as he mentioned about that event so thoughtlessly.

"Your concern for me is overwhelming Damon" said Shae with thick sarcasm in her voice as she rolled her eyes at the Salvatore.

"And here I heard you barely speak to anyone nowadays." He said.

"It's better to let everyone think I'm still in a trauma. Helping me escape the inevitable interrogation about what really happened or at least delay it for sometime. I don't need to be quiet with you." Shanyra stated confidently.

"Wooh, that's clever" said Damon. "So what really happened? I guess I could ask, since you don't need to be quiet with me."

"You wouldn't understand." She said at once at first. Damon as well shrugged his shoulders nonchalantly. He was curious, yes but he wasn't gonna break any sweat trying to get answers from her. Because obviously unlike Kol and Caroline, he could go on without knowing anything about it. However, Shae suddenly changed her mind.

"Perhaps you'd understand." She said that more to herself than to Damon, then looked up at him.

"May I ask you a question? A personal one." Shae asked.

"I'd prefer if you don't but I wouldn't forbid you to." He said.

"Did you try to get rid of your feelings for Elena when she wasn't in love with you and refused to return your feelings?" She asked with seriousness in her voice as she really wanted to know. Damon was taken aback a little hearing the question. He wasn't expecting this. But nevertheless he answered.

"Of course I did." Damon stated.

"And?" Shae asked.

"It didn't work. Obviously." He said.

"What exactly did you do to get over Elena?" The thirteen year old asked more curiously.

"Many things that I would never tell you." Damon clarified.

"But you never left town. Or put distance between you and Elena. That could have worked" said Shae really believing that. But the vampire disagreed.

"I don't think so. When I was in love with Katherine, she was locked up in a tomb or I thought she was. It didn't stop me from loving her. Putting distance between me and Elena wouldn't have worked either. Besides, for one reason or another, I could never really leave. I guess I never really wanted to." Shanyra didn't expect Damon to open up to her like this. Hell she never expected herself to speak to Damon above all people about such matters. He was after all her least favorite vampire.

"Great, you just confirmed I have no hope of ever living a painless life." Shae sighed out heavily to herself saying that. Damon stared at her for a moment, then spoke up again.

"Let me guess, you're in love with someone who isn't returning your feelings. Is that someone an original named Kol Mikaelson?" He asked with a smirk. Shae glanced at him once before looking away again. She could deny it but that'd be just pointless.

"He would never return my feelings. You may have gotten lucky with Elena but I don't see that happening for myself. And the worst part it- you had the freedom to get away from her and not see her loving someone else. You didn't leave yes but you could have if you wanted to. I don't even have that luxury."

"Kol would never let me out of his sight as long as we are bound. In New Orleans, I realized that and tried to find the witch Gabriella on my own which got me into trouble with the cannibal. I have a theory. And I wanted her to confirm it and if really possible then make it happen."

"What theory?" Damon asked curiously.

"What if I turn into a vampire and give my entire soul to Kol so that we both can live without being bound to each other" said Shae. Damon stayed shocked for a moment then said-

"Wow, that's both logical and stupid. I never thought something could be both."

"You are just thirteen Shanyra. Did you think about that?"

"No." Shae stated unhesitatingly. "And I don't care about it as long as I don't have to suffer from this unrequited love any longer."

"Kol had compelled me to forget about his girlfriend and never to doubt that he cares about me. Wish he had just compelled me to stop loving him instead." She said that more to herself than to Damon.

"That would indeed be a less stupid solution for you to solve this problem" said Damon rather thoughtfully.

"And you wouldn't really need Kol to do it. Any vampire can compel you. Even me." Now that surprised Shae to no limits. But then she scoffed at Damon; rolling her eyes at him.

"As if you'd ever help me."

"I may. You have to ask to find it out" said Damon with suspense. Of course he wasn't willing to help her, out of the goodness of his heart or because he cared about Shanyra's pain. But he did feel guilty about getting her into trouble with Markos. He never really got a chance to make it up to her, until now. Freeing Shae from her pain would be the perfect apology.

"Why would you do anything for me?" Shae asked suspiciously.

"Haven't you heard, granting everyone's wishes is what I am doing this week. So, do you want it?" Damon asked. Suddenly Shae felt unsure.

"Would you give me a moment to think about it?" She asked.

"Sure. Though don't take too long. Stefan would be here soon. Something tells me he wouldn't allow me to compel you." Shae knew what Damon was saying was true. She nodded her head in understanding. Damon finished his drink and went back to his room. After about fifteen minutes, Shanyra went to him.

"That was quick" commented Damon.

"I've made up my mind. I want you to compel me. But you'll say exactly what I tell you to say." She said being very clear about it. Damon agreed easily.

"Fine, what do you want me to say?" He asked.

"You are going to compel me to love Kol and care about him but not be in love with him anymore. Also make certain that I don't fall for him again in the future. We'll just be friends. That's all. Nothing more, nothing less."

"And I'll remember I had someone compelling me so that I don't get confused over the sudden change and know that this is my decision but make me forget that it was you who did it. If fact make me forget this entire conversation we just had. I'm sure you want the same."

"Damn right I do." Damon said and he stepped closer to Shanyra. He looked deeply into her eyes. Shae's heart skipped a beat. Of course she was nervous about it. Damon's pupils dilated. He compelled her exactly how she wanted it. But in the end, he added a little payback in it; for Kol. The original was really a pain in his ass.

"When you go back home Shae, you will go to Kol and you'll confess everything to him. About what happened in the party in New Orleans. About your feelings for him. And of course about not having those feelings anymore. This will hurt him which will make me very happy."

"Not that you'd remember meeting me." Damon muttered this to himself with a satisfied smirk on his face.

End Of Flashback

"Shanyra, what did you do?" Kol asked, sort of fearing her answer.

"I had someone compel me, not to be in love with you anymore." Shae said shocking herself because who in their right mind confesses something like this, moreover to the very person, it was about. She watched Kol closing his fists. No doubt he was one step away from seeing red with anger and losing control over himself. Instinctively Shae took a step back from him.

"Who. Compelled. You?" Kol's voice shook as he spoke up this time. He was that angry.

"I don't know. I mean I was compelled to forget" said Shae which was a completely wrong answer. Losing control, Kol punched the mirror. Immediately breaking it into pieces. Shanyra jumped back feeling scared. She never saw this face on the original before. Thankfully Rebekah came there hearing the breaking of glass.

"What's going on?" She asked looking between her brother and his soul mate.

"Get her out of here." Kol said with enraged voice. Rebekah understood asking him anything at the moment would be pointless. She took Shae out of there and to her own room. Rebekah closed the door behind before turning around to face the girl.

"Explain." The original demanded. And so Shanyra explained.

Later, Rebekah found Kol drinking his ass off in their private parlor. She walked up to him and sat right beside on a stool.

"I'm not in the mood for company" said Kol.

"I know but I don't care." Rebekah said pouring herself a drink.

"Shae told me what she did."

"I'm gonna have to find the vampire who compelled her. My bet it's Stefan Salvatore." Kol knocked back the drink in his mouth and finished it at once.

"Even if it's him, what are you gonna make him do? De-compel Shae? Why?" Rebekah asked making her brother look at her with disbelieve in his eyes.

"Are you seriously asking me that?" He spoke incredulously.

"Yes, I'm seriously asking that. You make Stefan or whoever it is, take off the compulsion. Then what? She goes back to being in love with you again and suffer because you wouldn't be returning her feelings. Is it not best for both of you that she doesn't feel like that about you? I mean she's still gonna care about you and be your friend. So what's the problem?" She asked trying to understand what Kol was thinking. But he didn't say anything and remained quiet. Somehow Rebekah still got the answer to her question.

"Unless, you don't want Shanyra to stop being in love with you." She said that more to herself than to her brother.

"I knew you're in love with her too. Now you've started to realize it as well now that her feelings for you have been compelled away." Rebekah thought Kol would deny it again like he did before but he didn't. Instead he said-

"You were right. I've fallen for her too. The only reason I wasn't acknowledging my feelings is because she's very young. I thought once she's grown, I'd profess my feelings to her too. But now her love for me has been compelled away. Even if I let her be like this for a few years, what if when the compulsion if finally taken off, those feelings don't return because of the time passed." The sister finally understood the brother's turmoil. And she couldn't deny that Kol's fear was pointless. She and Stefan were a great example of this. Stefan was practically in love with her but then Klaus compelled him to forget all about her. And when he finally took off the compulsion, Stefan remembered Rebekah alright but he could no longer love her like before.

"Alright, you got a point. Shae has to be de-compelled right away. But Kol, you've got to talk to her. Give her hope that one day, you'll love her the way she loves you. The only reason she did this is because she's convinced you'd never be able to look at her as more than a friend." Kol nodded to his sister and smiled at her.

"So you'll help your brother find the culprit?"

"At the moment there's only two vampires in town who could do it. Which Salvatore brother you'd like to deal with?" Rebekah asked feeling like having a little fun.

"Well it's been a while since Damon Salvatore and I spend some time together." Kol said with a smirk making his sister smirk back at him.