AN: Hi sorry got the late update, had no power at my house meaning no wifi, and this is the only time my wifi hasn't given me problems. I want to say thanks to all the people who reviewed and to Justthatgirl(guest) I've listened to all the songs on shady xv and my favourite is Die Alone. Anyway without further ado.

Jades POV

There are a lot of things I hate. One of them is apologies. They're like a get out of jail free card and you don't have to worry once you're forgiven. Of course there's the healing process, so that you can fix the damage that's been done but you've already been forgiven.

I don't apologise or forgive but Vega does. She has been sending me texts, tried calling me and even said sorry on my Slap page. Once upon a time I would have forgiven her straight away but my wounds are just to deep. Cat, who is my best friend, tried to help me forgive her but I can't.

Even if I did it's not like I could date her again. I have an amazing boyfriend and he loves me. We do fight from time to time but that's what most couples do. If I had to chose between them I'd probably just cry because I wouldn't know who. That's why it's easier to hate To-Vega.

This weekend has been just staying with Beck. My dad of on a business trip so he doesn't know where I am. Beck is my shield and he keeps me safe from my own thoughts but this weekend he seemed... off? Like he didn't want me to be there or just didn't care. He even tried starting arguments for know apparent reason. And just when I think he's cooled down-,

"Jade we need to talk." The infamous break up line, more well known than the 'it's over' but less cheesy than the 'it's over'.

"Really Beck, at least tell me what I did wrong."

"You've been perfect it's just-"

"There's someone else?" He nodded and I sighed. Just my luck. "Who is it?"

"It's Tori." If I wasn't so mad I would have laughed but my anger knows no bounds.

"Vega! Fuck Beck it just had to be her, didn't it? The girl who started flirting with you the day she met you and you're suddenly in love with her?! Can you tell me how you came to the conclusion that you want to be with her? Enlighten me!" He just stared down, working up the courage to say something.

"She just beautiful, funny and... nicer" Nicer?

"Nicer! Well Beck, I'm so sorry that after all these years of us being together that I wasn't nice enough for you!" And I left. He could have stopped me but he didn't, he just let me go.

And now once again Tor-Vega is ruining my life, always making people like her even if it was unintentional. Another reason to hate Victoria Vega.

The next day at school I swear every single girl I knew was all over Beck, even Cat! Of course Vega(I said it right this time) wasn't but it didn't look like she was at school. I shouldn't say anything to her if I see her because she will stop at nothing to make sure I forgive her. I mentally punch my self for knowing her that well. I should head to class but Andre stops me.

"Hey Jade could you uh see Tori?" She has an errand boy, how spineless of her.

"Why can't she?"

"Well this is actually me asking. You see she really wants you to forgi-"

"Nope." He stares at me.

"Let me rephrase that, she NEEDS you to forgive her. She can't stop thinking about it and she just- she's off today, like she's getting better at acting but I can see that it's eating her." I look at him.

"Do you even know what she did to me?"

"She told me about you two and I know that some messed up shit she did to you but that doesn't mean that she doesn't deserve to be forgiven. You're the reason she's so nice to everyone because she hurt you, she can't not be nice because she knows that the person she caused the most pain won't forgive her. So at least take it into consideration, at least for her sake" The bell rang "I'll see you around Jade." And he left. And no matter how hard I tried I couldn't shut out what he said to me. At least school will be a distraction.

I wasn't distracted enough because I was in almost every class Vega was in. It wouldn't be a problem if I couldn't see the pain she had in her eyes, the way she acted as if she knew that people would notice if she was sad so she tried to hard to be happy. It was a sad attempt and I almost felt sorry for her. No Jade you can't feel sorry after what she did to you. I was having an inner battle with my self and it was tearing me apart. It cooled down when I was at Advance Art and didn't have to see Tori. But that was the second last period of the day and I saw the last period which of course had to be Music. This is gonna be a tough day.

Our homework was to practice a song of our choice which is pretty easy until you fell you're butchering it. Of course I was confident that I would be able to do it and got an A+ without even trying. But the worst outcome happened when I saw that Vega was the last to go up. And of course he had to sing something about me.

(AN: I'm gonna let you recognise this song so if you don't know it, which you should, ask.)

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine

You make me happy when skies are grey

You never know, dear, how much I love you

Please don't take my sunshine away

The other night, dear, as I lay sleeping

I dreamt I held you in my arms

When I awoke, dear, I was mistaken

So I hung my head, and I cried

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine

You make me happy when skies are grey

You never know, dear, how much I love you

Please don't take my sunshine away

I'll always love you and make you happy

If you will only say the same

But if you leave me to love another,

You'll regret it all one day

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine

You make me happy when skies are grey

You never know, dear, how much I love you

Please don't take my sunshine away

That was the last straw. I rushed to the bathroom and knowing Vega she would follow. She found me and was crying. I couldn't take it. I grabbed her and pulled into hug. We stayed like that for few minutes until I said-

"We can be friends but that's it."

"Jade-"

"I'm letting go, you and I don't deserve to be sad forever."

And I let it go but unfortunately the one thing I couldn't let go of was her. And deep inside I didn't want to.

AN:And done for now, please review and don't be shy to help me with this story. If you think it's awesome then let me know. I also want to thank everyone(700+) for reading this, and I want to say that the best is yet to come. Now it's time for me to stop being lazy and write a chapter longer than 2000 words.