Flashback Continue
"Mother?" But she's dead. She died in a car crash when I was just a kid. She can't…be…here…
"Hayato…You're really here." I can't help but feel the tears well up in my eyes. My own mother is here standing before me. Her hair still has the same lustrous sheen as it has when we last met. Her voice as smooth like a cooling breeze that carries you away. Tears threatening to fall down as I let my own emotions control my body. I want to hug her. I want to show her that I loved her. That I missed her.
As I took a step forward, I suddenly remembered Tsuna all alone, crying and quivering in the darkness.
"Gokudera-kun…"
I wiped away the tears in my eyes and breathed deeply recovering my confidence. I'm the only one who's by Tsuna's side. I will not leave but what will happen to Mother? No…My loyalty should be unwavering. Betrayal is never an option but why?! My lips are sealed shut. I can't…I'm really a failure…I bit my lip. I'm a failure as a right-hand man.
"Well, you don't need to choose right now, Gokudera Hayato. I'm not as heartless as to let you choose today. I'll wait next week. Now then, meeting adjourned." Akira just smiled and stood up. One by one, the families started leaving. I was still frozen from my spot. I can't choose when needed. I can't make a decision between my mother and Tsuna…
I left the house only to meet a storm brewing in the clouds. None of the families in sight. I just walked home when it started raining. I really can't…Who should I choose? I don't know anymore…
Flashback End
Tsuna's POV
I was still processing the information from the story. I can't believe something happened like that and Gokudera-kun looks like he's on the verge of the breaking down and self-loathing. Choosing from his mother or me, huh. A long lost mother in exchange for a boss you've followed with unmatched loyalty. A hard decision and he have to choose next week.
"Gokudera-kun, I don't blame you on what happened. It was out of our control. You have to relax." I tried calming him down.
"No, it was in my control. I should have easily said that I will not betray you yet it was at the tip of my tongue. I was not able to choose a decision that changed your life for the worse." He clenched his fist hard to the verge that a few drops of blood trickled down.
"Gokudera-kun, it's not your fault. No matter what you do, always follow your heart." He tilted his head up. I serenely smiled at him with understanding. "No matter what decision you will make, I will never ever blame you about it. You are my right-hand man and that will never change even if you leave me." I softly told him with a modulated tone.
"Jyuudaime…I'm so sorry" He let out a few tears. I looked up at the sky as it turned to a gray color reflecting what I'm currently feeling now, regret and sadness.
The bell rang and we went back to our rooms. Akira is still the same kind boy with all the girls swooning at him and all the boys respecting him. Are they really this easy to manipulate?
That afternoon, time passed away quickly. I didn't pay any attention to the teacher at all. I just looked outside the window. When it was already dismissal time, Gokudera-kun excused himself to go home at his house today. What happened really hit Gokudera-kun hard. I just climbed back up to the rooftop. Nowadays, Hibari-san doesn't go to the rooftop anymore. The reason? I don't know. I contacted Mama that I won't be going home early today because I have this nagging feeling that I'd be staying long.
I stayed there for how many hours or minutes. The night sky was so beautiful I can't help myself. I was lucky it was a starry night. I found constellations and watched how the moon rose high up in the sky. It relaxes me in an odd sort of way. I was the bearer of the Sky Flame so I guess it applies to day and night. I took the time to accept all that was happening and summarize them in one quick way.
Betrayed by my guardians except for Gokudera, Chrome and Hibari
Betrayed by a lot of families except the Gesso, Simon and the Giglio Nero family
Betrayed by a lot of my friends except Fon, Skull, Verde (Am I even his friend?) and Basil
Gokudera forced to choose, me or his mother
Akira is a ruthless bastard.
Well, all in all I'm betrayed by a lot of people, it's the mafia so betrayal should be pretty common but for them to do it so easily…From all our adventures and mishaps, was that really nothing to you? When we trained hard just to protect those close to us, was that just for someone else? I just sighed. Past is past. Present is present and the future is open for new possibilities.
I sat down with one of my knees bent and my arm on it. I just can't stand here and watch as all of this happens around me but what can I do? Maybe bust Gokudera's mother out of there? I can do it but can Gokudera… I'm not sure but I'll need his decision on this. If he chooses his mother, then busting his mother out will just contradict it. I looked up at the sky. In the end, the one that decides this on is if Gokudera can sacrifice his own family for me. I'll have to wait for the right time. I stood up and I suddenly realized what I was doing.
Wait, this isn't like me. Thinking up plans and waiting for the right time to strike. Maybe I changed when my guardians left me for another? Being calm yet so cautious. Gentle yet so gallant. It's like what they say. When you are left by others, you treasure the ones you have left. I walked over to the fence and looked over to the mountains. Haste makes waste. Waiting bears fruits. It's the right route for now. Gokudera-kun, I hope that you'll make the right choice. I turned around and went home as the glistening moon still shines above.
Gokudera's POV
I excused myself earlier from Tsuna. I need to take a time out from all of this. I walked to home and there I saw Aneki cooking…a purple-looking boiling soup with bubbles popping one after another. I quickly covered my nose and mouth.
"Aneki! What the hell are you doing?!" Quickly searching for a gas mask before dying with that weird smell.
"Cooking, what else?" She calmly said while she continued to stir. I found a gas mask just at the shelves and put it on before something happens.
"I know you're cooking! I'll just be at my room if you need me." I wonder why she cooked. It has been a long time since she last cooked in the house. Never mind, I have more problems to take care of.
"Stay there" She ordered me.
"No" If she's going to feed me with that, then I'd rather eat that stupid cow's cooking. She just sighed.
"Don't worry, I won't feed you with that" Since when did Aneki became so serious? I hesitantly sat down. Even I'm curious on what she's gonna say.
"Well, who are you going to choose?" Wait, what?! How does she know about that?
"How did you about that?" I seriously said.
"Well, I peeked through the window and listened to your conversation." She just sighed and slumped back. I think I can trust her.
"I should have known but about that I still don't know. I want to see Mother but if I do it's like I'm betraying Tsuna" I looked down. I really have a hard time choosing…She just sighed.
"Why the hell are you sighing?! Don't you know this is a decision that can ultimately change my life?!" How can she just sigh on this kind of problem?!
"Why don't you just do what you always do?" She just said. What I always do? Wait, what?
"You mean, let me choose what I think is right?" I don't exactly get what she said. She just shook her head.
"No, I mean what do you really want to do?" Wait, does she mean-
"Like what I want to do? Without being influenced by anyone else?" I told him. Is she mocking me or is she serious on this?
"Yes, because when Tsunayoshi or your Mom is to give you advice on this they would just say 'Follow your heart' " That's what Tsuna said…Follow your heart and don't let what anybody says change who you really are.
"Of course, No matter what anyone say, I will always be me and no one can change that." She just smiled and chuckled.
"Now that's my little brother" I just smirked.
"Of course, who else?"
No matter what anyone says, I will always follow my heart. I will always be who I want to be and no one will hinder it. Obstacles can block my path and I'll just push them away. I will only serve one boss for eternity and that is Sawada Tsunayoshi.
Updated and much appreciated if you enjoy~
Sorry for the late update, school and writer's block so early from the story T_T I kinda strayed from my original plotline and I'm going back to it. I don't know what will happen without that XD I want to write something and that's why I'm writing this also I haven't found any fanfics like it. Wish me luck to write it as best as I can
Well, first of all thanks for reviewing, favoring and following. At first all I saw was 9 reviews then it was suddenly 19 and after a few hours 21 I guess XD Now I know why authors like reviews :3
Silenzioso- We're the same XD Almost all the great fanfics I know are either on hiatus, dead, or abandoned. I don't even know if it's almost or all of it. I just started writing so you saying you like how I type made my day :3 I look forward to working with you :3 Also Shiro-chan is okay XD
Love-is-Cyanide- Thanks for answering my question XD Thought the numbers apply to all the fanfics XD
sakura Lee Ho- For some reason, I like trust and betrayal? So that's why though not much
RenaScarlet- Main charas on this story are Gokudera and Tsuna mainly Tsuna though :3
nortwind132- Same with Rena XD Main charas are Gokudera and Tsuna but mainly Tsuna.
Lover's Red Rose- Made Akira like that XD
kristingreen- This chapter answers your question don't you think? XD
Guest- Almost all the betrayal fics on Tsuna are with all his guardians if there are some fanfics like this. Come out! XD
Belle'Masque- Can't answer or I'm doomed XD
Syren Novade- Don't worry too much, I made Akira like that
Yuki- You basically reviewed 4 times XD Thank you though, Here's the next chapter :3 I'm being clandestine because the answers are on the upcoming chapters XD Also no new organization by Tsuna, nope.
Guest- Tsuna won't be Tsuna without Natsu! XD I'm not good with writing pairings cause I don't like romance much. I'm more into action and romance only if they are really that awesome on portraying it.