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How can you love a broken soul? Chapter2

I woke up hours later and it had already started to darken outside. I wiped the sleep off my eyes and looked through the room just to see my Master sitting on the end of my bed.

"What are you doing here?" I asked him furiously. I told him to leave and let me alone yet he was sitting in my room and probably waited the whole time for me to wake up.

"I don't want to see you!" I screamed at him and it was the truth. I've had nightmares while sleeping because of what he'd done.

"Ahsoka" He whispered and came a little closer. "Let me explain." He begged and as I didn't say anything he just went on. "I do now understand that you loved Lux more than anything and I also understand that I wasn't clear enough earlier. I know I hurt you with killing him and perhaps I overreacted a little but all I want is you to be happy and Lux couldn't have made you happy though you might believe that. He hurt you, Ahsoka, and I know I've also hurt you but it was necessary to save you. He wasn't good for you. Ahsoka, he hurt you and I don't like seeing you in pain. He beat you and abused you and hell knows what else he did to you, but it's over now. I ended it. He can't hurt you anymore." He looked straight in my eyes the whole time while speaking. I started to tear up again and hid my face in the sheets. I didn't want him to see me any more broken than he already had.

"Please just leave, just let me alone." I begged him but he refused to do so.

"No, Ahsoka. I'll stay with you." His hand reached up and he slowly petted my lek. I started crying harder and harder and he tried to calm me down; unsuccessfully. He's sitting next to me for three hours now and I still haven't calmed completely down yet. After another hour I at least managed to speak properly.

"How did you know?" I wanted to know. He couldn't possibly know about what Lux had done to me, could he? I looked at him expectantly. He must have found out somehow and I wanted to know how! He sighed and looked at me sadly.

"Sometimes I could see little bruises on your arms or neck, though you tried to cover them. When I first saw the bruises on you I thought they were from a battle but the more you got the more I noticed you only got new ones when we've been on Coruscant, so they couldn't be battle scars. I then thought that I caused them and tried not to be as harsh with you while sparring as I was before but you still kept getting those bruises so one time I followed you outside the temple. You were going to Lux. The first time I saw him beating you was the time I swore the next time he'd even look at you was going to be the last time. Yesterday I followed you again and saw you with Lux. He was about to send you to the hospital and I had to save you. I just wanted to hurt him as much as he did hurt you. I wanted revenge for you but then I got so angry and accidentally killed him. I didn't mean to break your heart. I just wanted to save you." He had tears in his eyes and so had I. He'd just wanted to save me and I'd blamed him for doing so. I didn't mean to make him feel worse than he probably already was. I couldn't think straight right now. He wanted to save me. Anakin wanted to save me from getting hurt and in this process he accidentally killed Lux. Why couldn't he just say that in the first place? I heard him sigh and then he got up turning to the door about to leave.

"Wait." I said silently. "Don't go." I added shyly. I didn't want him to go now. His presence was comforting and I didn't want to be alone in case I would fall back asleep. He turned back around smiling and sat back down next to me on the bed. I sat up as well and he wrapped his arm around me. We didn't say anything for a long time. I was still trying to process everything that had happened today. It was an exhausting day and I was glad it was over now.

"Why have you never talked to me about it?" I was curious. Perhaps if he would have talked to me he wouldn't have had to kill Lux. He looked at me but I continued starring at the wall. Before he said anything he carefully let my head rest on his shoulder and sighed.

"You think this would have worked? Just talking to you and everything would be back to normal? That's not how it works, not with you. Earlier, after" he paused and takes another breath "I had killed Lux you were so angry and mad, you didn't understand why I had to do this. You think if I'd just told you that being with Lux isn't good for you, you would have broken up with him? No, you thought he was the right one for you. You thought he loved you as much as you loved him. You're ignorant and you don't believe what others say. Mostly that's a remarkable feature but in this case it was hindering." I looked up at him with tears in my eyes and he gave me a weak smile. He, somehow, was right and I understood this now.

"And what happens now?" I asked after a little while. "The Council is going to find out about everything, about what you've down, about my relationship with Lux and what he's done to me." My voice cracked. I took a deep breath and tried to shut the thought of him out. "What's going to happen? What is the Council going to do?" I looked in his eyes. I was frightened what if Anakin actually had to go to prison? No, I wouldn't let that happen! Not after what he'd done for me. I sighed, thinking about all the possibilities that could happen. He could be sent to prison, or we could both get expelled from the Order, we could also get separated by the Council and they could assign me to a new Master. But they'll definitely lose their trust in us. Anakin seemed to be thinking about the same thing; I could tell just by looking in his eyes. He sighed and looked back at me.

"No matter what's going to happen, I'll never let anyone hurt you ever again, okay? Everything will be alright. I won't let them take you from me; I'm not leaving your side. I'll protect you no matter what!" He said confidently and I nodded. He's going to protect me, he won't let anyone hurt me, he was like I wanted Lux to be and he really meant what he was saying. I knew he just wanted the best for me. I gave him a quick smile and lied down on my bed. He wrapped the blanket around me and smiled at me warmly.

"Can you stay here? Just till I've fallen asleep?" I asked and looked at him shyly. He took my hand in his and rubbed his thumb over it.

"Of course, I only want the best for you." He laughed carefully, obviously not wanting to insult me. I smiled at him and then closed my eyes. He whispered things towards me just as everything is going to be okay and we're going to figure something out, nobody is ever going to hurt you. It made me feel better and I didn't want to fall asleep anymore. I wanted to listen to his comforting voice telling me comforting and calming things. I smiled still having my eyes closed and continued drowning in his loving and caring words.

"We're going to find a way, Ahsoka. They can't separate us nor can they take you away from me. I know Lux hurt you but I'm going to show you that there is more than just him. He wasn't good for you but this ended and now started a new chapter of your life; one that's going to be better. You're so young and innocent yet you have to fight in a war, a war you didn't choose to fight, a war you don't even know why we're fighting it. You're so young and innocent yet you've only seen pain and blood and death. This is going to change. I'm going to help you see the beautiful things in life, to be happy and to live life to the fullest because you deserve all that that is good. I'm going to show you, you'll see." He promised and kissed my forehead softly before I drowned into a peaceful sleep.

Two parts in one day, you should be proud of me! Anyway I probably won't update this often in the future since there is this annoying thing called school that is slowly driving me insane. Please leave a review below and tell me what you think about it. Please!

-Svenja