another shorter one.

title taken from: "Lua" by Bright Eyes

"(ToDearHey, there)" meant to be written in strikethrough; upon uploading i realised ff . net doesnt seem to support that format yet.

1.1.16 00:11

(ToDearHey, there)

Jim,

Writing this to avoid thinking too much about the fireworks outside.

Wait, that sounds bad. Sorry.

I don't know if you're ever going to read this. Mostly I'm handwriting because I think it'll be easier to gather my thoughts this way.

I miss you. I think that goes without saying, but I'll say it anyway.

I turned down a proposal from my boyfriend of 5 years because of what happened. You.

I don't know what that means, though. I don't think I'll know for sure until we see each other again.

You love me?

I don't love you. I don't think. Not in the same way, at least.

But I think I want to see you again. I definitely want to kiss you again. Maybe?

I don't know.

Maybe writing things down doesn't help all that much after all.

Pam tucked the little white envelope into her rucksack, refusing to analyse her reasons for wanting to bring the impulsively-written letter back to school with her.

Speaking of.

Currently her father was stowing the tiny suitcase into the trunk. Pam, Mrs. Beesly, and Emily watched by the front door.

"Call as soon as you get unpacked." Mrs. Beesly instructed.

"I will."

"And text once you get there."

"I will."

"And before you go to bed."

"Mom." She nudged her shoulder. "I will. Plus, Dad's driving me, so it's not like you have to worry."

Mrs. Beesly simply nodded her understanding, not saying much until her daughter was climbing into the car. They exchanged their final goodbyes, and Pam stared out the window as the car sped down the street, watching her mother wave.

Mr. Beesly helped her unpack the small amount of things she had brought back home.

He left soon afterwards, wanting to be home by dinner, kissing his daughter goodbye and offering her a one-armed hug.

It felt slightly strange to be back at the dorm. 2016.

January was supposedly a month of new beginnings, and college seemed to be the best place to put these new beginnings into effect.

Her first resolution was to become more confident.

Confident in her abilities, her decisions. Confident in herself.

So it took her only a minute to decide.

sent 18:42

TO: Jim Halpert

FROM: Pam

what time are you arriving at tomorrow? we should talk. right? i miss you.