Us.
Words: 439
Couple: Grant Ward and Skye
TV Show: Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D.
Disclaimer: All characters you recognize do not belong to me.
AU.
Drabble.
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Mystery: What is the thing your character thinks about the most?
He used to wonder about how it could have all been different.
He used to think about how it would have changed his life is he'd run away when he was younger, if he'd found a place in the foster system and stayed there until he was allowed to be independent.
He wondered how it would have been if he'd stayed that night, hadn't stolen his Commanding Officer's car and burnt his childhood home to the ground. Maybe John Garrett wouldn't have recruited him? Wouldn't have brought him to HYDRA and SHIELD?
Maybe if he had have run away and joined the foster system, he would have met her earlier. Maybe they would have been placed in the same home, or in the same orphanage. Maybe he would have had a chance to be her friend without lying constantly about absolutely everything.
What if he'd joined SHIELD without the influence of HYDRA? Would he still have "arrested" her because she was hacking SHIELD's servers, would he even have been placed on Agent Coulson's team with these people? Maybe he'd have crossed the Rising Tide's path, but maybe it wouldn't have been her.
He used to wonder if he could change fate. Destiny.
It was stupid. Pathetic. It was clouding his judgment.
He had a mission, he didn't need to worry about what could have happened in the past, he had needed to worry about that moment. He had needed to worry about fooling this team, being this version of Grant Ward that wasn't shaped and molded by John Garrett to be an emotionless man who could kill at the blink of an eye.
He certainly wasn't fooling himself in the process.
He couldn't kill Buddy, he was weak. Maybe if he wasn't weak it would have been different. Maybe he would have told her, maybe he would have turned against HYDRA in order to save her.
Grant Ward would have done anything to change how it turned out with Skye, it wasn't supposed to be like this. She wasn't supposed to get hurt. Now he was in too deep. He was in too deep with this team, with her, with Garrett, with HYDRA. It was too late to go to Coulson, and it was too late to back out of this.
He should have just runaway. He wouldn't have gotten attached to these people, and maybe they would have had a chance. Because it was too late now. There was no more SHIELD, there was no more prospect of him and her being together, and there was no changing the past.
Hail HYDRA and all that other shit, right?
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I've actually had a few written and just haven't posted. Now I'm on the hunt for them. Sorry, whoops, I love yous.
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