Chapter 3: I Love You Phil
It was late afternoon the next Saturday and still, a whole week later, all I was thinking about was that kiss. It was cold outside, because it was nearing the end of Autumn and neither of us even mentioned it since it happened, it was like it never happened, like it was only a dream. It felt that way even though it defiantly wasn't.
Everyday since it happened, I wondered why Dan never brought it up and why he acted as if it never happened. Every night my thoughts turned to fear when I thought about the reasons why it was like this. What if he was ashamed of it, what if he just wanted to forget it, what if I came on too strong?
I couldn't think about that anymore, I needed something to get my mind off of it, something to chase away my fears.
I went onto the kitchen where Dan sat with his cup of tea and his laptop, browsing Tumblr.
"Do you have any plans for today?" I asked him.
"No, actually, I don't. Why?" Dan answered.
"I don't know, it's Saturday and I'm bored. Wanna do something?"
He immediately said sure and asked what I wanted to do. In my head I was thinking: Snuggle with you, kiss you. But instead I said "Do you want to go to the cinema?"
"Ooh yeah, what's playing?" Dan asked.
"Um, the new Avengers came out last week. We could go see that." I answered.
"Yes! I've been dying to see that, what time is it playing?" Dan said excitedly
"In about an hour. If we leave now we could walk there and get our seats early." I said.
"Yeah, yeah, yeah. That would be great." Dan said putting his shoes on.
We got all our stuff together and headed for the lift to take us to the lobby. When we arrived the doors opened and we stepped out. No one else was there. I wanted to do something to get Dan's attention. I figured the only way to do this was to trip and fall.
I walk next to him but right before we get to the door out, I trip myself and fall. I didn't plan this out too well because I ended up cracking my face against the floor, giving myself a bloody nose.
"AHH OUCH" I scream. Dan turns around and immediately kneels down to me.
"Phil! Oh my gosh what did you do?" He says in a worried tone.
"I tripped and fell!" I said sitting up and cupping my bloody nose. I stayed in a seated position while Dan ran to get tissues from the little table by the lift.
He rushes back over and sat down next to me holding the tissues to my nose.
"Are you ok, Phil?" He asked looking into my eyes as he still held the tissues to my nose.
"Well my nose hurts but I think I'm good. I can hold my own tissues you know." I said
"It's ok, I got it." He said smiling at me.
"Are you sure you're ok?" He added, still looking into my eyes.
"Yes, yes, I'm fine." I said. He finally let me hold the tissue as he helped me up and back to the lift.
I had gotten blood all over my hands and some on my shirt. I didn't particularly like the sight of blood and feeling pain at the same time and this made me feel a bit ill. When we got to out flat Dan unlocked the door and lead me to the sofa and sat me down. He rushed into his room and got the tissue box from his night stand and brought it to me. He took the blood soaked tissues from my hand and threw them away in the kitchen. When he got back he sat down next to me and held the tissue box.
"Phil what happened?" He asked concerned.
"I fell and banged my face on the floor." I responded with a silly voice because of the tissues at my nose.
"It's ok, Phil. You'll be fine with me." He said sweetly.
When the gushing finally stopped, I went to my room to change my shirt and then to the bath room to wash my hands. I still felt a bit ill from everything and didn't really want to go out now.
I stumble into the lounge where Dan was waiting for me.
" Phil are you alright? You look ill." He asked
"Dan I don't really want to go out now. The sight of my blood and the pain made me feel a bit ill." I said. I was actually a bit light headed now too. I put my hand to my face as I slowly stumbled to the sofa. Right before I got there, I faint and crash to the floor. Dan tried to catch me but didn't get there soon enough.
" OH MY GOD. PHIL? PHIL?" He shouted, very worried, and began to cry.
I was too light headed and dizzy to talk or move. Dan got on the floor and picked me up and put me on his lap. I moved my eyes to look at him and he was crying. He holds me and hugs me tight with one hand on the back of my head, grasping my hair. He was literally crying, loudly now.
"Phil are you ok?!" He shouts.
I stutter but manage to spit out: "I-I-I'm ok, I think, I'm just a bit clumsy I guess."
"No Phil, You're not clumsy, something's wrong, what is it?" He says looking at my pale face.
"J-j-just a bit light headed it's ok, I'm fine." I said.
"Phil you're not fine, you fainted and your face is really pale. Here sit on the sofa." He said
He helped me get up and walked me the rest of the way to the sofa. He sat down and gestured for me to sit on his lap. I sat down and laid my head on his shoulder and put my arms around his neck. He wrapped his arms around me and hugged me tight. He was still crying. He turned his head to the side to look at my face. He looks into my eyes and then kisses me. He pulls away and smiles at me.
"I love you, Phil." He says sweetly.
His face was still touching mine so I move my head to kiss him again. I didn't mind his tears on my face, I actually like it because they were Dan's tears for me and it was cute. I put my hand on the side of his face and hold him there, kissing him.
I was feeling a bit less ill but still a bit dizzy. I was hungry and sleepy but had no desire to leave Dan's embrace. Dan and I stayed on the sofa, hugging and giving each other little pecks on the lips, until he herd my stomach growl.
" Are you hungry, love?" He asked smiling.
"A bit." I said
"Well I'll make you something, what do you want?" Dan asked still hugging me tight.
"I don't care really. But can you make hot cocoa too?"
"Oh Phil, I would make you anything you like. But that means you have to get off me so I can make it." Dan said smiling.
"Uhh.. Noo" I Said.
"It's ok, I'll come back." He said chuckling.
Dan scooted me off his lap and went into the kitchen to make us dinner. He quickly made it, and the hot cocoa, and brought it in and set in on the table. As we ate, Dan made silly faces at me making me laugh. He was so adorable and my plan had worked… sort of. I didn't mean to actually hurt my self, but I got his attention. I just wish he was like this more often.
When we were finished Dan took our plates and mugs into the kitchen and put them in the dish washer. When he got back he sat on the sofa and held his arms out for me to return to his lap. I went over to him and started to shiver.
"Are you chilly Phil?" He asked grabbing for the blanket next to him and covering us. He took his arms out and wrapped them around me and the blanket. He bent forward for the TV remote and turned on the baking channel. After about two half-hour episodes I fell asleep on him.
He glances at my face and gives me a little kiss on the forehead and turns off the TV. He picks me up and carries me to my bed room. He puts me on the bed and tucks me in and turns off the light.
"Dan" I say as he goes to leave.
"Yeah Phil?" He says turning back to me.
"Will you sleep with me in my bed tonight?" I asked in a tired voice.
"Why?" He asked.
"Because it really scared me when I fainted, I feel safer with you." I said opening my arms for him.
"Oh alright." He says with a smile and lays down next to me.
"I love you Phil, a lot. Good night my precious angel." He says cuddling me and gives me one last good nigh kiss.