I'm so sorry this is really late! I've been really busy but I made this chapter a bit longer to apologize for taking so long. Enjoy :)

It was the morning of New Years Eve and I was in the kitchen finishing my bowl of cereal. Dan was still in his room and I was about to go to town and pick up some things for the party we were having at our flat. We weren't inviting many people, just Chris and Peej. They were probably going to get wasted and pass out on our sofa again like last year, which was ok.

"Are you ready for New Years Dan?" I said to Dan as I saw his bedroom door open.

"Oh fuck yeah I am. Did you get the food and alcohol yet?" Dan asked me.

"No I was just about to head out for it, wanna come with?" I asked putting my bowl in the dishwasher.

"Uh, yeah sure. Let me get dressed and eat something first." Dan answered.

I was so happy he was coming with. I loved being with Dan, every thing about him made me happy and smile. As he walked back to his room I watched him. When he got in the room and shut the door, I went over and knocked on the door.

"Dan, what do you want to eat, I'll make you something?" I asked him.

"Um.. an omelet, please. Thank you, dear." He said from inside his room. I could hear him giggling.

I didn't mind making anything for Dan, well, because he was Dan and I loved him. He has done so much for me. Helping me with the self-harm, my confidence, my everything. Dan made me happy, truly happy and I couldn't ask for anything more in my life. He was my angel.

I was almost done when Dan came walking into the kitchen and jumped up and sat on the counter.

"It smells really good in here, Phil." Dan complimented.

"Well I do make good omelets." I said jokingly.

I was finished and put it on a plate for Dan. "Did you want something to drink."

I asked.

"No that's ok." He said smiling as I gave him his plate.

When I gave him the plate, he set it aside and opened his arms for a hug. Of course I met his embrace and hugged him tightly. He was a bit taller than me 'cause he was sitting on the counter, but I could look up at him, for a change, and he had to look down at me.

"I love you, Dan." I said pressing my head to his chest. I could hear his heart beat, and that made me want to hug him even tighter.

"I love you, too, Phil." He said hugging me right back.

He kissed my forehead and hugged me before letting me go to grab his plate. As he ate, I put on my shoes and jacket. So he wouldn't have to get them, I grabbed Dan's shoes and jacket and brought them to him in the kitchen.

Dan finished and put on his shoes and jacket and we were out the door.

"So where are we going first, my love?" I asked Dan as we stepped outside.

"How about we go get the food first, 'cause that going to be lighter, and then the alcohol and party cups and things." Dan said

"Ok. Sounds good to me." I said as Dan grabbed my hand and walked with me to the store. Some people looked at us weird and others just ignored it like they would any other couple. I wasn't afraid to show my love for Dan in public anymore, and neither was he.

We got snacks and dips and party foods and plastic cups at the store, then we headed to the adult beverage store to get the alcohol. Dan couldn't have a good party or New Years without his alcohol. Every party we had, or went to, Dan had alcohol. I let him drink and I only had a few so I could make sure Dan and I got home ok. But we were at our house tonight so I didn't care.

On our way back to the flat, I let Dan carry the light things and I carried the heavy things. Walking home we couldn't hold hands, but it was ok because we were soon home.

"I'm actually excited for tonight. I don't know why but I am actually excited." Dan said to me smiling off into the distance.

"You know you're really cute when you smile." I said looking at Dan.

"Really? I am?" He said looking at me.

"Yes, of course you are. You're always cute to me. When you're sleeping in my arms, when you're laughing, when you're happy, sad, mad, you are always adorable to me. Ever since day one, I liked you and thought you were cute. That first day we met, I knew I was going to like you, I just never imagined loving you as much as I do now." I said.

"Phil, that's really sweet."

The rest of the walk home, Dan and I mostly talked about us and the party later on. I brought up that I didn't want him to get too drunk and do something stupid like hurt himself or anything. We both laughed and continued our walk. The whole time walking home I wanted to hold his hand, but I couldn't so I just looked at him as much as I could.

"I am so excited for tonight! And I don't know why." Dan said as we entered our flat.

"Me too, but I know why I'm so excited." I said

"Why is that?" Dan asked

"Because this is my first New Years with someone I really love. And I know you'll be my very first kiss of 2014!"

It was around 7:30 when Chris and Peej showed up. Only to our surprise they brought guests. They brought 10 extra people and they brought even more alcohol. There was so much alcohol in our flat we could have had more people come and still have drinks to spare. This was okay, I guess, I mean at least we could consider this a real party now. Friends, beer, whiskey, vodka, shot glasses, tequila, we had it all, even if it wasn't safe to mix drinks.

"So this is your flat?" Said one of Chris's friends to Dan.

"Actually I share this flat with my boyfriend, Phil. He's over there talking to Peej." Dan responded.

"Oh, so you're gay then? 'cause you have a boyfriend?" He said. It was only a few hours into the party and people were already feeling happy.

"Yes but I would prefer if you wouldn't use the term 'gay' please" Dan said, as he began to walk away.

"Hey, I wasn't done talking to you, you know" He said to Dan, grabbing his arm to keep him from walking away.

"Well, I think I'm done talking to you"

"Well, no you aren't." He said, pulling Dan closer to him.

"You're drunk and I would appreciate it if you let me go" Dan said struggling to loosen his grip.

"You ain't going anywhere" The man said to Dan, grabbing him with both hands and forcing him to be close to his body.

"That's enough now let me go." Dan said sounding a bit worried.

I herd the tone in Dan's voice and immediately looked in his direction. I look to my right and see a man with his hands tightly gripping Dan's upper arms and smiling weirdly at Dan as he tries to get away.

"Alright, that's enough you can let him go now" I said to Chris's friend.

"You want me to let him go? I don't think I should."

"You will let him go or I'll break your arm." I said to him.

"Aww looks like you've got a protective boyfriend there. Should I let you go?" He said too Dan. Dan was scared and didn't know what to say since the guy had a lot of muscle and was starting to hurt him.

"You're hurting my arm, let me go!" Dan said to him.

"I don't think I should, the way you tried walking away from me when I was still talking to you, that wasn't a very good host now was it?"

"Come on, you're hurting him, let him go! You're drunk!" I said to him, getting angry now. "Let him go now!"

The man just laughed and shook Dan. This was way too much. Everyone was drunk except for me. The man laughed and lauged and I tried to get Dan free, but the man wouldn't loosen his grip. I was getting angry, I could feel the rage in my eyes. The whole room was loud and no one was helping me. Dan was scared and all I could think was-

The room was quiet, everyone was staring at me. There was beer spilled on the floor, and my hand hurt. Chris's friend was on the floor with a bloody nose. I punched him straight in the face. Dan came running into my arms and I hugged him before looking at what I've done.

"Yes, I am a protective boyfriend. And you can leave." I said angrily looking down at him.

It was a few hours later now and Dan was completely wasted. He was dancing on the table to Toxic by Britany Spears. It was 15 minutes before midnight and our flat was full of drunks. Few people knew their own name anymore. I went out into the kitchen to get a drink and when I came back Dan wasn't on the table anymore, in fact, I couldn't even see him. I just talked to Chris, I figured Dan went to the bathroom or something.

It was now 5 minutes until midnight and I still didn't see Dan. I finished my drink and sat my cup on the table and looked for him. I didn't see Dan anywhere in the lounge, where everybody was. Come to think of it, I didn't see Peej either. I was a bit worried because of what happened earlier, what if something bad happened to him? Everyone was drunk, anything could have happened. I started running around our flat looking for mostly Dan. The kitchen, the lounge again, the bathroom and the hallway where we lived, I didn't see them anywhere. It was 47 seconds before midnight and the TV show was counting down loudly. I ran from the kitchen to my room to Dan's room. When I got to Dan's room the TV and everyone in our flat screamed "HAPPY NEW YEAR" and that's when I found Dan and Peej.

Dan's head was being held by Peej's hands and his lips against Peej's lips. They were kissing, no they were making out, I can't believe it! When they realized the door had opened they turned to see me with my hands on my face, crying in disappointment and disbelief. Dan was kissing another man and it wasn't me, his boyfriend.

"Phil! No I'm sorry!" Dan yelled at me as I ran out of his room. "Phil, I didn't mean to, I'm sorry!

I ran into my room and threw myself on my bed, crying. I tried telling myself they were just drunk and it was an accident and it wasn't supposed to happen, it was just the party. But I was still saddened by the fact he knew Peej wasn't me, his boyfriend, but kissed him anyways. This was supposed to be the year I kiss my true love into the new year, but he was kissing our best friend.

Dan came stumbling slowly into my room. He sloppily made his way to the side of the bed that I was on and got down on his knees leaning against the bed.

"Phil I'm so sorry" He mumbled. He still had a bit of sober in him to make out words and feel emotions. "I'm so sorry, it meant nothing, I love you. I am so sorry" He said beginning to get up.

I grab him with tears raining down my face and hug him, half sitting up, and he hugs me right back. His breath reeked of alcohol, but I didn't care. I just hugged him. I knew it was all a mistake and it was his drunk brain taking over, but I believed him. I trusted him.

We hugged for a while and he whispered in my ear "Happy New Year, I love you so much"

I made him come in bed with me and just lay there for a bit. And that's where we fell asleep.

I may not have gotten to kiss Dan into the new year, but I was certain he was going to be my first snuggle of 2014. We cuddled in our sleep and I could feel him tight up against me.

I could feel him breathing as he slept and he mumbled something. I woke up to a louder mumble and Dan moving weirdly and making strange movements. He then woke up and looked at me with a face as pale as snow.

"Is everything ok there, Dan?" I asked him.

He just looked at me with a blank, pale face.

"Dan are you alright?" I asked more concerned.

He then got a sour look on his face and threw up, all over me. I immediately jumped up, with vomit all over my chest, and got bin and made Dan sit up on the side of the bed and hold it. I grabbed a dirty shirt and wiped off as much vomit as I could get and sat right beside him rubbing his back as threw up in the bin. He started to cry.

"It's ok, Dan, it's ok." I told him.

When he was finished I laid him back in bed and took the bin into the bathroom and cleaned it out. Then I took a shower. It didn't bother me that much that Dan threw up on me. I knew he was going to vomit anyway, and I'm glad I was with him when he did. I know I would want Dan by my side if that ever happened to me.

After drying off, I went back into my room with just a towel wrapped around me. Dan was sound asleep again. He was so beautiful, even if his face was really pale still. I put on my underwear and lounge pants and crawled back into bed. Dan was facing me and I put my arms around him, pulling him closer to me and hugged him tight.

"Good night my sleepy hung over baby doll. I love you so much more than life. Happy Ney Years." I said to Dan as I stole a kiss on the lips goodnight.