Chapter 13: How Will I Do This?
There was so many things racing through my brain right now. The therapist visit I went to last week, everything that happened with Dan, my idea that I had. So many things rushing through my head right now I didn't even realize Dan was calling my name.
"Phil, I've been calling your name for 2 minutes now." He said walking into my bedroom.
I was sat on my bed with my laptop, looking up jewelry stores that had the best rings for the best prices. When I herd Dan walk in I jumped and quickly shut my laptop.
"What are you doing that you shut your laptop so quickly?" Dan asked sitting next to me.
"Oh, nothing. What did you want, beautiful?" I asked, smiling. He gave me a strange look.
"Well I wanted to know if you wanted to go see a film or something, you aren't doing anything today are you?" He asked.
"No, I'm not doing anything today, what film did you wanna see?" I asked smiling at his beautiful smile.
"Well, that new film The Amazing Spider-Man 2 is out in theatres, you haven't seen it yet have you?" He asked
"Now who else would I be going to the cinema with? And it just came out." I asked jokingly, then pulling him into a hug, kissing his hair.
"Well, I don't know, you're a beautiful man, you could be going with anyone." He said laughing a bit.
"Well, I would turn them down, and then go with you instead." I replied booping his nose.
"Ok, well it starts at 4, that's in like an hour, so you should get ready." He said getting up and walking towards the door.
"Hey, Dan, did you wanna go out for diner after the movie?" I asked, making him spin around to face me.
"That sounds nice, where are we going?" He asked.
"You'll see." I answered with a wink. As he left me to get ready.
I opened my laptop again and the jewelry store website was still up. I saw this beautiful ring that would look perfect on Dan's ring finger. It was beautiful, it was a palladium ring with white and black diamonds lined along a small section of the ring. It also had the option to have a name or short saying engraved on the inside. It was a great price, too, I wanted to get it for Dan.
"Shit." I said to myself remembering I was supposed to be getting ready. I had 30 minutes to get ready. I didn't have enough time to get a shower, blow-dry and straighten my hair. I quickly used the waterless shampoo and turned on my straighter. While it heated up, I went over to my wardrobe and picked out a nice jumper to wear with my skinny jeans and converse. I got dressed and started to straighten my hair when Dan called me.
"Phil are you almost ready?" He shouted from the kitchen.
"Yes, darling, I'm almost ready." I shouted back, smiling.
I finished quickly, then sprayed some cologne on myself and got my phone, keys, wallet, and the pocket knife I took with me everywhere. I was finally ready.
"Should I call a taxi?" Dan asked as I walked into the kitchen, stopping in my tracks. "What?" Dan asked as I just stood there, looking at him.
"You just look so adorable, and beautiful." I said smiling. He was wearing his black, grey and white jumper with skinny jeans and his black high-tops.
"Aww thanks, you look great, too." Dan said. "So should I call a taxi?" He asked once again.
"With you looking that good? No we're walking, you are mine and I wanna show you off." I said walking over to him, and grabbing his hand and kissing him. "Shall we go?" I asked stepping beside him and holding out my arm. He took it.
We walked to the cinema and we got a few disapproving looks, but we just ignored them. I knew that if I kept holding Dan's hand and telling him how much I loved him and how beautiful he was, it wouldn't bother him as much.
When we got to the cinema, there was a lot of people there and Dan got nervous about holding my hand in line for popcorn and soda, but he kept holding it and looking only at me. I was so happy he didn't let go, I squeezed it to let him know it was ok and that I loved what he was doing.
I got a large popcorn and a large Pepsi to share. I carried the soda and Dan carried the popcorn. We walked hand in hand to our seats in the theatre. We sat down and put the arm rest dividing out seats up and moving closer together.
I took a piece of popcorn and popped it into my mouth as the previews played on the big screen. Dan lay his head on my shoulder and took some popcorn as well. He went to pop a piece in his mouth but I knocked it out of his hand before it got to his mouth. I quickly put my hand back down and pretended I didn't do it. He looked at me and laughed before getting another piece.
When he went to pop the next piece into his mouth, I did the same and knocked it away from him. But this time I couldn't help but smile. He lightly punched me and laughed at the way I couldn't keep a straight face.
"You're too cute, Dan, you know that?" I said wrapping my arm around him. He laid his head on my shoulders again and I laid my head on his. This was perfect, my favourite person in my arms, a film I know is going to be amazing, and really good popcorn. Who could ask for a better night?
"You know you're perfect, right?" He said, looking into my eyes. He smiled, which made me smile, and the world seemed to be a brighter place when I was with him.
"Faggot alert." I heard someone call from behind us. I turn back to see who it was. It was a man who seemed to be in his 20's. Dan shoved his face in my chest to try and deflect the harsh words.
"Could you please be quiet, the movie will start soon." I said back to the man.
He laughed. "Could you stop being so fucking gay and just leave?"
I turned around and rubbed Dan's back and told him to just ignore the asshole behind us. He was scared to the point the was shaking. I hugged him and kissed him on the head and told him it would be ok, but nothing changed, he was still shaking.
"Too pussy to say anything back? Are you too much of a faggot to respond?" He said and this time his friends joined in on laughing. I could feel tears start coming from Dan's eyes.
"No." I responded sternly. I couldn't believe the others in the room weren't doing anything, they were all just watching.
"Aww is the ugly faggots boyfriend crying? Is he a pussy too?" He said taunting Dan and I.
"If I were you, I think, I'd shut the fuck up." I said getting even more angry.
"WHat did you say to me, you fucking gay ass cunt?" He stood up and gave me an angry glare.
"I told you to shut the fuck up, are you hard of hearing?" I said, still in my seat with my arms around Dan.
The man walked down to the section Dan I sat in. "You fucking faggot, who do you think you are?"
" I know who I am, I'm not too sure about you." I replied
"Get up." He demanded with a deep, stern voice.
"No, I'm not getting up, I'm here with my boyfriend to watch a movie. Your seats back up there." I said not even looking at him.
He pulled me by my arm, forcing me to stand. I let go of Dan so he wouldn't get pulled into this too.
"You wanna say that again, cock sucker?" He replied with anger filling his face.
"I don't have to repeat myself to idiotic little dick heads like you."
Dan moved and grabbed my hand to pull me back down to my seat.
"Sit down" He whispered.
"Does your little fuck buddy want his ass cut too?" He said and reached to grab Dan.
I moved front of him, blocking him from Dan. Dan retracted his arm and squealed.
"Don't touch him." I said with a very stern look and a deeper, angrier voice.
He blew me off and reached for Dan again. I moved blocking him. "Don't you dare lay a finger on him or I will rip you to shreads." I yelled.
He ignored me once again, realizing Dan was the only way to get to me, and grabbed Dan's arm. Dan screamed in terror and began crying out loud instantly.
I lost control of my actions and I felt my hand tighten into a fist and go flying towards the man. He almost lost balance, stumbling then catching himself. I looked over at Dan for a second. He was holding his arm as his face screamed pain form the mans tight grip. That just filled me with even more anger, and rage fell over me. I tackled him to the ground and pinned him to the floor, straddling him. I soon found my pocket knife centimeters away from his throat.
Dan was crying even harder and screaming "NO" as the man pushed me off of him, sending my pocket knife sliding across the floor. He punched me once, giving me a bloody lip. I tasted the blood, and that only fueled the fire and the desire to kill him even more. I looked him dead in the eye and saw my fist fly. Punching left, right, left, right. He was soon on the ground again and I was on top of him, making his face my master piece of bruises and split lips.
"No one touches him!" I heard myself screaming as I punch the man over and over.
People were standing there, not doing a single thing, watching in confusion as a skinny white boy beat the living shit out of a tanned, buff figure, hollow with no hopes or dreams.
I got off of him, spitting in his face. "You wanna say that again, you fucking bitch?"
I roar, standing over him. I grab my knife and shive it into my pocket. I motion for Dan and reach for his hand to help him step over the motionless sack of shit laying on the floor. I grab Dan and kiss him passionately, so the man could see. "You just wish you had what we have. You're sure as hell aren't gonna find it with your slut of a girlfriend." I say, putting my arm around Dan's waist and walking out of the theatre. As soon as we were out I grabbed Dan's hand and held it tightly. "Run" I whisper in his ear and we take off, running together. We run home.
When we reach our flat, I immediately lift up Dan's sleeve to reveal a nasty bruise. He pulls his sleeve down and begins to cry again.
"That fucking loser did that to you." I mumble
"It's fine, I'm ok now." He said, bursting into tears.
I immediately wrap him in a loving hug, squeezing tight to let him know he's safe now.
"You're fine now, you're safe with me, I promise." I say leading him over to the sofa and sitting down with him on my lap.
He cries and our bodies shake from his sobs. I shush him and tell him it's ok now, but he doesn't stop.
"Dan, it's ok now, it's over." I put a finger under his chin, and lift his face to mine. His beautiful, tear stained, face.
He jumped forward and crashed his lips into mine, wrapping his arms around my neck. I wrap my arms around his waist and just sit there holding him. I could feel his tear covered cheeks rub against mine, but I didn't care. He pulled away, our foreheads touching.
"Why did you hurt him, Phil?" HE whispered quietly.
"Because he touched you, he was going to hurt you and I would never let that happen."
"But why didn't you just let him hurt me? You would've been safe then."
"Dan, I would never let that happen. Me getting hurt would be far less painful than seing you in the tiniest bit of pain." I said pecking him on the lips. "I love you, Dan, and I would never ever let anything bad happen to you. I love you."
"Phil, you are seriously the best and sweetest person I have ever met, let alone call my own. I love you too, I love you so so much. I always wanna be with you." He said hugging me tight and kissing me on the cheek.
"Dan?" I ask as he pulls away, my voice shaking. Is it hot in here?
"Yeah, Phil?"