As soon as I wake up, I go to the cafeteria for some breakfast. But, I can concentrate because I feel eyes looking at me. I look up and see Alex staring at me, a chanting smirk on his face. I blush and look down at my food, I look back up and he is still staring at me. I give him a nod to follow me and lead us to the first aid room. As soon as we get inside, I push him against the door and kiss his lips, he immediately kisses me back, moving his hands to my neck. I smirk and step back.
"You look so beautiful this morning" he smiles.
"Is that why you were staring?" I laugh.
"Hell yeah, I couldn't keep my eyes off of you" he howls.
I laugh and tell him to be quiet, then I see the clock.
"Shoot, I'll see you later, I have to go and call Matt. See ya" I smile and kiss his lips quickly again.
I squeeze his hand and then go to the phones. I smile happily and lean against the concrete wall as the phone dials.
"Hey Matty!" I answer.
"Hey Will" he sniffs.
He's crying.
"Matt, what's wrong?" I ask concerned.
"It's, it's Seth Will" he starts, I can tell he is trying to calm his voice.
"Seth? Matt, what happened?"
"He's dead. Someone beat him, they found him this morning" he announces.
Just like that, my heart breaks. My happiness is gone. I hang up the phone. My chest is booming so fast I feel like it's about to explode it hurts so much. My eyes water, I call Brax.
"Hey Will" he says cheerily.
"Seth's dead. I'm stuck in here and he's dead"
"Will...Will what's going on?"
"Seth, was murdered, he was beaten and, and I wasn't there to help him! Because I'm stuck in here! He was meant to wait for me, he told me he was going to wait for me" I cry, put my head in my arm as I lean against the wall.
"Will, listen to me. You are strong, stay strong-"
"He was meant to wait. I need to get tour of here Brax, I need to leave. He is my best friend, I didn't get to say goodbye" I cry, my hands shaking.
"Will, tell me you're going to be okay. I'm sorry I can't be there for you, please just tell me you will be okay" he pleads.
I take a deep breath and hang up the phone. I walk back to my room, it feels like years go past until I get there. I sit in the corner of the room, my knees held tightly to my chest. I should've been there to help him. If I went to the cops, he never would have got beaten. If I hadn't been in here, he would've spent the night with me. This is all my fault. Harriet walks into my room and I stand up against her.
"Hit me" I say.
"What?" she huffs.
"Hit me damn it! Isn't that what you've wanted to do since you came here? Hit me! Beat me! Then go" I demand.
She laughs and punches me across my face. She hits me three times more in my face, then in my stomach as I fall to the ground. More times in my stomach, but then she leaves. So, I get up, go up to my top bunk and sit against the wall. I can feel the blood dripping down my nose and I am in pain everywhere. But I deserve it. I killed Seth.