Katherine p,o,v ,
being 9 months pregnant sucks, Your swollen and cranky, every position is uncomfortable, you need to pee every 5 minutes, and now that its summer and its hot as hell and its just exhausting all the time, "Katherine just stop okay" Caroline says from her position on the deck swing "what I'm-" uncomfortable, I know, got I seriously can't wait till you pop the little bugger out because this is testing my last nerve" she says frustratedly I huff and cross my arms muttering a fine.
I sit still for as long as I can before I have to move again getting a growl from her "you try having a belly the size of a bowling ball crushing your insides and then talk to me" she looks at me "god I'm sorry its just I'm tired, and I know your tired too but after work today I'm just you know" she says placing her hand on mine "I swear to god these pregnancy hormones are making me soft, if you have tried this a year ago that face of yours wouldnt work you know" i say looking at her pouting lip and puppy dog eyes,
"oh you underestimate me kat, this face has got me out of a lot of trouble" she says nudging me with her shoulder I laugh and push her shoulder,
"do you think were making a mistake" I ask letting out some of my fears "why would you ask that" i look of out into the view of the nearby park and few shops you can see from her patio sighing "because, how am I meant to do this care, I know you and bonnie say your in this but, its not like this is a bloody puppy, I mean its gonna be a baby, a screaming loud grumpy child that is gonna need things, and I mean can we really do this, and what if she's born and all she reminds me of is that night and then what," i say turning to her tears in my eyes and hers
"what if instead of seeing her as a little girl all I see is him and i end up hating her, or what If I'm not meant to be a mom, I never did before and now that shes" my breath is hitching a little as tears easily slid down my cheeks "I dont want her to come out you know, while shes hidden from me, I can keep her safe and give her all she needs because i dont have to know shes just given it, and while shes here i dont have to look at her and see him, SHES JUST MINE NOW, but what if he finds out and they-" i stop because i can hardly breath and I feel something twinge inside me,
"listen to me, we can do this, you can do this, and you are gonna love her when she comes out because when its time for her to come into the world, shes still going to have that bond with you and its-" i drown her out when i feel wet pooling between my legs, oh god, oh crap, oh crap "crap, oh god" she puts her arm around my shoulder "its going to be fine shes not" "care, its time" "oh god wait did , is that your, oh god , okay okay we can do this" she says breathing heavily and starting to stand up and pace about
i feel the next contraction, at first it felt like what i had been feeling all afternoon but this time the pain is worse "caroLINE" I call practically shouting the last bit of her name through clenched teeth, she stops looks at me and I see her mind kicking in, she grabs my shoulders and forces me to look at her "Katherine I need you to breathe o.k just breathe, I'm going to get you bag and and get you into the car and call the hospital, everything is going to be fine so, just breath for me okay", I nod and start to breath as she runs about getting everything we need.
my only thought is please let me be able to do this.
caroline p.o.v,
"I rang bonnie she said she'll pick up grams and meet us at the hospital and, the doctor knows were coming, so just breath and its going to be fine" i say looking at her in the passenger seat, "care its, Oh God-" she strains her face and her knuckles turn deathly white against the door handle "breath ,were almost there, so just keep your legs shut okay you are not going to make me deliver this baby on the side of the road like a homeless person" i say anxiety dripping in my voice "hurry up, i want to push" "no you are not doing this to me baby girl and Katherine discipline your child, its never to early to learn, and right now teach her to not force me to look at your vagina" i shout glad when she laughs at me,
bonnie would be so much better at this then me i think jealous of the fact that its true, some how Katherine senses my thoughts "I'm glad its you with me care" shocked I turn to her as if shes crazy "what why" "because with any one else they'd be to calm and right now I need some one else to be freaking out, but please hurry" I smile my eyes shining with tears but am happy that i can just drive straight into the hospital, "we're here" i say not bothering to care about a parking spot i drive straight up to the entrance and park as fast as possible and get to her door like i have super natural speed or some thing.
"excuse me miss you cant" "shut up and help me get my friend inside before she ends up pushing out a tiny infant on my fucking front seat" i shout loudly at the security guard who quickly rushes over and helps me get her into the hospital, bonnie is no where to be seen but Shelia says that she was dragged of by some doctor I nod but there really isnt much time to question her about it because my hand is being squeezed to death and forcing me to speed walk to keep up with katherine whose being pushed along by doctors and nurses.
"stop stop i-i dont I cant do this any more she can just stay in there" katherine says as she stops pushing using my free hand i wipe a cloth along her fore head "yes you can , you can do this " where the hell is bonnie i think and just like i have magic powers she walks in and quickly over to katherines other side of the bed "hey, bonnie tell them" katherine says grabbing hold of her hand "tell them what" I'm a little mad at bonnie but i can push it aside until later, I mean whats more important then her best friend about to have a baby "hun you've got this okay, its one more push just one more" i watch as shes shaking her head but is pushing all the same time "come on you've got this" we both say both of our eyes connecting mine a questioning gaze hers pleading to be asked later "AAArghh" katherine screams, and not a second later theres one of the most beautiful sounds that fill the room,
"you did it" "congratulations mom, heres your beautiful baby girl" the nurse says placing the small bundle in her arms, "shes amazing" i say in an almost whisper hugging Katherine as bonnie did the same, my eyes bristening with tears that dont hold back when I hear what katherine says "yeah she is" and with that i reach over and hold bonnies hand as we all look at our new tiny member of our family.
bonnies p,o,v ,
I looked over at the tiny bundle that sat nestled in my arms wrapped in a pink fluffy blanket, god she was beautiful, her tiny nose and long eyelashes that are fluttering against her rosy pink cheeks, I sigh loudly and rest my head back against the hospital arm chair, closing my eyes for a few seconds before i lift my head back and look at Caroline and Katherine who are cuddled asleep on the hospital bed, looking cute too. looking over at the clock on the wall which read 4:40 in the morning stretching my legs I yawn and stand and place the baby in the cot,
I'm walking through the door when caroline calls me "just going to get some coffee want anything?" I ask around another yawn "yeah I'll come with you let our beautiful girls sleep" she says easing herself of the bed careful not to wake katherine who is exhausted.
were like the walking dead as we wait for our coffee to cool down "so where were you ?" i groan internally "i got here, but then Kol decided to drag me into a nearby staff room or something and was all demanding me to explain what happened and stuff"
~flashback Kol's office~
"Kol what the hell" I screech at him as he stands in front of his office door "I dont have time for this Caroline is on her way with Kat who is is labour right now you need to let me out, now!" I screech at him as I put my hands on my hips "no" he says taking a step away from the door "no" I repeat "not until you tell me why you have been avoiding me for months bennett" he says with 100% seriousness "Kol I dont have time for this I thought you got it when you stopped with the calls and texts" I say not wanting to have this conversation with him.
"I just want to know what I did, did I pressure you or say something" "Kol I cant do this now" I say taking steps away from him "dont I deserve an explanation" he says and its the hurt in his voice that makes me lower my voice "yes you do" I say turning around and looking at the small desk infront of me "then tell me what I did wrong"
"Kol you didnt do anything wrong" I say still avoiding making eye contact with him. "then what happened, why did you run out, or not answer my texts or phone calls, was I not good enough-" I turn and look at him cutting him off "no, no , you were amazing the dinner the talks everything was amazing, I just cant Kol" I say looking at him and I want nothing more then to grip his scrubs and pull his mouth to mine, not realising that I have moved directly in front of him while I was speaking "then what happened" he ask his eyes borering into mine "me thats what happened, I'm not good enough" he puts his finger to my lips silencing me "how can you think that, your beautiful, smart how can you not see that" I close my eyes at his touch and squeezing them tighter at his words,
Opening my eyes to find our faces inches apart I lean up and press my lips to his, In a quick farewell kiss that takes some of my breath away "no Kol I'm damaged, you dont want me you cant want me , you deserve better" I say moving away from him not breaking eye contact until I'm in front of the door, with a shaky hand I clasp the cold hard metal, opening the door "goodbye Kol" I say before leaving him there standing in the middle of the room his confused face peircing a piece of my heart.
~end of flashback~
"it was Horrible Care, he looked like I had stabbed him" I say taking a sip of my warm coffee she looks at me with a sad smile "why did you leave" She says making me frown at her question "what do you mean, why did I leave, Its my only option, he's better of with out me, Its not like I can go see him any more and what happens if I do and then ever time it gets too much and I start having a major freak out because he touched me in a certain way, I can do that to him he deserves better not some one screwed up like me" I say shaking my head "your not screwed up bonnie, your hurt thats all it is" she says angrily
"care, on our first official date I freaked out because a make out session with him went to far that it caused me to run for 3 miles until the images stopped, If thats not screwed up then tell me what is" she smiles her sad smile at me " why didnt you tell him the real reason you left that night, instead of avoiding him like the black plague" "because he deserves better then having the love from someone like me who cant even let him touch her" I say nearly at the top of my lungs that draws some unwanted attention from people who are in the hospital cafeteria,
"you love him" is all she can say I blink and lean back "no, I don't love him" I say ,'do I ? I think to myself "you just yelled out that you love him in a public place, bon" she says standing up causing me to follow as she starts walking away "I-" she holds her hand up halting me in front of the doors of the cafeteria "bonnie you love him and all I'm saying is that if you love him tell him" she says looking at me "no I cant tell him if I love him because what will I say Hi kol I love you but I cant be with you at all ever' no he deserves someone that doesn't have the baggage I do whether I love him or not its still not enough" I say my eyes tearing up and spilling down my cheeks causing her to wrap her arms around me as I cry, before pulling me into the nearest bathroom. as we walk past the stair well out of the corner of my eye stands a wide eyed Kol. causing me to gasp his name.