All Harry potter characters and so forth belong to J.K Rowling and Warner Brothers unfortunately I am neither and never will be.
Might use some content from the books, any content you recognise doesn't nor will ever belong to me.
All warnings are at the beginning of the story and to be used throughout.
let's get this story rolling, J.K Rowling :P
It hardly felt like an hour since he put his head on his pillow, when Ron was trying to drag him out of bed. "C'mon Harry, were really late. we've got Herbology first as well, which means were gunna have to sprint to the greenhouse." However Harry was too tired to move. In the end Ron ended up going to the greenhouses alone, no more than an hour later Harry's own screaming jerked him awake.
He supposed that he was lucky to be by himself, he couldn't imagine the shame if someone had heard him. Suddenly he realised that he couldn't stop shivering, he guessed this was still from the Cruciatus curse. Harry groaned knowing he was going to have to see Madam Pomfrey, he really hoped it would go away but nothing ever goes the way he wants.
Harry decided to have a shower and get changed into his school uniform, but with the tremors he was experiencing it was taking a very long time to do simple things. By the time he was ready he felt exhausted. He ended up curled up into himself, letting his mind wonder to thoughts and memories he was resisting before.
A series of flashbacks plagued his mind over and over again, as he tried to find the energy to get up. Weak that's what he was, weak and powerless. He also knew he should be dead, how many times had he come close to death now. It wasn't normal, maybe his aunt was right he must be a freak. Harry was snapped out of his thoughts by tapping on his shoulders, he looked up to see Ron's concerned face looking down at him.
"Hermione's gone to get McGonagall, you really scared us then mate. Hermione reckons you were having flashbacks, said she read it in a book. I've been trying to get you to respond for a good ten minutes, just don't scare me like that again you hear me." Harry could hear the fear in Ron's voice. No more than five minutes later Hermione and McGonagall came ambling in, looking like they had just tried to outrun Aragog.
McGonagall was the first one to speak "Thank Merlin your now responsive Potter, Hermione just told me what happened. Reckons you were having some form of flashbacks." he just nodded at McGonagall. Harry noticed he was extremely thirsty and shaking worse than ever. He tried to clear his throat "Um well Professor I think I need something, I mean I was put under the Cruciatus that night. I just can't stop shaking." he looked up nervously at McGonagall. She had gone pale white and ambled out the dorm saying she would be back in minute.
Ron and Hermione helped Harry onto the bed, not much longer McGonagall and a scowling Snape came in. McGonagall gave him a vial of potion, he downed the rank potion. Not five minutes later the shaking had stopped, Harry uttered his thanks. Snape left with the swish of his cloak. McGonagall told Harry that she expected to see him in Transfiguration, with one final look she left the dorm.
"Mate let's get up and go Divination, then its just double Transfiguration. You sure your alright." Harry answered Ron by saying he wanted to go to the kitchens and get some water. Harry wanted to skip Divination, all he needed right now was his death predicted. Hermione went to go to class and Ron went with Harry to the kitchens.
They got there just as the bell rung for class, before they knew it they were surrounded by house elves. Harry requested some water and he was given a huge jug which he proceeded to down. He put the rest in a huge mug and went to sit down next to Dobby and Winky, Winky was just rocking forwards and backwards going 'my fault' 'my fault' 'my fault'. He knew exactly how she felt. He spent a while sipping his drink relishing how soothing it was. Harry noticed that Ron was looking at him funny.
"What." Harry asked, Ron answered nervously "Its just well were skipping class. My mum is going to kill me if she finds out." Harry just proceeded to smirk at Ron and tap the seat next to him. Ron, Harry and Dobby proceeded to have idle chit chat the next half hour. He then decided he needed a fag if he was going to have to deal with lessons. Before Harry knew it he was on the outer skirts on the forbidden forest, Ron came chasing after him.
He was able to light his fag third time this time, but he still proceeded to cough everywhere with his first toke. Ron looked at Harry wearily, but as Harry started to relax with the fag Ron let it pass. He was nearly done with his fag when Ron exclaimed that they were going to be late for Transfiguration, he didn't care though and proceeded to take his time. When Harry and Ron got to Transfiguration they were ten minutes late, luckily McGonagall let it pass. When they sat down next to Hermione she complained about the smell of smoke and proceeded to accuse them of smoking. Ron looked bewildered not knowing what Harry had done was what the muggles called smoking. Harry tried to go for a politely bewildered look.
Hermione just gave Harry a pointed look and started to complain about how bad it was for your teeth. He just ended up zoning out and thinking of what socks he should get Dobby next, he was wondering whether dobby would want some frilly pink socks, when he was snapped out of his thoughts. McGonagall was stood in front him asking how his work was getting on, he started to blunder on sounding just like Neville, not knowing what they where doing. McGonagall just sighed and asked him to try and transfigure his flobberworm into a piece of string. Not even knowing what spell they where using all he could do was look at her and look befuddled, McGonagall looked angry and told him to stay behind after class.
As McGonagall asked them to spend the remainder of their lesson on an essay about there string, he started to feel really agitated. Everything sounded as if it was buzzing, the sounds of the quills making him more and more agitated. Everything felt too calm and too annoying. Harry started to figit feeling as if his head was going to explode. He couldn't breath he had to get out. But he couldn't leave, it would just make McGonagall madder.
Instead he tried to speak to Ron and Hermione, however Hermione just kept on shushing him and Ron kept on looking at McGonagall scared. Luckily the bell went and McGonagall dismissed the class. As the rest of the class went Harry started to wander the class thankful for something to do. McGonagall asked Harry what he was doing, he decided to just admit how he was feeling. "Well everything just feels so much, I feel as if I'm on the breaking point. I don't know what I'm thinking or feeling, sometimes I just feel as if I'm being suffocated. I just feel so alone and scared."
McGonagall obviously didn't know what to say to that, she offered to talk if Harry ever needed it. However she also said he needs to work harder and has detention after dinner. But she understands he's going through a lot. Harry felt like he was going to cry, he just told McGonagall stuff he wouldn't tell anyone, but she didn't know what to do. He must be a worthless freak if even McGonagall doesn't know what to say. He always knew it was bad speaking to adults why does he even try.
Harry decided to have a stroll around the grounds before his detention, he saw Hagrid at one point but he merely waved. Harry felt glad he had Hagrid, one of the only adults in his life who he could trust, he swore to himself that he would see Hagrid before he left. Harry sat by the quidditch pitch and had another fag, with much more ease this time. Then went back up to the school for his detention with McGonagall, he had to write lines saying 'I must pay attention in class'.
At one point to Harry's surprise Dumbledore came in, he went straight over to McGonagall. Not long after they were having an argument, but they had used a silencing spell since Harry couldn't hear them. It was obvious they were arguing about him though, because McGonagall kept on pointing at him and Dumbledore kept on looking at him. As soon as Dumbledore had left, McGonagall dismissed him.
When he got back to the common room he decided to just watch Ron and Hermione chat about classes, as he thought through the days events. After a while Ron told Harry that his mum had a meeting with Dumbledore, his mum had been told he had to go back to the Dursleys. But she wanted Harry to go there's straight away, apparently she weren't pleased with what she had heard about the Dursleys. But Dumbledore was adamant that Harry had to go to the Dursleys, but should be able to go to the Weasleys at some point. Ron didn't look pleased about Harry going the Dursleys though.
Harry decided he probably deserved it for what he done to Cedric, it didn't make him feel any better though. He decided to watch Ron and Hermione play gobstones, whilst his thoughts turned dark and dangerous. When Ron decided to go bed Harry went after him, got his invisibility cloak, closed his curtains and faked sleep. When Ron was snoring Harry decided to down half of his chocolate liquor. He tried some of the wizarding shots, which weren't to bad but made his skin multicoloured for a while.
He took his school bag and put his invisibility cloak over him, when he got down to the common room he found Fred and George planning their end of year filch prank. Harry smiled thinking of the prank they pulled on him last year, no one would ever forget how he turned into a tap dancing ballerina. Harry decided he wanted to do his own pranking this year, he also decided that alcohol makes him come up with some brilliant ideas.
Harry started to wander the corridors downing his bottle of fire whiskey trying to find Peeves. He found Peeves by the charms corridor and started to let the chaos begin. Him and Peeves had the time of there lives, Harry found some super sticky glue in filches office, he had a lot of fun sticking anything and everything around the school. Harry gave Peeves some of Fred and Georges fireworks to set of at filch, they both set dungbombs of everywhere. Harry went to the greenhouses and found some plants that get you high, with Peeves telling him which done what and put it with the ingredients the house elves had set up for the next day.
Whilst he was down in the kitchens Harry got Dobby to go with him to Hogsmead so he could buy the elf some socks. He downed half a bottle of vodka on his way back to school. But when he got back he realised most people were already up and school would be starting soon. Harry just laughed at himself, at the thought of going Snapes lesson pissed. He went out had a fag. Then decided to go to his dormitory and get changed for the day.