It was once said that the mind is an elephant, rowdy and uncontrollable. Whilst conscious you ride your elephant and guide him to your perception of normality. Yet when you sleep the rider does also, though the elephant rages on and is left to his own devices. It is in this time you are weak and you are unpredictable.
My mind runs in circles
torrents of confusion lace my mind.
It is no longer a place of calm and serenity,
the haven where I would hide has been demolished.
In it's place is an entity that I no longer control
Running wild throughout me
My sub-conscience has been invaded.
Violated,
Lost and
Confused.
By your doing.
You are not who I thought would cause this,
You are the person I least suspected.
You are not the kind whom I would fall for,
You are the one who people shy away from.
You are not the ideal which my mind cries for.
It is not your looks that draw me
nor is it the memories we have, for which there are none.
Yet my biology cries out
overruling my stubborn mentality.
Chemicals overthrow my theories
no matter what you say.
You are of little words of which I know.
You are not spontaneous or outrageous
You are of focus, a symbolic model of determination.
You are of analytics and answers, not of this confusion I state.
You are the one that leaves me hanging,
Hanging on your last word,
your next glance,
your next odd joke
You, are the one my mind has run to.
You have caused my loss.
You are the reason I am who I am.
You are are the one who takes my dreams.
You have taken my rider from me.
Author note:
So sorry about the original version of this I swear my laptop has an urge to reformat everything i type.
Just a note the first paragraphs is a excerpt from a fanfiction called Ambassadors Bride by Devil Fern. It has to be my all time favourite fanfic out there Must've read it +10 times at the very least. This was just a compliment to that novel.
Thanks for reading hope you enjoyed it,
Ellimongoose.