A/N Since I had a few chapters already written, I post them with only a few days in between. After chapter 4 is posted it's gonna take a while. I'm writing chapter 5 now.

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Chapter 3

The guys are walking to the direction Alex explained. And Alex starts walking to the room too when Casey stops the blonde ADA.

"Alex, I know that Liv is beaten up twice and that she is raped. When I was the ADA of SVU for the first time I've been beating up inside my office. Liv was there for me when I needed her. I know you found her and was with her the second time the asshole beat her up. I'm here for you, just so you know, you're not alone in this. Liv is strong she will make it." Casey says.

"Thank you Casey. I didn't know that you were assaulted, I'm sorry. When did this happened?" Alex asks.

"When you were in Witsec. The brother of a victim wanted revenge for his sister and beat the crap out of me and Liv saved me. She took care of me and was in the hospital a lot to stay with me." Casey answers.

Casey saw the look of hurt and a little bit of fear in Alex's eyes when she told her that Olivia stayed with her in the hospital.

"That sounds like Liv. I didn't know you two are close." Alex says, not able to keep the pain out of her voice.

"Alex you have nothing to worry about. When I first came to SVU, Liv, mostly, was not exactly friendly to me. Liv made it very clear she wasn't happy with me assigned to the squad. It was like I did something wrong but I didn't know what I did wrong. It wasn't till after I asked Elliot I knew why she was so hostile to me. Elliot had accepted me but Liv didn't. Elliot told me that she was acting like she did because I wasn't you. I told him I didn't understand and he explained to me that the two of you were very close, that you were best friends and that Liv doesn't have a lot of friends and keeps everybody out of her personal life. That you were the only one who knows the real Liv, not Detective 'Badass' Olivia Benson. Not even he knew much about her personal life and he was her partner." Casey says.

"Yes, well we all know what an asshole he was by leaving Liv without saying anything. When I left for Witsec at least I said it. He hurt her bad Casey. I think it hurt her even more than when I left the first and the second time for Witsec or when I left for the Congo." Alex says with anger in her voice.

Anger for Elliot not Casey.

"I don't know about that Alex. When I met Liv for the first time she was pretty broken. Her eyes were dead, blank. She didn't had the fire in her that she has for the victims. And when I introduced myself as Casey Novak, the replacement for ADA Alexandra Cabot, she was furious. She yelled at me that nobody could replace Alexandra Cabot and she almost ran away. Elliot gave me a glare and ran after her. I walked to the same direction as where they left because that was the exit from the crime scene. I heard them arguing. Elliot said that she was overreacting, that they all were upset by losing you. That they all cared for you. Liv yelled at him that everyone but her had a family that cared about them, and that they cared for and loved. She screamed at him that he didn't know how it felt to lose the only person in your live you cared about, how it felt having to live your life alone, without her. And she crashed down on to the street. She was completely broken, Alex. Elliot picked her up and brought her to their car, she didn't even react, she said nothing just hung in his arms. That was not somebody who had lost her friend. That was more I thought. But Elliot said to me that there was nothing more between the two of you. That you were best friends but that was it." Casey explains.

"Poor Liv, I never knew this. I didn't know how lost she felt. I made a mistake that I will regret the rest of my life. I didn't listen to her when she told me to back off. I didn't thought I was in that much danger as I was. It almost got me killed and apparently it almost killed Liv too." Alex whispers.

Alex was in tears now and Casey had a feeling that Alex felt more then guilt. She had a feeling that Alex feels the same for Olivia as Olivia feels for Alex. Something that, nobody else but her knows .

"Alex, after the first case was finished and I was in my office Liv came by. I took it pretty hard and didn't think I could handle more of those cases. I kinda broke down. I asked Liv if it gets any easier. She said it didn't. I asked her why she did it and she answered that somebody has to do it. We talked a bit and somehow we got to the subject partners. I told her I was single and she said the same. I asked her why she was single. She said with this job it was difficult to find somebody who doesn't wanna hear all the gross details and liked it to much or walked away when they found out what her job was. After that conversation, slowly, we talked a few more times got to know each other better. And we became friends. Then we got the Connor case. We all were waiting in my office for you to celebrate the victory. When Hammond came in and told us you were in Witsec again and asked him to say goodbye, everybody was sad, but Liv ran out the room and went looking for you, like it was some kind of sick joke and you would be waiting somewhere to say goodbye to her. She left and went home. I went to her apartment, after we all left the office, to see if she was alright. I saw how she looked when you walked in my office when you came back for your testimony. And when you left again I was worried she couldn't take it a second time. When I knocked on her door she opened it and walked back to couch took the glass with whiskey and downed it. I closed the door and sat down next to her on the couch and she leaned into me. She asked me if I could remember our conversation after my first case. I said yes and asked her why. She answered 'what I said about partners and the job is true but it wasn't the reason why I didn't have a partner. Now you know why I don't have.'

I didn't knew so I told her I didn't knew why. I asked her why.

She said 'Because of Alex I don't have anybody.' She asked me to tell nobody what she was gonna say next. I promised her not to and I didn't tell anybody until now." Casey finishes.

Alex looks at Casey with a hopeful look in her eyes.

"What has it to do with me and why did she asked you to don't tell anybody?" Alex asks Casey.

"Alex, she told me her life was over when you left. You were and still are the only person she loved. She has nobody because she loves you, she is in love with you. But she never told you because she was afraid she will lose you if you know it. I promised her not to tell anybody and I haven't. When you and I both came back to SVU I asked her if she'd told you how she felt about you and if she still felt the same. She said she didn't tell you but that she still is in love with you. She loves you more then life itself. I see how much she means to you and I think you feel the same about her. That is why I tell you all of this and break my promise to her. I won't tell anyone else this. I will keep the rest of my promise. But I need to ask you this. Alex, do you love Liv, are you in love with her? What ever you say or tell me I won't tell anybody." Casey asks.

"Oh my god! Oh my God! She... She loves me! " Alex whispers shocked.

"You are right Casey. I do love her. I am in love with Liv. But you are sure that she still is in love with me? We fight over warrants and cases like we used to do before I left the first time. Sure we did some nice things together. But I thought she meant doing that as friends." Alex answers.

"Alex, don't worry, she is head over heals in love with you. You should hear her when someone is saying a bad word about you. If she was allowed to, she would kick everybody's ass and bite their heads off. And she probably would like to kill every men or woman that's checking you out. Hell she even yells at me when we are alone and I say something she doesn't like and I know she is in love with you. So my advice is, talk to her when you get the chance. I won't tell anybody. And I hope you both get your head out of your asses. Go for her, go get your girl when you get the chance. Your secret is safe with me. I've known it all those years and told nobody accept for you, so why start now? I mean it, go get her Cabot! Make her and yourself happy, it's about time don't you think?" Casey asks.

"Thanks Casey. I talk to her if I get a chance. I now know that I can trust you. So I'm not afraid that you talk about this." Alex answers.

Alex hugs Casey and Casey hugs her bag.

"Now let's go to the guys before they break down the room shall we? " Casey asks when they let go each other.

"Yes let's go." Alex answers.

When the women starts walking Jennifer is approaching them.

"Alex, Detective Benson is brought to CCU. The scan showed no brain damage. That is the good news. The bad news is that she has a lot of fractures, she needs surgery to set some of the fractures but right now her body is to weak and the doctor wants to wait a few days. The bones that had fractures and that didn't need surgery, were set. She has broken her cheekbones, her left shoulder, her left underarm at three places, her left wrist, 6 ribs, her left ankle, her left knee and her left thigh. Her right ankle is strained badly. A big concussion. She got a cut in her stomach which needed 20 stitches and cuts and bruises all over her body but they will heal." Jennifer says.

"Oh my God, oh Liv! Is she awake yet? Can I see her?" Alex asks Jennifer anxiously.

"She is awake for the moment but they have to sedate her. She asks for you and a Miss Casey Novak. Do you know who that is and if she is here?" Jennifer asks.

"I'm Casey Novak." Casey answers.

"Oh that is good. I don't have to search for you then. Alex, I need to talk with in private about something regarding to Detective Benson." Jennifer says.

"That is not necessary, Casey knows everything. So you can speak out freely." Alex answers.

"They have collected some material from under her fingernails and they have her clothes but couldn't take more. I will bring you the evidence they collected ." Jennifer says.

Alex has a defeated look on her face. Casey doesn't look better.

"I hate to bring this up. But we didn't gave a morning after pill to Detective Benson because she was unconscious and we need to know what she wants. So can one of you talk to her about that? I'll take you both to Detective Benson if you don't have any question you'd like to ask." Jennifer asks.

"Can we have a moment before you take us to Liv? " Alex ask.

"Yes of course." Jennifer answers.

Alex and Casey are walking a few feet away.

"Casey, what the hell do we tell Liv? And who is gonna talk to Liv about this?" Alex ask Casey.

"We tell her just as it is, I know it's hard but what choice do we have? What do you want? Do you wanna talk to her or do want me to do it?" Casey asks.

"Poor Liv. Dammit! I don't know how she is gonna take this. It will destroy her. Again. I talk to her if that's ok with you." Alex answers.

"Wait a second. Alex, what do you mean with it will destroy her again?"Casey asks.

"What do you know about Liv's past Casey?" Alex asks.

"Oh God. I'm so sorry! I know what you mean now. Shit! You are right. I think you should talk with her." Casey answers.

"Ok I will do it. Now let's go to Liv." Alex answers.

They walk back to Jennifer.

"We are ready to go now." Alex says to Jennifer.

They're walking to Olivia's room and both Alex and Casey take a deep breath before they walk into Olivia's room. To prepare for what they gonna see when they are in the room and see Olivia. When they walk in the room and see Olivia the both are in shock. Olivia's face is swollen because of the broken bones in her cheeks and she has bruises all over her face. Alex walks over to Olivia and takes her right hand in her own. Casey walks next to Alex. Olivia wasn't connected to a breathing machine since she was breathing on her own. Olivia woke op when Alex took the brunette's hand and opens her eyes.

"Liv, I'm so sorry. If I'd come sooner to the precinct none of this wouldn't have happened." Alex whispers softly.

"Alex, you couldn't have prevented this. This is not your fold! He would have done it to you too. And I just had to protect you. I always will, no matter what, Lex." Olivia says softly and turns to Casey then.

"Thank you for coming Casey." Olivia says.

"Of course I came. You are my friend Liv. There is no way in hell that I wouldn't come." Casey say.

"Amanda told you what happened Casey?" Olivia asks.

"Yes she called me when she was on her way to Melinda Warner and she told me what happened." Casey answers.

"Good then you know everything too. Did they take a rape kit, Alex?" Olivia asks softly.

"Yes they take swabs and collected evidence from your fingernails and they have your clothes to. I'm so sorry Liv, so sorry for everything he has done to you. The swabs are already taken to Melinda by Amanda. I will pick up the rest from a nurse called Jennifer and let Amanda bring that to Melinda too. Melinda will not say anything to the guys. So you don't have to worry about that." Alex says.

"Thank you, for doing all of this for me." Olivia answers.

Olivia looks at Casey. Casey give a short nod.

" Alex, will you take the evidence to Amanda so that she can bring it to Melinda for processing?" Olivia asks.

"Yes sure. I'll do it right now. I'll be back soon." Alex answers.

Alex squeezes Liv's hand and places a brief kiss on her forehead before she leaves the room.

Casey pulls a chair next to Olivia's bed and takes a seat.

"Case, did they gave me an morning after pill?" Olivia asks softly.

"No, they haven't. Jennifer said that we needed to talk about it with you. And Alex and I agreed that Alex would do it, talk with you about it, I mean." Casey answers.

"I need the morning after pill, Casey. Can you make sure they give it to me. I know they gonna sedate me as soon as you leave this room. And can you make sure that they will let Alex stay here as long as she wants?" Olivia asks.

"Don't worry. I will take care of it. Cabot, probably wanna stay here with you until you leave the hospital ya now." Casey says, trying to leave a not so subtle hint for Olivia.

"Did they say anything about the rape to Alex?" Olivia asks, ignoring the hint for a moment.

"No I was there when Jennifer came to talk to Alex about your injuries and she told they collected evidence from your fingernails and they got your clothes but other then that she didn't tell anything." Casey answers.

"Casey, I don't want Alex prosecute this case. I know she wants it and she is the best prosecutor, with you of course, but I don't want her to know the details of the rape I'm not ready for her to know about it. So I want you to take it. I don't trust anybody else but Alex and you. And I don't want anyone but you to know the details before the trial. It will be hard enough at the trial. Will you take it?" Olivia asks.

"Liv, of course I will prosecute this case. But why don't you want Alex to know the details ? You know she's gonna find it out at the trial." Casey asks.

"Casey, you now how I feel about her. She will never want me when she knows the details and I don't want her in the courtroom when I'm on the stand. So she won't now the details. I don't want her to lose her as my best friend too. Hell I am already risking to lose you as my friend. I just can't lose Alex, not again. Not now she is back in my life. And you don't tell her the details either no matter how she tries to make you tell them!" Olivia says sternly.

"I won't tell her but I think you're doing the wrong thing with not telling her about it. She cares about you very much why would she don't be your best friend anymore? Why wouldn't I want to be your friend anymore. What happened to you isn't your fold and it will not make a difference how Alex feels about you or how I feel about you. Nothing can change that." Casey answers.

"You say that now Casey but you can and will change your mind after you know the details and so is Alex." Olivia whispers.

"I respect your choice, I don't agree with it, but I respect it. I promise you, I won't tell her." Casey says.

"Thank you Casey." Olivia says.

A nurse came in.

"Ms Novak, Detective Benson needs her medication and we really need to sedate her. I have to ask you to leave the room." The nurse says.

"Can I speak with you for a moment? " Casey ask the nurse.

"Yes of course. Let me give Detective Benson her medication first." The nurse answers.

"Alex will be back here soon Liv, I know you want her to be with you. So don't worry about that." Casey says looking at Olivia.

"Thanks Casey. See you soon. I hope." Olivia answers.

"Yes of course. Liv, I have to take your statement as soon as you are waking up again, I'm afraid. I can hold it for the moment but I need to have it. I'm sorry." Casey says softly.

"I know Casey. And I know you do the best you can. Take care of Alex. I trust you, Casey." Olivia says.

"I will, I promise." Casey answers and leaves.

The nurse and Casey went on the hallway and Casey closes the door behind her.

"Alex will be back soon and when she does she won't leave Liv's side. Not until she is ready to leave this hospital." Casey tells the nurse.

"We know she is the MPA for Detective Benson and she is allowed to see the Detective during visiting hours. But otherwise she can't be there and I don't think there is much she can do about that." The nurse answers.

"Do you know who she is? "Casey ask the nurse.

"Yes, her name is Alex Cabot." The nurse says.

"Yes she is Alexandra Cabot. THE Alexandra Cabot. This hospital has a wing named after her. So I think she can stay with Liv as long as she wishes. Unless you want a law suit against this hospital and don't want to have the donation, which I think is huge, giving to this hospital anymore. Because you can be sure that's happening when you don't allow her to be with Liv when she wants to. I can promise you that!" Casey finishes.

"She is Alexandra Cabot, as in the Alexandra Cabot foundation?" The nurse asks, her eyebrows raised.

"The one and only. So you better think twice, before you decided to tell no to her, to anything as far as it concerns Detective Benson." Casey answers.

"No of course not. I make sure everybody here will allow her to stay with Detective Benson as long as she wishes. I didn't know. If I knew I wouldn't have said it. Ms Cabot has done a lot for this hospital so it will be a honor to do something back for her." The nurse says.

"I'm glad we understand each other. Detective Benson needs a morning after pill. I talked with her and she told me that she needs it. Now if you will excuse me, I have to fill in the other detectives of her squad and every other cop that is waiting for information. Ms. Cabot, Alex, will be be back soon to stay at Liv's side." Casey says.

"Yes of course. I make sure she gets the pill. Detective Benson will held in a drug induced coma because of the pain and the rest she needs. We allowed her to be awake for this amount of time because she insisted to talk to Ms Cabot and yourself. She just was being so stubborn and upset that we allowed it in the hope it would calm her down." The nurse says.

And just when she says it the alarm bells in Olivia's room are going off. The nurse rushes in to room with Casey on her heels.

"Miss Novak you have to leave the room, right now!" The nurse yells.

What's wrong? What's happening...? You have to wait and find that out in the next chapter...

A/N 2 Just to be clear, there has been nothing more than friendship between Olivia and Casey. Nor will there be more then friendship between them. But anyone who has been reading my other stories will know that already.