A/N I've been really sick and wasn't able to write at all. So I'm sorry for the delay of this new chapter. I hope I'll be able to write more normal from now on.

I want to thank you all for all the reviews I'm getting. They really make me feel special. I always look forward receiving them. And there a few of you whom are really loyal and always write a review. So a special thanks to those that are such loyal fans and reviewers.

I would like to say a few words as a respond to one of the reviews though: I never said that Olivia was alone in the precinct. Everyone knows that a precinct is never empty. However, how many times have we seen Olivia or an other Detective alone in the squad room at night. So it is possible for her to be there alone. And as realistic as I try to write my stories there is always fiction in it.

I also want to thank my beta reader for doing such a great job. Thanks Tummer22, you're awesome gal.

Alright I won't keep y'all from reading the next chapter. :D

Chapter 10

Nathalie needed a few seconds to collect her jaw from the floor and to walk further into Olivia's room.

"Detective Benson, you sure know how to surprise people. I'm Prof. Nathalie Diando. You may call me Nathalie. I'm the Prof. who's treating you. How do you feel?" Nathalie asks.

"Like I'm beaten up twice. Other then that I'm fine." Olivia answers.

"Ah another tough cop I see. Well I can tell you this, you have so many bones broken in your body that you are far from fine, Detective. Alright, I need to check your body. Alex, if you could step outside for a moment, I can check the Detective here." Nathalie says.

Olivia looks panicked from Nathalie to Alex and back to the Prof. and the color drains out of her face.

"NO." Olivia yells.

"Alex is not leaving. And I don't need an examination. I told you I'm fine." Olivia says softly.

Olivia tries to get herself up and leave the bed but as soon as she moves she almost cries out from the pain. She can hold it back and sets her jaw, but Alex sees that she is trying to hide the pain she's in.

"Lay back Liv, you're gonna hurt yourself you need more surgeries to set some broken bones. Don't make it worse by trying to get out of your bed." Alex says softly.

Olivia lays back against the pillow. But it's clear that she would leave her bed if she could do it. She looks pleadingly at Alex. The blonde attorney knows that something is bothering Olivia and she knows that the Detective won't talk with Nathalie in her room. So she turns to the Prof.

"Nathalie, could you wait outside for a moment? I need to talk with Liv, alone." Alex asks friendly.

"Yes, of course. I'll be waiting outside the door." Nathalie answers.

The Prof. nods at Olivia and turns around to walk out of the room, closing the door behind her. Alex turns to Olivia and takes her hand in her own.

"What's wrong, Liv? I know that something is not alright." Alex asks.

"I'm fine, Alex. Yes it hurts more to move than I thought. But I'm fine." Olivia answers.

"You know for a Detective you are not acting very smart. I know that something is wrong. I saw the way you set your jaw that you are in more pain than you want to admit. But I also know that is not the reason why you don't want to be examined. You know you can tell me anything, Liv. I'm staying here right beside you no matter what. No one will make me leave your side. Except for the OR. I promise you that. Now, what is it that you are afraid of?" Alex asks gently.

Olivia turns her head away. Not wanting for Alex to see the tears in her eyes.

"Liv, look at me, please. What is wrong, sweety?" Alex asks softly.

Olivia hesitates for a moment before turning her head back and looks at Alex.

"I... I don't want her to touch me, Alex. I don't want anyone touching me." Olivia whispers, lowering her head.

Alex's heart breaks seeing the strong Detective being so afraid. She knows exactly why Olivia doesn't want anyone to touch her. And she hates it that Nathalie has to do it. She wishes that she could protect Olivia for the emotional pain.

"I know, Liv. I know why you don't want anyone touching your body. And I hate it but Nathalie has to do it. I also know that you don't want me to see your body. That you are afraid of losing me if I do. But you won't lose me, Liv. Even if I would know the details of what happened to you, you won't lose me. I know that you are convinced that you will. But I promise you. Nothing, and I do mean nothing, can scare me or disgust me so much that I would leave you. That being said, do you want me to call Casey so that she can stay with you while Nathalie looks at you or do you want me to stay? What ever you choose, I won't be offended. I understand it if you prefer Casey to stay here for this." Alex asks.

"You promise you won't leave me, and our friendship? Because I won't survive it if I lose you again." Olivia asks with a small voice.

"I promise you, Olivia Benson, that I won't leave you. I won't survive it neither if I lose you again. I almost lost you again the past few days and it scared me like hell. I was so afraid, Liv I promise you I won't leave this hospital unless you are leaving too." Alex answers sincerely.

Olivia looks shocked at Alex's confession. She knows that the blonde ADA means every word she just said. And she has a feeling that Alex cares more for her than she thought.

"I trust you, Alex. And I care for you a lot. More than you'll ever know. I know that you won't break a promise that you make. And even though I'm scared like hell that you will leave if you see me like this or know everything, I need to trust you with this too. No matter how hard it will be for you to see my body, I want you to stay with me. I need you now more than ever. Although I will deny that I've said this if anyone ever asks." Olivia answers softly.

"Don't worry about that. Nobody will ever know. Besides I need you as much as you need me. And yes, I will deny it too should anyone ever ask." Alex answers with a smile.

Olivia tries to take a breath as deep as possible.

"Alright, get her back inside but promise me you make her stop if it gets too much and I can't do it myself." Olivia says.

"I will but you can do this I know you can." Alex answers.

"I'm not but let's get over with this the sooner she's done and gone the better it is." Olivia says.

Alex squeezes Olivia's hand and stands up. Kissing the brunette on her forehead before she walks to the door and asks Nathalie to come back inside. Alex walks back to her chair and sits down. Nathalie closes the door behind her and walks to Olivia's bed.

"Are you ready, Detective? I can't promise it won't hurt, but I'll try to be as gentle as I can be." Nathalie asks.

"Just do it and get over with it and just so you know it, Alex stays!" Olivia answers.

Nathalie looks at Alex and the blonde shakes her head Nathalie senses that Olivia isn't comfortable at all and decides to let it go. There is no need to upset the brunette more than she already is.

"Alright, Alex may stay but I have to warn you, Alex, it's not a nice view. Detective Benson's body is looking as badly as it is. You might want to leave after you've seen it." Nathalie says.

"Let me make this clear to you nothing and nobody can make me leave this room unless Olivia asks for it. Try me and you'll find out what I'm capable of and I don't mean this as a treat just simply stating a fact, nothing personal either. I don't care how bad it looks, or what it is you have to do as long as it doesn't harm Olivia, I'm fine with it." Alex says protectively.

"I understand it and I know this isn't personal you're just trying to protect Detective Benson the best you can. I know you want what's best for her now that's out of the way, I'll start to check you, Detective." Nathalie answers.

As soon as Nathalie pulls away the blanket Olivia searches for Alex hand, Alex looks at Olivia and squeezes her hand encouraging. Olivia tries to relax the best she can but stiffens immediately when Nathalie starts touching her. She squeezes Alex's hand hard as she tries to keep herself together. Nathalie feels the Detective stiffen when she starts to check her and tries to work as fast as she can knowing this must be awful for Olivia. To be touched after being attacked so badly. Half way trough the examination Olivia looks at Alex pleadingly, tears running over her cheeks. Alex sees that Olivia is about to break and decides that it's enough Nathalie has to continue to check Olivia later.

"Lex, please." Olivia whispers.

Alex nods at Olivia and squeezes her hand softly letting the brunette know it is over for now.

"Nathalie, you need to stop now you can finish your examination later but for now it's over." Alex says.

Nathalie pulls away her hands away and looks at Olivia and then at Alex she sees how hard Olivia tries to keep it together and the determination on Alex face.

"I know this is hard, but I have to do it, I'm sorry." Nathalie answers carefully.

But not carefully enough for Alex, the blonde attorney gives the poor Prof. one of her infamous glares while answering to her.

"And I'm saying your are done! I don't know how many victims of assault and or rape you have treated and I don't really care to be honest. But I have seen and worked with them for roughly 7 years and I know the impact this has on Liv. How this feels like being violated again, Liv is the strongest person I know but she'd have enough. I'm very proud of her that she managed it to handle it so far. I will not allow you to continue and break her down. And if you think you can continue your examination now, you don't know how hard this is. And you certainly have no clue what you are talking about. You give her a break for an hour and then you can go back to check her if she thinks she can handle it. As long as there is no direct threat against her life, you won't go further now. And I don't care if I'm unreasonable or hard I only care for Olivia's well being. Physically and mentally." Alex says with her courtroom voice, pulling down the gown and then pulling back the blanket over Olivia's body.

Nathalie flinched at the look and voice Alex is giving her, she looks at Olivia's heart monitor and sees that Olivia's heartbeat is slowly climbing. Knowing that keeping the Detective's heartbeat down is more important then finishing the examination right now. Nathalie doesn't look back Alex who is still glaring at her and looks at Olivia.

"I'll stop for now and come back in an hour to finish my examination it won't take much time to finish, I promise. Since you are awake I will transfer you to ICU after that, you will stay my patient. We will discus your injuries and what you need when I'm back I'm truly sorry for needing to do this, Detective." Nathalie says.

Olivia can only nod at Nathalie, afraid she will break down in front of her if she speaks, it's bad enough that Alex will think she is weak. It won't happen in front of the Prof. if she can prevent it, at least that's how Olivia looks at it. Nathalie nods at Olivia and walks out of the room and closes the door behind her.