Hello! Sorry for not updating ^^v I have to go to school (even on weekends we have classes)

I think this one is short — I wrote this chapter one time when I'm in school on my vacant period :D I just edited a few things. I know there're still a lot of errors. I'm in a hurry! I'll fix it as soon as possible. Don't worry :)

Hey, don't forget to review :D

PS: Just picture Toru's (the bodyguard) physique something like Morel, okay? :D

Flashback:

I stopped myself knowing that if I continue to descend, I will see him again. And besides, I'm feeling embarrassed, remember? I shouldn't be sticking my nose to where it shouldn't be. I turn around, facing the door. "G-get dressed. We'll talk later."

I can feel his stare boring on my back as I exited the bathroom. Right now, I'm feeling lost, knowing that he is back in my life again.

I sighed as I paced back and forth inside the bedroom, his bedroom, to be exact. I have so many questions in my mind, and I don't know where to start. But first, I want to know how I got to this place, to his house. So he did follow me back then, no? I'm guessing that after the incident in the alleyway — after I punched him and escaped — he followed me to my apartment. I'm wondering how he took me from Toru though. If he has taken me by force from my father's bodyguards, then there must have been a dispute during the encounter and a conflict. Toru will never give me in without a fight, I know that. But how is that that I'm here? Does this mean that Hisoka, who followed me, all alone, defeated Toru and all of his subordinates?

Psh. That's impossible. Him?

But he did kill the pervert jester. He followed us to the alleyway, to the dead-end, where the pervert jester cornered me and Hisoka killed him, with both of us unaware that we were being followed by Hisoka himself.

I think Hisoka has a love for killing people. Although these are all just my conclusions. Things would be a lot easier if I ask him myself. I mean, what actually happened to Hisoka? How did he turned out like this? What made him like this? And where the hell is Toru? Don't tell me .. ? Hisoka killed them? All of them? Is that what I call .. defeat? Defeat means dead?

I shivered, thinking of the possibilities that Toru and his men could be dead. No, it can't be. Hisoka .. . He wouldn't have, right?

I stopped pacing and looked to the doorway. I can hear footsteps getting closer. Agh! What should I do? Where should I go? Should I hide? Where should I hide? Or maybe I should just take a seat and relax? No! I can't do that! WHAT? These are all in my head, all scrambled, as I have no idea how to face Hisoka. It's been 11 years, I think, since I last saw him. To think of it, I last saw him just a moment ago, naked, in the bathroom.

I felt my face turned red, as I remember him naked back there. That was some nice view, though.

What? What the hell am I even thinking? Nice view?

The door opened. There stood Hisoka. He's not naked now. He's wearing another one of his jester outfits, and he has face paint again. That's quick.

"H-Hisoka ... " I whispered as he entered the room and slowly walked towards the corner and sit there. As if he didn't see me. As if I was invisible. As if I wasn't there at all.

"What do you want to talk about?" he finally said, as he drew a bunch of playing cards from nowhere. Wow. That's cool.

Ehh? I thought, realizing what he just said. What's with the stupid question? He said it so natural, just as like nothing happened, like it's not something important, like I'm just someone he always talks to, like nothing to interest him in any way.

I feel like I'm losing my cool. "What are you, an idiot?" I suddenly shouted at him. "What the hell am I doing here? Where's Toru? Where am I? Why are you here? You didn't kill them, did you? What did you do to them?!" I completely lose it. His stupid question provoked me. 'What do you want to talk about?' What is he, insane? He doesn't have to ask me such question — he need to explain everything to me! I'm feeling so confused, frustrated, and I don't know anything of what is happening. I feel like ... crying.

He didn't say anything. He just stared at me while shuffling the playing cards. Then he smirked.

What ..? Why is he smiling? Does he know that I'm angry at him? If he does, then why is he smiling like that?

I really am confused. Why is he acting so strange? Why does he kept smiling on every little thing? It's not even a smile, it's a smirk. It's that kind of insolent smile. It's creepy!

He stood up, the playing cards is now nowhere to be seen, then he walked towards me.

"H-Hey .. " I said as his smile — or smirk — didn't vanish. I think it's creepy. It kind of like represents his feelings of superiority towards others, or maybe he's just this conceited. I don't know.

He walked straight towards me. I took a step back. No. I can't let him near me. I just .. can't. I don't think I can face this jester, knowing that this is Hisoka.

When he got near me, I took a step back again. And again. And again. Until I reached the bed. I lost my balance when the back of my left leg hit the end of the bed, and so I fell on top of the mattress. I am now looking above him, towering over me. He looks big when I'm lying on his bed.

"You should be thankful," he said, smirk never leaving his face. "First, I saved you from that disgusting fool, who's been copying my clothing manner in a very disgraceful way," he said. He was referring to the pervert jester. "I've always wanted to eliminate him, so I followed him to where he took hostage of you, and killed him, straight away." He is now on the bed, crawling unto me. "I never knew that it was you that he took to that dirty alley. If I knew then, I would have made him suffer a more painful death." he said, licking his lower lip like a maniac, who's lust for killing is turned on.

What? W-What is wrong with you, Hisoka? Why does it seem to me that you love killing people?

I wanted to hug him. I wanted to relieve his lust for killing people. But I can't do it. I don't know what's happening to my body. It's frozen there, beneath him.

I can feel my body shivering. He's so close to me. I can close the distance between us and kiss him, hug him, tell him how much I've missed him. Tell him how my feelings for him never left.

Wait.. So my feelings for him never disappeared?

My face is filled with mixed emotions. I can tell that he's amused by it just by looking at my face, contorted with various emotions that I myself wasn't able to hold in.

"W-What did you do to T-Toru?" I asked him. I feel so little, now that I'm under him.

"Toru. Hnn. Ah. Yes. That's why his face is so familiar. He's one of your father's bodyguards, isn't he?" he said wondering. "Don't worry. I didn't killed him. I just played with him a little." he said, smiling insolently, as if he enjoyed every single detail of his 'game' with Toru.

I have no idea what to say to him. This Hisoka, who's on top of me, is in a whole new different level than the Hisoka I knew. He's a totally new Hisoka, like he's been reborn. My biggest question is how and why did he turn into this kind of person?