Daryl woke up with the first sunbeams and a hard one. One that did already hurt badly. Beth's leg was laying on top of his dick and Daryl wished so bad, that his boxers weren't between their warm bodies. Looking down at her Daryl noticed that she was still asleep. Thank God about that.
Her whole tiny body was pressing against his and it just made him crazy. When Daryl moved his sleepily hands, he stopped abruptly, when he could feel her soft skin under his palms. The shirt she was wearing had gotten up a little during the night and Daryl had his hand on her bare back, again. Beth moved in his arms, like she had noticed, that Daryl was watching her and her leg pressed even more against his middle and before Daryl could stop himself he moaned pleasurable.
He closed his eyes then and prayed to God that Beth hadn't heard that. When Daryl carefully opened his eyes again, he saw that she was still asleep and hadn't noticed anything. Because Beth was laying more on her back now, Daryl could see that the top button of the shirt had gotten open during the night and he could almost see her..
No. That was too much for Daryl to handle. Carefully, but quickly he rolled out of the bed and he had to admin that going with such a hard one, wasn't that easy. After minutes of trying to pee, Daryl gave up and turned on instead the warm water of the shower.
Standing under the hot water streams he tried to calm down, but it always worked just for a few seconds, before the picture of Beth in his shirt came back. Daryl tried to distract himself, while he washed his body with the soap. But when he finally took his dick in his warm palms, everything was over.
His hard one was flinching in his hand and Daryl hated himself for that, but he began to stroke himself. With one hand on the wall he tried to steady himself, while his hand began to move faster and faster. And the picture of Beth in this damn sexy dress, of her warm, soft hand, of her almost kiss on his mouth, of her long legs, her black underwear, his shirt on her tiny body, her bare back, almost seeing her breasts, didn't leave his mind and after some hard strokes he came and spilled everything he had on the wall.
After his breath became normal again and his hard one was gone, Daryl hated himself even more. He felt so ashamed and angry. He was really a pervert. Quickly he washed his came away and after he went out of the shower he opened the window, so Beth hopefully won't smell anything. How could he ever look at her after that?
Daryl got to know that he could still look at her, but he promised himself that this will never ever happen again. But Beth made himself a hard time, literally, because since that night she was always wearing his shirt for sleep.
At the second evening, when she was wearing his shirt, he was a little confused, because he hadn't put on any perfume that day. Of course Beth noticed his confused look and after he asked her why she still wanted to wear his shirt, she responded with a smile "It's not about the perfume Daryl. It's just about your own body scent, you know. You smell pretty good." Beth giggled, while Daryl tried to hide his blushed head from her.
He had never thought that he did smell good too. Because for him, Beth smelled just perfect, but he always thought that he had to smell awful, but when she said that he smelled pretty good too, then he believed her, because Daryl could trust Beth.
One Friday evening, when they were eating their dinner, Daryl could tell that Beth didn't speak that much as usually, she also didn't look up from her plate and didn't eat that much. After watching her worried a few minutes Daryl finally asked her "You okay sweetheart?" Beth always smiled when he called her that, and also this time he got a little smile from her, but just a little.
After clearing her throat she answered "Yeah, it's just.." Beth stopped then and took his hand in hers. Daryl's heart stopped instantly, a cold shiver run down his back and he felt already damn sick, before she even told him what had happened. She gave him one of her smiles, because Beth could probably already tell that he was damn worried.
"I know you will worry Daryl, but.. I will go with Maggie, Glenn and Aaron on the run tomorrow." No. That was his first thought. He won't let her go. Never again. When Daryl began to shake wildly his head Beth's grip on his hand tightened and she got closer to him with her chair.
"I know that you don't want me to go on this run, but Daryl I need this. I just can't allow myself to forget about the world outside the walls." "We can go hunting again if you want?" Daryl quickly said, in the hope she would change her mind. "That's sweet from you Daryl, but it's just not the same. I need to do this, need to help them." "I will go with you."
Calming Beth stroked his hand with her thumb, while she spoke "Did you forget, you have already promised Rick to help him at the walls tomorrow." "I can tell him I will go with you." "That's sweet from you, but you know, we all have jobs to do and tomorrow it's your job to help Rick and tomorrow it's my job to help Maggie, Glenn and Aaron on the run." Daryl nodded his head, but he still couldn't believe it.
With an already familiar move Beth placed the hair, which was falling into Daryl's face, behind his ears, so he couldn't hide himself behind them any more and just had to look at her. "Hey. Don't worry about me Daryl. Everything will be good. I promise you that. I'm not alone out there. Maggie, Glenn and Aaron are with me and remember, I can take care of myself." Beth smiled up at him, but this time she didn't get a smile back from Daryl. He knew that he won't be able to smile again, till she will be back. Before Beth took their plates to the dirty dishes she kissed his forehead and all Daryl wanted to do was start crying.
They went to bed early, because Beth and the other wanted to leave Alexandria early next morning. When Daryl took off his shirt he automatically gave it to Beth and she took it to her nose and closed her eyes, while she inhaled his smell. Daryl didn't sleep one second that night, because every time he closed his eyes he saw the things that could happen to her on the run tomorrow. So he let his eyes opened the whole night long.
His body was on ice, he felt damn ill and even the fact that Beth's whole upper body was laying on his top of his and his hand was resting against the thin fabric of her panties didn't make his body crazy like every night. Daryl just worried about her and he couldn't do anything against it.
Morning came way too soon and Daryl didn't speak anything the whole time or ate something for breakfast. He just wanted to hold Beth and didn't let her go any more, one time he thought about begging her not to leave, but Daryl knew that it wouldn't work. So he just watched her and tried not to cry, when they went to Maggie's and Glenn's house.
Daryl was holding her hand the whole time and didn't care about what the other were thinking, he just didn't want to let her go. But finally he had to and before she climbed into the car, Daryl placed maybe a little too long kiss on her forehead and whispered so only Beth could hear "Stay safe sweetheart.""Always, don't worry about me Daryl." With that she followed Aaron in the car and they left Alexandria. When the car got smaller on the horizon, Daryl already regreted it to not go with her.
Daryl helped Rick the whole day and every minute he looked to the gates to see if Beth was already back. Before even midday Rick had told him already eight times, that she will come back, that nothing will happen. Daryl didn't believe one single word, he just needed Beth back.
After work he quickly took a shower and just wanted to go to the gates, because it was almost sunset, when they opened and their car drove in. Since morning Daryl began to breathing normally again and already thanked God for bringing her back to him, when just Maggie and Glenn got out of the car. With blood everywhere on their clothes.
Daryl's heart stopped beating then, his hands began to tremble and he felt cold everywhere. He ran to their direction and before Maggie or Glenn could say anything, Daryl already asked with a loud voice "Where is Beth?" He tried to look into the car, maybe she was laying injured on the back seat, but the car was empty. Maggie said with a shaking voice "Daryl, you have to listen to me know. We.." Daryl got angry, so he was yelling "What happened? Where is Beth?"
Maggie swallowed before she answered him "We don't know exactly.." "What the fuck do you mean with you don't know it!?" Daryl yelled at her and Glenn got in front of his wife. "We ran into a herd and lost her and Aaron. We tried to find them, but.." Daryl didn't need to hear more, he quickly went past them, in the direction of his bike, when Maggie's grip on his upper arm stopped him. "Daryl you can't go!"
Daryl got even angrier and with clenched teeth he asked "Why?" "Because before we got separated Beth screamed that I should tell you not to leave Alexandria till she will be back." Daryl didn't get it. He looked into Glenn's serious face and then into Maggie's again. "Why should she say that?" Daryl finally managed to ask. "Because she needs you here, when she will get back. She needs you right here and not outside the walls. Daryl, Beth needs you." Maggie tried to explain him.
Daryl looked over his shoulder to his bike, to the gates and finally to Beth's sister and her brother in law again. "But.. I need her too." Daryl said with tears in his eyes. "She will find her way back, like she had already done one time. And Aaron is by her side. All we can do is.. wait." Daryl nodded his head, even when he still couldn't believe this all.
Daryl didn't know how long he was already sitting on the guard tower and looked just in that one direction. It felt like hours, but it probably were just minutes. He couldn't believe it, he lost Beth, again. It was all his fault, he should have gone with her, to protect her, to safe her. What should he do without her? He couldn't live without her any more, he never could. Beth was his whole life and now she was gone again.
His whole body was trembling, even when he felt one minute like he was on fire and the next like on ice. He felt ill, so damn ill. His hands were sweating and that one familiar feeling in his belly grow more and more with every minute. One time his lips began to tremble too and he cried into his hands like a little child. He still couldn't believe it.
Why did this happen? Why couldn't it happen to him instead of her? He suppressed the need to climb down stairs, getting on his bike and searching the whole country for her. Daryl could suppress this need, but he couldn't suppress the need to vomit everything he had out. He tried to focus again, but the tears in his eyes didn't let him.
Daryl prayed into to night to God. He prayed, no he begged to God to let her be alive, to let her be safe and healthy, to let her come back to him. Even after he had vomited the third time the feeling inside his belly didn't go away. Daryl decided to himself that he will start searching for her with the first sun beams, then he had tried to wait for her, but he couldn't wait forever. He needed to do something.
Still praying into his hands he tried to calm down, he needed a clear mind, instead he will probably do stupid things. After he breathed in his still trembling body he leaned against the railing of the guard tower and looked into the darkness, searching for movements.
Before he could see anything, Daryl could hear noises from the forest. He leaned even more over the railing and after some seconds there were movements and finally Daryl could see blond hair in the darkness. It was Beth. It was really his Beth.
Not thinking about the consequences Daryl screamed into the night "BETH!" Finally her eyes found his on the guard tower and she screamed back with a broken voice "DARYL!"
As fast as he could he climbed down stairs, jumping down the last four steps so he was faster with his feet on the ground. He ran to the gates and opened them with one big move. Daryl knew that he had never run that fast in his life before, when he ran into Beth's direction. When she crashed against his chest he held her as close as never before. He won't ever let her go again.
His right hand hold her close to his body, he probably even hurt her a little, but he needed to feel her right now. Daryl's other hand hold her head against his chest and his mouth and nose were resting in her hair. He cried into her locks and he could tell that Beth was crying too.
Suddenly the feeling in his belly got as strong as never before. His feet almost couldn't handle his body weight any more and Daryl swore that his heart stopped beating for a few seconds.
Only then he got it. Only then he knew what this feeling was about all the time.
Carefully Daryl pulled away, but just enough, so he could take her beautiful face into his palms. Stroking her wet cheeks with his thumbs he looked into her eyes before he leaned down and kissed her shy on the lips.
Daryl didn't close his eyes then, nether did Beth. They were looking into each other eyes, while Daryl carefully kissed her lips. He almost began to worry, when she didn't response it, but when Beth closed her eyes and started to kiss him back, started to press her warm lips against his, Daryl also closed his eyes. And it felt better than he had ever dreamed.
The feeling in his belly was gone, instead there was another feeling, maybe it was what people called 'the butterflies'. And it felt so damn good. His heart almost jumped out of his body, because he was so excited. Her lips tasted like heaven, so sweet, so soft, so beautiful.
When they had to stop, because they needed some air inside their lungs, Daryl just pulled so far away, that their lips were still touching. With his thumb he traced the corner of her opened lips, which were so warm, soft and also wet, like his own.
When Daryl finally opened his eyes again, Beth had hers still closed. She was looking like an angel. Daryl leaned his forehead against hers, when she opened her beautiful eyes and was looking up at him. Her look was so glad, so hopeful, so thankful, so lovingly.
After moments of looking in her endless eyes Daryl whispered softly to her "I love you Beth Greene."