Olivia shrugged. She was afraid and insecure.
"I don't want to work with them acting the way they did. They are supposed to have your back. They let you down and put a knife in your back. I can't protect you against that. I shouldn't need to.
The only thing I did was defending you. They didn't even felt sorry. That was what closed the deal for me.
I can't kick their asses. Not because I couldn't have them because I can. I can kick all their asses before they even know what or who hit them. But I would have been fired. So I choose the only option I had left, I quit.
I had to do it. I'm sorry I let you down. That I didn't say something when you were there."
"Olivia you listen to me. You have never let me down. You chewed out their asses and it got you 2 months suspended. You defended me, how could you let me down if you did that. So you didn't say something when I was there, you did when I left. You stood up for me. You had my back. In a way nobody ever did. You didn't do anything wrong today accept for quitting your job."
Alex thinks for a moment about how to get Olivia take her job back. She decides she need the one to be open now.
" Liv, No one will have my back the way you do. Or protect me like you do. Nobody will defend me like you do. But most importantly nobody will make me feel as safe and protected as you do. Maybe if I talk to Cragen he will cut the time you are suspended. If that's ok with you, talking with him about that I mean. Not about how you or I feel about what happened today.
That is between you and me.
So what do you say Detective Badass? Are you going to have my back again. Make me feel safe and protected. Go back to SVU and make me happy?"
Alex knows that the last part is guess to take and she hopes that it get Olivia back. But she had to. To have a chance to make Olivia change her mind.
Olivia stands up and walks to the window. Looking outside and with her back to Alex.
Her head is spinning of all that Alex had said.
It was silent for a few minutes. Olivia thinks about the things Alex said to her.
'Can I go back after what happened today?
Will I let Alex talk to Cragen about being suspended?
I just want her to safe and protected. Oh who am I trying to fool. I do everything for Alex, only Alex. She only have to ask me and look at me with those beautiful blue eyes and I'm toast.
Be a man Benson. Do what you have to do to make her happy. '
Olivia turns around and looks Alex in the eyes.
"Do you meant everything you just said?" Olivia asks Alex softly.
"Yes, I meant every word of it."
"Then I'll go back. I want you to be safe and protected. I want you to feel safe and protected and if going back to SVU makes you feel that way then I will do it. Helping victims is important to me.
But probably equally important for me is that you feel safe and protected. I want you to be happy.
So yes, I will go back and if it means I'm suspended for 2 months, that is the price it takes. Although it would be nice if it is less then 2 months. I'm going crazy if I don't have nothing to do for 2 months."
"Thank you Liv. It means a lot to me."Alex says.
Both of their stomachs are grumbling. And it makes them laughing loud.
They laughed their nerves away and were more relaxed now.
" How about you and I have some take out for dinner? You call for that and in the mean time I call Cragen to see if he will give you less time. Deal?" Alex asks.
"Deal. What do you want to have for dinner? I can cook something classy if you like that. Instead of take out."
Alex looks at Olivia first a little bit confused and shocked and then with a mischievous smile on her face.
" Olivia Benson have you been holding out on me?"
"Uhm, guilty your Honor. Yes I cook dinners, pretty good if I say so myself. It's just when I do it, I like to have the time for it. Most of the times I don't have that. But for special occasions I do like to do it. So what do you say Counselor? A home made meal or take out?" Olivia asks winkling with her eyebrows.
"How about take out today and you cook for me somewhere in the next couple of days. I think you've done enough today, Detective. Maybe we could relax a bit and talk some more. Sounds like a plan?"
"Anything you want Counselor, anything you want. So take out tonight and I rock your world somewhere in the next couple of days. What do you want?"
'I want you. But that's not gonna happen. Not anytime nearby that is. Oh, get your mind out of the gutter Cabot. Liv is straight so it ain't gonna happen ever.' Alex thinks.
" You think you can rock my world huh? You are pretty confident about that don't you, Detective?" Alex grinned. "As for now, surprise me. You know what I like."
"Ok. I'll pick something. Since you are gonna call the Cap I gonna go to my study room and call there. See you soon."
Olivia turned around and walks to the study room. She calls and orders some Mexican food. She knows that it's Alex's favorite food. They tell her that dinner will be there in half an hour.
Olivia looks at her piano, she hasn't played for a while. To much damn cases the last few weeks. She needs it now. Playing the piano always give her some rest in her head. And lately her head is spinning. She keeps thinking about a certain blonde ADA, who currently is in her living room. Guessing that Alex while be on the phone with the Captain for a while Olivia starts playing. Normally Olivia only sings with the piano when nobody is around. It helps her clear her mind and relax. Or when she needs to think.
Forgetting that Alex is in her apartment she starts singing.
Meanwhile Alex has finished her phone call. She walks to the study room and hears Olivia playing at the piano. Just when Alex wants to open door she froze. She hears Olivia singing. With a voice so velvet and beautiful that she is completely captivated.
Alex knows that Olivia can play beautiful. Olivia had played for Alex several times. But never had she heard the brunette singing.
Alex quietly opens the door a bit. She doesn't want to disturb the brunette afraid she will stop singing.
Olivia doesn't notice Alex in the door opening lost in her own thoughts.
'Oh Alex, why do you have to be so perfect. So incredibly intelligent, driven, strong and stunningly beautiful. I know the song that describes you perfectly.'
Olivia starts playing and singing a song.
Like a thunderstorm on a summer day.
She came out of nowhere and that can say.
She's a supernova shining through the night.
A never sleeping satellite.
She's a damn good reason for the sun to ride.
When you see her smile in the morning light.
When she cries, she cries a wishing well.
Playing hide and seek with the hounds of hell.
She throws you down to take you high.
Into her private sky.
She's so beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful
beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful
Magical, mystical, irresistible, cosmical
A wonderful overkill and most of all beautiful.
Ooooh ooh ooh aha
Ooooh ooh ooh
She's so ooh ooh ooh
Aha oooh ooh ooh
Beautiful.
M mm so beautiful
You wanna call her name from the highest hill.
And she's better than a 5 million dollar bill.
She swims with you to Atlantis coast.
To keep you safe while the world explodes.
She's diving down to keep you high.
Into her velvet sky.
She's so beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful
beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful
Magical, mystical, irresistible, cosmical
A wonderful overkill and most of all beautiful.
Ooooh ooh ooh aha
Ooooh ooh ooh
She's so ooh ooh ooh
Aha oooh ooh ooh
Beautiful.
"Oh lex" Olivia whispers before she continuous.
She's a mermaid who's left her fairytale.
She wrote a brand new song for the nightingale.
Sometimes I think she's invented but
Thank God she's made of flesh and blood.
She's everything I've ever missed and more.
But most of all she is
Beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful.
Beautiful, wonderful, powerful, magical, mystical
Overkill and most of all beau-ti-ful
Ooooh ooh ooh aha
Ooooh ooh ooh
She's so beautiful
She's so ooh ooh ooh
Aha oooh ooh ooh
Beautiful.
Olivia looks at her watch and sees that dinner will arrive in 10 minutes.She turns around and sees Alex standing in the door opening and suddenly she is nervous.
'How much did she heard. Did she heard me singing, singing the whole song? Ok Benson take a deep breath, try explain it if she asks.'
"Hi Alex, dinner will be here in 10 minutes. What is the verdict?"Olivia asks.
" You actually have a choice. Two weeks suspension with pays or 1 month desk duty. That's the best I could do." Alex answers.
Before Olivia can answer her cellphone is ringing.
"Benson."
" Olivia, it's Cragen. Are you alone right now? If you're not go to a place where you are. If Alex is with you right now, keep your game face up Detective."
It takes all for Olivia too keep her face straight. She knows something is very wrong.