Oceans by seafret would best describe Azula's emotions towards Steve in this chapter so please listen to it while reading the chapter.
Azula 5 feet 4 inches
Steve Rogers 6 feet 2 inches
Azula pov
Steve was invading my thoughts, and now my dreams too. It's been a couple of days since I had confessed to playing a part in the one hundred year war, but I still couldn't confess to him the monster I had been. Steve had always been the good guy if the history books had been correct, but then again history is always written by the winners, she remembered how the history books in her world had portrayed the airbenders. There was a soft knock on my door I quickly got up to open it.
"Hi, Azula." I was confused to see Bruce standing there. "May I come in?"
"Yeah" I moved to the side allowing him to enter. "Hello Bruce, not that it isn't nice to see you, but why are you here?"
"I'm here to talk about Steve, he feels like he may have pushed you too far yesterday. He said that you mention the war and that you admitted to fighting in it."
"Yeah but I couldn't do it Bruce. I couldn't tell him everything." I sat on the bed and Bruce sat next to me. Bruce understood how it felt to be a monster, he knew the guilt that came with killing innocent people. "I really like him, and I'm afraid of losing him. He's kind, gentle, compassionate person, and I'm broken. He's everything that I ever wanted, and he deserves someone better than me." I felt tears coming out of my eyes by the end of my statement. Bruce was hugging me and I began crying like a baby.
"Look at us aren't we a sad pair both of us too terrified of letting our soulmates in, because we think we're monsters." Bruce's voice sounded so sad it scared her.
"So no luck with Tony either." I let go of Bruce, so that I could look at his face, and put my hand in his.
"No, it just every time I feel like getting close to him I keep thinking...what would happen if I lost control, would I end up hurting him?" Bruce looked so broken so I squeezed his hand.
"I'm falling in love with him...I'm afraid that if I tell him about Ba Sing Se and everything else that he may think I'm a monster. If he thinks that I'm a monster he could end up leaving me, and if he does leave me... it will shatter my heart."
"So, what do we do? We have to do something, because we can't continue this way Azula."
"I don't know, but we can't keep doing this to them." I didn't know what I was going to do. Bruce was the only person that knew everything thing about me.
"Sometimes I think it would be better for them if we disappeared-"
"But the thought of them moving on hurts too much." I finished for him.
"Yeah, you summed it up." Bruce said with great sadness, I looked at the defeated look on Bruce's face and knew my face reflected the same look.
"I could sit here and tell you that your good enough for Tony-"
"-and I could tell you that your good enough for Steve, but that will never be enough...so what do we do now?" We always came back to that question.
"It seems like we have two choices Bruce, we need to step up or step out of their lives. At least you have an excuse you and the hulk are two different people. I have no excuse all that blood is on my hands, no one else, but me, and I feel so lost right now. I don't think that Tony will be willing to let you go, and you can't blame the green guy. The hulk loves Tony as much as you do, and we both know that the only reason why you don't make a move is because you feel guilty about what happened with Pepper Potts."
"You should have seen the look she gave me when she came to pick up her stuff today. She blames me I can see it, she gave me this look filled with hatred. Azula she gave him a two weeks notice."
Tony always knew Bruce Banner was his soulmate, but he had given up on him after he couldn't find him, so Tony had begun a relationship with Pepper (who didn't have a a soulmate mark which is very rare). When Tony meet Bruce he had told Bruce that he was already in a relationship, which was fine because Bruce didn't want to be involved with anyone. When they were done dealing with Loki, I guess around that time Tony realized that he had fallen in love with Bruce Banner, he also tried to end things with Pepper. His explanation was that he was in love with someone else so continuing their relationship meant that he would be stringing her along, and that wasn't fair for either of them. Tony had instantly told Pepper about his feelings for Bruce (he told her the day after what happened in New York), but she had been unwilling in letting Tony go. She had begged him for a chance to make it work, and Tony tried really hard to make it work. Tony was confused the first couple of days home Pepper had tried really hard to get him to sleep with her, and after I popped up everyone had gotten distracted with helping me adapt. Tony had still been confused why would she try to sleep with him when he had just confessed to being in love with someone else? On my second week here Tony had been on his way to work when Happy had confessed to Tony that he had overheard Pepper saying that if she got pregnant Tony would never leave her. Tony broke up with Pepper Potts that same day (that was the same day I moved in with Steve) saying that their relationship was unsalvageable, and that they needed to end things before they hurt each other more than they already had. After they broke up Tony took the ten floors underneath his penthouse and turned them into apartments for the Avengers (and future Avengers). Each floor had two apartments Bruce had moved into his apartment last week(which happened to be right underneath Tony's penthouse), our apartment was right across his so we only moved in half of our things since we only plan to stay there on the weekends. One month later she finally came to pick up the last of her things, and she gave Tony a two week notice.
"A two week notice?" I don't know what that was but by the looks on Bruce's face it was not good.
"A two weeks notice is when you tell your boss that in two weeks you won't be working for him anymore, and that he has two weeks to find a suitable replacement. Does any of that make sense?"
"Yeah, but why are you upset? In my opinion she should have given him that notice the same day they broke up. Bruce what happened between Pepper Potts and Tony Stark was not your fault." Bruce turned away from me and I felt frustrated. "Go, talk to Tony about this guilt that you feel, and maybe one day you'll be able to forgive yourself. You're not going to step out, so step up Bruce, Tony loves you, and I believe that you could make it work."
"Okay, but you have to promise me to do the same with Steve." He got up and looked at me with a sad smile on his face, he was holding out his pinky. I got up and interlocked my pinky with his.
"I promise." Bruce smiled and walked towards the door. "Wanna walk me out."
"Sure." I follow him out the door and down the stairs. Steve was sitting on the couch watching tv, and he was wearing was only wearing sweatpants, no shirt just sweatpants, which is why I tripped over the large welcome rug that laid in front of the doors. Steve rushed to help me up.
"Are you okay?"
"I'm fine." I didn't realize I had been petting Steve's chest till Bruce cleared his throat, and I looked up and noticed the smug/amused look on Steve's face. I yanked my hands away, and turned around to find Bruce failing terribly to mask his laugh with a cough.
"Bye Azula." He gave me a hug and then opened the door. "Bye, Steve." He quickly left laughing.
"I'm sorry, but I thought you needed someone to talk to, and from the looks of it I was right." Steve had a guilty look on his face he quickly turned away and started walking towards the kitchen. I couldn't leave him feeling guilty so I followed him into the kitchen and stopped when I noticed a huge vase filled with red lilies.
"You mentioned your mother a couple of weeks ago and remember that you told me how she had a garden full of fire lilies. I also remembered you telling me that you had tended to the garden after she left, and I knew how much they ment to you by the way you spoke about them. I remembered how you described them, so with Tony's help I was able to find these." Steve nervously pointed at the flowers. "Red tiger lilies are the closest thing we have to that flower in our world."
For the first time in my life I was speechless, and that's when it hit me; I was falling in love with Steve Rogers. I couldn't think of anything to compare the feeling to. Don't get me wrong I loved Aang, and Katara, but I was never in love with them. Step up or step out, I'm not stepping out because I'd rather drown, so I hugged Steve.
"Thank you." Steve leaned down to kiss my forehead, but I grabbed the front of his shirt to pull him down a little lower. I hesitated for a second before kissing him, and it felt mind blowing. Kissing Steve made me feel like I was drowning, I felt breathless, and dizzy. It was a sweet, gentle kiss, and when we were done Steve rested his forehead against mine. We were both smiling like idiots, Steve still had his hands on my hips drawing circles with his thumbs. The feeling of never being good enough for Steve might never go away, but at least now I have some hope.
