A/N Thank you all for your support and understandings. I needed to do research for the continuance of the story. Most of it is done and I can start writing chapters again. Don't worry I will keep writing for this story too. I only stop writing for it when I think it's finished. Ok, you waited long enough. Back to the story and the next chapter.
As always, please R+R.
Chapter 21
Casey came back to the hospital an hour before visiting time was over. She didn't know why, but she had a feeling that she needed to go to the hospital so she went. She just walks around the corner to the corridor of Olivia's room when she hears the brunette yelling.
"THEY DID WHAT?! HOW THE HELL IS THAT POSSIBLE? YOU KNOW WHAT? I DON'T WANT TO KNOW IT. JUST GET THE HELL OUT OF MY ROOM FOR NOW! ANGIE YOU STAY! AND GET CASEY HERE NOW!" Olivia yells.
"Don't need to get me here." Casey says as she walks into Olivia's room.
Doctor Brown leaves the room fast. She understands why Olivia is so furious right now. She would be to if it happened to her. She knows the Detective needs space right now. Space and answers. Professor Cavanaugh is staying at a safe distance from the fuming Detective. Alex is standing next Olivia glaring at the retreating form of Doctor Brown. Olivia looks furious and scared to death at the same time. Taking in all the faces Casey knows something bad has happened.
"What the hell is going on here? Liv, I could here you yelling around the corner to the corridor of your room." Casey asks.
"The damn moron's working in this hospital switched two scans. And if that is bad enough, they destroyed someone else's life first before they found it out. Who ever that poor person is hears now what we heard earlier. Although I don't think it is more worse for that person. Angie, I have 1 question first. Will you go with me wherever I would go?" Olivia explains and asks.
"Yes, Detective. If that is what you want. I don't belong to this hospital. So if you should go somewhere else I can go with you." Cavanaugh answers.
"Liv, what are you talking about? I don't follow you at all." Casey asks worried.
"One moment Case, please?" Olivia asks.
"Ok." Casey answers.
"Lex, stop pacing and glaring at the door. Doctor Brown won't come back anytime soon. Come here and sit on the bed against me. I need you here against me. And I need you get yourself together for a while. I need your brains working." Olivia says softly.
Alex stops pacing and walks back to the bed climbs on it and curls up against Olivia. Pulling the brunette in her arms and close to her own body. Once Alex is settled Olivia turns back to Professor Cavanaugh.
"Angie, are you sure this is the right scan? That this scan is of my head?" Olivia asks.
"Yes, Detective. I'm sure. I'm sorry. I can make a new scan myself, to be certain if you would like that. But I'm sure." Angie answers.
"Do it. They already screwed it up once. I want to be sure. In the mean time, can you find out what the best hospital is to be for this?" Olivia asks.
"Yes of course. I will do a CT scan as well. But I'm almost sure I need to do a surgery.. I promise you I will do everything I can. Both scans I will do them today. I'm sure there is more equipment available at this time of the day. Does it need to be in this city? The hospital I mean?" Cavanaugh asks.
Alex answers the question.
"No, I want the best damn hospital of the world. I don't care if we need to go to the other end of the world for it. As long as it is possible for Liv to get there we will go there. Money is no problem. You have a card blanc for this and everything else that is needed." Alex says.
"Alright. Thank you Ms. Cabot. I will arrange the scans right now. I will look at them right after we're done. If indeed I need to perform a surgery, I will schedule it for tomorrow. Now if you excuse me, I will be back in a few minutes." Cavanaugh says.
"Thank you Angie. Could please give my apologies to Doctor Brown. I shouldn't have yelled at her. Although I'm still furious, I could have kept myself calm." Olivia says.
"I will, Detective. But you have every right not to be calm. You're whole world turned upside down twice today. And the switch shouldn't have happened. Right, I go now. As I said, I will be back in a few minutes." Cavanaugh says.
The professor nods to Alex and Casey and walks out of the room, closing the door behind her.
Olivia looks like she is going to explode. She nudges Alex and motions her to get off the bed. One look to the brunette and Alex knows that Olivia wants to get out off her bed. She knows it is not a smart thing to do but given the circumstances she knows that Olivia needs it. So she gets off the bed. When Olivia starts moving to get out off the bed herself Casey speaks up.
"Liv, you..." Casey starts but Alex interrupts her.
"Let her Casey. With what happened and the news we just got I'm surprised she didn't hit Doctor Brown." Alex answers.
"Alright. But can one of you please tell me what the hell is wrong?" Casey asks.
Olivia just got out of her bed and is pacing up and down in her room. She stops pacing for a moment and looks at Alex. Alex nods and the Detective starts pacing again. Alex just sit down in the chair next to Olivia's bed and motions Casey to take a seat too. Casey picks up a chair and places it next to the blonde ADA and sit down.
"We thought the other news was bad, well this can be worse. A lot more. The scan showed that Liv has a brain tumor. But other then that we don't know anything. We don't know if it's good or bad. We don't know what kind of tumor it is. We don't know if it it's treatable or not. We don't know if she's gonna die or not. All we know now is that it is a damn tumor. In the area where the center of her vision is. That's why she saw double and why she has these excruciating pain attacks. I know one thing for sure, we are not staying in this damn hospital. I don't care if it turns out this is the best hospital. We go for second best then. But they screwed it up big time once. I'm not giving them an other chance to screw it up again. Liv's life is on the line here. I won't take any chance with this." Alex explains.
"What?! How could they miss that? Why didn't they saw that before? She had a freaking brain surgery for heaven's sake! You're damn right you don't stay here" Casey asks, shocked and pissed off.
"You tell me. I don't have a fucking clue. All I know is that Liv suffered when it wasn't needed. And I don't want to see any of them again. Accept for Professor Cavanaugh. Incompetent moron's. How the hell did they get their medical degree? Don't answer that. I know. I'm just furious." Alex answers.
"I understand that. I'm pissed off. Because of what they did to my friend, best friend actually. I can't imagine how you must feel or Liv. It's your girlfriend we are talking about. If I were you I would sue them for reckless endangerment or something like that. I even want to do it for you. You have enough on your mind right now." Casey says.
"Yes, I know. We talk about that later, alright?" Alex asks.
"Yeah, sure. Anytime you want." Casey answers.
"Thank you though. Liv, I think you've been pacing long enough for now. Go back into bed, I'm coming with you. You can go out later again. Please?" Alex asks.
Olivia stops pacing and looks at her girlfriend. Seeing the worried look on the blonde's face she nods and walks back to her bed.
"Ok, come back on the bed with me, Lex. Case, come sit in the chair next to my bed. And I did listen to what you two were saying. I think you are my best friend too, Case. Now that Alex is my girlfriend of course. Not to offend anyone, but Lex is the most important person in my life, how long or short it may be. But I need you in my life too." Olivia says, climbing back in her bed.
"I know, Liv. And don't worry, I'm certainly not offended. Alex was en always will be the most important person in your life. I'm more then happy with second best in this case. And for the record I need you in my life too. Alex, you too. I know we don't know each other that well. But if you are important to Liv, you are important to me. And you are my friend too. Our friendship can only get deeper." Casey says.
"I'm so happy that you are here. It means a lot to me. I know that this is hard for you too, but you are there for us when we need someone the most. And you are the only one Liv allows to be here except for me. I feel like I can be more myself with you, With Liv I can of course, but other then with her, I don't feel like I really can." Alex says.
"Yeah, well don't get too cozy you two. I'm glad the two of you get along, but remember both of you, that Alex and I are taken." Olivia says possessively.
"Like I would try something. I know I get my ass kicked, twice, by you. And I know I don't have a chance with either one of you, if I would wanted that." Casey smirks.
"I don't want no one else but you. I'm a one woman gal. And you are the only one I want." Alex says.
"As do I. You are the only one I want. Ever wanted since the day you walked into the precinct bossing us around like you owned us." Olivia smirks.
"Why doesn't that surprise me?" Casey says.
"Because, you are a smart woman, Casey Novak. I thought Cavanaugh would be away for a few minutes." Olivia says.
"She will be here soon, Liv." Alex says.
"I don't like waiting, when something inside my head is messing with my brains." Olivia pouts.
"Benson, you don't like waiting at all. Period." Casey says.
"Hey! I can be very patient if I want too. Look how long I've waited for Alex." Olivia answers.
"That's not waiting, Detective. That's being a chicken head for over a decade." Casey counters.
"Be nice, Novak. I may be sick. Very sick maybe, but I still can kick your ass around this room. And why don't you say that to Alex? She'd done the same thing." Olivia says.
"You are not gonna kick anyone's ass, Detective. You are not allowed to do that kind of activity." Cavanaugh says, entering the room.
"There you are. I was wondering when you would be back here." Olivia says.
"You need to learn to be patient, Detective. You gonna need it for the next amount of time. Now I've arranged both scans are gonna follow up each other. The MRI scan first and the CT scan after that. The MRI scan will be in about 1 hour. I also paged up the oncologist. We can look at it together. Now before the two of you start to protest, I need a diagnoses from an oncologist to transfer you to an other hospital or center. You are free to ask for a second opinion there. I've looked for the best hospital and you have two choices. One in the US and one in Europe. One in Germany and the other one is in Houston, Texas. Although Germany is gonna be a problem. How to get you there. I can't allow you to fly to Europe right now. I won't allow you to fly at all, the risks are to big. At least in an airplane it is. The one in Houston is one of the best in the world too. Actually with some of the treatments they use they are the best in the world or pioneers of it. So I would like to suggest you go to Houston. But of course it is your decision to make. Yours and Ms. Cabot's that is. We will do the scans first. But after that depending on the outcome we might need to arrange a few things first." Cavanaugh says.
Olivia looks at Alex.
"Lex, what do you want? I think I would like to go to Houston. But if you prefer something else, say it. It's not only what I want that counts." Olivia says.
"The only one besides the three of us I trust in this hospital right now is the Professor. She knows more about this then we do. So if she suggest we should go to Houston, I think we should do that." Alex answers.
"Ok, Houston it is then." Olivia says.
"Houston, we've got a problem." Casey jokes.
"What problem, Novak?" Olivia asks.
"Detective Benson is coming to our city." Casey smirks.
"Har, har, very funny, Counselor." Olivia says.
"Angie, you said something about maybe arrange some things?" Alex asks, ignoring Olivia and Casey's banter.
"Yes, there are two possibilities, one it's good and second it is bad meaning it's cancer. Now I know you don't want to think about it, but there need some legal documents be made. MPA, living wills and do-not- resuscitate forms. In case there are decisions need to be made and Detective Benson can't make them or can't make them anymore. We can get those forms and fill them in here. But they need to be done before surgery. I'm sorry to drop this in your lap right now. But we need to have this done before it." Cavanaugh answers.
It gets awfully quiet in Olivia's room. Alex and Olivia both know that it needs to be done, but both don't want to think about the possibility that it's needed. They look at each other with tears forming in their eyes.
"I don't want to think about that, Lex. I know we need to, but that doesn't mean I want it." Olivia whispers.
"I don't want it neither, Liv. I don't want to think about the possibility that you won't be able to make your own decisions. I don't want to think about what to do if something goes wrong." Alex whispers back.
"Well at least one thing we don't have to do anymore. You are already my MPA. Unless you want to change that now." Olivia says softly.
"No, of course not. I will do everything that I need to do. I'm only saying that I don't like what I maybe need to do. That's all." Alex answers.
"Why don't you talk about it for a moment. Without me being present, I mean. The first scan is in an hour, I'll come back in 45 minutes. We can discus then what decisions the two of you have made. After I studied the scans we know what we need to do first and we can take care of things then." Cavanaugh says.
"Ok. That's alright. We see you back in 45 minutes. Case, you stay here, please." Olivia answers.
"Alright, see you in 45 minutes then, Detective and Ms. Cabot." Cavanaugh says.
She stands up wishes them good luck and leaves the room again. Closing the door behind her too.
"I changed my mind, I do want to change my MPA. Now Alex is the first person to make the decisions. I want that to stay as it is. But I want to change the second person, the one that makes the decisions when Alex isn't able to make them, for what ever the reason may be. Or if she wants to make it with a second person. Right now Cragen is that second person. And it's not that I don't trust him. Because I most certainly do. But I want it changed so that if Alex needs the second person she can be herself with them. Or if she can't make them, the person who does, will do what I want or more important at some point, what Alex wants. I want you to be that person, Casey. If you want to do it of course. Do you?" Olivia asks.
Both Alex and Casey are surprised. But on the other hand they can see why Olivia wants it. Casey looks at Alex for confirmation, the blonde ADA nods.
"Yes, I will do it. If that's what you want, then I'll do it. I know why you want to change it. And I'm honored that Alex feels so comfortable with me that she can be herself. So for the both of you I will do it. On the one condition that Don has no problem with it. I don't want things getting ugly because he doesn't agree with it. We still have to work with him, no matter what might happen or not." Casey answers.
"Lex, do you feel comfortable with this? I want to do what you are comfortable with the most. And I thought you will feel better if you can do this or leave this to Casey." Olivia asks.
"Yes, I do. I feel more comfortable if I can do this with Casey. Don is a good man. And I like him very much but I feel I can be more myself with Casey. And certainly if I need to make life changing decisions. Casey has been here most of the time with us when we heard things. She was here when you heard the news about the wrong scan and she was there for you and came to me to get me back here. She did that for you. She did what you wanted the most and what was best for you. So I will be more at ease with Casey by my side." Alex answers.
"Ok. That's what we are gonna do then. I'll call Cragen now to ask him if he doesn't have a problem with this. Case, may I use your cellphone again, please?" Olivia asks.
Casey nods ands takes her cellphone out of her pocket and hand it over to Olivia. Olivia speed dials Cragen's cellphone number. After 2 times he answers his cellphone.
"Cragen. Casey, is there something wrong that you are calling me ?" Cragen asks.
"Captain, it's me Olivia. I'm calling with Casey's cellphone. And there is something I need to asks you. And to tell you." Olivia answers.
"Liv, are you alright? What is it that you need to ask me? One moment though, I close the door to my office first." Cragen answers.
"No Sir, I'm not alright." Olivia answers.
"Ok. The door is closed. We can talk in private now. What do you mean you're not alright?" Cragen asks.
"The moron's in this hospital switched the scan of my head with someone else. He or she will be relieved I think. Comparing to what it was they heard first. Cap, I have a brain tumor. We don't know if it's good or bad yet. I'm getting a new MRI scan, because they screwed it up. Professor Cavanaugh says this is the right scan but I want to be sure. So she personally will be there with the new one. She also will make a CT scan. After they are done she will study them both right away. But depending on the outcome there need to be things arranged before things will be done. That's why I call you now. If it isn't good I will be transferred to Houston. There is a center there that's is specialized and one of the best in the world. Now I needed to inform you about that. So by telling you this, I've done that. How ever that is not actually why I call. Alex is my first MPA and you are my second. But if you don't mind I'd like to change that. I would like to make Casey second. For Alex. Things can become very hard and difficult for her and I want her to be the most comfortable as she can be then. Plus Casey was here when I heard the news about the wrong scan and she went to Alex's apartment to get her back here. They are friends and I think Lex will be more relaxed if Casey is there to help her or make the decisions if she can't make them. I hope I do not offend you with this. Because that's not what I want. I trust you completely Sir, but I think it is the best for Lex. Could you agree with this? And I'm sorry for dropping this into your lap like this. But I don't exactly have much time to do it differently, right now." Olivia says.
"How the hell did that happen? How could they make a major mistake like this? Are you sure you want Professor Cavanaugh do this after she screwed up?" Cragen asks.
"It wasn't the Professor, Cap. She wasn't here yet when they made the scan. It's Doctor Brown who made it. Professor Cavanaugh flew in here. She is the best neurosurgeon there is. And the only one we still trust in this hospital right now." Olivia answers.
"Oh, sorry. I thought she screwed up. So if I get this right, for now the only thing you know is that you have a brain tumor. Do you know where? When will the Professor know if it's good or bad? And to answer your question. I don't have a problem with that. I can understand you want what's best for Alex. And I also can understand she is more comfortable with Casey. So make the change. I'm not offended at all." Cragen says.
"Thank you, Sir. For understanding this. The tumor is in the area that controls my vision. That's why I saw double or why I have these excruciating pain attacks. Professor Cavanaugh says she knows more after she studied the scans. Then she will know what needs to be done. Sometimes they can see it on the scans if it's good or bad. Sometimes they need to take a biopsy to determinate if it's good or bad. We will know more after the scans." Olivia says.
"Alright. Let me know what it is when you can. Either you or Alex or Casey. Are there other things that need to be arranged, do you need my help with that?" Cragen asks.
"There are other things that need to be arranged, but I don't need your help for that. Thank you for offering though. I need to make my living wills and a do-not- resuscitate. It's not like I want too, but I don't have choice. If they need to do a surgery, for the biopsy and or the tumor it doesn't matter which one, this need to be done." Olivia answers.
"Damn it, Liv. Like you don't have enough on your mind to worry about or to think about. What do you want,or don't you want, me to tell the guys?" Cragen asks.
"Tell them what's going on, but I definitely don't want them to call Lex. She has enough worries now. Casey will call you to update you when she can, you can tell the guys then. Things are difficult enough without them calling ever other hour or something like that. And Casey has enough to do or think about too." Olivia answers.
"Alright. I will tell them and if Casey has time she can fill me in. I will tell the guys not to call any of them." Cragen answers.
"Thank you, Sir. Now if you don't mind, I have things to talk about with Lex before the Professor comes back." Olivia says.
"Of course. Don't let me hold you up. You hold on there, Liv. Take care of yourself and Alex. And let me know if there is anything I can do. Oh before I forget to ask you, do you need me to call Donnelly or are you gonna do that yourself or is Alex or Casey doing that?" Cragen asks.
"I will do that myself. Now that I still can do things myself, I'd like to do them. If she's giving trouble, I would be more then happy to pass her on to you. If you don't mind." Olivia answers.
"No of course not. The guys will be pissed that there will be an other ADA again, but they will understand why. Don't worry about that. I think we need to worry more that one of them is gonna to the hospital to kick their asses. I let you handle Donnelly for now then. If she make it too hard for you, pass her to me." Cragen answers.
"Ok. Thank you, Sir. I'm going to that now then. You will hear from Casey or I as soon as possible. Goodbye Captain." Olivia says.
"Goodbye Liv." Cragen answers back and ends the call.
Olivia was back in cop mode now. Knowing she need to do a number of things before Cavanaugh would be back to get her.
"Ok, Cragen does not have a problem with changing my MPA. So that's done. I, and I mean I, need to call Donnelly. She's gonna need to get a new ADA for the squad. Before I do that, I'm telling you what I want or don't want and you either agree or disagree with that, alright?" Olivia asks.
"Alright. But are you sure you want to call Donnelly yourself? She probably is going to give you shit about running out of ADA's." Alex asks.
"Yes Lex, I need to do this myself. First, because I still can do this myself for now. Second, if she's gonna give me shit, I'm gonna chew out her ass. I've done enough for her and helped her more then once, so she owes me this. And I do not tolerate if she's gonna badger you or Casey. She will have it coming then. Plus if she gives trouble I pass her to Cragen and he will handle it then." Olivia answers.
"Ok, be my guest. I can see you are in guard dog mode right now, I'm not gonna cross you and neither is Casey I think. Go and be Badass. Now tell me what you do or don't want. Let's get over with that. The sooner it's done the sooner we can stop thinking about it for now." Alex answers.
Casey snickers first and then burst out in laughter. Olivia looks at her and raises one eyebrow at the redhead. Still laughing Casey tells what she thinks is so funny.
"I can't wait to hear you kicking Donnelly's ass. She won't know what hit her, with you being like this. Alex is right you're 100% in guard dog mode right now. Oh boy, this is gonna be fun." Casey laughs.
Alex can't help it and laughs out loud too. Knowing Casey is right. And even though she likes her Godmother she can't wait either for Liv to chew out her ass.
"Alright, clearly you both lost you mind right now. So I think I'm gonna call Donnelly first and get over with that. So the two of you can act like the adults that you are again." Olivia answers, while she is scrolling trough Casey's cellphone for Donnelly's number.
As soon as she dials the number, Alex and Casey stop laughing, knowing that it won't help Olivia if the are laughing and giggling like 12 year old school girls. After ringing three times Liz is picking up.
"Donnelly." Liz answers.
"Counselor, it's Detective Olivia Benson. May I have a moment of your time? If I'm not interrupting something of course." Olivia says politely.
"Detective, how are you? What can I do for you?" Liz answers.
"I'm not alright. And I think that I put that lightly. Short version. They switched my brain scan with someone else. And the outcome of the right scan can get a lot worse then it already was. Right know we don't know if it's good or bad, but I have a brain tumor. The professor who is treating me will do two scans in about 40 minutes. So I don't have a lot of time. If it is bad I will be transferred to Houston. Of course Alex, I'm sorry, Ms. Cabot, will join me. But I need to take up one of the favors that you owe me." Olivia answers.
"Excuse me? Did I heard this correctly? They switched your scan with someone else? How the hell did that happen? And why didn't they found this tumor sooner? If I recall correctly, you have had two brain surgeries before this? And what is the favor that you need? I think I have a clue but I would rather hear it then guess it." Liz asks.
"Yes, you heard that correctly. And you are not the only one who's asking these questions. I don't know how the hell the screwed this up. And I won't stay in this hospital no matter what the outcome is from the scans. About the favor, I think I need a few of them I think. Ms. Novak is my second MPA, Ms. Cabot is my first. Let's put is this way, since they are both my MPA's, they both need to come with me. Which means you need to get a new ADA for SVU. You know what, I don't give a damn, the hell with Ms. Cabot or Novak. Besides the fact that Alex and Casey are my MPA's, Casey is also needed as support for both me and Alex." Olivia says.
"That's what I thought you would asks. Now I could say give me one reason why I should allow that, but, you could probably give me a dozen and remind me about all the favors I owe you. Not to mention the fact that you would bite my head off should I say something about Alexandra or Casey. So to safe myself and you the ass chewing part, I ok this. But you are right, Detective, this is gonna cost you a few favors. Now enough about the business part. How are you and Alex holding up? This is one hell of a insane day for the both, perhaps the three, of you." Donnelly asks.
"I think that is a wise decision, Counselor. Although I'm sure that there are two ADA's who will be rather disappointed now. They were looking forward to the ass chewing part. And I don't know if I should kick somebody's ass, sue the hospital, break down in tears, keep my head clear, or all the above. Having turned your world upside down twice on one day makes it difficult to make that decision. As far for Alex and Casey, they hold it up so far. Although I think that if looks could kill, we would have a dead Doctor now, considering the way Alex looked at her." Olivia answers.
"I'm sure they are. And I know that if that was possible the Doctor would be dead indeed. Seeing the death glare my Goddaughter has. What did the Doctor do when she was on the receiving end of it?" Liz asks.
"She didn't see it. Alex was shooting daggers at her back. She would have looked her out of the room if I hadn't already ordered her to leave." Olivia smirks.
"I could see that coming. Detective, if you need someone to sue the hospital I'll be more then happy to do that for you. If Alex or Casey isn't going to that of course." Liz says.
"I'll keep your offer in mind. We haven't discussed or decided that yet. I'll let you know if I want to take up on your offer." Olivia answers.
"I understand that. You all have other things on your mind to think about or worry about right now. Just let me know if you need me to do it. I would love to nail those bastards. But I think I can go at the end of the row for that." Liz answers.
"I think so too. Not to be rude. But there are a few things that I need to take care of before they put me trough the scans. They need to be arranged if I need a surgery/ For a biopsy and or the tumor." Olivia says.
"Yes, of course. I understand that. Take care of yourself, Olivia. And try to kick as less asses as you can right now. I don't think you are allowed to that kind of physical stuff right now. Don't get me wrong, I know that you are able to do it." Liz smirks.
"You got that right. I sure as hell are able to do it. But I think I will get one of our legendary fights with Alex if I do that. So it would be wiser not to do it. Thank you for your time and your support. If it is possible one of us will keep you up to date. If we can't, call my Captain." Olivia says.
"I will. Take care of our ADA's, for as much as that is possible. I hope to hear from you soon again, Olivia. I will think about you and Alex of course. If she or you need anything, just let me know. Goodbye, Olivia." Liz says.
"I will. The best as I can. Actually there might be something Liz, but I need to call you back about that. I will do that later. Goodbye Liz." Olivia says and ends the call.
"Sorry gals, no kicking her ass part. She thought it was wiser to ok it without that. She said I could come up with a dozen of reasons why she should ok it and she didn't feel much for getting her head biting off. She did say that if we need anything we should let her know. And that if we wanted her to sue the hospital she would be more then happy to do that and nail the bastards." Olivia summarized the conversation.
"She can get at the end of the row for that. But it's good to know she wants that too. It's a pity, sort of, that she agreed right away. I was really looking forward to the ass kicking part. I could have used the distraction." Alex replies.
"Me too. But she was right, to ok it right away." Casey agrees.
"Ok, now that is taken care of and the two of you act like adults again, let's go further with the other part we need to do." Olivia says.
"I know we need to do that, but I wish we don't need to." Alex says.
"Me too, Lex. But like I said to the Captain, we don't have a choice." Olivia says.
"I know. I just... I don't...I don't know what to do without you, Liv. I love you so much. I don't wanna lose you." Alex whispers, tears rolling down her cheeks.
"I know that, Lex. I love very much too. I don't want to lose you either. But I'm not dead yet. We don't know if it's good or bad. And if it turns out to be bad, I'm not giving up. I'm gonna fight it. I have too much to live for. I've got you. That alone is enough for me to fight the hardest and best I can. I know you are scared, but so am I. Let's do this and hope we never have to use it." Olivia says softly.
"Ok. What do you want and what don't you want?" Alex asks.
"As for my will, everything I own is for you. Not that it is much but, but I want it to be yours. As for my savings and legacy, I want you to start a foundation with it. You can call Simone Brice to help you with it. I want you to start a foundation for victims and survivors of domestic violence, sexual assault and child abuse. I don't think you really need my money and you would fulfill my wish and dream. Something I want to do when I retire. Or work less hours then I am working now. Will you do that for me?" Olivia asks.
"Yes I will. I think it is a wonderful idea. You always say there isn't enough help for victims and survivors. I will do everything I can to get the best help available. Are you sure that this Simone Brice wants to help?" Alex asks.
"Yes I'm sure." Olivia answers.
"I'm sure too. I know she will help." Casey says.
"Do you know her?" Alex asks.
"Oh yes, I've met her during one of our cases. Thanks to Liv here. I know that she helped Liv too. There isn't a better person to ask to help you with this then her concerning children." Casey answers.
"Ok, if you both say so I trust that. Now there is something about this I want to talk about with you Liv, but it can wait for now. Anything more that you want in your will?" Alex asks.
"Yes, but I need to talk about that with Casey alone first before I can tell you that. So why don't we skip that for a moment and I tell you first what I don't want them to do and what I want them to do if necessary?" Olivia asks.
"I'm not so sure I'm gonna like this, the talking alone with Casey part I mean. But alright. Tell me the other part first." Alex answers.
"It's simple. I want them to do everything the need to do if it comes to the point that it is needed to safe my life. Accept if they keep me alive and it turns out that I will become a vegetable and it's not life worthy. Then I want them to pull out the plug. I don't want to live that way. Not for me and certainly not for you. That is all there is to say about this." Olivia says.
"Ok. I will promise you that is not gonna happen. How hard it may be for me to let them do that, I will do it for you. I know you that you don't want to live that way and I won't let that happen." Alex answers with a shaky voice.
"Lex, if it should come so far and you can't say it, let Casey do it. I know that you don't want me to suffer like that, but I certainly can understand if it is too much for you to do. So don't feel bad about it if you can't do that, let Casey handle it." Olivia says.
"Ok. If I can't do it, because it's too difficult for me to do, I will let Casey handle it." Alex answers.
"Thank you. Now that the hard part is done, I want you to leave Casey and I alone for 10 minutes. After that you can come back inside here. I promise you it isn't a bad thing." Olivia says.
"If you say so. Alright, I will leave the two of you alone for 10 minutes but not a second longer. I don't want to be without longer then is absolutely necessary." Alex says.
Alex gets off the bed carefully and kisses Olivia's forehead. Then she turns around and walk out the room, closing the door behind her.
"Ok, Benson spill it. What is it that you want to talk about with me?" Casey asks.
"I don't want Alex getting trouble because legally she isn't partner. But everything accept for marriage needs to be done with a notary, right?" Olivia asks.
"Yes, accept for marriage everything else need to be documented legally with a notary. I know that you want to take care of Alex and make sure everything is arranged, but I don't think that will be possible on this short notice. The only thing you can do now is to add everything you want in your will." Casey answers.
"That was I thought. Ok here is what I want you to do. Alex probably will go with me to the scans, I want her there and I will make sure that they are gonna allow it. When we are gone, I want you to go to my apartment, in my safe there is a little box, take it out the safe and bring it back with you. I'm sure you know what kind of little box it is. You can be back before Alex and I return here. Will you do that, please?" Olivia asks.
"Olivia Benson, are you going to do what I think you will do? Is that why you needed to call back Liz later?" Casey asks.
"Yes, I am. I think somewhere in the back of my mind I knew Lex and I would be together some day. Of course this isn't how I wanted to ask her, nor did I wanted it to ask it so soon. I'm sure I want her to be wife and spend the rest of my life with her. This whole misery just speeds up the process big time." Olivia answers.
"Ok. I will go to your apartment when you are gone. You still life at the same place, don't ya?" Casey asks.
"Yes, of course. Where else would I life? My keys are in the top drawer of my nightstand. Now give me your phone again, please. I need to call Liz, before Alex steps back inside. You and I both know it will be exactly 10 minutes and not one second later before she will be back." Olivia says.
Casey just snickers and nodding with her head as she takes out her cellphone out her pocket again and gives it to Olivia. Olivia speed dials Liz since it was the last number called and waited for the blonde EADA to answer her phone.
"Donnelly." Liz says.
"Hey Liz, it's Olivia again." Olivia says.
" I thought it would be you. Now what it is that I can do for you and you needed to call me back about?" Liz asks.
"I needed Alex out of the room and to verify something with Casey first. Do you have something urgent to do tonight? You don't have to tell what it is of course if you do, it's not my business." Olivia asks.
"No I haven't but I have a feeling that I do have something urgent to do now this night." Liz answers.
"Yes you are right. I need everything covered by tomorrow, in case something goes wrong. And even if it doesn't go wrong I want Alex to be taken care of. I wanted to do this some time later like a year from now or so. But I don't have the time to wait that long and I do know that it is what I want, even if it is rather fast now. So I am gonna ask Alex to marry me tonight after I'm back from the scans. Hoping she will say yes I want to asks you, can you marry us tonight?" Olivia asks.
"At what time do you want me to be there with all the necessary paperwork? Because I know for sure she will say yes." Liz asks.
"9.30 pm. I should be back and asked her by then. How do you know so sure she will say yes?" Olivia asks.
"Are you really that blind, Detective. Alexandra has been mooning over you for the past 12 years, I think. For a decade at least. There is no doubt in my mind that she doesn't want to marry you. But how are you gonna do this properly. You need a ring at least to ask her to marry you. I know you can't do much about the location and circumstances right now. But shouldn't you need a ring?" Liz asks.
"I actually have one in the safe of my apartment. Casey is gonna get it for me. I have had if for a while to be honest." Olivia says.
"How long exactly is a while, Benson?" Liz asks.
"About 8 years. We were getting close before Velez happened. And about a week before that I knew I wanted for ever with her. I was gonna ask her out for a date the evening she was shot." Olivia answers.
"You two are just moron's that you've been waiting so long to tell each other what everyone else already knew for years. Everyone saw it accept for the two of you." Liz says.
"Yeah, I heard that before. Now listen, I've got to go. Alex will be back here soon. She said 10 minutes and it will be 10 minutes on the dot. As you know, that she will be, too. See you around 9.30 pm then?" Olivia asks.
"Yes. I'll be there. Listen you do need two witnesses. Now I assume that Casey will be one of them so you need an other one. Now I know that you and Carmichael are close too, and she happens to be in town right now. Actually I aspect her to be in my office soon. She knows what happened with Atkins and she came back here. I can ask her if she wants to be your witness too after I try to get her back as SVU's ADA?" Liz asks.
"What? You better make her accept that offer, Donnelly. And yes you can ask her that. I would be very happy if she says yes to both questions. See you later, Liz. I really need to go. Get her ass back in NY. Bye Liz." Olivia says.
"Will do my best, and I ask her. See you later. Bye, Olivia." Liz says and ends the call.
"Who's ass does she get back to NY?" Casey asks.
"Can't answer that now, Alex will be back here in about 10 seconds I think. If it turns out good, you will see who it is, tonight. Liz will be here at 9.30 pm." Olivia answers.
Of course Olivia was right and 5 seconds later Alex came back into the room.
"You two better be done, because I don't leave again." Alex says walking straight to Olivia's bed and climbs on it and snuggles against the brunette.
"We're done, I knew you would be back on the dot. About you don't leaving me, do you want to be with me when they are doing the scans? Well the closed you can be is in the same area as Cavanaugh and the lab rat will be, but still it's closer then being here. You can talk to me all that you want. You can argue with me and call me what ever you want, I can't answer back. I have to lay still. And if I'm allowed to talk I can't get toe tot toe with you. So do you want that or not?" Olivia asks.
"Yes I would like that very much, Liv. But are you sure they are gonna allow me that?" Alex asks.
"Yes they will, because if they don't I'm gonna chew out all of their sorry asses. And the two of you will have the entertainment that you missed earlier." Olivia answers.
"I would really be happy if I can be there with you. It only will take an hour or so, but right now I don't want to leave your side, even when it is for an hour. I know I probably will be without you much longer if you are in surgery. If needed. But after what happened so far today, I want to be at your side." Alex says.
"Lex, honey, you don't have to justify why, you never have to do that. You are my girlfriend you are always allowed to be at my side. Just wanting it is enough. Just remember that for every next time that will follow, ok?" Olivia asks.
"Ok. What did you two talked about?" Alex asks.
"You will find that out soon enough. I'm not gonna say something about that now. You trust me don't you?" Olivia asks.
"Of course I trust you! With my life and my heart I trust you." Alex answers.
"Good to know that you trust me with your heart too, Counselor. As do I. Trusting you with my heart. And my life. But trust me now too, you will find it out before this evening is over, I promise you." Olivia says.
"Ok. I'll wait. Just for the record, I hate waiting." Alex pouts.
"Oh I am aware of that fact, Counselor. Trust me, I know." Olivia snickers.
Just when Alex wants to react, there is a knock on the door and Professor Cavanaugh walks inside the room.
"Are you ready, Detective?" Cavanaugh asks.