Chapter 3

So warnings:

I don't own OUAT, I'm just borrowing the characters for my own twisted desires. I make no money, or anything of that sort.

Also this is a smutty fic, with a little plot to guide the journey. It's a slow start, mostly sex and plot building for the first few chapters, but it will grow the more I write. There is fem slash (girl on girl), a magic!penis, group sex, and some violence. Swan-Queen-poly is endgame. I'm not sure yet how that will work. There is also a likelihood of a magic!baby, (or 3). Don't like, don't read.

That said, I do hope you enjoy the dirty daydream that is this story. I am always up for ideas to incorporate, or suggestions to make any part (or all of it ;) better.

Please read responsibly.

Walking up the two flights of stairs, Emma ponders if she will get past Regina's secretary today. It is usually a simple "She is otherwise engaged, Sheriff. Please make an appointment next time." Although on a couple of occasions, Emma was told she wasn't in. Emma knew she was, given her car was in the parking lot and Regina Mills never walks anywhere, given it may scuff her Jimmy Choos.

Nearing the top of the stairs, Emma notices Ann is nowhere to be seen. Rounding her desk, she sees that Regina's office door is open. It's been months since she has spoken with Regina, but even if it's her yelling at Emma to get out of her office, she is going to get her chance today.

Taking a deep breath and adjusting the belt on her baggy pants, so a certain something won't be noticed, Emma sweeps into Regina's office at a quick pace. Surprisingly, the mayor is standing at the window, and doesn't seem to notice her presence.

Clearing her throat to get Regina's attention, Emma starts with "Good morning, Madame Mayor," as she thinks, 'Nothing like a formal greeting to butter Regina up to speak to me, or at least scoff and earn some barbed remark.' Emma knows she loves the respect it shows, but she almost always dismisses it. "I have the paperwork you requested."

Placing the folder into her in box, Emma waits for her to react. But Regina doesn't even turn her way. Her posture remains rigid, as she continues to firmly stare out the window away from Emma.

After several minutes, the blonde can feel her bravado faltering, and she unconsciously shoves her hands into her back pockets. "Are you ever going to speak to me again? Even just to yell at me, for old time's sakes?" Emma can't help but ask.

It's been months, and still Regina won't even look at her. Emma is slowly losing her mind, losing hope that she will ever be able to redeem herself, or even have a chance to try. Sighing, Emma turns to leave her office when Regina's voice, low and sharp, flows out behind her.

"Why don't you go content yourself with your wolf and your book worm, and leave me alone. It's not like you really care anyway." Emma's eyes shoot wide at her voice, before the words register. She can feel her anger start to rise, and fails to notice the almost jealous notes to Regina's words.

Keeping her back to the mayor, Emma takes a deep breath and says, "Ruby and Belle each have a piece of my heart, but so do you. Just like Henry, just like David, and just like Snow." Her ire isn't fading, and Emma knows her verbal sensor is switching off. "You are my family too. And my family's happiness means everything to me. And the fact that yours was with someone else, and that I ruined that for you, makes the whole thing hurt, more than I can say. If I could take it back, and leave her… to die… I would try. Even if it would kill me to do that to someone else, to ruin their happiness like too many have ruined yours, I would. For you, I would let them suffer, because I am selfish and you deserve your happiness as much as anyone else I love."

Realizing that she has said too much, Emma's eyes slam shut before she runs for the door and stumbles from the building. She never meant for all of that to come out. Tears are streaming down her face as she runs, but Emma doesn't care. Not even caring to see where she's going, Emma is surprised to see that she has made it to the library. The doors are unlocked, despite it not being open hours yet.

Both Belle and Ruby know how Emma feels about them, as well as how she feels about Regina. Emma has told them both on multiple occasions that she cares very deeply, but they have never said the words. She would never expect them to say it back, if she ever said it, but she knows that they both care about her just as deeply.

Ruby though, tends to be a bit jealous of her feelings for the Mayor, and it has led to a fight or two in the past about Emma's feelings for all of them. Ruby knows that Emma loves her and Belle equally and would do anything to make either of them happy, but she still has trouble accepting that Emma feels the same for Regina, even if it's never been returned. She also knows that Belle loves Gold, and despite the unusual arrangement, understands that Belle would never try to force Emma to choose between them, because Belle knows what it's like to be pulled in different directions by her heart.

Rushing inside, Emma searches for the person she knows will understand the most right now. Belle appears around the corner of the desk, worried eyes taking in Emma's tears. "What happened?" she asks rushing to wrap the blonde in a hug. Emma hides her face in Belle's neck and releases a shaky breath before recounting what she blurted in Regina's office.

With wide eyes and a sympathetic smile, Belle pulls her in and kisses her soundly on the lips. After wiping Emma's tears, she locks eyes with the blonde and says, "At least now you aren't hiding anything anymore. You have been carrying around all this hurt and guilt and hiding your love for her for so long. At least it's out there and she knows. Whether she returns the feelings or not, it won't change how you feel, I know from experience."

Belle laughs with her beautiful smile that crinkles her eyes and lights up her face. "She has to make the choices that are best for her now. She may give you a chance to earn forgiveness, she may continue to ignore you, but no matter what, she knows that there is someone out there that wants her to be happy no matter the cost to themselves, someone that hurts because she hurts. And that means a lot, especially when that person loves as truly as you do. And if she chooses to get to know more about that person and about how they feel for her, then she is choosing to try to let the hurt go for something that could be even better."

Emma takes her words in and realizes that she does feel better. Regina had spoken to Emma and as cold as it was, that was progress. 'She had to have heard what I said this time, and although I never meant for everything that came out to be said right then, maybe it will help nudge her to talk to me, or at least tell me off,' Emma thinks.

Belle always knows just how to change Emma's perspective and to help her sort her jumbled thoughts out. Tightening her hold on Belle, Emma nuzzles back into her shoulder earning a sigh in response. Belle holds the blonde tighter, knowing that she just needs to feel safe for a few minutes while she calms down.

"Plus, with you being the product of True Love, you tend to love those who need love the most," Belle states with a small smile. "Now, since you are here early, and we aren't open for another hour, how about we go have an early lunch with Ruby, and see if we can't put a smile back on your face?" Belle asks with a grin and a wink. Knowing Ruby will be back at the apartment soon for her own lunch break, Emma can't help but shoot her a crooked smile in return.

Locking the door behind them, Belle takes Emma's arm as they head back to the apartment she and Ruby share. They chat about random books Belle has recently read, and she pokes fun at Emma for still not having finished the last book she recommended. Somehow, during their walk, Belle's hand slips down from the blonde's arm to tangle their fingers together, gently swinging their hands back and forth.

As they round the last turn to the apartment, Emma looks up at Belle and realizes how lucky she is to be part of her life. Not only that, but to know that she returns Emma's feelings, and accepts that she loves more then one person. Stopping on the corner, Emma can't help but want to tell Belle exactly how she feels, even if the brunette can't say it back. "I love you, you know that? And I am so glad I can be a part of your life. I know you love Gold, and that you care for me too, but I want you to know that you mean so much to me, and I want nothing but the best for you."

There were conditions when Belle made the arrangement with Gold, and Emma knew that. Gold knew Belle needed to explore the physical side of her sexuality, and that she was interested in not just men but women as well. He said he was fine with her experimenting so long as he was not around to see it, it was not public (as he was embarrassed enough as it was), it was only a couple times with any person she chose to be with, and that no feelings were developed. The rules were sound, and although she and Emma had been together almost every day since everything started, he had not raised a complaint. They had thought they had been discreet, but the fact that Regina knew something of their arrangement was concerning, although neither truly realized in that moment what that could mean.

"I know you do." Belle says gently, stroking the tips of her fingers along Emma's jaw. Stepping closer into Belle's arms, Emma doesn't think as she pulls the brunette flush against her, resting their foreheads together. "And I do love you, too," Belle whispers, looking up at Emma, her eyes so vulnerable as she confessed this.

Emma feels her heart skip a beat. She knows Belle cares, but she also knows the rules Belle and Gold had set forth: if anything started to develop, she was to break it off immediately. Emma's thoughts start to swirl, and panic starts to creep in. She is elated to hear this, but she also knows that this means that Belle needs to end things with her, for the sake of her marriage.

She feels Belle's hands on her face, wiping away her tears for the second time today and she realizes that she didn't know she had begun to cry. "Home. Now. We will deal with everything else later. But I am not leaving you. My heart won't allow it," Belle states, before kissing her deeply.

As Emma's white smoke swirls around them, neither Belle nor Emma notice a pair of eyes that had followed Emma from city hall.