A/N I'm sorry for the delay of this chapter. My muse is the one to blame. She putted the next chapter for an other story in my head while I was writing this one. I hope I can make it up a bit with this chapter.
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Chapter 36
Olivia looks at Alex and sees the tears in her cerulean eyes.
"Really good news? Then why are you crying? Lex, honey what's wrong?" Olivia asks worried.
"Don't worry, Liv. These are happy tears. Prof. Taymar got the blood results back. Liv, you're not pregnant. Brown didn't get you pregnant." Alex says with a shaky voice.
"I.. I'm not pregnant?" Olivia whispers.
"No, honey, you're not pregnant." Alex answers.
"Are you sure?" Olivia asks softly.
"The blood results came back negative, so yes. Are you not happy that your not pregnant?" Alex asks
Olivia looks in front of her. Well actually her eyes are pointed that way. The Detective doesn't actually looks. She just stares. It's like suddenly everything that happened starts to get Olivia. That she now realizes everything that happened. She realizes that the circle of what happened to her mother almost closed for herself too. How close she got to get pregnant due to a sexual assault, just like her mother.
"Huh?" Olivia asks mindlessly.
"Liv?" Alex asks worried.
Olivia shakes her head to get mind clear.
"I'm sorry. What did you asks me?" Olivia asks.
"Are you alright? You're scaring me a bit, Liv." Alex asks.
"I'm sorry, Alex. I didn't mean to scare you. I just realized how close I was to become my mother. I mean getting pregnant after being sexual assaulted. I think it gets me now, everything that happened. And I don't know what to do. That bitch violated my body and then there is a tumor messing with my head and that's inside my head. Not to mention how close you and I both were to die. Because one more step and we both could have died. Not only I, just because I was standing in the line of the laser. You too. And the same goes for the safe house. And because of my own stupidity and my hard hardheadedness I almost lost you in that crazy hospital. That's three times, Alex. Three times I almost lost the most precious person in my life. Or did you think that I forgot about Velez and not doing my job the first time? I don't think so. I will never forgive myself that, you almost lost your life because of me. Actually, you did lose your life. Yes you got it back, but still you lost it. So no, I'm not alright.
I'm just thankful that I have you here with me as my wife. I don't know what have done to deserve it, but I thank God every day I have left for that. I love you more than life itself, more than anyone or anything in this world, Alexandra Benson-Cabot. And that will never change, no matter what happens." Olivia says.
"Olivia Benson, you saved my life that night on the pavement. If it wasn't for you I wouldn't be alive. I know you don't see it way, but that's how it is. As for the bomb in your apartment, that wasn't your fault either. You didn't put it there and you certainly didn't want it there. It was Atkins who was the sick bastard here. He putted the bomb in your apartment and he is the one who killed two officers and broke into the safe house and threatened both of us. You protected us, you protected me and almost paid with your life for it. Lastly, our almost break up was just as much my fault as it was yours, if not more my fault in the first place. I know how close you were to become the same victim as your mother was, but that's as far as the equation goes. You are not and never will be the like the person your mother turned in to. You are strong, brave and compassionated. You have the biggest heart I know. I know how much all of what happened scares you. It scares me almost as much as you, I was there remember. But none of it was or is your fault. And if anyone is lucky, it will be me. I'm the one who's blessed, being married to the most wonderful, warmest and beautiful women on this planet, you. I love you so much Olivia Benson. And nothing or nobody can ever change that, not even you. Oh one more thing, for you to remember. I'm not the only one that thinks about it this way. Casey does too. She answered the question I asked you about why you did what you did in the safe house. She is the one that said 'to protect you, like she always will do', not me. So I think you should let get it through that thick skull of yours that you did nothing wrong and everything right. You saved my life more than once. And you will always do what you need or can do to protect it. That's why I can't be more safe or loved then when I'm with you. If you don't trust my words, ask Casey. I'm sure she will confirm all the things I just said. So stop worrying about it. You and I both need time to heal from the last freaking weeks. But none of it was our fault. Got it, Detective Olivia Benson, love of my life?" Alex finishes.
"And this, Casey, is one of the reasons I married her. Olivia answers, looking at Alex with the love for the blonde attorney clearly in her eyes.
"You seriously are the most stubborn, hard headed person I know, Liv. And you are also the most caring, warm and protective and selfless person I know. All of that together is why Blondie here, is head of heels in love with you and is your wife. And she is right about all the above. There is nothing you won't do to protect her and you will always do it. I know she can't be safer with anyone else but you, as is anyone else around you.
You know, Alex is lucky that I prefer my lovers slim and lanky, not powerful, strong and very well muscled. Otherwise she would have to worry about me trying to steal her woman. That and because you are my best friend and she is my friend too of course." Casey says, waggling her eyebrows.
Olivia burst out in laughter. And that's exactly what the redhead was trying to accomplish. Alex smiles and mouths 'thank you' at Casey. The blonde ADA knows that Casey was joking, that she would never do it. That she was just trying to cheer her Detective up. Casey just smiles back at Alex as an answer.
"Casey Novak, you are bad, you are a bad woman. Making me laugh like that when it hurts to laugh. And you really didn't think you are getting away with that comment, don't you? There is something messing with my head, but I'm not deaf and I didn't earn that golden shield for nothing, Counselor." Olivia laughs.
"Should have known that and kept my big mouth shut." Casey mutters and turning as red as a tomato.
This makes Alex laugh out loud and shaking her head.
"You know that she is the best Detective there is. What were you thinking when you blurred that out? Did you really think she wouldn't pick it up and don't mention it. Are you getting of your came, Counselor?" Alex laughs.
"Ok, lets go further and talk about SVU's latest returned ADA, Abby Carmichael. Shall we?" Olivia asks.
Casey would've turned more red, if it was possible. Alex looks from Casey to Olivia, raising one eyebrow questioningly.
"Don't insult my intelligence, Benson. Ya really think I wouldn't know that she was talking about Abby when she said that she preferred her lovers slim and lanky?" Olivia asks raising one eyebrow at Alex.
"No Detective, it's me, I didn't knew or thought that it was Abby, our youngest ADA here, was talking about. Of course you knew. Like you said yourself moments ago; you didn't earn that golden shield for nothing." Alex smiles.
"Thank you, Counselor. Now spill it, Novak. You're not getting away with this." Olivia says.
"There's not much to tell. I'm interested in Abby and I would like to get to know her better." Casey says softly.
"She interested in you too, Case." Olivia says softly.
Two perfectly shaped eyebrows, one blonde and one auburn, are raising up and both ADA's are looking surprised and a bit shocked. Olivia looks at them both and shakes her head.
"You know, you two are really getting annoying. It's that I know you both are brilliant prosecutors, otherwise I would start doubting how you both got your law degree. And don't start with that, I have a dual degree in Criminal Justice and Psychology." Olivia almost whines, before she continues.
"I mean it, Case. I know when Alex and I were arguing that you went outside and called Abby. I also know she was busy, she wouldn't have come if she didn't like you. She would have stayed and let you swim. Let you deal with us by yourself. That's just one example of how I know she's interested in you. Well that and the fact that she likes redhead's." Olivia says, smiling.
"I hate to admit it, but powerful, strong and very well muscled here, is right. Abby would have let you swim and deal with us all by yourself and she indeed likes redhead's." Alex smirks.
"I think that's my cue to leave you two lovebirds alone and rest. I'll be back when Angie and Prof. Taymar are coming back here." Casey says.
"What? You can't handle a bit of teasing, Novak?" Olivia teases.
"Oh I can. This is nothing coming from you, Benson. Both of you. But I'm gonna call Abby to tell her that you are your usual annoying self again, after the surgery. And you can tease me all you want about that, I don't care. Do you want to tell her you're not pregnant yourself or is it alright if I tell her?" Casey asks.
"Look Lex, our Benjamin Counselor here is gonna call her girl and uses me as her excuse." Olivia smiles.
Then the smile falls of her face.
"Damn it. How are we gonna proof that she raped me now? Don't get me wrong, I'm very, very happy that I'm not pregnant, but if I was pregnant we could proof it." Olivia asks softly.
"Abby en Don are looking at the videotapes to see if it's still on one of them. She did it in the OR that means that it should be on tape. Only if the tapes are erased or if they recorded over it, there's probably nothing left. And Abby is gonna grill the surgeon who assisted her with the surgery and putted you in that coma you wouldn't stay in. If he did that, there's no way he wouldn't have noticed something was wrong. So if he noticed something and kept quiet he is guilty of withholding information on a felony. And therefore an accomplice to sexual assault. So don't worry about that now. I'll asks Abby if they have found something and if she have grilled the surgeon yet. Who knows what he'll say or has said. What do you want me to do? Tell or not tell Abby that you're not pregnant?" Casey asks.
"Alex, are you ok with it if Casey tells Abby it, or do you want us to do it ourselves?" Olivia asks.
"I'm fine with what you want, Liv. You make that decision." Alex answers.
"Alright. Tell her, Casey. IF she hasn't grilled that surgeon yet, she sure will turn him into toast when she knows I'm not pregnant. She isn't called 'The pittbull' for nothing." Olivia answers.
"Alright I will tell her. Now the two of you are gonna rest, or cuddle or snuggle up, or whatever it is that you want to do. Just make sure your body is getting some rest, Liv. You've been in cop mode for weeks now. We are safe here and Angie would make sure that someone is standing at the door at all times, so we have nothing to worry about." Casey says.
"Yeah, yeah. Now get lost, Novak. And tell your girl I said hello." Olivia smiles.
"Don't ya ever get tired of her when she is like this?" Casey asks, looking at Alex.
"Hell no, I never get tired of her when she is like this. I never get tired of her at all. I married her ya know." Alex answers.
"You've been hanging around the squad too long, Alex. And your biased by Detective Badass here." Casey says.
"Bite me, Novak. Now, go call your girl." Alex smirks.
The redhead shakes her head as she walks out of the room. Alex snuggled up against Olivia and soon the blonde attorney and Detective were sound asleep. Safe and happy in each others arms.
A/N 2 Is Olivia right about Abby being interested in Casey? Will they get together? I guess only time can let us know. And let's hope that things will go smoothly for a while for our girls. It's not like they don't deserve some nice and peaceful time, if you ask me.