I do not own TEEN TITANS. If I did I would not be writing fanfiction.
Raven gracefully slipped out of her inky portal onto the tower roof.
What had she just done? she thought to herself, sitting down, the cool cement pressing through her jeggings. That had been her first kiss, and it had been given to a criminal.
She sighed, wrapping her sweater around herself, shivering slightly.
She wanted to think that it was just the moment that gave her such a pounding in her chest when he put his hands on her waist. That feeling when he kissed her, like she was going to be sick, and yet she never wanted it to end.
But at the same time the guilt she felt at lying to her friends was almost unbearable.
And could she even trust him?
He had told her everything she had wanted to know, without hesitation.
"Malichor told you things too," a voice in her head spoke, "He told you that he loved you, and he would do anything for you. And you loved him. You gave him your heart and he only tore it apart!" the voice spat bitterly.
Her heart froze at the mention of the dragon. She had loved him, and all he did was hurt her.
She wrapped her arms around her legs, drawing them up to her chest. Sighing, she closed her eyes and buried her face in her knees, wishing the whole world away.
How in the world did she get so much drama in her life? she wondered.
She was so deep in thought that she didn't notice someone come out on the roof till they spoke.
"Penny for your thoughts?"
she jumped, startled. "Robin, I didn't hear you come up," she spoke, face slightly pink.
He smirked, sitting down next to her. "I saw you hadn't gotten in yet and I thought you might be out here," he said, twirling a birdarang around absently.
"Were you waiting up on me?!" she said, a note of anger in her voice.
He grinned.
"Um, not completely," he said sheepishly. "I had monitor duty, and I was just keeping an eye out for you."
"Oh. Thanks." she muttered quickly.
He smiled.
They both sat there, the silence wrapping around them.
"So," he asked, breaking the quiet, "How was your date?"
She jerked around to him, shock etched on her face. "How do you know about that?"
He arched an eyebrow.
"Really Raven? You think I would believe all that junk at the park?"
She sighed. "Was it that bad?"
He laughed. "Pretty much."
She groaned, rubbing her eyes. "Robin-" she began.
"Rae it's fine." he said, cutting her off. "After Trigon's defeat you've been doing much better with controling your emotions." he paused, turning to look at her. "We're all glad for you to get out more."
he smirked.
"But you might want to work on your lying skills."
She chuckled.
The silence wrapped around them again like a blanket, till he broke it yet again.
"You never answered my question."
"What?"
"How was your date?"
She sat unresponsive.
"So?" he promped.
She sighed, resting her chin on her knees. "It was fine." she spoke in perfect monotone.
He groaned.
"Rae, "fine" is not descriptive enough!" he spoke as he ran his fingers through his black hair.
"You can tell me anything Rae," he said, putting a hand on her shoulder.
She sighed in defeat. "Fine!" she spat exsasperatly. "It was wonderful!" she said, voice rising angrily. "It was one of the best nights of my life!"
"So what's the problem?" he asked quietly.
"Because it's wrong." she said sadly, her voice lowering.
"Why?"
She shut her eyes to keep tears from running out.
"Robin, how do you decide that you want to be with someone?" she asked, voice wavering slightly.
He thought for a moment before answering.
"It's just this feeling you get, a sick feeling in the pit of your stomach, your knees feel like their going to collapse," he paused again, "And you just know."
"Thanks, but Robin, you know not to give relationship advice," her expression turning mischievous, "Since you still haven't managed to muster enough courage to ask Starfire on a date!"
She watched, hardly containing her laughter as her leader's face turned a violent red.
"Ha ha." he spoke, sarcasm dripping from his words.
She laughed.
"It's not funny!" he protested.
"You're right, it's not funny. It's hilarious!" she said, laughing again.
He smiled good-naturedly, as he stood to leave. "Anyway, whoever this mystery person is, they're really lucky." he said gently. That caused a small smile on her face. She quickly stood up and hugged him.
"Wow, laughing and hugs in one night! You really need to start dating his guy!" he teased.
He quickly ducked, dodging a slap to his head.
"You're not funny!" she called after him as he walked inside.
He turned, grinning. "I'm not! I'm hilarious!" he retorted as he ran inside. She shook her head at his antics.
But at least he had helped her make her decision.
She was going to tell him. About her past, and her horrible heritage. And if he wasn't afraid, if he still cared after knowing who and what she really was, then, maybe.
She smiled at that thought.
She stood, completely exshusted, to go get some much needed rest.
As the door to the roof swung closed behind her, a dark figure creep out of the shadows. A figure who had observed everything, including a hug between the two birds.
A figure who was definently not happy.
Who could it be? Looks like our little X might be a tiny bit jealous of our two birds! But don't worry. Robin and Raven have a platonic relationship (in this story at least) and though I don't consider Robrae canon, I 'ahem' might secretly love reading Robrae fics. Maybe. ; ) As always please review! And a special thanks to DrkSpphrGT for some really good plot ideas!