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Chapter 3 Hanna's POV
It's been about two weeks since we all discovered that I was gonna be a mom. I made a doctor's appointment right away and it was officially confirmed three days later. I am currently 10 weeks along and everything was just fine and the baby and I were both healthy. All that's left to do besides get physically ready for the baby, is to tell the father. I am beyond worried about how he will react because we just got back together, and maybe he'll think a baby right now would just mess everything up. But I think a baby, that I've wanted for so long with the man I love more than anything is exactly what we need, well what I need at least. I'm supposed to meet Caleb later at some new restaurant in town where I plan on telling him about the baby. Right now, I am visiting my mom for a quick coffee before stopping by Spencer's house to see the girls.
"So how are you sweetheart?" my mom asks after taking a sip of her beverage.
"A lot has happened, but I'm actually fine," I smile at her. She knows about everything from the break up to the sickness, but I have yet to tell her about Caleb and the baby.
"I know Hanna, but it's good you found out now before the big day. Maybe now, things will settle and you'll be able to move on and be happy, single or not." She squeezes my hand and smiles at me. Okay now is the time to tell her.
"Hey mom?"
"Yeah, baby?" she answers taking yet another sip while I have yet to touch mine.
"You know how I've been sick for the last few months?" She nods looking a little concerned.
"Okay, so I went to the doctor a few weeks ago and it was confirmed that I, uhm, I am-"
"Hanna, are you okay? Please tell me that you are okay," she exclaims looking about ready to freak out completely.
"Mom, I'm fine. I'm actually better than fine. Mom, I'm pregnant," I smile at her. She's just sitting there, completely stunned, not saying a word, not moving a muscle. "Mom? Mom are you okay?"
"A b-baby? You're having a baby? How? I mean I know how, but are you sure?"
"Yeah, mom, I'm pretty sure. The doctor confirmed it two weeks ago after I took the home tests," I explained.
"Wow, that's a lot to take in. So you're not exactly free of him I see. So what are we gonna do? Are you gonna go back to him? Because I gotta say Hanna, I don't think that's a good idea. You can both co-parent without being together. Once a cheater, always a cheater and I don't want to see you go through what I did," she rambles and I am beyond confused until it dawns on me.
"Oh, mom. Mom? Mom, stop talking!" She finally stops talking so that I can speak. "I should have explained, but you didn't really give me a chance," I chuckle.
"Explain what?"
"The baby isn't his. He's not the father, so you can breathe mom," I assure. Life was brought back to her skin when I told her that, and she took a deep breath.
"Good. That's good, so who's the father and does he know?" I just love how my mom doesn't judge me.
"I am telling him today actually and it isn't some random guy if you're wondering."
"I wasn't and good to know. Do I get to know who?"
"The father is Caleb," I mumble.
"Who?"
"Caleb mom. It's Caleb," I say clearly this time. I am met with a confused expression from one Ashley Marin, mixed with what looks like relief.
"So, you're back.. you're back together? When? How did this happen?"
"Well, after my episode with finding out with a liar and an asshole that he was, I kind of freaked out on the girls. Spencer told Toby, who informed Caleb, who in turn came over to see if I was okay. We got to talking, feelings were acknowledged, we kissed, and yeah," I finished lamely.
"How long ago was this?" she questions.
"Close to three months. We're really happy mom," I sigh a little lovestruck if I do say so myself.
"Well, I'm happy for you baby girl. All I want is for you to be happy and I am so relieved and happy that you found that happiness with Caleb," she confesses embracing me in a lingering hug. We talk a little more about work, the new man in her life, and baby preparation before she has to head off to work and I have to meet Caleb soon. I hug and kiss her goodbye and she wishes me luck, something I'm gonna need along with strength and hope that Caleb reacts well to the news.
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Caleb's POV
I am meeting Hanna in a bit, but first I wanted to stop by and talk to Toby just to see if he knows what secret Hanna is keeping from me. She said she had to talk to me about something, and if Spencer knows, Toby knows usually.
"Hey man," my best buddy greets as he opens the door to his home.
"Hey."
"So what's with the impromptu visit? Everything cool?" he says sitting on the sofa, offering for me to do the same. As I plop down next to his, I breathe deeply before just cutting to the chase.
"Do you know about some great big secret Hanna is keeping from me? I mean things have been going great and now she wants to meet me in like a hour to tell me something important. Has Spencer mentioned anything to you?" I question, dying to know what the hell is going on.
"Not that I know of. All Spence has told me is the fact that she now knows about you and Hanna and that she was happy everything worked out. I guess she and the girls have been taking care of Han because she's been sick and they didn't want her to be left alone at anytime," he explained.
"Yeah, it's been an on and off bug for about two weeks, I believe. Her mom, the girls, and I have all been rotating being there incase she needed something," I offer.
"Yeah, well, that's all I know right now. Maybe it's about her job or something. Have you thought about going back to New York?"
"Yup, and I still don't know. It was so hard last time with the everything that happened and I don't want us to go back to that place with bad memories and unresolved issues. If I decide to go back, I want everything laid out on the table and time to heal. Toby, I can't go back without being sure we can make it this time, through absolutely anything," I say sounding like a sap, but finally expressing how I've been feeling about Hanna and I being back together.
"I get it. How many people know? About what caused you guys to drift?"
"You, Ashley, and Emily as far as I know. I doubt she's told the others just yet, but Em was there when it all went down," I tell him, flashbacks trying there damnest to breakthrough, but I just suppress them further away. He nods in understanding. We chat for a few more minutes before I realize I need to be making my way to Hanna's to pick her up for dinner.
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When we finally arrive at the restaurant, we are seated fairly quickly, thanks to the reservations I made earlier in the day. The restaurant is quaint with a nice atmosphere without being too stuffy with little to no personality. Throughout the evening, I am constantly glance at Hanna to make sure she's alright seeing as how she's still been a little sick, but not as much. We have idly small talk, and everything is peaceful and comfortable for us. The talking, the flirting, the memories, and the love are all present making this one hell of an evening. Thankfully Hanna was getting along great and has yet to display a reason for us to leave early to tend to her sickness. When desert comes around, we decide to split a piece of apple pie a la mode. As we are digging into our sweet, Hanna grows a little too quite for my liking.
"Everything okay babe?" She startles just a little and looks me in the eyes.
"Yeah, yeah everything is perfect," she smiles at me which I can tell is a bit forced.
"Talk to me Han. What's on your mind? I can tell when you've got something to say, but don't know exactly how. So just tell me, straight up, no bullshit," I say intertwining our hands over the table. I see her take a deep breath before opening her mouth to speak.
"Okay, so you know how I've been sick a lot lately right?" I nod in affirmation. "Well, Emily kind of came to a conclusion of a diagnosis, which she shared with the girls, then shared with me. Long story short, I uhm, well you see Caleb... I'm pregnant," she finally blurts out. My eyes completely bug out of my head, beyond shocked at her confusion. What the hell?
"What the hell?" I repeat out loud.
"Yeah, I'm pregnant right this very moment," she chuckles awkwardly.
"Is it his or...? I let the statement hang in the air.
"Oh no, hell no. He and I haven't been together in months with our busy schedules and you know the cheating on me and all," she trails off and I am just sitting in complete shock. I honestly don't know how to take this all in, especially after what happened to us in New York.
"A-are you gonna keep it?" I stammer out. She nods her head in affirmation. "Are you sure? I mean, are you sure you're ready for this? That we're ready for this? I mean, I love you Hanna, I do, but a baby could complicate so much right now," I question, really wanting to see where her head was at with everything.
"I know what happened. I lived it and it was the worst thing we've ever been through, worst then freaking -A trying to ruin our lives. But I know that this is meant to be, for me, if not you as well. I love you too Caleb, but I've made my decision, with or without your support," she replies calmly, but I could detect the underlining tone of anger, disappointment, and sadness.
"Babe, I'm not saying you don't have my support. I just wanna be sure that this is what we want, and this is something we can handle this time around no matter what happens. I never want to see you go through the pain that we did before ever again. We couldn't handle everything before, I just wanna make sure that we can now, no matter the outcome," I saw tightening my grip on her hand just a little with the pad of my thumb rubbing back and forth to try a soothe a now crying Hanna. Seeing how we are still in a pretty public place, I quickly pay the tab, guide her out of the building and to the car and head to her place. The ride is silent and a air of sadness is surrounding us in this moment, no doubt remembering the saddest moment that torn us apart so many years ago.