Please leave a review, it inspires me.
Thank you
XxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxX It beginsXxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxX
It was not like Kurt wanted to remember Sebastian but the thoughts of him filled Kurt's head. He had blocked Sebastian's phone Number and removed him from all social media. Kurt could not forget the boy who held his hand the first day of Dalton, the guy who smiled and kissed Kurt so soft on the first date. The guy who he had given everything he had to, yet here he was on his bed. Thinking of running back into the arms of a guy that cheated on him constantly and treated him like shit.
"Dinner is almost ready!" Elizabeth Hummel's voice was clear. It made Kurt sit up, he only wore a black pair of boxers. With a groan he got dressed and walked up the stairs to see his dad standing there. He groaned he had no intention to talk or bond, his father ruined his life.
"Buddy, you know everything I do, I do what I think is best" Burt Hummel began, he took off his baseball cap and stared at Kurt.
"If that is true Dad let me live my life" kurt snapped. " Let me make my mistakes and learn from it, let me go back to Dalton. People are very cruel in this school and I have not made any friends."
"I am not trying to live your life for you Kurt, but you are the most beautiful thing your mother or I ever made and I don't want some trashy man destroying who you are. I know you will make friends here eventually. I remember the little boy who said the same thing about Dalton the first day but ended up loving it." Burt replied.
"Dad, you have to understand, I am not a child anymore. I don't need you to be my hero or savior. I can save myself, you have to understand that this is my life-" Kurt replied.
"Kurt I am not one for feelings, your mom is better at that. If you were in my position and your kid was in a relationship like yours what would you do?" Burt asked. Kurt fell silent because no matter how you looked at it Kurtbastian was toxic. Sebastian cheated many times and flirted with everyone, no matter who was present.
"You make Dalton so abstract, I have friends there. I built a life there, Sebastian is a small part of the Dalton experience." Kurt replied.
"We both know how you would go running to Sebastian if I never intervened, you like the kid. I cannot watch you make the same mistake your aunt Mildred made, she realized too late. I could not help her but I will help you whether you want my help or not. You are my kid!" Burt snapped. He quickly left heading for the dining table where Elizabeth sat quietly.
Kurt followed behind, they all ate in silence again. He could not help but wonder when his dad became someone completely different.
XxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxX
Puck sighed as he sat on the edge of the bed, he was a fuck up that could do nothing right. The apartment felt empty when he sat alone on his bed, then again it was empty what remained were the ghosts that haunted him daily.
Puck could see it as he laid on the bed, he could not save anyone.
Flashback
Puck had stepped into his home in the bad side of town, his father sat on the couch slouched. He held his head in his hands and he was covered in blood. Not too far off a bloody hammer laid on the floor, Puck froze as his eyes moved from the hammer to his father.
"Mom…?" He whispered.
"Can you just shut up!" His father stood up with red eyes, tears running down his cheeks. "It was an accident, I didn't mean to." Pulling a gun from his pocket and directing it at his son.
"You are not going to tell anyone, I should probably just kill you too. It's your fault, you and that damn baby, we used to love each other you know? If only I had pulled out." The hysterical babbling was cold, the safety clicked off.
Puck stayed frozen wondering if all the misery and pain would leave in death, he wondered whether he would be reunited with his mother.
The gun set down safety on the table "shit, I can't you are a good kid. You ain't caused me any trouble, the baby just would not shut up. I didn't mean to, I got so angry and I don't want to go to prison."
Puck moved slowly to the room to see the baby bed soaked in blood. His mother was not there but his baby sister was, Sarah they had named her, she was a mess in her crib.
"You killed her-" Puck began
"I did not mean to, we have to get rid of the baby."
End
His mother had left, last he heard she hung herself. His father was hardly around. He only came home once a month to pay rent, food and make sure Puck was not dead.
A loser? Kurt was not far off from the truth, he was the son of a drunkard and murderer. What did he actually feel he was entitled to become?
He wondered if he should have turned in his father for all the beating he gave his mother, he wondered if life would be any better. At the end of it all he was just a loser.
He hated Kurt even more, he could not understand why Blaine liked the kid, perhaps what Blaine needed was proof. Proof that Kurt was a girl and not a guy.
XxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxX
Blaine guessed something was off about Kurt, he found out after eating Lunch with Kurt. Kurt was a girl in drag, a transvestite.
Being gay was hard and life seemed hard for Kurt so Blaine had wanted to speak to him after practice but he was gone. Puck too was missing in action and of the two Blaine was more worried about Puck, Puck's move had left him behind and taken the newborn and split.
This happened three years back and Puck was not the same, something bothered his friend but he knew he would never get the truth.
He sighed as he stood in the parking lot, taking out his phone he sailed Puck.
"Hey" Puck's voice clear.
"Where are-?"
"-Is what I would have said if I were here right now, leave a message and if it's important I will call you back. If you are a chick, the Puckasaurus will get to you soon enough so be patient." The long beep went off.
"You are a dick head" Blaine said before cutting the line.
Blaine moved to his shinny new Toyota Corolla his parents got for his sweet 16 and drove home slowly, his mind on Puck till he reached his parents estate gate.
The gate had the Anderson crest on it along with the words 'We cannot be broken'.
Cannot be broken? Blaine wanted to laugh. His mother was a drunk, father never around and his brother ran off to pursue an acting career.
The family was broken and empty, his mother cried daily. She drunk because she was unhappy and she was unhappy because she drunk so much. Never sober enough to remember anything. Blaine was shocked she was not dead yet. He was not cold but her death would mean nothing he barely knew anything about his parents the only person there for him was Their Butler Steve. He had been Blaine's rock or he too would run mad.
Everything had been like a blur as he got into the home, he went straight to his room and sat on his bed.
Taking out his phone he called Puck once more.
"Hey" Puck said. "I am about to spill my load all over Joan's face-" Blaine could hear a girl snap that her name was Jane. "Sorry, Jane's face"
"I would rather not talk to you as you receive oral sex" Blaine sighed.
"Hmm… Shit!" Puck groaned.
"What the fudge Puck! Why did you have to jizz when I was on the line!" Blaine snapped.
"Well your gay right, you can jerk it to that at night. You are welcome."Puck sounded as if he was smirking.
"Why would I do that! You are like my brother, that is just weird." Blaine's groaned. There went his plans to see if he could get off videos of boypussy.
"Whatever dude, you called? This bitch is kind of waiting for me to eat her pussy out, so be quick" Puck said, Blaine cut the line with a sigh of disgust.
XxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxX
Kurt sighed again, he stared hard at his phone. Perhaps Sebastian had truly forgotten him, by now he would usually have done some huge romantic gesture to show Kurt he still cared.
Nothing, the asshole had forgotten him, kurt guessed the probably felt he meant more to Sebastian than he actually did.
The truth was killing him, perhaps he should apologize to Sebastian and say he would like to go back, it was better than being alone.
He chuckled before wiping a stray tear running down his cheek, he brushed it off wondering why he still cared.
Looking back he wondered if he even had friend in Dalton or Sebastian had friends and kurt was just along for the ride.
Perhaps this was a wake up call like what his father had said, he needed to make smarter decisions. He needed to stop being stupid.
He needed to give McKinley a try, make friends and be happy. Move on and forget Sebastian, then leave this cow state.
Kurt got dressed, he guessed the one good thing about leaving Dalton was the ability for him to wear whatever he chose.
"You are not a boy Kurt, wouldn't you be happier identifying as what God made you as." Puck's words flashed through his brain.
"What God made him as?" He could not control his laughter, he was not a girl. Even if he identified as any gender he would still be an abnormal freak. For crying out loud he was a baby faced pale skinned kid who could not grown facial hair or have kids.
What was he to identify as? Hey I am Kurt Half girl and half boy?
He was a freak.
His parents had lied that he was special, he wasn't. He just a freak and everyone knew, Sebastian was willing to live with it, what had Kurt been thinking to break it off?
XxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxX
Puck waited till gym, Kurt did not shower with the buys or girls he showered alone in the coach's personal shower.
Puck had his phone in hand, he was going to get the perfect shot of Kurt so Blaine would understand that Kurt was some chick in drag.
Picking the lock was easy for Him, it was basic the white tiled shower had Kurt soaped up an Puck could not deny how tight his pants felt at the site of Kurt's pink hard nipples.
Still Puck only had a side view of Kurt he didn't have the view he needed for a picture and luckily for him Kurt was washing his face so his eyes were closed.
Puck tried to be silent as he moved towards Kurt, Kurt most likely heard some movement because he turned to the door "who is there?" He was met with silence. Puck had the picture and he could do as he liked.
With speed he left shutting the door behind him. Puck could not deny the boner in his pants. Which was great because now he wanted to bank the freak show, he would do things to Kurt that would leave her wanting, she would squirt so many times and then he would fuck her hard.
XxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxX
Kurt was not sure how to react, some one had snuck in when he was showering and he was not sure how to deal with this. He felt violated and scared, he wondered if he should call his dad.
What if the person had recorded Kurt and tried to blackmail him with it? Kurt sat on the chair silently in a pure white robe with his legs crossed looking terrified.
"Hey" A voice said, kurt looked up to see Blaine standing there with a worried expression.
"Not a good time Blake" Kurt snapped.
"I just- you looked down so-" Blaine began, Kurt's cheeks were stained with tears now and his eyes were red. "What happened?"
Kurt had no one to talk to, he guessed Blaine could be a substitute till he made a friend. "I was in the shower, someone came in and I do not know what the wanted, what if they recorded me as I showered and put it online? What would I do?"
"I think you should call your parents, the principal has to be aware, an announcement made that it would be child pornography and most likely will serve jail time if they distribute or post it online." Blaine said calmly.
"I am sick of this school, I hate it here, I want to go back to Dalton" Kurt said before crying more, Blaine gave Kurt a hug. He let Kurt cry on his shoulder as he patted the boy's back.
"It's going to be alright Kurt, you just have to stop crying and act, call your dad or mom and inform them" Blaine said. Kurt looked reluctant to do so.
"I wasn't meant to do PE in the first place Blaine, my dad will over react too." Kurt stood up from the chair when Blaine let go and went back to the coaches office to change.
Wearing his clothes made him feel a bit better but not completely. He would wait till the end of the day before making any move. He expects Blaine would have left for class but Blaine was there seated and waiting for Kurt to come out.
XxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxX
Puck felt pissed as he watched Blain escort Kurt to his car, it was stupid why it bothered him so much.
When Kurt had driven away, puck slowly approached Blaine. Blaine smiled at Puck, Kurt's a pretty nice guy when you get past his bitch mode.
"Here" Puck said as he tossed his phone to Blaine, the picture was of Kurt in the shower naked.
"What the fuck Puck? Why would you do this? He was in tears over this" Blaine snapped.
"She-" Puck corrected, he was shocked when Blaine deleted the picture. "Hey, it's mine!"
"Do you know what child pornography can get you? Fucking years in prison, how can you be so-" Blaine snapped before tossing Puck's phone back. "We will act like this never happened, I never saw your phone and you never took the picture" Blaine ran a hand through his gelled hair in frustration. "Why do this Puck?"
"I did it for you, before you fall for a girl in drag and get heart broken"Puck snapped back. "I did it to protect you, I won't let people I- I won't let you get hurt by some abomination"
"Why is he an abomination to you Puck? He is 70% a guy, he just has a pussy and you act so ignorant that it kills me, how are we friends if you treat another gay GUY this way?"
"You like him?" Puck asked.
"I am not attracted to guys like with vaginas, I just want to be his friend now because he would understand me." Blaine said.
"I understand you" Puck said.
"You do not even understand yourself" Blaine shook his head.
"When have you ever had a gay problem I didn't hear out?" Puck asked.
"You sound like you are in love with me or something" Blaine chuckled at the joke, he expected Puck to laugh it off too but the Mohawk boys stayed silent. "Are you-? Puck I can't- I don't see you that way."
"Shut up the fuck up Anderson, like I could ever be gay" Puck snapped.
"Liking a guy doesn't mean you are gay, you can be Bisexual, You act like gay is some disease that could infect you at anytime" Blaine said.
"I know it's not-" Puck sighed. He was sure he had no romantic feelings towards anyone, his heart died long ago.
Blaine walked to his car and left, Puck stood there for a while. He needed coffee and sex, the new chick, Jenny or whatever her name was, at the Lima bean seemed willing to put out.
XxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxX
Kurt was drinking his coffee quietly, he did not want to go home, he wanted to quietly think, all that stopped when Sebastian entered with his new flavor of the week.
He could not concentrate because all he could see was Sebastian and the bimbo at the counter.
Sebastian spotted Kurt sitting alone and walked up to him. "I see you are just being difficult this time, what do you want a diamond fucking ring.?"
Kurt was shocked, he didn't understand what Sebastian meant. "Excuse me?"
"Kurt for some strange reason I like you deeply and you are just being difficult, seriously what better offers do you have?" Sebastian asked.
"You don't get to talk to me in that way, you obviously do not see me as valuable. You even bring your boy toy to the place we had our first date" Kurt snapped.
"It sure as hell doesn't look like you are distraught over it, you seem pretty fucking happy" Sebastian snapped.
"Just leave I am waiting for someone" Kurt lied.
"Already have a boyfriend, really and I am the fucking slut. You just moved on like our memories don't matter" Sebastian replied.
"What do you want from me Sebastian? I have given you the best of me, I gave you my heart and you just smashed it. What do you want? Me to Marry you? Adopt kids? Act like we are happy as you take your countless extras to bed. Pretend like it's okay?" Kurt asked.
"I only made love to you, you have my fucking heart" Sebastian whispered.
"If I can't have all of you, I want none of you" Kurt whispered.
"Who else but me would ever love a freak like you?" Sebastian knocked Kurt's coffee to the ground.
"What the fuck are you doing to Princess?" Kurt was shocked to see Puck standing there glaring, Sebastian was a bit taller but Puck had more muscles.
"Let me guess, who you are waiting for?" Sebastian left his boy toy followed behind.
"Thanks" Kurt whispered.
"No need to get excited I would have done the same for anyone in that loser Glee club" Puck said.
"God forbid anyone think you actually care" Kurt grumbled.
"Why should I care? Do you give me your Pussy? No. Do you suck my dick? No. Are you a friend or family member? No." Puck rolled his eyes. He walked to the counter and returned with two coffees in hand, placing one in front of Kurt, he sat down.
"I thought I didn't get special treatment" kurt snapped.
"Jade seems to be on a shift for the next 50 minutes and as a form of gratitude you will sit here and entertain me. Though you playing dress up is entertaining enough" Puck smirked.
" I am not a toy" Kurt snapped.
"Whatever, why was that dude bullying you?" Puck asked.
"He is my ex" Kurt said.
"Let me guess he thought you had a penis and then he got to look and he was you were lacking the necessary appendage?" Puck asked. Kurt stood up and left.