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I Will Be
Sleep had been hard to find during the night. Being in a home that she was unfamiliar with, and the knowledge that someone other than Arizona and her close friends knew about her past had left Callie feeling a little unsettled during the night. She wasn't angry, she just hadn't expected Barbara Robbins to find out about her abusive past so early on. Sure, she would know eventually, but two days into their stay? That, she hadn't expected.
Checking the clock, it was a little after six in the morning. Arizona was currently sleeping like the living dead, and the longer Callie tossed and turned, the more likely the blonde waking seemed. Deciding she would leave her girlfriend to sleep a little while longer, the brunette slowly slipped out of the bed and pulled on an oversized hoodie.
Dinner the previous night had been pleasant, but the news Barbara had received had left a little uncertainty in the air. Mrs Robbins hadn't even suggested that she knew anything, but Callie knew. Arizona had explained that she had sworn her mother to secrecy, and so far, Barbara was sticking by her word. She appreciated that, but this was just one more thing that Suzanne had ruined for her. Meeting the parents.
Leaving the bedroom, Callie tiptoed across the hall and quietly made her way downstairs. It was silent. Only the hum of electrical items filling the air. Running her fingers through her messy hair, she pulled it up into a bun and entered the kitchen. Startled, she found Barbara sitting quietly reading the morning paper. "Good morning, dear."
"Good morning, Mrs Robbins." Callie smiled. "Would it be okay if I made myself some coffee?"
"Of course, honey. A fresh pot is ready. Help yourself." The older woman didn't even look up from her paper.
"Thanks." The brunette moved around the kitchen, adding a ridiculous amount of sugar to her morning coffee. Satisfied that it was to her sweetness, she took a seat and the kitchen table and sat back. Why do I feel so awkward? "Um-" Shaking her head, Callie silenced herself.
"Everything okay, Callie?" Barbara glanced up from her paper.
"Y-Yeah. Just didn't sleep too well." The brunette shrugged. "Nothing a little coffee won't fix."
"Things on your mind?" Barbara suggested.
"I guess so."
"You know Arizona loves you, right?" The older Robbins folded her paper and set it down on the table in front of her. "She was a mess yesterday when she came in from the porch."
"I know." Callie smiled. "She was a rambling mess when she came to check on me. I don't know what the big deal is. I trust her. I just, I didn't think it was my place to be there for her conversation with Natalie."
"She worries, a lot." Barbara rolled her eyes. "It's a terrible habit. I've told her she has to put a stop to it. She will have you wrapped up in cotton wool if she doesn't calm herself down soon."
Laughing, Callie gave a nod in agreement and sipped on her coffee. "I know she told you."
"What's that, dear?"
"About my past." The brunette cleared her throat. "She said she had told you."
"For the love of god, that girl doesn't know when to keep her mouth closed."
"It's okay." Callie shrugged. "I wouldn't expect her to keep anything from you. I just, I don't want it to change your opinion of me."
"Now, Callie, dear. Why on earth would it change my opinion of you?"
"I don't know. I'm not that kind of person. Before I met her, my ex, I was strong. I was happy. Then she took that away from me. Made me feel weak and worthless. I'm not weak, Mrs Robbins."
"I know that, Callie." Barbara placed her hand over the brunettes.
"Arizona, she got me back to my old self. The confident me. The brilliant me. I feel like myself again with her. She allows me to be myself. Maybe even a better version of myself. You should be very proud of her, she's amazing."
"She is a wonderful woman." Barbara smiled. "I always hoped she would find someone who loved her. Natalie was never going to be that person. I could see it from the very beginning. I had to let her figure it out herself, though. I'm happy that you found each other."
"Me too. To walk away from what I had. What I was going through. To find her and immediately feel the difference, it makes me wonder why I stayed with Suzanne for so long."
"Where is she now?" Barbara questioned. "If you don't mind me poking my nose in."
"Locked up. Thank God." Callie scoffed. "Not for too much longer, though."
"She is? Oh lord, what did she do?" The older Robbins placed her hand over her mouth.
"I went by to collect my things. Arizona came with me. I stupidly sent her across the street for coffee. Suzanne was away, well, she was supposed to be, but she was hiding in the apartment. Once she knew Arizona had left the place, she attacked me. Beat me. Broke my ribs. Tried to-" Cutting herself off, Callie cleared her throat. "Anyway, Arizona came back to find me pinned against the wall. I was in a bad way."
"Oh dear, what did Arizona do?"
"Gave her a taste of her own medicine." Callie smiled. "She saved me. Called the police and that is why Suzanne is locked up. She is due out in around a month, though."
"Well, I hope she has realised that my Arizona isn't afraid of her. I can have Daniel give you some tips if you like. You know, how to kill a person with one finger or whatever it is he does." The older woman threw the brunette a wink.
"I'm hoping it won't come to that." Callie laughed.
"Me too. But, Callie? If that woman comes back, if she so much as breathes near you and Arizona, you come here. You get in the car, and you come here. Both of you."
"Thank you, Barbara." The brunette gave a nod. "Really."
Two hours later, Callie found herself outside on the porch, wrapped up in a blanket with a fresh coffee. As the sun began to rise, a low mist was visible across the fields. God, it's beautiful here. Imagining Arizona waking up here every morning gave Callie a warm feeling. The blonde loved being away from the city. She loved the crisp air hitting her face during winter. She had often told Callie how much calmer she felt when she was away from it all. Maybe we should buy a house outside of the city. Sure, it would mean driving daily to and from work, but if it made Arizona happy, then Callie wasn't about to change that.
"Arizona about?"
Startled from her thoughts, Callie turned to find Natalie standing at the bottom of the steps. "Um, no. Sorry."
"Where is she?" The other woman asked, bluntly.
"She's still sleeping."
"Great view, huh?" Natalie followed Callie's line of sight. "We used to sit out here together most days."
"Yeah, it's beautiful." Callie smiled. Turning back to the other woman, she noticed that Natalie was the ideal woman. Perfect waistline, silky hair. Huge brown eyes. She had clearly been running, and she still looked pretty good. Wow, how do you compete with that, Torres? Hands gripping her coffee cup, she felt a little anxiety settle in the pit of her stomach.
"Do you run, Carly?" Natalie smirked.
"It's Callie, and no, I don't."
"Shame." The other woman shrugged.
"Um, it is?" Callie furrowed her brow. "Why is that?"
"Zo used to say that watching me run was the hottest thing she'd ever seen. Said it turned her on something terrible." She laughed. "The sex after running? Wow!"
"Great." Callie simply smiled back. Zo? Fucking Zo?
"Maybe I'll see if she wants to go running while she is here."
"Sure, whatever." Standing, Callie folded the blanket and placed it down for later use. "I'll ask her for you. I'm sure she would love to."
"Great. Have her call me, yeah?"
"Oh, I will." I'm not giving into this asshole. Giving Arizona's ex a wave, Callie headed back inside and released the breath she had been holding. Don't rise to it, Cal. You're better than that.
Stepping out of the shower, Callie wrapped her towel around her and left the en suite bathroom. Arizona beginning to stir, she leant back against the closed door and smiled. "Good morning, sunshine."
"Mm, what time is it?" Arizona croaked.
"Almost nine."
"Why are you standing in nothing but a towel?" Blue eyes focused on the dripping body in front of her.
"I've just showered." Callie shrugged. Grabbing a pair of jeans and a blouse, she made her way around the room and took a seat on the edge of the bed. Feeling it dip behind her, she smiled.
"You smell amazing, beautiful." Arizona husked as she pressed her front against the brunette's back.
"Thanks."
"I could have showered with you. You should have woken me." The blonde placed light kisses across the naked back in front of her. "Maybe I should dirty you up so you need another one?"
"As much as I love where this is going, we are not having sex in your parent's house." Callie shrugged off her girlfriend and stood. Slipping on some panties, she shimmied into her jeans and buttoned them up. "Go take your shower, Arizona."
"Woah, cold much?" The blonde furrowed her brow. "What's wrong?"
"Nothing."
"Um, yeah, there is." Blue eyes narrowed. "Why are you being so, well, like this?"
"I'm not being like anything. I'm just not having sex in your parent's house. I told you this before we left."
"And that's fine." Arizona shrugged. "But something is on your mind."
"Arizona." Callie gave the blonde a hard glare. "Don't, please."
Closing the distance between them, Arizona wrapped her arms around a half-naked Callie. Breasts pressing against her own, she smiled. "Don't what?"
"Don't keep asking me. I'm fine."
"Is this because of yesterday? Are you angry that I'm collecting things from Natalie's place? You can come with me if you like. Or I don't even have to go at all."
The sound of the other woman's name falling from her girlfriend's lips caused Callie to tense up a little. I don't like that woman. I don't trust that woman. She had tried to be calm and civil with her a little while ago, but Natalie was intentionally trying to rile her up. She had held back and not fallen for it, but now? Now that she was away from the ex, she was riled up. "No, do what you have to do. Maybe you could go for a run with her while you are there." Low blow, Torres. This isn't Arizona's fault. You are letting her get to you!
"Um, what is that supposed to mean?" Arizona gave her girlfriend a confused look.
"You know, run. Go running with her. It's what you loved to do, isn't it?" Callie scoffed. Stop now! Stop before you dig yourself a hole. She hated that she was allowing the other woman inside her head. Callie and the green eyed monster didn't go well together. So now, she was taking it out on her girlfriend. Unnecessarily.
"Callie, I don't know what you are talking about, but I don't like where this is going."
"It's not going anywhere. I'm sorry." She removed her hands from the blonde's body and rubbed her temples. "Just, I'm sorry. Collect your things whenever you like. It's okay."
"No, it's not okay. You are clearly unhappy. I don't want you to be unhappy." Blue eyes softened. "Has she said something to you? Have you seen her?"
"Yeah, just before. I was drinking my coffee on the porch. She turned up looking all wonderful in her running clothes."
"And?"
"And she said she was going to see if you wanted to go running together." Callie scoffed.
"Why the hell would I want to go running with her?"
"Because you always used to. Loved watching her run, or something." Tanned shoulders shrugged.
"Um, I did?" The blonde furrowed her brow. "Well, that's news to me."
"Look, I know she is just trying to get to me, and I promised myself I wouldn't let her, but h-have you seen her? She's gorgeous, Arizona. So much better than me."
"Woah! Hold up! You haven't just said that to me." Arizona raised a hand between them and began pacing the floor. "Don't ever compare yourself to her. Don't ever compare yourself to anyone."
"But she's gorgeous, Arizona. Surely you can see that. Hell, you spent eight years with the woman. You know exactly what I'm talking ab-" Cut off my pink lips, Callie melted into their kiss. Pulling back for a little air, she found teary blue eyes staring back at her.
"Don't. Don't ever do that again." Arizona's voice broke. "You are gorgeous, Calliope. So beautiful that I wonder how the hell I got so lucky. Everything about you is beautiful."
"But-"
"But nothing. Don't ever put yourself down like that. Do you realise how amazing you are? How much I want to touch you, kiss you, just be with you? I can't get enough of you, Callie. You are miraculous, breathtakingly stunning."
"So, you don't want me to start running?" The brunette furrowed her brow.
"What? Why would I want you to start running?"
"Because she said you loved to run, with her. Something about it turning you on." Brown eyes dropped their gaze.
Laughing hard, Arizona held onto her stomach. "Please, that is hilarious."
"This isn't funny, Arizona."
"It is. It's hysterical. How would I know what she looked like running? She could never keep up with me. I always finished and showered by the time she got back."
"I could run if that's what you wanted. I mean, I guess I could do with getting in shape a little." Looking down at her half naked body, Callie snorted. "I mean, look at me."
"Oh, I am looking at you." The blonde bit down on her bottom lip. "Don't ever get in shape. You don't need to. I love you exactly how you are, Calliope. Which by the way, is so very very hot. Those curves?" Blue eyes rolled. "And that ass? Wow!"
"Now you are just trying to make me feel better." She smiled.
Standing painfully close to her girlfriend, Arizona brought her lips up to the brunette ear. "No, I'm not. But… what would make me feel better, is those gorgeous thighs wrapped around my head." Sucking on her pulse point, she smiled. "Just thinking about your body makes me very very wet."
"Yeah?" Callie closed her eyes and leant back against the wall. Just her talking to me like that makes me wet.
Pressing her body flush against the brunette, Arizona moaned. "Oh yeah." Taking Callie's hand in her own, she guided it between them and slipped it past the waistband of her pyjama shorts. "See?"
"Oh God." Callie gasped. Don't do this. Stay strong, Cal. Stand your ground. Her girlfriend's arousal evident, she bit down on her own bottom lip and tried to fight the urge to take her right there. Shit, she is soaking.
"Only you do this to me, Calliope." Pink lips curled into a smile. "You. Your body. Your voice. Everything."
Resting her forehead against the blonde's, Callie's eyes darkened. "You are so freaking hot right now."
"Mm, like you wouldn't believe." Blue eyes narrowed. "So, am I going to take that shower, or?" Arizona closed her eyes as she felt two fingers glide through her dripping folds. "Shit." Biting down on her lip, the blonde felt dizzy. God, I want her.
"I don't know, Arizona. Are you going to take your shower?" Callie raised an eyebrow. Teasing her girlfriend's entrance, she stared intently. Never taking her eyes off of the baby blues in front of her, she slipped two fingers inside. "What'll it be?"
"Fuck, Callie." Arizona placed her palm flat against the wall to the side of Callie's head. "Don't stop doing that, please."
"You want this? You want me?" Tanned fingers slid deeper.
"God, yes. I always want you." Knees almost buckling, Callie wrapped a strong arm around a pale toned waist and thrust harder. Feeling Arizona's walls begin to tighten and pull her fingers further in, she felt her own arousal pool between her legs.
Slipping her own hand between their bodies, Arizona flicked open the button of the brunette's jeans and tried to pull them down her legs. Satisfied that she had enough room to work, she slipped two fingers inside and immediately hit Callie's sweet spot. "Together."
"Fuck," Callie whispered against the blonde's ear. Knowing that her girlfriend's parents were just below them, she buried her face in the crook of Arizona's neck. She knew exactly what sounds were about to come from her mouth, and the way she was feeling right now, she was pretty sure the entire street would hear her if she wasn't careful. "Oh god, I-I'm close. Fuck."
Both women thrusting hard and deep, they teased each other's bundle of nerves and felt themselves nearing the edge. "Oh God, Callie, baby, don't stop. Oh.." Bodies tensing, the brunette felt her orgasm crash through her body. Biting down on the blonde's shoulder, she rode out every last drop until she felt Arizona come down from her own high.
Releasing the breath she had been holding, Arizona slumped against the caramel form in front of her and winced. "Shit. That was amazing, but what have you done to my shoulder."
"Mm, I'm sorry. The whole street would have known you had just rocked my world if I hadn't done that." Callie laughed. Running her fingers over the red mark she had left, she placed a light kiss on it and pulled back. "I said no sex at your parent's house."
"Mm, and I said I wanted you, so… what else were we going to do about it?"
Cutting the engine, Arizona stepped out of her car and crossed the short distance up the driveway. She didn't want to be here, and after today, it had only confirmed that she no longer needed or wanted Natalie in her life, but her pictures of Tim didn't belong in this house. They belonged in a loving home with her girlfriend. Get your stuff, and leave.
Knocking loudly on the hardwood door, Arizona flinched when the porch light turned on and door handle turned. "Hey, Zo. Come on in."
"Do you have my things ready?" The blonde refused to move from her spot outside.
"Yeah, pretty much. Just wanted to check if there was anything else you wanted before I packed it up to go."
"Fine." Arizona stepped past her ex-girlfriend and made her way inside. Ew, she still has pictures of us around the place. Creepy. "You can take all of those down too." Pointing at the framed photographs, Arizona scoffed.
"Um, just because we aren't together anymore doesn't mean I don't get to remember the memories." Natalie shot back. "We had some good times, Zo."
"Yeah, well." Pale shoulders shrugged.
"We really can't give us another go?" Natalie stepped closer to her ex-girlfriend and gave her a sad smile. "It was one mistake."
"Yeah, it was one mistake. And I'll admit, we were good together. Really good together. But the one mistake you don't make is the one you made."
"You don't understand how sorry I am."
"No, and I don't care how sorry you are." Arizona laughed. "I found the most amazing woman when I walked away from you. From us. And you know, sometimes I wish I'd left sooner."
"You mean her? She's amazing?" Natalie spat. "Doesn't look like much to me. Nothing special." Dark brown eyes roamed Arizona's body. "Oh, she told you about today?"
"Yeah, she did."
"So she felt it appropriate to 'mark' you because of it?" The brunette laughed. "Seems a little insecure to me."
"Mark me?" Arizona furrowed her brow. "Oh, this?" She ran her fingers over the mark on her neck. "She wasn't marking me. She just didn't want my parents hearing her scream my name." She laughed.
"Mm, sure she didn't."
"Oh, and don't go near her again. Don't speak to her. Don't look at her. You don't deserve to even breathe the same air as Callie." Pulling out her cell, she flicked through until she found her favourite picture of her girlfriend. "This woman? She is ten times more than you will ever be. Trust me, I made the right decision when I left you. So, thank you. Thank you for fucking my best friend and allowing me to see just what kind of person you are."
"Zo, wait." Gripping her ex-girlfriend's wrist, Natalie tried to stop the blonde from leaving the spot they had shared for the past few minutes.
"Get your hands off of me." Arizona turned and gave the brunette a hard stare. "I'll just grab my pictures and then I'll be out of your way."
"I don't want you to be out of my way. I want you to stay. At least stay for a coffee? Please?" Natalie pleaded with the other woman.
"You don't get it, do you?" Shaking her wrist from the brunettes grip, she laughed. "I don't want to be around you. I don't want to see you ever again. The sooner you realise that the sooner you can move on with your shitty life and find someone who is happy to have a whore for a girlfriend."
"Jeez, when did you get so bitter?"
Collecting her pictures from the table close to the door, she turned to face her ex-girlfriend. "When you broke my heart, Natalie."
Leaving her old home, the home she shared with Natalie, Arizona wiped away a tear she didn't know had fallen. Get a grip, Robbins. Rushing down the drive, she slid into her car and started the engine.
I need Callie.
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