Si'len and Be'na
Chapter Six
As she slept he studied her form, he could not deny her beauty. From their bond he was now privy to her deepest secrets. From her statement and their bond he understood that he would be the first to join with him. Of course, at his age he knew the mechanics of the act having been served by T'kek, The Comfortor six times. When he sought her out her purpose was to save his life, not bring any warmth or commitment to him. There was never any spoken word during that time, just a temporary bond. Of course, those acts never caused his heart to soar, or for there to be any more than a physical need to be addressed. How will this be different? What part of his psyche would react differently at this joining.
With those thoughts he felt vulnerable, naked, and not in control. This was definitely a different experience for him. With much weighing heavily on his mind he went to his place of meditation to mentally review these thoughts. During this time he discovered although his body was definitely ready, his mind was not.
He felt her soft presence besides him as she joined him in meditation. His breathing became shallow, and he internally groaned. Listening to her thoughts he discovered that she was praying, in her mother tongue.
"…Please Goddess Mother, you the Creative Force of the Four Deities, creator of the Sacred Chalice and Holy Rings help me take good care of this person who has accepted me despite my many faults. Bless this union with many fine sons so his house can continue. Help me be a good student, to learn from him so I can teach our children. Allow me to not make him uncomfortable with my tears…and help me please him and quell my fears as we make each other complete…
Goddess Mother, The heavens rejoice in your presence and while he does not know you, please look upon him favorably and bless him. …May these request become true according to your will.
Vwpi (Amen)
When he opened his eyes she was kneeling next to him with her chin resting on her chest. By the sound of her breathing, Si'len determined she was attempting to quell her emotions. Her eyes were squeezed shut and she was trembling. He reached out and touched her cheek and she shuttered. Si'len said,
"You must look at me Be'na."
She nodded, but her eyes were still squeezed tight.
"It is very important that you look at me, Be'na."
She looked at him with red rimmed eyes.
He placed his open palm between them and instructed her to place her index and middle fingers on his in the ozh'esta The message sent was this,
"In life, what is unknown to us can cause us fear and apprehension; I do not wish our joining to have such a beginning. You will now see in your mind what our joining will entail. You must not ever fear me for my role as adun, your bondmate, means I am your protector and provider. You have touched my heart and I will never willingly be the source of any fear on your part."
He then let her see how they would be joined physically and mentally; and with that act he would always know where she was, that she was safe, and advised her that he would be willing to sacrifice himself on her behalf because that was The Vulcan Way. He had already explained what would happen during 'his time'. He then asked, did she understand and she nodded.
Still holding her with their hands remaining in the ozh'esta he with little effort lifted her slight body and brought her to his bed. It was not the fires of pon farr, but the extent of his desire for her body that made him burn. She lay there and he disrobed and said,
"My aduna, you must look upon my unclothed body."
Her eyes were still closed when he sat besides what was from now on going to be their bed and caressed her face,
"My Be'Na, you will either see me with your eyes or with your mind, by your actions you make the choice."
Her eye that was away from him fluttered open. With that he stood up.
She whispered,
"I have seen the unclothed body of males before, that was how some males at Grup's would present themselves to me. I was repulsed. But now what I see is beautiful to me, and I want you to make us one. I will try to please you."
He responded,
"It will never be one way, My Be'na, we will bring pleasure to one another."
Si'len reached for her so she could stand before him. He started to disrobe her and he stilled himself so as not to frighten her. It was traditional for the adun to rip the clothes off of his aduna, symbolic of the physical tear she would endure, but in her fragile mental state, he would slowly removed each item and as he did so, he folded them and placed them on the table by their bed.
With every layer he removed, he became more difficult for him to remain calm. When he did reach her undergarments, he did remove them with a single evidence of Vulcan strength and her breathing became heightened. He said,
"My Be'na, you are beautiful in form and face and my desire for you is awaiting fulfillment, but I want you to know, it was first your resourceful mind and willing spirit that has made me desire to be joined with you."
He then stroked her face, her hair, and his hands went on to discover other parts of her body. She was moaning and responding with what he determined was a Betazoid expression of affection. He had learned of the Terran way of expressing affection, the placing of one's lips on the person of the person who you are drawn to. He rained kisses on her face, lips and other parts of her beautiful form and then lifted her and she again was in their bed, this time he was above her and she nodded…he suppressed the primitive desire to growl and with his lips at her shoulder he claimed her.
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Never in his life had visited such heights, his heart did indeed soar. Every time they joined he discovered something else that made him desire to join with her again. Each time was a new revelation and she kept caressing his face and whispering endearments. Just as it had already been the case, she was an apt student and when he finally released her to rest, they were no longer strangers in that most intimate of expression, and he had discovered his greatest treasure, was in fact, his aduna, Be'na.