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Right, I have no idea how the US justice system works so just go with me here. I'm probably totally off the mark but this is a fic, so whatever goes, right?
Also, you could say that I received a little kick up the ass on Thursday night, and that's why this chapter is up right now. Getting a tweet from JCap herself will do that to me! :) Enjoy….
I own nothing. All characters/storylines belong to Shonda. I'm simply 'borrowing' them.
I Will Be
Rubbing the sleep from her eyes, Callie found herself tangled around Arizona. Last night the blonde had laid everything bare, and now it was a new day. A new day to think about what had happened in her old apartment. A new day to love the blonde a little more than she had yesterday. Glancing down, she found her girlfriend hadn't moved during the night. Only for the light snore coming from the blonde, Callie would be checking for a pulse right now. She is completely out of it. Knowing that the situation with Suzanne had been playing on Arizona's mind for what seemed like forever, the brunette knew that a weight had been lifted last night. Knowing that her girlfriend was sleeping peacefully for the first time in a while, she smiled and gently ran her fingers through blonde curls.
The sun barely breaking through, Callie's bladder screamed relief. Slowly creeping out of their bed, she tiptoed to the door and gently pulled it closed as she slipped out into the hall. Quickly going about her business, she soon found herself in the kitchen and putting on a pot of coffee. Perfect. Taking a seat, she thought about the previous night, and how she had discussed what had happened with Arizona. I never meant to hurt her with my words. I never meant to ever say what I said. Sighing, she placed her head in her hands and inhaled the scent of freshly brewing coffee. I don't even know how to explain what I meant, but it totally came out wrong. Knowing the subject would come up at some point today, she decided not to dwell on it too much. When it was approached, she would allow herself to use her words properly. None of this is her fault. I need to take my head out of my ass and realise that soon. Realise it before I lose her forever.
"Thank God." Mumbling to herself, she moved around the kitchen and poured a large helping of strong black liquid. Figuring the blonde would sleep for a while longer yet, she left Arizona's cup on the side, ready to fill when she woke. Tiptoeing back down the hall, she slid back inside the barely cracked open door and stood with her brow furrowed. "Arizona?"
The blonde sat sobbing into her hands, Callie rushed to her side and took a seat beside her. "Arizona?"
"I-I thought you'd left."
"No." Dark curls shook. "Look at me."
Blue eyes meeting brown, Arizona resembled a frightened child.
"Baby-" Bringing her hands up to the pale skin in front of her, Callie ran her thumbs along her girlfriend's cheekbones and gave a sad smile. "I'm not going anywhere."
"Sorry. I'm just, I'm a mess right now." A sigh fell from pink lips. "Please, just give me a little time to fix whatever the hell it is I've done."
"You don't have to fix anything. Everything is going to be okay."
"No, I've messed up. I know I have." Shaking the brunette's touch away, Arizona climbed out of the bed and moved towards the door. "I just, I mean… last night you asked me if I enjoyed what happened. So, it's clear that things need fixing."
"No, Arizona. Please wait." Rushing to the blonde, Callie took her hands in her own and met her gaze. "Please let me explain myself."
"No, you don't have to. I get it. You had every right to ask what you did."
"Um, no… I didn't. I should never have said what I did. I didn't mean for it to come out the way it did."
"Pretty sure there is no other way to can confuse that question, Cal." Giving a slight smile, Arizona felt a little tension lift from their bedroom.
Pulling her girlfriend back over to the edge of the bed, Callie sat them both down and turned to face the blonde. "What I meant when I asked that… was well, when she attacked me before she got arrested, she tried to, you know?"
"Yeah, I know." Arizona gave a nod in agreement.
"Well, when it happened, I was, um-" Shaking her head, Callie figured this was no time be shy or worried. "Look, when she tried to touch me, when she was against me, my body… it was, uh… aroused."
"Calli-"
"No, I wasn't aroused, but my body was working against me. So when I asked you that last night, I didn't mean for it to sound so harsh. I just, I was just asking if the same had happened with you. When it happened, I worried. I didn't know why my body was betraying me, but it was, and I hated the thought of it doing that with someone that wasn't you."
"I get it, Callie." Arizona ran her thumb over caramel knuckles. "It happens. It's just, it's your bodies response. It doesn't mean anything."
"Well, I know that, but I was still a little uneasy about it. So, that's all I was asking last night. Yeah, I should have gone about it a different way, but please believe that hurting you wasn't my intention."
"Okay." The blonde agreed. Standing, Arizona placed a gentle kiss on Callie's hand. Eying the now cold cup of coffee on the end table, Arizona turned to face the brunette. "Can I get you some fresh coffee?"
"Sure. That would be great."
"Hello?" Arizona furrowed her brow as she took a call from an unknown number. "Y-Yes, this is Arizona Robbins." Her heart pounding in her ears, the blonde took in the words from the deep male voice flowing down the line. "Uh, yes. Wow, okay. I-I, I mean, do I need to be there?"
Settling back in her seat, Arizona agreed and nodded, responding when it was appropriate to do so. "Okay, thank you. Of course, thank you. Goodbye." Sighing, she hit the end call button and placed her cell down on the table in front of her. Right now, she wanted to scream, but the patrons also occupying the coffee shop she was currently sat in wouldn't approve. Oh my god. That did not just happen.
Removing herself from her seat, she quickly knocked back the remainder of her coffee and threw down a few bills to cover the charge. Straightening herself out, she left the shop and made the short walk back to her apartment. Right now, she was thankful that The Chief had given her a little time off. If she was able to celebrate right now, she totally would be. I'd totally dance naked through the streets to remember this day forever.
Reaching her apartment main door, she slipped her key into the lock and stepped inside. Callie would likely be there, and although things were still a little up in the air, she felt like their lives were going to fall into place as the days went on. We have to make this work. We are too good together not to. Stepping off the elevator, she made the short walk down the corridor to her apartment and stopped. Giving herself a moment to take in what had just happened alone, she smiled and turned the handle. Finding those brown eyes glaring back at her, she closed the door behind her and stood in her spot. "Hey."
"Hi. I, uh, I didn't expect you back so soon." The brunette sat with her knees up to her chest in one corner of the couch. Trashy TV playing on the television.
"Sorry, did you um, did you want me to head back out?" The blonde asked, genuinely. "If you need some alone time I can do that."
"No, please don't leave again. I just figured you'd be out most of the day." Callie removed herself from the couch and closed the distance between them. "I, uh, I kinda did something."
Narrowing her eyes, Arizona stared intently. "Like what?"
"You know I said that we needed to get away?" The brunette shifted her weight from left to right. "Well I know you probably don't want to go, but I kinda booked us into a nice hotel for four days." Trying to gauge the blonde's reaction, Callie searched her face but found nothing. "And you hate the idea." Stepping away from her girlfriend, she motioned towards her cell phone. "I'll just call and cancel. I shouldn't have just assumed. I'm sor-"
Stopping the brunette in her tracks, Arizona tugged on her wrist and pulled her back in towards her. "Don't cancel."
"But you don't want to go. I don't want you to do something you don't feel up to." She shook her head as brown eyes dropped their gaze.
"Callie, I'd love to spend four days alone with you. I think we need it. We should do this. I want to do it."
"You're sure?" A slight smile appeared on red lips. "You're not just saying it?"
"No, Calliope." Dimples popped. "When do we book in?"
"T-Tonight." She stated as she wrapped her arms around Arizona's midsection, careful not to aggravate her bruised ribs. "Would that be okay?"
"That would be perfect." Pressing a kiss to the most perfect lips, Arizona gained a low moan from her girlfriend. "I guess I should get packed, huh?"
Pulling back, Callie sighed. "Yeah, but if you keep kissing me like that, we won't make it out of this apartment."
"While I love the sound of that, we should keep our hands to ourselves. Just a little longer." Smiling, the blonde released her grip on Callie and moved through the living room and towards the hallway. Turning back, she found Callie smirking. "I, uh, I have something I need to tell you later."
"Oh God. What?" Swallowing hard, the worry on Callie's face was evident.
"Oh, it's nothing bad. Please don't worry." Opening her arms, she motioned for Callie to come closer. "Come here."
Crossing the distance between them, Callie fell into Arizona's arms and held onto her with all she had. "Cal, baby? I promise it's nothing bad."
"Okay." She gave a slight nod. "I'm just scared I'm going to lose you, Arizona."
"You're not." Running her fingers through dark curls, she ran her hand down the brunette's neck before cupping her face. "I'm not going anywhere. You hear me?"
"Promise?"
"I promise." She smiled. "You know why? Because I love you, and you love me, and none of the rest of it matters."
Smiling, Callie leant into the blonde's touch. "God, I love you so much, Arizona."
"I love you too, Calliope."
"Okay, so do we have everything?" Arizona paced their bedroom and checked her luggage for the third time in five minutes.
"Yes, Arizona. We have everything." Brown eyes rolled as she pulled her girlfriend away from the packed bags.
"Sorry." The blonde smiled. "I just worry that we've forgotten something."
"As long as you are there, and I am there, it doesn't really matter if we have forgotten anything." Wrapping her arms around the blonde's waist, Callie pulled her in for a kiss and ran her fingers through golden curls. "Now, can we leave already?"
"Mm, I guess so." Pink lips curled into a smile. "You're happy, right?"
"I'm always happy when you are here," Callie stated as she eyed the blonde. "And you? Are you happy?"
"More than you could imagine." Arizona smiled. "I'm sorry for everything that's happened lately. I really am."
"Nope." Dark curls shook. "None of that. I don't want to hear about anything that's happened unless it's the good stuff."
"Well then, I guess I should listen to you, huh?" Throwing her girlfriend a wink, the blonde released her hold and grabbed the bags from their bed. "Wouldn't want to lower the mood now."
Slapping Arizona's ass on the way out of the door, Callie chuckled. "Correct, Dr Robbins. Lowering the mood wouldn't do either of us any good."
Satisfied that they had everything they needed, Callie forced her girlfriend through the apartment door before she could check over things again. Closing the door behind them both and slipping her keys in her back pocket, she marched the blonde down the corridor and hit the elevator button. I have to get out of this block right now. Out of here, and into bed with her.
Reaching the bottom level, the couple slipped out of the elevator and out onto the street. The cool air sending a shiver down Callie's spine, she pulled her leather jacket around her and helped Arizona with their bags. "Come on, beautiful. Let's get going."
"Where exactly are we going?" Blue eyes narrowed.
"Well, I didn't exactly have time to book us a flight to some exotic destination. You know, being doctors and all. So, we are literally going to a hotel. It's around an hour away from here, but an hour is far away enough for me right now. Anything to get you alone, and locked away."
"Oh, so I'm your prisoner? Here I was thinking I'm your equal. Your girlfriend." Smirking, Arizona slipped into the passenger seat of Callie's car and buckled up.
"Um, you are. But the next four days are all about being locked away from the world. I think we need that right now. Yeah?"
"Yeah. Definitely." Arizona agreed. "I think a little alone time may be just what we need."
Settling back into her seat, Arizona turned her head and fixed her gaze on the streets of Seattle passing her by. How do we always manage to be together? I truly thought I'd lost her. Lost us, forever. The night lights of the city fading by the second, the blonde narrowed her eyes and prayed that her tears wouldn't fall. She didn't want to cry anymore. She'd done enough of that to last her a lifetime. Between Natalie and Suzanne, she'd cried more than a river. She'd cried every single tear she thought she'd need. Right now, she needed to keep her emotions in check. She knew she wanted everything with Callie, and she knew that her girlfriend felt the same.
All of that could wait right now, though. The house, the family, the lifetime together. Right now, she just needed to feel her Calliope close to her. Their bodies moulded together. The only body that could ever make her head spin. The only body that could turn her into a pool on the floor. The only body she would ever, and could ever need. Closing her eyes, she focused on the woman next to her. She focused on how much Callie meant to her. How much she needed her. How much she wanted her.
"You're thinking too loud."
Startled, Arizona snapped her head around to meet her girlfriend's eyes. "I-I wasn't."
"You're also a terrible liar." Callie smiled. "You okay?"
"Yeah." The blonde gave a nod. "I was just thinking about how much I love you."
"Y-You were?" The brunette flashed her megawatt smile.
"Of course. I always think about you, Cal. How happy you make me. How much I want you in my life forever. How together we can do anything we want."
"Well, I love you, too," Callie stated. "So much." Giving her girlfriend another smile, the brunette concentrated on the road in front of her. Knowing that she could stop the car at any moment and take her girlfriend at the side of the road, Callie thought it best to keep her focus on getting them to the hotel before she undressed the blonde.
Pulling their bags from the trunk, Arizona turned and looked up at the huge building in front of her. Wow, how the hell did she afford this? Swallowing, she brought her vision back down and to the woman stood beside her. "Calliope, I-"
"You like?" Red lips curled into a smile as she placed a bag down beside her.
"Y-Yeah, but how?" Arizona was struggling for words right now. Sure, she was comfortable with the money she made, and yes, she could probably afford a night here, but four? No way.
"How what? How did I bag us the best room in this amazing hotel?"
"Well, yeah." Arizona shrugged. "I mean, it's amazing, but please don't try to make me feel better with something so big. I love it, but a crappy motel would be good enough for me as long as you were with me."
"Maybe we should get ourselves inside and then I can tell you all about it."
"All about what?" Arizona swallowed, hard.
"I'll tell you inside. I don't think you want to hear it while we are stood outside. Besides, it's starting to rain." Grabbing the bag beside her, Callie shuffled inside and waited for the blonde to catch up with her.
Tell me about what? Did she win big? Is she some sort of professional poker player on the side? What the hell does she have to tell me? Shaking herself from her thoughts, Arizona picked up her pace and joined the brunette at the check in desk.
"Thank you." Callie smiled at the young man taking her bags from her grasp. Receiving their key card, she motioned for Arizona to join her at the elevator and hit the button that would take them to their room.
Hearing the ding of the bell, Arizona stepped inside the elevator and stood beside the brunette. "Callie? What did you do?"
"Huh? I didn't do anything."
"Well, clearly you did." Glancing around the luxurious elevator, Arizona narrowed her eyes. "I mean, this is just the carriage of the elevator. I can't even imagine what the rooms are like."
"Then don't imagine it. Just wait until we get there." Brown eyes rolled playfully. "You don't do surprises very well, do you?"
Shifting her weight from left to right, Arizona gave the other woman an awkward smile. "No. I hate surprises."
"Oh, well maybe we should head back down and go home?" Callie played as she hovered her finger over the elevator keypad.
"Well, I mean, since we're here? It would be rude not to make full use of what we have. Right?"
"Right." Callie laughed. Stopped by the elevator signalling their destination, both women stepped off and Arizona held her breath. "Breathe, baby."
"Sorry." She sighed. "I just get really nervous when I don't know what to expect. I just, I can't help but feel like you've spent far too much money on this room and here I am, lowering the tone… once again."
"No, I get it." The brunette smiled as she reached the door. "This looks like a lot, and it is, but I promise we will still be able to eat for the next few weeks." Swiping the key card and receiving a green light for her efforts, she pushed open one-half of the double doors and stepped inside. God, it's been a while since I've been in here.
"Oh, holy crap!" Arizona squealed. "Look at that freaking bed!"
"Mm, looks good enough to roll around in for four days." Stopping Arizona, she wrapped her arms around her from behind and placed light kisses on her shoulder. "Don't you think?"
"Well, when you give me a taster of what to expect, it's hard to think of anything else." The blonde groaned as she tilted her head to the left, allowing Callie all the access she wanted.
"Maybe we should unpack later. No time like the present, right?" Raising an eyebrow, the brunette guided her girlfriend back towards the super king-size bed.
"Oh, not so fast." Arizona turned and raised a hand between them. "Before I get into that bed with you, you have some explaining to do."
Groaning, Callie rolled her eyes and sighed. "Seriously? Right now?"
"Oh yeah." Arizona laughed. Moving slowly around the room, the blonde took in the features and the luxury and waited for Callie to give her some answers. "So?"
"So, it's no big deal." Tanned shoulders shrugged. Taking a seat on the edge of the bed, Callie figured that the sooner she got what she had to say out, the sooner things could get back to the way they were only moments before. "Look, I don't want you to be mad for not telling you this sooner, but I kinda have a little money stashed away."
"Why would I be mad at you? Your money is just that, Cal. It's yours." Arizona smiled. "We all have a little money tucked away somewhere but this room must be what? Like three thousand a night?"
"Mm, give or take," Callie responded, nonchalantly. "Look, I have a lot of money stashed away. Okay? I know, I should have told you sooner but I didn't want it to affect anything we had."
"How do you mean? Why would it affect anything?"
"She always said I was never to talk about it. Made her feel less or something. I don't know why." She shrugged. "It's not like I flaunted what I have."
"Okay." Arizona gave a nod. "So, you have quite a lot of money."
"I do." Callie raised an eyebrow. "It's not going to be a problem is it?"
"What? No." Blonde curls shook. "I just, I guess I thought you'd have told me, but I get why you didn't."
"I'm sorry." Callie stood. Closing the distance between them, she gave the blonde a knowing look and bit down on her bottom lip. "Maybe I could make it up to you?" Unzipping Arizona's coat, the brunette fixed her gaze on darkening blue eyes. Lips connecting, she swallowed a moan from the blonde and ran her fingers under the material covering a toned stomach.
"Wait." Arizona moaned. Placing a light grip on the caramel fingers doing all the right kind of things her body.
"Oh come on." Brown eyes rolled. "Are you trying to tell me you don't want this?"
"No, Calliope. I'm trying to tell you that the police called me this morning." Arizona gave a sad smile.
"Oh." Callie stepped back slightly. "S-She is getting away with it, isn't she?"
"No, baby." Blonde curls shook. "She isn't."
"What? Six months with some sort of community order?" The brunette scoffed. "Typical."
Guiding her girlfriend back towards the bed, Arizona felt the weight of the world lifting from her shoulders. Today had been a day full of all kinds of emotions, and today had been a day she never wanted to repeat again. The beautiful hotel, yes. The rest? That could stay in the past. Forever. Feeling Callie's knees connect with the edge of the bed, she pushed her back and climbed on top.
"Arizo-" Cut off by soft pink lips connecting with her own, Callie felt the desperate need to feel each other's body against their own. God, I've missed this. Lips gliding along her jawline and then sucking on that sweet spot below her ear, Callie moaned and arched her back.
Bringing her lips up the shell of the brunettes eat, Arizona smiled. "Ten years, Calliope."
Thanks for reading, guys. This was more of filler chapters to finally end Suzanne's time in the fic. Can't say I'll miss the bitch. I also didn't want to make a big deal out of the money situation. It's been done. Just wanted to put it in there to help with future chapters.
Looking forward to your reviews! The more the merrier. X