Well this was fast right?

Thank you so much for all your kind words and for sticking up with me on this journey. And thanks to Lorena for being the beta on this and working so damn hard!

Love you all!

Sam

"Each time you happen to me all over again"

Edith Warton

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March

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"I never thought I could be this happy" Damon murmured absently while stroking my hair. We were lying on the grass under the shadow of a tree while Stefan and Valerie, a sweet new girl who arrived to town, splashed around in the lake. "Never thought I deserved it"

"I know what you mean" I answered even though I know I hadn't lived half the things Damon did. When I thought about his time in prison I couldn't help but shiver and feel sorry for him, for all those nights he had to spend alone and scared in that place "I never want us to be apart, Damon"

"We never will be" I felt the rise and fall of his chest as he took a deep breath, then he leaned down to place a kiss on my forehead "Why would we ever be apart?"

"I don't know; things happen…people can try to keep us apart" I answered thinking about my parent's and all of the things Bonnie had said to me the last time I saw her last month

"No, no one can tear us apart. I could never let you go, Elena; they would have to kill me to keep me away from you"

"Don't say things like that" I whispered and lifted myself so I could stare into his eyes. With the light of the morning they looked so crystalline, like two pools of water that shone only for me "I don't like it when you talk like that" From time to time Damon used to get this dark gloom over him, a darkness that let me know of all the things he had lived and had to endure, he had been forced to grow up after all, to keep his brother safe.

"Don't be upset" He cupped my chin and lifted his head slightly to kiss my lips "I don't ever want to make you upset" I smiled sweetly at him and nuzzled my nose with his, the darkness vanishing from his features as my heart eased inside my chest.

I lay on top of his chest once again as his arms circled me and we lay there in silence for a few minutes, just enjoying being together. The air was still slightly chilly around us and the birds were singing in the sky, I was as happy as anyone could be and I wanted the moment to last forever.

"Hey! You coming or what?!" Stefan's shout brought us back to the present and we laughed as we got up and ran towards the lake.

I wish I could still go back to that childish ignorance I used to live in back then. I wish I could go back to sunny days in the lake and kisses under the shadows of the trees.

I wish I could see that old Elena again, happy and ignorant of all things that are bad in the world.

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APRIL

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"Was there snow in all of the places you lived in?" I asked into his neck, we were curled together on his bed with nothing but silence surrounding us.

It was too late for it to still be snowing but against all meteorological reasons last night it had snowed and now the world seemed to be as still as ever with a large cape of snow covering the ground. It was around six a.m. and the sun was already peeking through the blinds. I had stayed with Damon all night, my mother thought I was at a sleepover, Jeremy had convinced one of his friends to lie for us so I could spend the night with Damon.

We didn't sleep for even a second, it was the first night that I got to spend the entire night with him and there was nothing more beautiful than waking up with him beside me, seeing his face first thing in the morning… it was in that moment that I knew this was the way I wanted to wake up every single day of my life.

"Come on" He said while standing up and offering me his hand so I could do the same. He was in nothing but his underwear and I had his shirt on, his smell surrounding me everywhere, I had never felt safer "Do you like the snow?" He asked as we stood in front of his window. His arms were surrounding me from behind and I was leaning against his chest, my head slightly tipped back.

"I love it; I think there's nothing more beautiful"

"Then we'll have to go live somewhere where it snows all the time" He said firmly and I couldn't help but laugh in delight.

"Perhaps only in the winter" I said as I stroked the arms that were encircling me "I also enjoy of the sun in the summer"

He kissed the skin underneath my ear softly "Only in the winter then"

"So our children can build snowmen every Christmas" I told him

"And we'll have a fireplace to keep us warm during that time, we'll cuddle up next to it while the children open their presents" He rested his head on my neck and I could feel his smile forming "It'll be perfect"

"Yes, it's going to be"

"We'll buy our girl beautiful tutus so you can dance with her all around the house" His arms gripped me more tightly and I felt almost breathless with delight

"She'll be a dancer?" I asked

"Of course, just like her mother"

He kissed my neck and I closed my eyes in complete and utter bliss. "And what about our boy? Will he be just like you?"

"Nah, he'll be smart like his uncle Stefan" He said nonchalantly but I didn't like his comment at all, I didn't like when he diminished himself so I turned around in his arms and pressed a kiss to his lips.

"No, I want him to be just like you" I told him "Smart, independent, and loving"

He smiled and rested his forehead against mine. "When did you decide that I was worth saving?"

"The first time you smiled at me"

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Then May arrived…

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"Elena, your mother worries about you" My father told me one night while mom was at reading club with her friends. We were sitting in the couch in front of the TV when he suddenly took the remote and muted the thing. He turned around and looked at me straight in the eye and whispered those words.

"What do you mean? I don't think she worries, I think she's angry" I told him honestly. Dad was a sweet man and he had never truly paid attention to the kind of person my mom was.

"Fine, she's angry" He said half laughing "I'm the one who's worried"

"You? About what?"

"About that boy you're seeing. I don't think he's right for you"

I stayed silent. Throughout all of my life it had been my dad who had supported me when mom didn't, the only time I remember him turning his back on me was when I told him I wanted to be a dancer and that was only after mom had a very long chat convincing him it was the wrong choice.

"I've been telling her it's only a passing thing, it is right?" He looked at me as if expecting for me to confirm or deny but I remained silent "Of courses it is, a passing whim. What harm could it do? June is coming and you'll graduate and head on to a university for women"

"Dad, I'm not going there" I said softly "I want to go to New York, to dance school"

He laughed and looked at me tenderly "Dance school? That's just another whim like when you wanted to be a pilot and used to run around with your arms stretched out like a bird, but then it passed right?" He laughed softly and turned on the volume of the TV.

I loved my dad and I was sure he adored me but he didn't know me anymore, he couldn't see that I had changed and there was no turning back.

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And then the old month of June came…

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I suspect I was the only woman from Mystic Falls high school who was going to graduate wearing a cap and with a baby inside her underneath the gown. I was paralyzed with fear and I had been since the moment I found out. I never expected for this to happen, it was never in our plans…Damon and I had been so careful.

"What are we going to do Damon?" I said in a bare whisper, we were in his room and he was pacing back and forth in front of me. I could see fear and anxiety in his face but hidden underneath it all there was also joy, Damon wasn't angry about this new development and somehow that gave me comfort, it made me believe everything was going to be okay.

Because if he believed we could do this than it certainly meant we could.

"It'll be fine, Elena, don't worry; I'll make everything okay again. I'm going to take care of you and the baby. We'll go to California, I know some people there and we'll get married. I can get a job in construction and we'll find a nice house. It'll be just like we wanted. You, me and our baby."

"Damon-"

"It'll be fine, Elena, I'll take care of you" He kneeled down and placed a hand on my tummy "I'll take good care of both of you" His lips broke into a loving smile and I felt my chest expanding with happiness "It's happening a bit sooner than what we expected but we'll make it work"

I nodded and let him take me into his arms. Inside my mind a millions of things were swirling around, it couldn't be that easy, could it? How were we going to live? Could he truly get a job so soon? And most importantly, how were we going to tell my parents? I was a minor so I needed their permission to marry, I knew dad would support me but I had no idea what mother would do, I had disgraced her, she was never going to forgive me for it.

"I'm scared, Damon" I confessed and was ashamed of the tremble in my voice.

"I know you are doll, I get it but you don't have to worry" He took my face between his hands and stared deeply at me, his blue eyes growing bigger and shinning in the dim light of the room "Do you think I will fail you?"

"Of course not, Damon" I answered truthfully

"We'll go to your parents and we'll talk to them about our plans" He kissed my forehead and then nuzzled my nose "It's all going to be okay"

He pressed his lips against mine and we lay there on his bed for hours just kissing, our bodies tangled together as if nothing else in the world mattered but us, here I was safe and loved, here in his arms I didn't have to fear my parents or society, I could be happy.

As his hands caressed me and his lips fused with mine I convinced myself everything was going to be fine. Damon had promised, he was going to take care of us and knowing the kind of man he was I couldn't doubt him. We were going to be happy and have the best life, I had nothing to fear, I only wanted him and our baby, we were going to make it work.

You can say now that it was naïve of me to think that way; that I had no idea about the ways of the world or how cruel it can be to a pair of young lovers who want nothing but to be happy, and you probably would be right. Because in that moment I was truly happy, I thought I had my life worked out and that I was going to live happily ever after but I was so wrong because in only a matter of days the world around me crumbled.

And here I am ten years later still bleeding over the wounds that disastrous love left me.

So the shit is about to hit the fan, any reviews?