Chapter 7- letter and decision.

"My dear Killu! Why don't we having a nice tea time outside, it is sunny out here" Kikyo said trying to get her son out of the bed and cheer him up.

"No thanks" was all Killua's reply.

"Umm, how about going to a concert?" Kikyo ask again.

"No"

"Amusement Park?"

"No"

" Eat at Luxurious Restaurant?"

"No"

"Swimming?"

"No"

"Skiing?"

"No"

" Going on a holiday overseas? Anywhere you want"

"No"

"Argh! You look so pathetic right now!" Kikyo scream while Killua looks at her mother in surprise since her mother never talk about him like that.

"Wh-Wha" was all Killua can say.

"So what if Gon had found someone, she is still your fiancée and she is not together yet with that blonde right?" Kikyo said causing Killua to flinch a bit.

"Ye-yeah, but they look good together" Killua softly mumbled.

"Oh, so you are just giving up like that?" Kikyo look at Killua in sneer.

"Eh?" Kilua said, quite surprised with her mother change of attitude.

"Love is war and all is fair in love and war" Kikyo said, a bit dramatically.

"Umm… I don't understand" Killua looks quite confused right now.

"Oh my dear Killu, you are a genius but clueless when it comes to love" Killua narrowed his eyes a bit but in his mind, he truly agrees.

"But mom, how can I approach Gon when she doesn't even want to see me?" Killua asked,

"Oh Killu, then you should do it in an old fashioned way" Kikyo said while smiling.

"Old fashioned way?" Killua repeats, confused.

"Write a letter. A letter for her!" Kikyo practically screamed right now.

Killua flinch a bit " A letter? What should I write about?"

Kikyo smirk. " Everything. The day first you meet her until now. Write about it"

Killua could feel blood is leaving his face as he goes pale. " But that will take a lot of pages and it is already half a year for us to meet each other until now."

"Who cares, summarizes it then,. Write about your feelings and everything you want to tell her" Kikyo said.

"But, what if she doesn't read it?" Killua started to have some doubts.

"Then write it so many times! It wasn't like you to give up easily." Kikyo said.

"But- alright, I'll write it" Killua said and take some papers and pen.

"Good, make it good. I'll see it later, tell me when it is finished"

So because of that, Killua write the letter for Gon that he put everything he could convey it best since this is the only hope he have. He started to write which is quite long and then let his parents read it. After a while he sees his mother cries a bit while his father turn his gaze away from him.

"Huh? Wh- What? Do I wrote something bad?" Killua asked, a bit panicked.

"Oh, Killu, How touching!" Kikyo cries and takes out her handkerchief to wipe her tears.

"Ok..ok. It's good" Silva only waves his hand while turning his gaze, apparently he is sobbing a bit.

Anyway, he asked Gotoh to deliver it since Gon doesn't want to see him. He hoped that Gon would read it.

"No"

Was all Gon could say when she sees Gotoh delivering the letter.

"But Gon-sama, please accept it." Gotoh said.

"You were interrupting my work time only for this?" Gon put her hands on her hips then look at Gotoh sharply.

"I'm truly sorry, Gon-sama but Killua-sama really wish that you read the letter that he wrote for you since he knows that you didn't want to meet him". Gotoh said, trying to persuade Gon.

"But-" Gon trailed off, not knowing what to say.

"Killua-sama only wishes that you read this. That's all, Gon-sama. I can assure you about that". Gotoh said.

Gon ponders for a moment. "Alright, I'll take the letter and read it after my work".

Gotoh smiled "Thank you very much Gon-sama"

Gon narrowed her eyes a bit "Quit calling my name with a sama, Gotoh. There is no need for you to"

"Of course there is Gon-sama, you are still Killua-sama's fiancée after all". Gotoh said.

"Wha- but." Gon stutters

"Don't worry Gon-sama. You will figure everything out after reading the letter. Then, please excuse me" Gotoh bowed and left leaving Gon who pondering about the content of the letter.

After the work, Gon goes back to her room and trying to read the letter. She was quite surprised to see the pages and there are some quite blurry because it is wet. Was it teardrops or maybe water fell during Killua wrote it since Gon knew that Killua would never cries.

"Hmm, let's see what does Killua writes about"

Dear Gon

Hey, I'm sorry that this is my first time writing letter so it is not good. Maybe the first thing I should write about is I'm sorry that I have hurt you and everything I do that made you feel miserable. I hope that you will forgive me.

You know, my mother was the one who asked me to write a letter since you don't want to see me so I did. I still remember the first time we met at school, I think you are the most interesting girl out of everyone I met. The only one who is not scared of me and the only one who is able to stood up before me. I have to say that at first, you are taking my interest and when I throw the paper ball with the message of `will you be my friend`, I have to admit that I did that so I could see your reaction. I'm sorry about it and I am not joking when I said you are really good at cooking, I'm sorry when I'm started to compare you with all the chefs but I would say that your cooking is the best and until now I really miss your cooking.

Then, remember our first kiss when that made you my fiancée? Truthfully I am a little excited for that since it is hard for me to get you off my mind. I really have to tell you that you are truly beautiful, especially when that wet state. Still, you would always look beautiful for me. I began to miss you so much.

I'm truly sorry when I force you for sex even though I haven't take your virginity yet. I have to admit that I was really mad at that time and I guess, there is still no reason for me to do it. All I can say was sorry although I would be lying when I tell you that I didn't enjoy it. Anyway I'm truly sorry.

Remember the party? When I see you, my breath was caught at your sight and I felt like I forgot on how to breathe. My knees have gone weak and I sigh from looking at your graceful movement. I truly jealous when I see a lot of guys trying to have you so I stormed over and yells at them even it means abusing my power for it. When I am talking to you at that time, I want to compliment you. Trying to tell you how beautiful you are to the point that words can't describe it but what come out is harsh words, I'm really sorry about it also, for leaving you alone are what I'm still regretting about. Just so you know, Rumi is no longer my wife. I know that it is true that I do "it" with her and she should be my wife but I'm not her first so she has been ousted. Either way, when you left, I began to feel how much it hurts me to know you are not here. I wish I could tell you in person but I'll just tell it here. You may think it is impossible for you but it is true, I love you Gon. I'm sorry that I have never ever realizes it. I'm sorry that I never know about your pain and I'll never treat you right.

Had I had a second chance with you, I would treat you the way you are deserved to be treated. Sorry for the blurriness, I cried a lot when I wrote this. Ever since you left, I have been cried a lot. Pathetic right? But if it means on getting you back, I won't mind admitting it. I'm sorry again that I read your diary, you left it behind the pillow. After reading it, It made me realize that I truly have been an asshole for you. There is no excuse on everything I have done for you. All I want you to know that I really love you to the point that I would buy anything and do anything in order to get you back. Even if you want revenge for me, I don't mind. As long as you are coming back with me. I truly wish we could start over, if we can, I would feel like the happiest guy ever lived.

Even so, I know that it is quite impossible. I know about Kurapika and I did see both of you together, you look really happy together with him. One glance and I can tell that he would protect you and take care of you, he is nice to you as well. Quite an ideal of so-called-prince charming right? I have to admit, it is the first time I have seen you smile and laugh. Truly a sight that is never given to me as I never do anything to achieve it. I truly love you Gon but your happiness is my top priority so if you don't want anything to do with me, I'll terminate the contract of the fiancée then you would be free to choose anyone you want. If you have reached your decision, come to the Zaoldyeck estate and tell me. Either way, I would respect your decision. Even if you choose Kurapika, I'm fine with it since it might be a punishment for me for neglecting you when I have you, I'll say that I have completely lose my chance for you. No matter what, even you are with someone else, I would always love you. Thanks for reading this, I'm sorry for everything and I love you.

Love

Killua Zaoldyeck

All Gon can do was went silent after she finish reading the letter. She knows that she has a crush on Kurapika and excited to know that there is a way that she would be no longer are Killua's fiancée. Right now she rushed over to find Kurapika, telling the news.

Few days later at the Zaoldyeck's estate living room.

Gon sit nervously on the living room, it sure has been a long time that she has been here. A while later, the door opens and revealing Killua who come in and sit across of her.

"Err hi" Killua is nervous as well, as it is obvious from his face and his face making Gon relax a bit.

"Um" Gon answer and nods her head, slowly.

"So…" Killua fidgets a bit "Since you are here, I take it that you have reach the decision?" Killua asked.

"Yeah, I have." Gon said.

"I- I see" Killua stutters a bit. "So, what is your answer then?"

`BAKA! You are still asking? It is obvious that she would choose Kurapika`

Killua winced and unconsciously closed his eyes. He wished that he shouldn't hear her answer even though he already expecting it, he opens his eyes in surprise when he felt a warm hand on his. He look at Gon who is giving her a smile that Killua thought was angelic and given to him.

"I choose you Killua"

Killua went speechless, hearing Gon's soft voice and the first time she calls his name. Is he dreaming right now? If yes, he doesn't want to wake up right now.

He intertwines his fingers with Gon, still having difficulty to speak but he did after few seconds.

"Y- yo-you ch-chooseme? Really?" Killua stutters and surprised, still can't believe it. He is still thinking that this is a dream.

Immediately he pinches himself on the cheek and winced at the pain. "Ouch, this isn't a dream"

Gon giggles at Killua who thought that it was music to his ears. Gon let go of Killua's hand who immediately whine in disappointment but went speechless when Gon come over and give a kiss at the cheek where Killua just pinched.

"There, it doesn't hurt anymore? Does it?" Gon asked.

Killua felt so happy right now that he shot up and hug Gon immediately, as if scared of losing her again.

"Oh,Gon. I love you, I love you so much" Killua started to cry, he don't care that he look really pathetic, He is so happy that Gon is back right now.

"Um, yeah Killua. I do want to ask you that I want us to take things slow" Gon said.

"Yeah, anything you want me to do, I will do it for you. Just, stay like this for a moment alright?" Killua said while still hugging Gon,

Gon smiles before returning the hug and says" Alright"

Neither realizes that Kikyo and Silva are currently eavesdropping and recording everything in the video camera . All that is matters for Killua is that Gon is finally back.

And he will never ever let her go again. Ever.