You attempt to be John so that you abscond but can't because you are too busy being Karkat.
John does try to abscond but you grab the front of his shirt and pull him back. He averts his eyes.
"So you were the fuckwit who ruined my friends' relationship." You say through gritted teeth.
He looks up at you in surprise.
"That's what you're mad about? You don't care that your privacy was invaded?"
You roll your eyes.
"Fuck no. It's not like I expect any respect from all of you shitsucking nookstains. But you just had to screw over Terezi and Gamz."
John sticks out his chin, a sure sign that he is getting defensive.
"It wasn't all my fault. If you hadn't been spying in the first place…"
"I wasn't fucking spying! Besides, it wouldn't have mattered if your dumbass moirail didn't start macking on Terezi!"
He pushes you. You stumble a couple of steps back. You forgot that he was slightly bigger and stronger than you.
"Don't you bring Dave into this! And he's not my mow… miy…moy…"
"Oh sorry, I thought we were dragging everyone into this seedflap spilling shitfest! Hey everyone! Gather around! Let's all flail around like a bunch of clueless wrigglers! We can all have a shouting party and scream at one another until our nutrition tubes bleed!"
By now, quite a few people have heard the commotion and are standing in their doorways, listening to your argument. John seems a little put off by this, but you don't give a fuck. Let the listen for all you care! It would all get around anyways. Gossip travels fast in this gogforsaken shithive.
"That doesn't even make any sense! I am so done with your endless dramatics." He says.
"Yes, I'm the one causing all of the drama here. Go ahead, blame it all on me! Everything is essentially my fault after all."
"That too! I can't stand it. You're always whining and complaining about how much you hate yourself and it's getting really old! You're a shitty friend and everyone is sick of your weird self-obsession. Everyone is sick of you!"
He huffs, his face flushed with contempt. You stare blankly at him for a moment as what he said sinks in. You would never admit it, but it is true. Everyone does hate you. Even you hate you! You can't bring yourself to say this though, so you settle for two words that you have said many times, but never with such malice as you do now.
"Fuck you."
You turn your back to John and walk away. You are about to return to your respite block when Nepeta steps in your way.
"Karkitty?" She says, her eyes wide.
"Leave me alone Nepeta." You say, pushing past her.
"But—"
"I said fuck off! I don't need this right now and I don't need you."
You abscond to your respite block and slam the door behind you. All of the anger has left and all you can feel is numbness. You sink to the floor and curl up into a ball on the ground. The cold floor presses against your cheek.
Why do you always fuck everything up? You ruined Terezi and Gamzee's relationship. You screwed over Strider. You probably just went and destroyed your friendship with John.
Any time anything good happens to you, friends, quadrants, some actual peace for once, you always manage to mess it up.
You tug at your own hair, pulling it over your eyes.
Sometimes you wish you could just stop being you, that you could be someone else for once who isn't so fucking awful. But you can't. You're stuck being a tiny grey mutant, curled up on the floor of your respite block, wishing it all would just end.
Tavros, knock on Vriska's door.
Hey look at that! Two updates in one day. What a surprise. :) I think it's obvious by now that I don't have a life. :P
Anyways, headcannon! Just a little one. John sticks out his chin when he is feeling particularly stubborn. Also, poor Karkat. :( He thinks everyone hates him. He doesn't like himself very much does he? He's a very sad character when you think about it.
Again, a quick thank you to everyone who has been following, favoriting and reviewing. It makes me really happy. ^-^