Chapter 5: Just like before

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Oh shit. Stupid spirit. Why does it have to be the only element with side effects? Spirit is a recently discovered element that only some people specialized in. It's mostly psychic powers such as healing, dream walking, and being able to see auras'.

Last fall we discovered that Lissa is a spirit user, and that she isn't the first. In fact, our school's namesake was also a spirit user. We also had a teacher who was also a spirit user, but she was sort of nuts last time we saw her. And of course, Adrian is one too. We found out after he dream walked into our dreams uninvited.

Spirit is a joyful, wonderful, light filled magic. In the right hands, the person can do great things, but it also has its really bad side. You see, there are side effects to spirit called the shadows. The shadows are, well, I can't really describe it but, you see when you use spirit too much, the shadows get closer, and closer. They make the person go crazy, go into depression, or make them become suicidal.

Ms. Karp our teacher went crazy. She used to think people were after her, and I guess she was right. Anyway, one day, she intentionally turned strigoi just to escape the shadows of spirit. She had used spirit too much that they eventually took her to the point that she can't even keep herself sane anymore. But there are ways of coping with spirit. Adrian used alcohol and cigarettes to numb the effects of spirit. It works, but it only worked when he was drunk or high when he is awake. When he's asleep, the effects strain and he's able to use spirit. Lissa used to use depression pills to help her. But she still felt the magic when she got used to the pills. So, either go strigoi, drink and do drugs, pills, or get a shadow-kissed guardian.

A shadow-kissed means that you died in other words you were 'kissed' by the shadows, but a spirit user healed you enough to bring you back. That is what and Shadow-kissed Anna did hundreds of years ago, and what Lissa and I have now. So instead of her getting the darkness, I catch it from her. When that happens, I get really, really pissed, and have to calm myself down or else I go crazy like Karp, or kill myself like what Anna did.

I felt the adrenaline rush coming. My hands were shaking, and my heart was thumping so hard in my chest that it burst out. "Those f****** morons!" I started to shred the sheets on the bed. Then I knocked down the nightstands and the tables and chairs I could get my hands on. I can't believe those idiots. When I get my hands on them I'll make sure they suffer badly for all the things they had done. I tore the living room part after there was nothing left in the bedroom. I shred the couch until the cotton stuck out in large streaks and broke down everything that was standing. Next was the window.

"Roza stop!" Dimitri grabbed hold of me before I could break down the windows. I kicked and tried to pull out of his hold but he's stronger than me. I bit down on his arm. He flinched but other than that he didn't move. "That really hurt you know."

"Let me go!" I screeched. "I have to get back to the academy; I have to make Jesse pay!" He held me harder and dragged me to the now shredded bed. When his back was turned for a moment, I used at a chance of escape. But before I could move three feet from the bed, he had me pinned down to the ground. "I said let me go!"

He looked at me with a concerned look. "Rose, this isn't you." he said. "You have to calm down please." He pleaded with his eyes. I growled at him.

"Dimitri. Let. Me. Go. Now." I enunciated each word to intimidate him. But it didn't work. He put on his usual stoic look so I can't really tell. He didn't move as I fussed around.

"Roza, please." He pleaded. "I know how much you want to kill him, but please you have to calm down." He brought his palm to my cheek. "Please calm down."

I breathed in and out heavily as I let the shadows fade. It worked. Oh my god, I wanted to kill someone. And on top of that, a moroi. I swore that if I did become a strigoi I wouldn't kill anyone, but two minutes ago, I only cared about how much I would like to see Jesse and Ralf being drained of blood. Oh God…

Dimitri saw my horrified expression and got off of me. He carried me to the bed and placed me sitting on the edge on the bed. I looked down at the broken pieces of wood that was once the nightstand. I felt a shift of weight on the bed next to me and from the corner from my eye I saw Dimitri's knees touching mine. He put an arm around me and held me to his chest.

I felt my eyes starting to water, and I started bawling into his hard rock muscle. His hand on his other arm started to rub circles on my back to soothe me.

"It isn't your fault." He murmured as he rubbed. "I'm here, its ok. I'll protect you my Rose."

I looked up to his dark brown eyes as I bit my upper lip. I let go of it and had to choke back sobs. "I don't know if I can believe that anymore." I sobbed.

He shook his head. "You can believe it Roza." He held me tighter. "I will always be here if you need me. I won't just leave you alone to face this." I sobbed more after. "Why are you still crying?"

I gave a small laugh as I wiped my eyes and sniffled. "Because what you just said was really sweet." He gave a half smile. "Dimitri, what would I do without you?"

He thought for a moment. "I don't want to know." I smiled. That makes two of us.

After a few quiet moments, his lips met mine in a soft, gentle kiss. I kissed him back and the kiss became hungrier. He pinned me down to the bed again with my legs wrapped around his waist and my hands in his hair, while his hands were wrapped around my waist. [I'm really bad at detail].

It was just like what happened at the cabin, but instead if leaving, Dimitri stayed with his arms wrapped around me. My sweaty back was pressed to his sweaty front and his arms wrapped around my waist. He trailed kisses up and down my neck while murmuring 'Roza, Roza, Roza.'

"I love you, Roza." He whispered into my ear. "I'll always be here if you need me. Don't forget that."

"I love you too Dimitri." I sighed in contentment. " I always will."

We both fell into a deep oblivion of peace after that.

Sorry, I'm not really into detail, and yes, I know Strigoi don't sleep!

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