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Chapter 17: Everything starts crashing down

Rpov

We went back to the hotel that we stayed at the first time; I still don't know it's damn name! Dimitri just stared mindlessly out the window most of the time and did nothing, just stare.

Eli and Anna were still the same, but I think they know. Eli has been very clingy to Dimitri and I for the last few nights, and he and Anna would wake up in the middle of the night screaming and crying.

Lissa and Christian,…well…Christian is a little worried for Lissa. Her stomach has started to show, and on top of that, she somehow became at the peak of the emotion thing that girls were sensitive too. She would act like how she was back when we came back to the academy, depressed, cut off, and lonely, except no cutting, but she did scratch herself hard enough to make scrapes.

Adrian and Eddie weren't so good either.

Adrian was not his fun loving self anymore. He would drink heavily in his standards, he started even doing dangerous drugs, and he even smoked pot every once in a while.

And Eddie, it seemed like he got darker. Even more dark than when Mason had died, losing his best friend scarred him, now losing his family and dear friends, worse.

It seemed like I was the one trying to hold everything together, but the truth is, I wasn't. I only tried not to cry because I had to be strong for everyone, including myself.

"Eli," I whispered to my son who quietly napped on the small couch.

He stirred in his sleep then opened his eyes. "Yes mama?"

I looked to Dimitri who just stood near the window in his usual place. I whispered in his ear something, and he nodded. He walked over to Dimitri and smacked him right on the head.

Nothing. Dimitri just sat there and stared mindlessly. Eli turned to me and shrugged. He walked back to the couch and went back to sleep. I shook my head and walked over to stand behind my husband.

I wrapped by arms from behind. "Dimitri?"

"Hmm?"

I gave a small smile. "How about we all go out today?" I asked. "Wouldn't that be fun?"

He turned to look at me and nodded. "That would be nice."

I sighed. "Dimitri," I pressed. " I know you're worried, I am too, but moping around won't help get them all back."

He gave me a hard look. His eyes that were filled with anger were now filled with anger. "So you're telling me that I can't worry about my family?"

I winced and unwrapped myself from his as he stood up abruptly. "I'm not saying that." I said. "I'm just telling you that we can't just sit around here doing nothing."

His glare hardened. "Then what can I do Rose?" He nearly shouted. "I can't leave you here alone with the kids; I can't just go and leave because you know why?" I flinched. "Because of you." He words were like knives.

I felt my heart crack. "You don't mean that." I felt tears coming. How can he just day that? I thought he didn't want to leave me. "You said you'll never leave me, leave us."

He nodded and huffed. "I did, back then, but now, I don't know." He said. My tears fell and poured. "Rose, maybe its best if…"

I lost it. "If what?" I blew up. "If we never fell in love? If you never turned me strigoi? If we never had kids?" He almost looked hurt. Good, he deserves to know what he's doing to me.

He shook his head. "Rose, I never meant it like that." He took a step closer to me and tried to hug me, but I moved away."

I sniffled and more tears came. "No." I said. "You did mean it. You know you did."

He shook his head. "Rose, please hear me out…"

I shook my head; then I nodded. "Fine, but I better believe it."

He sighed. I walked over to him and he grabbed me in his arms and cradled me to his chest. He stroke my hair as he murmured something in Russian.

"What did you just say?" I asked.

He chuckled and kissed my forehead. "I'll never leave you." I let him keep talking. "I said those because you really are the reason why I can't leave." I sniffled and he wiped away the tears. "I didn't mean it in a way that I blame you Roza." I half smiled when he said my name in Russian. "I meant that I can't just leave you and our kids, because if I did, I might not come back, and I know you would blame yourself for not stopping me."

I sniffled. "I'm so sorry." I said.

He shook his head. "it's my fault." With that his lips met mine in a warm comforting kiss.

I heard Anna waking up and I got off of Dimitri give her a bottle. When I took her in my arms, I sat down on the bed and let her drink down her formula.

I noticed Dimitri smiling at me with this goofy smirk.

I looked up at him. "What?"

He laughed. "I just can't believe you had our baby." He carried Eli-whose a heavy sleeper onto the bed and sat down with Eli resting his head on his lap next to me. "Our babies."

I smiled and looked down at Eli. "let's not tell him who his real mother is." I frowned.

He nodded. "Okay."

Eli's real mom is a moroi blood whore named Lena. She lived in a small apartment with a human man who abuses her next door who comes and rapes her every time he gets drunk, which is almost twice a week. He's also Eli's biological father. We unfortunately had to meet them one day when we wanted Eli to really become our son. His mother signed the form happily, and told us not to let Eli know about her, or his father. She said she didn't want her gift from above to feel bad. We agreed with her and his father also agreed saying "As long as I don't have to take care of him." He's a lazy good for nothing bum. Eli is nothing like him. And Eli took after his mom, who is Dimitri's younger half sister, which is why she looks so much like Dimitri. On his father's side, but he didn't mind.

My baby, I thought and brushed away a few stray strands of hair on his face. I kissed his forehead and smiled.

Anna finished sucking on her bottle and I heard knocking on the door. "I'll get it." I said and handed Anna to Dimitri. She smiled widely, she's a total daddy's girl when it comes to Dimitri.

I opened the door to find…

I gasped. Christian stood in front of the door covered in…blood.

"What happened?" I demanded. He held Lissa in his arms who had cut in her arms, legs, and…Oh My God…her stomach. "Did you call an ambulance?"

He nodded. I told Dimitri and we ran downstairs to find an ambulance ready downstairs. Lissa and Christian rode in it while Dimitri, me, Adrian, Eddie, and the kids, rode in one of our SUV's.

We waited in the waiting room for hours. Christian came back out with bandages on his face and arms. I didn't realize some of the blood was from him, I just assumed that it was all from Lissa.

He sat down in front of us and hand his face in his hands as he cried.

"Tell us everything," I said gently. He nodded. "Christian, please?"

He lifted his face up and looked at us.

"She just lost it," he began. "She grabbed on of the silver stakes we brought with us and started cutting herself with it," He cried more tears. "I tried grabbing it from her," He sniffled. "But she kept on fighting and cutting herself and me." He started crying more. "Then she dropped the stake and…" His words were blocked with tears.

I had tears coming again. "Then what?" I choked out.

He looked at me in the eye. "It hit her stomach. She collapsed and then…Rose, they did surgery on her, they tried to save the baby and her…but…" he cried again.

Lissa…"Is she dead?" I asked. I felt my tears coming out more. He didn't answer. "Is she dead!"

"No! She isn't!" He cried. "But…the baby is."

I gasped. "She…had a…"

He nodded. "I know she didn't mean too, I don't blame her," he sniffled. And I could see the anger on his face. "Why did this happen? Why did we have to lose our child! Why!"

I hugged him and we both cried.

"We'll get them back," I said. "We'll solve this and be happy again." I said this more to myself and cried. I heard three more sobs behind me, and two light whimpers.

It'll get better. I'll get them back. I will. Soon. This will just feel like a nightmare when it's over. It'll be like all of this crap didn't happen.

This chapter was a little bit longer than I expected. Well anyway, vote on my profile, PM, or review and tell me if you this should have a sequel or not.

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