Dear Journal, Yesterday was the start of SPIRIT WEEK at Gotham High! I am so excited. Spirit week is the most fun week in all of school. You get to dress up fun for a whole week and it leads up to HOMECOMING! Guess Gotham is really the place for me because I have a HOMECOMING DATE! Yay!

Okay Harleen, wait my journal is supposed to be for psychoanalysis of high school not teenage girl talk...however, relationships are a part of high school so this entry is totally justified.

The best part is my homecoming date is the most handsome, most amazing boy in the whole school. Jack Napier! I am sure he loves spirit week, he loves anything fun. Sure, he did not totally go for pajama day yesterday but he'll definitely do Disney day today! I am sure of it. He's so fun, I love him. I wonder if we should have coordinated Disney Characters for today. Oh shoot! I should have so Gotham High Important Dates to not confuse are:

Monday: Pajama Day -Done
Tuesday: Disney Day
Wednesday: Hawaii Day
Thursday: Throwback
Friday: Gotham Knight's Pride Wear Day.
-Homecoming Football Game and Parade included on this day.
Saturday: HOMECOMING!

Even better news is that my best friend Pamela is okay. Halloween had her pretty shaken up for 24 hours, but once she was aware enough to find out she was in the hospital. Pamela instantly insisted on being level headed and ready to leave. My guess is she will probably be back in school today, campaigning for Homecoming queen. Except she does not really have to campaign much. Most of us are going to vote for her anyways I think. I mean she's been through alot this past week, which lead to her resignation as President of Gotham High. It is only fair that she gains some joy out of being homecoming queen.

Today my costume was simple yet brilliant. The only character that I could possibly be. Alice, based off the Disney movie Alice in Wonderland. I know most blondes would go toward Cinderella or sleeping beauty, but I wanted to surprise MisTah J on being different. He always seems happy when I surprise him. Maybe it's because he himself is full of surprises. Yesterday after pajama day he took me on a date to a gun range! I have never been there before but I guess he must be a republican. That's not too bad right? Sure, I felt a little silly learning how to use a gun in my pajamas but he insisted we go on the date. He gets a little disappointed and mad when I decline. Nonetheless I was happy I chose to go. He amazed me once again. I wonder if his dad was a hunter because Jack's marksmanship was brilliant, it even won us a prize. I am pretty sure it was a prize, because when Jack left to pay the guy for our experience. He came back with two guns on the house. I knew it was not really on the house. Who gives out free guns? No, Jack must have won them or paid the man to get me my own pistol so we could come back. The red and black pistol had his nickname for me 'harley' engraved on the side. Ah red and black, my two favorite colors. He is so thoughtful.

Beep-beep-beep

My alarm goes off, making me cease writing. I had 5 minutes until the bus came! Oh no! I throw my journal back into my bag, racing to finish my costume. I had to look like Alice exactly or else I would just appear to be a blonde girl in a blue dress.

By lunchtime our school looked like its own version Disneyland, I guess Gothamites really must love their costumes. I sit down at the table with Eddie and Jonathan, or should I say Grumpy and ah Scarecrow?

After a second at staring at Jonathan with my head tilted to the side Jonathan gave me a nudge. "Harleen, is something wrong?"

"Ehhh.." I tap my chin, trying hard to figure out who he was supposed to be. I knew almost every Disney character, why was this so hard. After a second, I give up. "Johnny who are you supposed to be?" I ask sitting down beside him.

"Scarecrow, from Alice in Wonderland...right?"

Barbara, a hipster and school appropriate looking Ariel, giggled from across the table. It was always hard to know when she was in a conversation with her nose constantly in a book.

"Ah no." I say, noticing a certain genius looking less interested in his phone. Eddie's smile grows wide with content as Jonathan becomes confused. I laugh, having a clue to who was behind the scarecrow look. "I think you've got your movies mixed up there.."

"No."Jonathan says, sure of himself. "I saw a video clip with Alice and the Scarecrow-"

"Could it be possible, what you saw was created by a certain computer techie that was forced to where a grumpy hat.."

"But-t what I saw looked so real..." Jonathan frowns looking over at Ed, who was looking guiltier by the second. A sandwich could not hide that mischievous smile of his. "Ed!"

"I told you I didn't want to dress up." Ed mutters, pulling on his Grumpy hat, or maybe he was Doc since his glasses were still on.

I laugh, "Oh well Jonathan, maybe no one will notice..OR!" I jump up with an idea, before sitting back down quietly. I tried to tone down the excited behind my idea. "OR! You look a litllllllleeee like Jim Hawkins from Treasure Planet with the brown shirt, just ditch the hat and you can be him!"

Without hesitation Jonathan throws his hat under the table. He smiles, giving a small nod.
"Thanks Harleen." He always came through for me, being so sweet and helpful. I was glad to finally be of help.

I look around the cafeteria to notice a variety of characters. Ozzie was the dude from the Penguin scene in Mary Poppins. What was his name? Oh! Bert! Pamela was Megara. Selena and Bruce were the pirate couple, I don't really remember the name since I have never seen Pirates of the Caribbean but I know Orlando Bloom was in it. I mean he's like half as hot as Jack, but still really cute. Speaking of couples, Harvey and Rachel were cute. The stuck to the classic tale of Beauty and the Beast. However by far the cutest couple I saw was Nora and Victor. Nora dressed as Elsa from Frozen, which I found ironic, while Victor just wore all white and attempted to pull off a snowman look. Get it? Because Victor is a cool guy. Hahaha! I've got to tell my puddin that one! Where is my puddin? I look around, searching to see if he actually came to lunch today.

"Alice! My Alice dear where have you been! Time has been ticking from here and when."

It took a second before I realize someone was calling out to me. "Huh?" I tilt my head, looking behind me to see Jervis Tetch. In comparison with most of our half assed costumes, tending to go more for the hipster style of Disney, Jervis had gone all out. His hat was huge, and he looked exactly like the one and only Mad Hatter. I smile catching on, he must be completely into his character.

"Oh Hatter! We are just having a tea party! Won't you come join us?" The boy smiles, tilting his hat. Both the boys across from me look horrified at the offer I extended. Instantly, I felt as if I had done something wrong.

"Alice would you like some tea? What is fine with you, is fine with me." Jervis takes a teapot out of his hat. Oh shit, he really was into this costume. The rhymes were amusing as well. Eddie and Jonathan exchange looks, basically back to talking in their own language. I for one found it funny. A wonderful effort on Jervis part.

"Why yes, of course I would like some." I smile.

Buzz. My phone goes off under the table. While Jervis is busy searching for the perfect teacup, I look down to see a message from Ed.

NerdyNigma: We should go

Why? :QueenOfHearts

A clap brings my attention back to the table. Sitting before me was a piping hot cup of tea. "Alice dear you must hurry or your tea will get cold. If you don't drink the red queen will take hold." Jervis muttered looking nervous, his hands twitching as he spoke.

I didn't understand. Why did both Jonathan and Eddie want to get out of here. Sure, Jervis has never been the most normal kid in Gotham High, but who were we to judge. Eddie was obsessed with puzzles, and Jonathan, well, he almost killed me with his science experiment. We should not judge Jervis any differently because he is passionate about a certain spirit week.

NerdyNigma: You don't understand Harleen, he was wearing this yesterday.

Maybe it's his pajamas, or he got the days wrong. :QueenOfHearts

NerdyNigma: No Harleen. Trust me. Jonathan will explain just follow him out. I will keep Jervis distracted.

Okay?:QueenOfHearts

Where was this all coming from. Ed is Jervis friend, they are in computer club together. Why did he want me to leave all of a sudden.

Ed smile, tapping Jervis on his shoulder. "Oh Hatter you know Alice must be going, she will be late for her meeting with the white rabbit. You know he does not handle tardiness well."

Jervis pouted, "Knick Knack, She will be back. Night, Light, Am I right?" Okay, the cute rhymes were really starting to freak me out a little more. I am not gonna argue with Ed right now. He is usually pretty wise about things. Ed nods. The Mad Hatter's eyes were wide as he started to talk quicker, "Alright, Alright, turn off the light. It's time to say goodbye, until next time, I won't cry. Alice do be well. The gates of Wonderland are the gates of hell."

Creepy! I shiver. I think Jervis has now ruined my favorite Disney movie.

I did not realize how frozen I had become in this unsettling situation. I give a small laugh, trying to break the awkwardness. Luckily for me Jonathan pulled my shoulder, getting me to follow him out.

I slip into the closest unlocked janitor's room I could find. Myself, being a future brilliant doctor of the brain, I was ever so curious what had just happened. "So the Mad Hatter..." I trail off, waiting him to explain.

Jonathan runs a hand through the soft brown waves of his hair. He takes a moment to find the right words. I could tell this was very hard for him to explain."First off, Ed and I were not trying to be mean to Jervis. He's a friend...it's just..." He sighed, "Jervis sister died this past weekend and ever since Ed says he has been acting more and more...funny."

"Alice." I gasp softly, looking down. His sister also attended our school. I was surprised no one had said a word about it. I guess in a city like Gotham, it is not unusual for people to die. "We shouldn't go on abandoning him, he really must need help through this."

"Harley- I mean- Harleen please let me and Ed deal with this. We've known Jervis for years, if there is one person that can talk to him, it is Ed...he's smart, already working his way through this Wonderland grieving analogy."

I wanted to help. This could be my first case! A inside scoop to an emotional state of mind, how it reacts to the social aspect of a person. "But-"

"Please Harleen." Jonathan stared back at me from behind his spectacles. His eyes appeared to be pleading for me to stay out of this. "-for your own safety-"

"My own safety?" Instantly, I felt I was only told one side of the story. He had not mentioned anything about the Mad Hatter-Jervis Tetch being dangerous. "Jonathan what's going on!"

He motioned for me to sit down. I lean up against the cleaning supplies rack. He paces back and forth for a second, contemplating what he was about to tell me. One deep exhale, and Jonathan slowly started to explain why I should ignore what could be my first case study. "It is not confirmed yet and it is just a rumour but what I am about to tell you...you need to keep your mouth shut."

"Always." I pretend to be zipping my lips and throwing away the key.

He relaxes a bit, giving a small nod. "Okay...you know how Ed works part time at the GCPD." I nod, knowing he never shut up about his forensics. "The rumour has it that Alice killed herself." His eyes fell to the floor.

"What?! Why would she do that? Alice always was quiet but she was one of the nicest people in this school..." I may not have a PHD yet but something was most certainly up. A person does not just go killing themselves without any warning signs. Jonathan looked away. He knew something else, I could read it on his face. Why did he find giving me this information in chucks was helpful? Just spit it out!

"And..."

"And..."

"Jonathan I want to know everything, please.."

"And the cops think he had something to do with it..."

"Oh."

"They aren't sure but-"

"I think I understand." I say quickly, putting the pieces together on my own. I nod, glad I had two amazing friends to look out for me. "so I should just lay back for a day... send him a grievance card in the mail just to make sure he's alright."

Jonathan nods.

Feeling a little sad that the girl was driven to suicide, I hug him. Gotham could be such a dark place at times. "Thank you..."

"I did nothing." He spits out, yet he hugs me back.

"It's just nice that I have you guys to count on." I smile, looking up at him.

Jonathan's usually expressionless face lets out a tiny smile. "Anytime Harleen...I'll always be here for you." He whispers softly.

The room falls silence as I look up at him. His mouth starts to open to say something when the bell rings.

"Oh! Class! Duh, well I'll see you later, have a nice day Johnny!" I wave, hurrying out of the closet. I knew I could not dottle, his class was almost on the opposite side of the school as we go our separate ways.

Dating someone with green hair has so many perks. One example is it makes it so easy to spot the love of your life. Down the hallway I saw his green hair in the crowd of boring. I can't believe this! I have not seen him all day and as sweet as he was yesterday. I missed him dearly. I run, jumping on his back with joy. "Guess who!?"

"OffT!" I fall back on my butt as he pushes me off. Owe! Why did he just do that? Maybe I was too heavy? I spring to my feet. "Hiya puddin, miss me?" I giggle, going to kiss his cheek to cheer him up when I fall on my butt again. Hey! Jack kept walking, he was completely ignoring me.

Had I done something wrong? Oh no! I hope not. I did not want to lose his affection right before homecoming. No! "MisTah J wait! Wait for me!" I jump up to continue walking with him. "Hey, umm I was wondering if you wanted to do something tonight, maybe get chimichangas-"

Again, back on my butt with one hard shove. "It doesn't have to be chimichangas!" I yell as he turns the corner of the hallway. I was Harleen Quinzel! I would not let him get away without saying goodbye...or at least giving me a kiss.

I stand up again, weaving in and out of students who moved to slow. I may have bumped a kid or two but it was all for love. I perk up to his side again, determined to get his attention. "What about pizza? Tacos? Milkshakes-" He shoves a hand in my face, and I fall back into the lockers. Did I do something wrong? I frown, feeling all the confidence from before fade in about an instant. My voice lowers to a soft whisper, "or just talk about homecoming plans?" Jack does not even turn around. He won't acknowledge my presence. I must have done something really wrong, but what? Maybe it was my hair! It wasn't it pigtails like before? He does like it when my hair is up in pigtails. What if its my clothes? This dress is rather silly, and not at all the color for my eyes. Maybe it was my makeup, did I need more of it? What could it be? Oh no! He has gotten bored with me! Oh the horror!

I sink to the floor, deeply troubled over the fact that I have lost the love of my life because I had become too boring. I was an old maid and not the fun game kind! I would do anything for him to speak to me again. I couldn't lose him, Jack had become my everything. My breath shortens getting faster. My eyes felt heavy like they were about to start watering. No I couldn't cry here. Everyone in the hallway would see me. Why couldn't I have just stayed home today. I shut my eyes tightly.

A hand rests on my shoulder for a brief second I thought that it was Mister J. Maybe he has come back to give me a second change.

"Come on Harles, let's get you out of here." A soft voice comforts me, allowing me just enough time to peak. Before me stood a concern Pamela lending her hand to help me up. "Follow me, the bell will ring shortly. Let's not give him the satisfaction of knowing he made you cry in front of the whole school." My tears silently fell down the sides of my face as I nod. I could feel the faint thickness of mascara running down my cheek as well.

Her arm wrapped around me, leading me down another hallway. I have been at this school months now and I still had no clue where we where. Your so stupid Harleen, maybe that's why he won't talk to us. A voice in my head mutters. What a bore, so pathetic too. He'd be a shamed to see you not smiling! He loves your, well our, smile!

I shut my eyes tightly, trying to tune her out. Two very scary looking signs that said 'Do Not Enter' and 'Professor Woodrue Office' blocked our path. Why were we at his office? I was surprised they had not given away the rather large teacher office since Professor Woodrue was not around anymore. The rumour had it is he went missing over a summer trip of his. Before I could question anything Pamela stepped forward to open the door.
Behind that door was no office, but a beautiful garden. The whole space, no matter how small it was, was covered in greens. Pamela takes off her shoes before entering, and I do the same. Greens, just like his beautiful hair. Green such a pretty color. I tear up, hugging Pamela a little tighter. She does not seem to mind. In that moment I had no more strength left about me, I weeped falling into her hands, "It's all my fault. I did not get his jokes, I was too boring for him..." I cry, make up running faster then my tears.

"Harles you did nothing wrong-" She hugged me, giving me much needed support. "Men are just idiots, they think they can toy with a girl's heart."

"We were in love though. I felt it. I know he's my special someone Red I just know it!"

"Harley..." She sighs, just shaking her head."You are so much better then he gives you credit for. I have seen the way he treats you. Your heart alone is worth millions of him. Men are disgusting. The sooner you learn that-"

"He wasn't disgusting Red! He was my prince!" I wail, hiding my face in her shoulder. Pamela shakes her head, but goes silent. Tears stream down my face, "We belong together...I just know it..."

This was hard for Pamela. As much as she did not want to see Harley running back to Jack, because how he treated her, she did not want her friend sad. Harley deserved to at least get an explanation. Pamela placed a red flower in Harley's blonde hair, to cheer her up. "Then show him whose boss Harley." She said with a smile. "if you honestly love him, show him your not someone who can easily be tossed aside. Show that little green haired bastard how strong you are, how much he doesn't deserve a woman like you, and how happy he should be to call you his girlfriend. Don't go to him crying and begging, no, go to him with a confidence that he isn't getting rid of you until you say so. You're not just some girl, or another joke but the amazing Harleen Quinzel."

A small smile appears on my face as I cheer up a bit. Pamela was right, this wasn't like me. The real Harleen fought for what she believed in, and I believed in us. I was going to find Jack and prove that I'm the only girl for him.