Arriving home was quiet but it was a piercing silence when I was driving down our street, Alli's family house was across from mine. I pull into my driveway and getting out going around and opening Alli's door home again.

I say "Welcome home."

Alli asked "Do they still own the house?"

I replied with "Yes they do, they rent it but I don't think anyone in it now." Alli nodded her head, I grabbed her hand and lead her up the stairs she knew to well.

I lead her into the house and yelled out "Mum! We're home, we are you." Soon Mum was walking in from the kitchen with a massive smile on her face when she saw Alli was actually standing there.

Mum said "It is so good to see you Allison."

Alli smiled and said "Likewise Mrs Fields."

I say "Just hug her Mum, I know you dying to."

Mum asked "Would that be okay?" Alli doesn't reply she just walks over to my Mum and wraps her arm around my Mum.

When Alli steps back from the hug I say "The girls will be here soon there staying over, none of us are going to school tomorrow and we have to go to the station tomorrow."

Mum nodded her head and said "Okay, I'll make you girls some food. What would you like Alli?"

Alli replied with "I don't know, anything is fine."

Mum nodded her head and I said "Will be upstairs," again Mum nodded her head and I lead Alli upstairs to my room.

Walking into my room, Alli looks around before saying "Wow you haven't changed it one bit."

I replied with "Why would I change it, when I barely felt a live without." Alli went to say something when there was a knock on my door; I walked over it and open it to reveal my Mum and the girls with their stuff.

Mum said "The girls are here, I found some stuff to make nachos so there cooking now."

I replied with "Cool, come in girls."

Mum said "Before I forget, Emily show me." I'm confused until I remember my scare wound. I pull my singlet down a little for her to see, she looks at her and grazes over it.

I say "It doesn't tickle."

Mum replied with "Sorry, don't get it infected. I'll bring your food and brings up soon."

I said "Thanks Mums."

Mum said just before she leaves "And Emily be nice," I just roll my eyes at her. I turned back around to see the girls had found somewhere to see and Alli was standing looking around my room.

I say "Alli if you want to borrow some clothes just borrow whatever you want."

Alli nodded and replied with "Thanks," she walked over to my closet and looked in it.

Alli then said "God Emily, you didn't even by any new clothes."

I replied with "You know how much I hate shopping and you were the only one to get me to go shopping, so it just didn't feel right."

Alli didn't reply at all, I said "Alli can you passed me out a new singlet."

Alli replied with "Sure thing," she walked out holding a pair of sweat and my singlet.

I said "Thanks, you can change in the bathroom. Do you remember where that is?"

Alli replied with "Yeah thanks Emily," I shrug which hurt my shoulder but I don't show it and I watch as Alli leaves the room. While I'm turned away from the girl I quickly take off my grey singlet to replace it with another grey one.

I then turn around and say "We aren't friends, we nothing, your only here because Alli really needs you."

Hanna replied with "Fine," the other two nodded and I sat down on the floor. Soon Alli came back into the room carrying a tray that had the nachos and our drinks on it; she placed it on my desk before going back and closing the door. They started digging into the nachos and drink their drinks, I watch as Alli got herself a plate and a glass before walking over and sitting down next to me.

Alli asked "You going to get some?"

I replied with "Nah I'm not hungry."

Alli said "Since when aren't you hungry?"

I replied with "True, but just not now."

Alli said "Okay, how about just a bit for me?" She then gave me her cute pout which she knew I could resisted.

I replied with "Okay," Alli claps her hands. She picks up a bit of the nachos and holding it up to my mouth, which I open and she placed it in there.

Once all the nachos and drinks were gone, Alli asked "So what have I missed?" We all looked at each other; we barely knew what was going on in each other lives.

Aria said "I just go back from Iceland last week."

Alli said "Yeah Emily said something about that, how was it?"

Aria replied with "It was really great, different experience."

Alli said "Cool, what about you Hanna?"

Hanna answered with "Well as you can see I lost some weight, with the help of Mona. I know you two didn't see eye-to-eye but she really is nice."

Alli said "Awesome, Spencer?"

Spencer replied with "Nothing I've just been focusing on my studies, unlike some people," she glared at me when she said that."

Alli asked "What does that mean unlike some people?"

I say "She talking about me."

Alli said "But you're good at school."

I replied with "No I was good at school, when 1 I had friends and 2 I had a reason to actually be there."

Alli asked "Okay, do you still swim?"

I answered with "No I quit."

Alli asked "What why?"

I replied with "I couldn't focus on it and I just really didn't care about swimming anymore."

Alli asked "Did end up every coming out?"

I nodded my head and said "Yeah."

Alli said "A'ww Em, that's amazing I'm so proud of you and I take it things went well?"

I replied with "Yep."

Spencer then said "Since when are you gay Emily?"

I answered with "Since I was born, if you guys had stuck around you would have found that out."

Hanna said "Emily you could have told us."

I replied with "Really when? Aria you were over in Iceland, Hanna you were too busy for me and Spencer you decided that studying was more important than me. So Hanna when would it have been a good time?"

Hanna said "I don't know but you could have just come up to talk to me."

Spencer said "Same here."

I replied with "No won't want to disrupt your perfect lives, with my issues."

Alli said "Okay let's just drop it because I'm becoming tired."

I say "You can have my bed; I'll sleep on the floor."

Alli replied with "No you won't, it's big enough for the two of us." I just nodded my head, in Alli's way of speaking that meant I might get scared and I need you close by. They all got changed into sleep wear before we all settle down for the night.

It had been 10 minutes and the floor sleepers were a sleep, I hear Alli whisper "Em are you sleep?"

With my back facing her I replied with "Not yet, what's up?"

Alli said "Can be the spoon? I need something to hold onto."

I smiled and replied with "Yeah sure Alli," I slowly rolled onto my back and straight away Alli was attach to my side and my arms were wrapped around her tight; I wasn't letting go for nothing.

Alli whispers "Night Emily."

I sighed in peace and replied with "Night Alli." With that we both enter the world of sleep with the other girls and everyone else in the town; unaware of Alli being alive.

(It's been a week, but it's now Sunday night)

News of Alli not being dead but actually alive spread around really fast, which didn't surprise me. I only knew because the girls had gone to school and told us everyone is totally staring at them. I hadn't gone because I didn't want to leave Alli, she didn't want me to leave her either and our parents actually understood. When Alli saw her parents there were lots of tears from both sides, they had their daughter back and they were happy. Ms DiLaurents had decided to move back into their old house which made Alli and I both happy, I could lose her again not after just getting her back.

When Alli gave her statement it was really hard for her, she didn't let me come in which I understood so I wait outside the door for her. Alli had decided she want to go back to school and they school was allowing Alli to attend, even in right year which was mine and the school even made her timetable so Alli had all of my classes. On Tuesday we both have to go to hospital for me to get my stiches removed and for her to get test results back.

The guy that had done this hadn't been caught but they were keeping us updated with leads, Alli hasn't talk much about it but when she does we make sure we listen. Alli has to also start counselling soon she doesn't want to but she knows she need it and I may have convinced her to go. I was laying in Alli bed with her in my arms we hadn't spent a night apart and she always slept in my arms, we both enjoyed the closeness and I enjoy just knowing she was alive; her heart was actually beating.

Alli said "I'm nervous and scared about tomorrow."

I replied with "It's all going to be okay, stick by me. I will protect you Alli for everything."

Alli said "I know you will, I'm just so far behind in everything."

I replied with "Me to, we can study together if you want or is that almost too much time to spend together?"

Alli giggled and said "I would like that and no its not."

I went to reply when Alli asked "What did you feel when you were total I was dead?"

I replied with "Empty like my soul and heart had been ripped up but then I still felt something, which made me believe you weren't dead and so I believed in my heart and it was right."

Alli asked "Emily, what am I to you?"

I replied with "Honestly your my friend, your my best friend and you're the love of my life."

Alli said "Really?"

I answered with "Yes, it's always been you Alli and it always will be you. When you were gone I could stop think about you, not being able to see you killed me, not being able to hold you, hug you and see you smile was slowly destroying me."

I say "I know you straight but I can't help the way I feel."

Alli whispers out "I'm not sure if that correct."

I asked "What do you mean?"

Alli replied with "Well when I was there I had a lot of time to think, all I could think about was you and that amazing laugh of yours. It hurt so badly just not to be near you and not seeing you was driving my insane more than anything else that jerk was doing to me. I could have given up but I chose to fight, I chose to fight for us."

I asked "What does that mean?"

Alli replied with "Emily you're the love of my life, it hit me pretty hard but when it did; it became so really that I couldn't believe I hadn't seen it before. I don't know what you and I will be but I do know I want more than just friends."

I say "Me too but you've just had a crazy two years, I think we should wait awhile."

Alli said "Okay, thank-you for being honest with me, for coming to save me and thank-you for believe I wasn't gone."

I rolled over onto my side face her, I cupped her cheek before saying "Always Alli," I slowly leaned in to peck her on the lips before we snuggled closely together and fell asleep.

We were both woken in the morning by Alli's Mum calling through the door that if we didn't get up soon we would be late, both Alli and I groaned at the same time.

I asked "Where you're serious about what you said last night?"

Alli looked up at me from my pillow and replied with "Yeah I did, do you?"

I said "Yes every word."

Alli replied with "Good, now let's get ready." Alli stood up from her bed grabbed her clothes she pick out last night before leaving the room to go shower. I couldn't help but smile thing were going alright at the moment, I stood up from the bed and got changed into the clothes I brought over last night was a grey polo shirt, my black hoodie and a pair of blue jeans. I had a shower before I came over last night so didn't need one now, I just got dress and by the time I was putting my socks and sneakers on Alli walked back in. Alli decided to wear a pink frilly shirt, a pair of black pants and pink 3 inch heels.

Alli said "I see you still suck at fashion."

I replied with "Yeah pretty much."

I asked "Are you ready to go?"

Alli answered with "Ready as I'll ever be." We both picked up our bag from her bed beside her desk, we carried them downstairs where her Mum said goodbye to us and hugging Alli tighter then need; but Alli understood why. We then walked across the street where my car was parked; I opened Alli's door for her before getting in my side and starting the car up, doing a U-turn before driving off to school. Arriving at school with about 10 minutes to spare was good; I was able to find a park really quickly. I hopped out of the car and rushing over to open Alli's door for her before closing the door and locking the car. Straight away people were looking over our way and not even being shy about it, through the sea of people I could see Spencer, Aria and Hanna standing on the school steps.

I said "Well lest their being subtle about it," saying this caused Alli to laugh which was the point of it. We avoided the staring and head over to the girls who said hello to us but I didn't reply. They girls decided to go collected there book from their looks, which gave me time before the bell to so I could show her where her new locker was. After we found her locker which wasn't really close to mine at all but that was okay, we head back over to my where I grabbed my book for my first three classes.

When I found my last book that I need the bell rang signalling school was to start so get your books and head to class. I once again lead Alli to your English room, we walked into find only few students where here. I went straight to the back corner furthest from the door and Alli sat next to me, the girls then walk in next, Hanna took the seat next to Allison, Aria sat in front of me and Spencer sat in front of Allison and just like that it was like old times but maybe I didn't want it like that. Again on the next bell Mr Martins and the rest of the students all filled into the classroom.

Mr Martins said "Miss Fields any chance that reading done?

I replied with "Any chance your bang the front office lady?" After me saying that half the class burst out laughing and I could feel Alli's shocked eyes on me.

Mr Martins said "Miss Fields that is inappropriate."

I asked "So that means it true?"

Mr Martins said "Detention for a week."

I replied with "Technically I already have a week of detention, because you said last week I had detention until I finished the summer riding which I haven't so I have detention this week."

I could see he was getting annoyed and angry, Mr Martins said "Once you have finished your reading, you will have a week on detention."

I replied with "That seems fair, now where did we get with you bang the front office lady?" This time most of the class laugh, expect for the girls and Alli, I think Alli as really confused about my behaviour.

Mr Martins said "Moving on," and that's my cue to lay my head down on the table, pulling my hoodie up and just blocking out the world.

When it was lunch time I was going to take Alli to my spot, I walked her to her locker after class that had just finished.

I asked "Do you have plans for lunch?"

Alli replied with "Nope, why?"

I said "I want to take you somewhere magical."

Alli smiled and replied with "Magical?"

I said "Okay maybe it's not magical, but I think its."

Alli replied with "I'll come with you just chuck your books in here will figure it out later." I nodded my head and place my books inside of her locker near hers, Alli then closed her locker door and locking it. I lead Alli out to the oval that the school had that no one used this time of year; we walked across the oval until we got to the hill and the tree.

Alli asked "What's so magical about this place?"

I replied with "It's where I came to think about you," I sat down and leant against the tree trunk.

Alli asked "What about me did you think?" Alli sat down next me also now leaning against the tree trunk.

I answered with "I would think about whether you would like it out here but just simply anything about you, once I imagine a conversation with you but cried myself to sleep that night because you weren't actually there."

Alli said "I do like it out here; I can see why you would call it magical, I'm sorry for making you cry."

I replied with "Its fine Alli, I just couldn't let go and I'm glad I didn't."

Alli then asked "Emily, what was that with you in class?"

I answered with "What do you mean?

Alli said "I mean you were really rude."

I replied with "When you were gone, the girls and I were no longer friends and I had no one to help me through that pain or to explain to me what I was feeling; you would always do that. But you weren't there so I started to lash out at people, I didn't want to it just comes out and I can't seem to stop; and I also think I don't want to stop."

Alli said "It's okay Emily, I'm fine with you doing it; I was just caught off guard."

Alli then asked "Hey if you've got detention this afternoon, how will I get home?"

I replied with "I didn't think of that, I'll see if one of the girls can do it. Is that okay?"

Alli said "Yeah that's fine."

I replied with "Anytime," we sat in a peaceful quiet though I really want to ask Alli a question.

I say "Alli."

Alli replied with "Yeah Em?"

I said "You will talk to me won't you?"

Alli answered with "I hope I can, I'm just not ready for you to hear what happened because I don't want you to do anything stupid."

I replied with "I won't I swear."

Alli said "You say that now but once you find out, I'm scared you won't be able to keep your protectiveness of me down."

I replied with "Okay that's fair I guess, just know you can talk to me anytime. No matter if its late at night, anytime you can just come over wake me or wake me up if I'm laying right next to you."

Alli said "I will Emily, thank-you for staying with me for the last weeks."

I replied with "Anytime, but I'm not just doing it for you."

Alli asked "What do you mean?"

I answered with "We spent two years apart, which meant no hugging, talking or holding you at night. I know you need someone there to hold, but I need that to I need to hold you in my arms because then I know you are actually still alive and you're not just playing mind games on me."

Alli said "I never thought of it that way, but this is no mind game, your mind isn't playing tricks on you; I am the real deal." Alli then kissed my cheek before laying her head down on my chest and my arm came up and around her to hold her.