Ivy's Point Of View
I woke up, my head pounding. I looked around, and I didn't see Bray. I removed the covers from myself, slowly standing up. I looked around, I brought my hand to my pounding head, walking into the restroom, looking in the medicine cabinet, hoping to find some Tylenol for my head.
Oh, god why did you drink?
You know, it's never a good thing when you have more then one!
Wait, why isn't Bray in bed?
Did we fight?
Then it hit me, flashes of last night, and our argument came flooding back to me.
Oh, what was I thinking?
I've got to find Bray!
I've got to make things right!
I didn't want to fight with him!
I quickly shut the cabinet, went out to the bedroom, searching around for a pair of pants, and a shirt. I hear the door opening and look over to see Bray walking in the door, holding a bottle of water, and bottle of Tylenol I presume. I dropped the pair of pants that was in my hands and throw myself into his arms. Bray instantly wrapped his arms around me, giving me a kiss on the top of the head.
"What's wrong my love?" Bray raised a brow, pulling back slightly, his arms still firmly around my waist.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry about last night." I said softly, hating how things went down last night, I knew how wrong I was, I should of never drank, I know how he feels about it. I know what danger I was putting my sobriety in, and I still did it. "I should of never drank, I know how wrong I was Bray, I'm so sorry."
Bray shook his head, and gently rubbed my back. "It's okay." Bray said softly. "Why did you do it?" He questioned.
"I don't know, I was out with Summer and she was drinking, she said one couldn't hurt." I shook my head, allowing Bray to take my hand and lead me to the bed, and sit down. Bray took a shirt from the dresser and slipped it over my head to cover me up a bit, I was a tad cold. "I really thought I could have just one, but I should of known better, I've never been able to have just one, you were right, I shouldn't of drank It made me someone I don't want to be. When I was drinking I wanted so badly to go off and find myself a fix, I could of ruined all I've worked for, because I drank." I shook my head, and looked to the ground.
"But you didn't, you fought the urge to use, that's why I didn't want you to be there alone, Summer doesn't know how Alcohol affects a person who has issues with addiction, but I do and that's why I was so against you going out alone." Bray shook his head, bringing my face to meet his. "It's over now, just promise me, no more drinking."
"I promise." I said softly, smiling when he lowered his lips to mine, giving me a gentle peck on the lips.
"Now, I want to talk about something." Bray said sitting down next to me.
"About what?" I looked to him, raising a brow.
"Last night, when I told you that I love you." Bray explained. "You didn't believe me, why is it so hard to believe that I love you?, why do you think love is such a bad thing?, we talked about this last night I know, but I want to hear it from you, when you are sober, and think straight."
"It's simple actually." I shrugged.
"How so?" Bray looked confused.
"All I've ever known of love is, hurt. Every man who has ever said they loved me, has done nothing but hurt me, use me, abuse me. I've never been treated like this Bray, I've never had someone who actually cares for me, besides you." I explained. "You are the only person who has ever cared about me, I mean really cared about me, as a person, and not about what I can do for them. You have taken care of me, and been nothing but honest and sweet to me. It's hard for me to understand that someone could actually love me, when you've been told for so long all you'll ever be good for is sex, you start to believe it." I explained.
I looked to Bray, I saw the look in his eyes, I could tell he didn't like hearing me talk like this.
"Every man I've ever been with up until now has done nothing but hurt me, and tell me how worthless I am, how I'll never find anyone better then them. How no man could ever love someone like me, from the time I was 16 I was with men who tore me down, made me feel absolutely worthless. No one has ever done for me, what you have done, it's just hard for me to bring myself to accept that maybe, just maybe I do deserve to be with a man like you, to be with someone who treats me like a queen. You shower me with love and affection and a part of me is wondering how long it's going to take, until you realize you deserve so much better then to be with a woman like me." I shook my head, and wiped the tear that had fallen from my eye. "You deserve someone who isn't a total and complete waste of life."
"Ivy, don't you ever think that." Bray shook his head, taking my hand in his, turning his body so he was facing me completely. "You aren't a waste of life, you aren't worthless. Don't ever think about yourself like that, I don't think you understand just how much you mean to me, how unbelievably happy you make me. To me you are the most beautiful, wonderful woman to walk the face of this planet. You make waking up everyday, worth doing, because I know I'm waking up to your beautiful face. I don't know if you know this, but before you came into my life, I was going through a rough patch in my life, I felt like my life had no meaning, I had nothing to live for." Bray reached out to tuck a stray strand of hair behind my ear, his finger brushing against my cheek and caressing it lightly.
How can a man who is so successful not feel his life has meaning?
I've never seen this side of him, he's being so open with me!
"The day I laid eyes on you, something changed, it was like something clicked for me. Then we locked eyes, for just a brief second, but that was all it took. One second was all it took for me to form this amazing connection we have, I could see something behind your eyes, I saw a certain sadness in your eyes. A sadness that I couldn't understand how it got there, I sat and listened and I quickly figured it out, how unhappy you were with your life. I could see when you were being dragged off to the back, it was as if you were asking for help, crying out for me. When I saw you in that alley being hurt, hit and kicked, it brought up something inside me I didn't know existed." Bray squeezed me hand, before placing a gentle kiss on it. "I felt an anger I didn't think could ever be brought out, I had things go through my mind that could get me thrown in prison for life, when I saw what he was doing to you, I couldn't help but take things into my own hands. I felt this was some sign that I was running into you, for a reason you needed me that night, when I picked you up in my arms, I don't know if you remember but you looked up at me, and it was as if you knew you were safe, I could see it in your eyes."
I don't remember that at all!
Then again, I don't remember a lot from that night!
My head bouncing off a brick wall, had something to do with that!
"From the second I laid eyes on you Ivy, I knew we were meant to be, I felt a connection a bond, I felt as if you were already mine, and I was already yours. It seems crazy, but I did and I still do, the connection and bond we have is so much stronger now, and it just gets stronger each day. Just like my love for you grows each day, you made me love life again Ivy, you did that for me, so just as much as you needed me. I needed you, and I always will. I'll need you by my side, each and every day. I'll need to hear your beautiful voice every morning to make day work getting out of bed. And I'll need you by my side next to me each night, to show me I have a reason to wake up the next morning." Bray leaned forward giving me a gentle kiss on my lips. "So when I hear you say that about yourself, it hurts me, to know that this woman I love more then anything in this world, thinks so little of herself, when I think the world of you, so how about this you forget everything that any other man has told you, because you are not worthless, you are worth more then you will ever know to me, you are worth loving and I know that for a fact, because I love you, and you give me back love, you may not say it, but you show it, and I am okay with not hearing it, until you are ready to say it. And you should never believe that no man would want you, in fact any real man could love you, any man would be lucky to have and love you, and maybe be lucky enough to be loved by you. You are beautiful, you are kind, you have the biggest heart, you make me so unbelievably happy, to me I've never known a woman who deserves to be loved as much as you, yes we all have our problems and flaws or whatever, but that's what makes us who we are. People make mistakes but people can change, if they truly want to, I see the change in you, you want a better life then you had before, you want real true honest happiness, and I want to give that to you, I want to give you the life you only dreamed you could have. Why because you deserve it, and I love you and when you love someone, you will do anything in your power to make that person you love, happy and give them everything that they need."
Bray stood up, taking my hand, he brought me to my feet.
"And you need to have a man show you just how much of an amazing woman you are, so you will stop beating yourself up, and stop thinking less of yourself, because you have come so far in your life, and I want you to realize that I didn't do that for you, you did it yourself, I might of been here to help, and offer support, but you did it, and you should be proud of yourself." Bray offered a smile, as he caressed my cheek.
I brought my arms up and draped them over his shoulders, before I leaned in and kissed him. Bray's arms wrapping around me tightly. "Thank you, I needed to hear that, I'm so thankful I have you, that you saw something in me, that I didn't, that you took a chance on me, because it takes a strong, wonderful man to take a chance on such a bruised and beaten heart. But you did take a chance on me, and my heart, and you helped me fix my life, and now, now you are helping me fix my heart, something I didn't think was possible until now, but now I know that with love, anything is possible."
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Bray's Point Of View
After our little talk, I felt a lot better about Ivy and our relationship, she finally is starting to realize she deserves to be loved, she opened up to me, and I opened up to her, and now I know our relationship is stronger. I walked back into the bedroom, after getting a few things ready for my surprise that I have planned for Ivy. I thought after last night, that we both deserve a little alone time, something that will be a nice little get away for both of us.
Oh, the things I want to do to you right now!
She gets more beautiful every time I lay eyes on her!
How is that possible?
I looked Ivy up and down as she finished brushing her hair, she'd changed into a pair of white jean shorts, and a black halter crop top, that had little fringe tassels hanging from it. I walked up behind her, wrapping my arms around her, placing a gentle kiss on her neck. "You look beautiful." I smiled.
Ivy swung herself around in my arms, and smiled. "Thank you." Ivy smiled, giving me a quick peck on my lips, that not being enough for me of course, I drew her back in for another longer, more proper kiss. "So, where are we going?" Ivy raised a brow.
"Not to far away, but I have something I want to show you, real quick before we go." I said, taking her hand, holding her steady as she slipped her black sandals on.
We made our way out to the living room, we see Summer and Erick watching a show on the couch together. "You leaving?" Summer questioned.
"Yep, Bray has a surprise for me he said." Ivy smiled up at me.
"Lucky you." Summer smiled. "Have fun." She added.
Oh, you have no idea how much fun we will be having!
"Oh, we will." I smirked, leading Ivy to the door, opening it and allowing her to exit first, then I followed shutting the door behind me.
We made our way to our old barn, that I'd been fixing up lately. Ivy raised a brow and looked around. "What are we doing out here?" Ivy raised a brow.
"You'll see." I smiled, opening the barn door.
Once she walked inside her mouth dropped open, I had put some lanterns up and lit them, to bring us some nice dim lighting. I had a large red plaid blanket on the ground, with a large bucket of ice, and a bottle of sparkling cider in it. I lead her to the blanket, helping her sit down Ivy still looking around, in amazement. "Wow, Bray this is so beautiful." She smiled.
It pales in comparison to your beauty!
"I'm glad you approve, because this is your surprise." I smiled "I wanted something close to home, and private."
"Well this is both of those for sure." She smiled, watching as I walked over to the large cooler and grabbed out the picnic basket, and brought it over. "You have thought of everything, now haven't you?" Ivy smirked.
"Of course." I smirked back, sitting down next to her, bringing out the tray of grapes and cubed cheese, and the tray of mini sandwiches I'd cut into small triangles. "Only the best for my queen." I smiled.
My beautiful, and absolutely perfect queen!
"You are so amazing." Ivy smiled, and leaned forward and kissed me.
Because you make me want to be this way!
You make me the man I am!
"Only because you bring it out in me." I smiled, running my hand through her hair. Before I popped open the sparkling cider, and pouring her a glass, then myself one also.
Ivy and I had a wonderful picnic, talking about everything, and anything. It was amazing I haven't seen her smile this much in so long, she looked honestly happy. It was defiantly the right move doing this, instead of some normal night out on the town. This was so much better, it was special and it gave us time to be alone and have a real meaningful talk in private. Ivy was talking about her brother again, and I'd made a mental note to do some research on him, and maybe I could bring them back together, I know it'd mean a lot to her, I think it might do a lot to help her continue to move forward with her life.
I felt Ivy's hands tugging at my shirt, I smiled down at her as I lowered my mouth to hers, my hands fumbling with her shirt, finally getting it over her head, and tossing it to the side. I laid Ivy down on the blanket and began to kiss my way down her body, starting with her soft, sweet lips, then heading to her neck, making my way down her body.
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Ivy's Point Of View
I laid on Bray's chest, his hand running through my hair, his other hand rubbing up and down my back gently. I smiled up at him, giving him another soft kiss on his lips. "This was amazing Bray." I whispered. "Not just this." I smirked, pulling the extra blanket he'd packed over our naked bodies. "But everything about this surprise."
"I'm glad you enjoyed it, you deserve it." Bray smiled at me, giving me a gentle kiss on the top of the head.
"And this, is a first." I nodded.
"What?, you've never made love in a barn?, on a blanket?" Bray chuckled.
"Nope, never." I giggled as Bray nipped at my neck.
"Well then, I'm glad I'm your first, in that case." Bray smirked.
"Oh, so am I." I leaned up to kiss him. "You know, I'll take this, over a night on the town any night." I added.
"You and I both, my love." Bray smiled.
"Bray." I looked up at him.
"Yes?" Bray raised a brow.
I can't believe I'm really going to ask him again!
"Are you really okay with me not being able to say it yet?" I questioned, I know he loves me, really honestly truly loves me. The thing is, I have never been in love, I've never felt true, real love. But I know one thing I never want to live without Bray, he makes me so happy, he's the first thing on my mind in the morning, and the last thing on my mind every night, I dream about him, he's on my mind almost all the time. Bray is the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I know with Bray I don't have to worry about hurt or pain, I just have to continue to remind myself of that, and not let my fears of the past creep up again, like they did last night. Bray isn't like any of the other men I've been with, he's something completely different, he's my soulmate for the lack of a better work, I honestly feel like I was made for Bray, and Bray was made for me. Now if only I could get myself to tell him that, I wish I could say I love you to him, but I'm not there yet, that's something I have to work on. Because Bray deserves to be told that every day.
"Yes, of course." Bray nodded. "I know you love me, like I said before, you may not be able to say it yet, but I know it's true, when you are able to say it, I'll be more then ready to hear it. Until then, I'm okay with feeling your love."
You have no idea how amazing you are!
This man is an absolute dream guy!
Other women would kill to be with a man who is even half as amazing as he is!
And I've got the real honest to god real thing here!
"You honestly are the most amazing man on the planet." I smiled, Bray leaning down to kiss me. I honestly don't know what I did right in my life, to deserve such an amazing man in my life, a man who truly loves me. But I'm glad I did whatever it was. Bray makes me happier then I've ever been in my life, and I just hope I can make him even half as happy as he makes me.
A Note From The Author: I know, not a very exciting chapter, I wanted to do this chapter focusing on Bray and Ivy, I wanted to focus on Ivy getting through her issues with Love, and Bray opening up a bit, this allowing for Ivy to start coming to the realization that love isn't a bad thing. So what are your thoughts on this chapter?, did you enjoy the little chat they had? did it explain some of Ivy's issues? Please review I love the feedback you all give me, it helps me stay motivated and helps me to become a better writer.
msgemgem- Thank you for reading and for reviewing, I appreciate your feedback. I do see where you are coming from and I see Ivy seemed really foolish, being led astray so easily, I was going for something else, but it didn't pan out, but that happens, I just hope I someone brought it back, redeemed Ivy, and myself I guess. I also love Bray and Ivy together they do have a really cute relationship, they have a lot of issues to work through but I think they have a strong enough connection and bond, to get through everything that is being thrown at them. Thank you again for reading and for reviewing the story, I'm always open to feedback, especially if it will help the story, and character development. :)
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